Finally got my inspiration to write this chapter for Steffy and I got to say it turned out rather wll, let me know what you think! & don't worry bamon is coming! Review and rate and tell me if I should put more characters in this?thank you for the support!
"You don't want to do this... you once said that biting me was the worst thing you ever done."
Her voice rings clear in my ears as I sit by the fire, my head in my hands and tears stinging my eyes.
I was human now. I had sucked the cure out of Elena and almost killed her but I was human.
My emotions are on the on position and it hurts like hell. I see the flames from the fire decomposing the paper I had just thrown in there. That innocent piece of paper being burned to a crisp. Although, that innocent piece of paper represents Elena in my mind. Once I had turned my emotions off, needing a partner and crime and someone I knew who would stick by through everything. I almost sucked all the blood out of Elena, again, getting her to turn her's off. I had burned her beyond repair and honestly I didn't want her to forgive me. I didn't deserve it. I wipe the tears from my eyes, jumping in surprise when I feel a hand on my shoulder.
I forgot that I didn't have vampire senses anymore, I was insufficient to the supernatural world, now.
"Please, just go away." I tell the hand, looking at the fire again, it starts to burn my eyes and I curse, rubbing them.
"Not used to those human senses are you little brother?" He teases me, taking a seat on the bench.
Great, now Damon was right next to me, probably going to rub it in that I was an asshole to Elena and I don't deserve her and I'd strike back he doesn't deserve her either. With all the stuff he put her through the last couple of years. Getting her to turn her humanity off, lying to her, killing people behind her back, forcing the cure down her throat. I could go on and that was all with his humanity on. I prepare my defense statement, staring into his blue eyes.
"Look I know you think I'm here to gloat about how you messed up but... I won't. I know you're really hurt about what happened.. so, if you want to talk I'm here." He whispers, hand still on my shoulder.
I look up at see his blue eyes softened. I'm so caught of guard that I feel my throat tighten.
I just nod my head, and turn away, not sure how to react to this support. Because let's face it ever since Elena, Damon hasn't been my brother in years.
He gets up and leaves me to my thoughts, as tears run down my cheeks.
I am a coward.
Suddenly another voice stops me from my next thought, the voice makes my heart flutter and I'm so overwhelmed by that human feeling that I just stare into the fire again, not wanting to talk to her. Why didn't she just run? I grit my teeth together as her warm hand rests on my back, the touch sends a shudder down my spine. Usually, these things wouldn't affect me if I was a vampire but now that I am human it's weird feeling these things again, it's been 164 some odd years.
"I know you think I hate you. Stefan, but I don't." She whispers in a small voice but I avoid her steady gaze on me, her hand still on my back.
I want to shake her hand off, tell her to leave me alone, but my mouth is dry and I bounce my knee out of nervousness.
"I destroyed you, Elena. I made you turn your humanity off, the one thing that makes you who you are. I abused you when we were on our ripper binge, made you kill people, innocent people!" I exclaim, looking into then fire. "I drained you of your blood, not once but twice. I-I brought you to a club, I seduced you, almost took advantage of you..then we..." I can barely finish my last sentence, my throat tightening.
"If I were you, I would hate me. I'm no better then Damon."
I finish, and I finally turn to look at her, knowing I will regret it but I do it anyways. I stare into her brown eyes, their dull, like someone sucked the life out of them. Her cheeks are flushed, like she's holding back a sob. Her eyes shining with tears, her lips quivering while she tries to keep it together for me. I turn away quickly, knowing her expression will haunt me in my dreams tonight.
She retracts her hand from my back and instantly it feels cold in the room.
"Please don't brush it off, Elena. All those things... I don't deserve to be with you after what I've done. Just accept it, move on." I say, my heart breaking at each word, part of me wishing I could compel her, make her forgot even meeting me, things would be better this way.
"Stefan.. don't." She says, I hear her voice breaking, my heart skips a beat, out of anxiety. I fold my hands between my thighs, to try to calm then, their shaking and I'm glad the fire barely lights the room because I don't want her to see what a mess I am.
She's quiet for a second, I can feel her eyes burning into my back, but I don't dare turn around.
"If.. you want it like that." She finally whispers, starting to step away. I want nothing more to grab her wrist and turn her around, my heart aches as I watch her shadow on the wall drift away from the wall and my life. The fireplace was our spot, it's where I comforted her when she found out she was adopted, it was our first break up when Katherine actually drove us apart. It was where our hearts were crushed once again, when Markos put that spell on us, showing us our human future together, where we vowed we'd always love each other. And here we were again, broken hearts, walking away from each other once again.