So it is I, I could tell you a lot of excuses as to why I haven't updated in so long but I'll not bore you with that. I'd like to dedicate this chapter to one of my good friends Thais since she pretty much provoked me until I wrote something. So I hope that you guys are still interested in this, please enjoy.

Disclaimer: Updating at this speed, do you think I own them? Any mistakes made I'll take full responsibility for them.

Alexis was sat at home, she was waiting for her dad to get back from going out for drinks with Kate, Lanie and the guys. She was flicking through the TV channels trying to find a movie to watch, when she realised there wasn't anything on she turned it off. She threw the remote to the other side of the couch and let out a small sigh. She picked up her phone checking her messages, noticing she hadn't gotten any she placed it back on the table. She heard a key turn in the door and turned her attention the door.

Martha walked through the door setting her bag down on the floor she looked up and noticed her granddaughter sitting on the couch.

"Alexis darling." She smiled.

"Hey Grams." She smiled a little at her. "Good night?"

"It was brilliant." She walked to the fridge and took out a bottle of water. "How was your day?"

Alexis gave a little shrug. "It was okay. I met a few friends, nothing major."

Martha went and sat on the couch, moving the remote to the table in front of her and turning to face Alexis. "So are you going to tell me or am I going to have to ask?" She raised an eyebrow at her.

"I have no idea what you mean." She avoided looking into Martha's eyes.

"I told you we'd talk so here I am, spill." She took a drink from the bottle putting the lid back on and placing it next to her. She was giving Alexis her undivided attention.

"Are you okay with dad and Kate?" She asked after a few minutes of silence. She still wasn't looking at Martha still instead concentrating on her hands that were currently in her lap.

"As long as he's happy Alexis I'm happy." Martha replied. It was true she was happy for them. She knew that Kate must have had her reasons for keeping a secret from her son. She had seen a change in him from when he was following Kate and from the week he had spent with Slaughter. He had told her how Kate had his back even when he had doubted her.

"I am too Grams but what if she hurts him?" Alexis felt like she was repeating herself to everyone. She knew it was irrational to worry but it was her father and she would go to any length to protect him from being hurt again.

"If we all went through like wondering about the what if's then we wouldn't risk anything."

"Don't you think she's hurt him enough?" Even though she had spoke with Kate and her father and they had discussed a few of the things on her mind with them she still had her doubts.

"They've both hurt each other Alexis but they manage to find there way back to each other. They are both there for each other. She isn't like your mother or Gina you know that?"

Martha could see that Alexis had trust issues, her mother had up and left her as a child and made visits when she felt like it. She didn't want to say Meredith was a bad mother because in her own way she was a good mom, she had gotten pregnant young and tried for a few years. When she figured motherhood wasn't for her she took what seemed to be the easy way out. It had hurt her son deeply, he felt like he wasn't good enough, like he wasn't enough for her. He had thrown himself into caring for his daughter trying to be enough for her and his writing career.

Gina had been what Rick had though Alexis needed as a young girl, someone to look up to a mother figure. She had known it wasn't going to work out, Rick kept them apart as if he sensed it was temporary. It had lasted a few years, it always seemed like it was work related when she saw them both and not in a committed relationship. When the arguing had begun Gina hadn't tried to fix it, she had let all the small problems get in the way. Alexis had been old enough to understand what was going off.

With Kate it was different Martha could see that, Kate didn't back down she fought back and kept him in check. They had shared countless conversations over the years she had watched as the first summer they had spent apart tore Rick apart. He had reverted to his old ways of sitting around and not writing anything. He had been shut off from not only Kate but the friendship he had formed with Ryan and Esposito, she had never seen him so effected by something so quickly. Over the course of the year after that summer she watched as he slowly started to care fore the Detective, offering her a home when her apartment had blown up. He was devastated when she wouldn't spend the weekend with him that second summer but he had soon recovered. The way he tried not to let the fact she had gotten a new boyfriend effect him. She saw how last summer had effected both Rick and Alexis.

Alexis finally saw how her dad risked his life on an almost daily basis, he had promised her he wouldn't go back but when he did she closed herself off. Martha also saw how after visiting Kate her son would hang around the phone. When it rang he would dart across the room hoping it was her on the other line. She watched as the light in his eyes had gone out he had lost all hope.

"I know." Alexis said drawing Martha out of her thoughts. "Kate said she's resigned." She finally lifted her head and looked into Martha's eyes. "She hasn't made her mind up whether she's going back but I know she will. What if whoever has been after her comes after dad too?"

"They've been fighting whatever has been going on between them for a couple of years Alexis, if they put it on hold every time something went wrong they'd never get together."

"I can't lose him Gram."

Martha reached over and took one of Alexis' hands in hers, "Hey he'll do everything in his power to make sure he doesn't leave you alone."

They both sat silent for a few minutes when they heard the door open again. They watched as Castle walked through the door with a smile on his face and his arm wrapped around Kate's waist. He laughed at something she had said and then leaned over to give her a quick kiss.

"Hey guys what are you still doing up?" He asked once he saw them both.

"Just waiting for you of course." Alexis smiled. She decided that just like her Grams she was happy as long as he was happy.

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