CH13-Nightmare Memories
"What do you're doing?" His voice didn't sound irritated, just worried and tired. Remembering that we are in the barracks I address him correctly, "Captain Hit…." A glare from him makes me trail off and correct myself, "Uh, Toushirou, I was just going back to my room." I twist a strand of hair around my finger and look down at it, "Why don't you stay with me tonight, you look a little shaken." Numb with shock I gape at his back, even more shocked when my legs begin to move me after him.
Shivering under the blankets I blush when I feel his body heat but am grateful for it on this cold night. Closing my eyes I easily fall asleep, ignoring the nagging thought that I forgot something important.
Jerking awake at the sounds coming from the kitchen I shiver and force down a whimper. Looking around our shared room I see that brother and sister are also awake. He sends me a comforting glance but I'm not stupid, this is different than before. They argued a lot but never like this, never did he hit her or break things. Tears start to roll down my face and I jump and stare in horror at the door. My mother's screams of pain got louder and before I could anything Myaname ran out the door, followed quickly by brother. Terrified I grabbed our bedside phone and dialed 9-1-1. Within seconds I heard banging on the door and ran out to get it. We all huddled together as they took father away, "Kari, how could you, your own father." I trembled in terror as his murderous eyes bore into mine. "I'll take them." Grandfathers strong arms wrapped around us as the paramedics cover my mother's tattered body. All three of us, scared and confused, were herded by Grandfather into his car. As soon as the police lights were out of view I start to cry, Myaname tries to be tuff but her bottom lip quivers, and big brother hugs me and tries to comfort me.
A hand on my shoulder brings me out of the nightmare. Acting purely on instinct I grab the wrist the hand and open my eyes. Toushirou's worried teal eyes hung over me as he slowly pulls out of my grip and touches my shoulder again. "Are you ok?" Shaking still from the terrible memory I steady my voice to speak, "I'm sorry did I wake you?"
"That doesn't matter. but you need to tell me what's wrong." Knowing that he isn't going to leave me alone till he got an answer. "I just had a nightmare that's all." I could tell that he didn't believe me but that nagging voice was back along with the memory of that night. That night…this night, only about 4 years ago…a few months after Toushirou left. my gaze never leaving his as all of this ran through my head. I gasp as the pain sinks in, like a thousand daggers being slowly pushed my heart. Shocked by my new reaction he leans away, laying on his side facing me. "It's been four years."
Scooting closer that we are almost touching he asks, "Since what?" His hand holds my chin making it impossible to turn away as the tears slide down my face. "This is the night when...my father, killed my mother." I fall against his chest in sobs as he holds me, letting my tears stain his shirt. I feel his lips brush against my ear as he whispers words of comfort to me and soon I am no longer shaking or crying. All I feel is Toushirou and his strong arms around me. Tilting my head I lightly kiss his neck, but as I go to lie down he tilts my head up to his and presses his lips onto mine. Every part of me was screaming to push away but quieting those thoughts I close my eyes and lean into him. Our bodies fitting perfectly together as we embraced. I shiver as I feel his hand trail down my arm, stopping at my hip to bring us closer together. Breaking away to breath he moves his lips to my chin, then down my neck to my collar bone. Knowing what my future would be, that I would be here, would I change my families?