Chapter 13
Brittany and Santana were walking to their lockers two weeks later when they saw a group of Cheerios walking from the other direction towards them. As soon as they saw Santana and Brittany, they stopped talking, looked the other way until they passed, and then they started talking again. Santana rolled her eyes and Brittany just hooked her pinky around Santana's as a way to tell her that she loved her.
Sue had banned any Cheerio communication with Santana in an effort to ostracize her completely for quitting. With the exception of Quinn, Santana wasn't close with any of the girls on the squad, so while it bothered her a little that they wouldn't talk or even look at her for fear that Sue would think they were communicating telepathically, it didn't hurt her that much, because they didn't mean much to her in the first place. Quinn was another story though. Quinn was one of her best friends and when she wouldn't talk to her, or Brittany, it hurt Santana more than she thought it would. She tried to pretend that it didn't bother her, but it did.
Brittany didn't try to pretend that it didn't bother her. She was so upset. She felt incredibly guilty. She thought that if it weren't for her, this wouldn't be happening. Santana was quick to quell those thoughts though, because Brittany was her best friend and girlfriend, and she loved her with everything she had. She would rather have just her in her life than a bunch of people that didn't really care about her.
A small relief came when Quinn gave up and ended her silent treatment after the first week. She sat beside Santana and Brittany in the choir room and apologized for how she had treated them. She had been a little upset when she found out that Santana quit, but she wasn't upset enough that she didn't want to talk to them. Even if she didn't like it, she understood Santana's reasoning for quitting, but Sue had put so much pressure on her about being the captain and needing to set an example for the rest of squad that she felt she had no other choice but to do as she said.
Santana was quick to forgive Quinn. She understood the kind of pressure and twisted mind games that Sue used on her Cheerios, and to be honest, she wasn't sure if the roles were reversed that she wouldn't have done the same thing. Regardless, she was happy that Quinn finally came around, but she didn't make a big deal about it, because she didn't want anyone to know that she was hurt by Quinn ignoring her.
Brittany on the other hand wasn't ready to just forgive and forget, and she was indifferent towards Quinn when she saw her. She was upset that she had hurt Santana by actually going along with Sue's ridiculous order, but she softened when Mike told her that Sue had been making Quinn's life a living hell during practice by pushing her to the point of near exhaustion by giving her extra drills to do as punishment for going against her. After that, Brittany let it go because she figured Quinn had suffered enough. If Santana was happy with her apology and still considered her a friend, then she could do the same thing.
When they got to their lockers, they put in their combinations, and as they opened them, they yelped as dirt flew out of their lockers, covering their clothes, and piling at their feet.
"Fucking Sue." Santana growled as she wiped her clothes, brushing the dirt to the floor. "Are you okay?"
Brittany nodded as she wiped her clothes too. "Yeah, I'm fine." She grumbled. "I just got this outfit and now it's covered in dirt."
"At least it wasn't a slushy." Santana said. "That stain doesn't come out. My white and black striped top is ruined.
Dave Karofsky had given her, her first and only slushy in the face a few days ago, and Santana suspected that it was Sue's doing, because even though she wasn't a cheerleader anymore, she could still make people cower with just a look. No one, not even any of the Cheerios were brave enough to slushy her.
The one big eye opening surprise out of the whole thing was the glee club. The group of 'losers and misfits' that Santana had looked down upon for years because of their position on the high school social ladder had shown themselves to be good friends to her. She never would have thought that she would consider them friends, but she did.
"Do you wanna go to the Lima Bean with everyone?" Santana asked. It was Friday, and the glee club, with the exception of Quinn and the football players always met at the Lima Bean after school. "We can go home and change and meet them there; then afterwards we can do something together?"
"Actually, is it okay if we just go home? I'm not feeling up to going out tonight." Brittany said. "I'm tired, my back hurts, and my feet are kinda bothering me too. I really just wanna go home, get in my pajamas, and veg out with you for the rest of the night."
Santana smiled and nodded. "Okay, sure."
They brushed the remaining dirt out of their lockers onto the pile on the floor, put away their books that they wouldn't need over the weekend, and then they walked to Brittany's car.
"Are you okay to drive, or do you want me to drive?" Santana offered when she saw Brittany yawn.
"I think I'm okay, but if you want to drive, I won't argue with you." She said and held out her keys for Santana to take.
Brittany laced her fingers with Santana's as they pulled out of the parking lot and they drove the short distance home in a comfortable silence. When they got home, Maribel was at work, and they found a note on the counter with some money for them to order a couple of pizzas for dinner.
"You want the usual?" Santana asked.
"Mm-hmm. Extra ham and pineapple please!" Brittany chirped and Santana called a local pizza place that served New York style pizza and ordered two pizzas, a supreme, and a Hawaiian with extra ham and pineapple for Brittany.
They changed into their pajamas, turned on a movie, and sat on the couch as they waited for the pizza to arrive.
"Here, put your feet up." Santana said patting her lap.
"Thanks." Brittany said with a smile as she leaned back on a pillow against the arm of the couch and put her bare feet in Santana's lap. She let out a little moan when Santana started to massage her feet and lower legs. "That feels good."
"How's your back?" Santana asked.
"It still kinda hurts, but it feels a little better now that I'm not standing or carrying my book bag."
"If you want, I'll give you a back rub later."
"You are so good to me." Brittany smiled and sat up, kissing Santana softly. "I'm so lucky to have you."
"I'm lucky to have you too." Santana said. "I'm so happy."
"So you're not upset I made us bail on date night?"
"What are you talking about?" Santana chuckled. "We have pizza and movies and foot rubs. Sounds like a date to me."
"So it's like a home date?"
"Mm-hmm, they're they best." Santana said with a smile and Brittany beamed, leaning in to kiss her again.
They watched TV and Santana rubbed Brittany's feet and legs until the pizza arrived. Brittany paid the driver as Santana went to wash her hands and to get some paper plates and drinks. They ate in the living room so they could continue watching their movie.
Brittany was about to take a second slice of pizza out of the box when all of sudden she jumped and let out a little yelp.
"Are you okay?" Santana asked concerned. She had jumped a little too because she wasn't expecting Brittany to move so suddenly.
Brittany looked down and put her hands on her belly. "I think I just felt the baby." She said with a wide smile.
"Really?" Santana asked perking up and she looked down at Brittany's hands.
"There it is again." Brittany chirped. "It feels like something is tickling me, but on the inside." She said looking up at Santana. "You wanna feel?"
"Yeah." Santana nodded with a smile and scooted a little closer to Brittany. She couldn't wait to feel the baby.
Brittany took her hand and put it on the spot that she had felt the movement. They waited almost a minute before Brittany said, "There, did you feel that? It felt a little stronger that time."
Santana pouted and shook her head. "No, I didn't feel it."
"Well hold on, maybe it will happen again." Brittany said.
They spent the next fifteen minutes moving Santana's hand around Brittany's stomach, and every time Brittany felt a tickle, Santana didn't feel anything.
"It may be too soon for you to feel any movement." Brittany said and kissed Santana's cheek, because she could tell that Santana was disappointed.
"Yeah, maybe." She said flatly.
"I'm sure you'll be able to feel him soon."
"Yeah." Santana nodded and took her hand away from Brittany's stomach. She looked up at Brittany, and despite her disappointment, she gave her a genuine smile. "I'm so glad that you finally got to feel him."
"Me too." Brittany beamed. "It felt… amazing."
"I'm sure it did." Santana said and leaned in, kissing Brittany softly.
Brittany hummed as their lips touched and she leaned into her to deepen the kiss. Santana wrapped her arms around Brittany's back to bring her even closer to her and it didn't take long for the kiss to become heated.
When Brittany slipped her hands under Santana's shirt and gripped her hips, Santana didn't even flinch. Brittany had been doing that for weeks. She loved the feel of her hands on her bare skin, but when she slowly moved her hands up her sides, and the back of her fingers brushed against the bottom of her bare breasts, Santana jumped from the unexpected sensation, breaking the kiss and pulling away from Brittany.
Santana's sudden movement surprised Brittany and she let out a little laugh. "Are you okay?"
"I, uh-y-yeah…I just wasn't expecting- you surprised me." Santana stumbled through her response.
At first, when Santana jumped Brittany thought that maybe she had found a tickle spot, but when she realized that Santana seemed distressed, the smile fell from her face. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean-" She started to say, but Santana cut her off.
"You don't have to apologize, it's…I'm sorry. It was me." Santana rambled and she put her hand on her chest because her heart was racing.
An awkward silence settled between them for a few moments as Brittany watched Santana's eyes flit around the room, avoiding contact with her.
"Honey, look at me please." Brittany pleaded and took Santana's hand into her own. When Santana finally looked at her, she lightly squeezed her hand. "Did you not like it when I touched you?" She asked cautiously.
She had not touched Santana's breasts intentionally, it just happened as she was running her hands up her sides, but with Santana's reaction, she was worried that Santana didn't like it and she had overstepped.
"Yes…I mean no…" Santana sighed because she was a little frazzled and she didn't know what she was saying. She took a few seconds to gather her thoughts before she said, "I mean, yes, I liked it." She said softly as a blush covered her cheeks and ran down her neck, making her whole body feel hot.
"And when we kiss and make out, does it turn you on and make you wanna do more than kiss me?"
Santana swallowed hard and she nodded. "Yes." She said in a low voice.
She was very turned on by Brittany. She had sexual urges towards her more than she would care to admit. She didn't have to kiss or touch her to feel turned on by her. Sometimes all Brittany had to do is look at her and she felt that pull in her lower abdomen.
"Then why are you so panicked right now?" Brittany asked trying to understand what Santana was feeling so she could either help her through it, or make sure she didn't do anything in the future that may cause this kind of reaction again.
"I—I just wasn't expecting you to touch my boobs. We haven't done that yet, and it kinda scared me." Santana said finding the courage to be completely honest.
She felt incredibly embarrassed about the reason she reacted the way she did, and it was hard for her to talk about it, even with Brittany. Up until this point, they had not taken the physical level of their relationship to the point where they touched intimate areas of their bodies. Their relationship, from the day they met, had always had a physical aspect to it. As friends, they touched each other more than they did other people, and as girlfriends, they had some sort of physical contact all the time. With the exception of having to limit their contact when they were around other people, when they were alone they kissed or touched whenever they felt like it, which was often, and of course, during heated make out sessions, unintentional brushing against intimate areas happened from time to time, but it had always been over their clothes.
Brittany scooted a little closer to Santana and took her other hand, so she was holding both her hands. "What about it scares you."
"Everything. I've only ever been with guys. I don't know how to be with a girl sexually." Santana said. She had an idea of some things they could do, but having an idea and putting it into practice was two different things.
Brittany couldn't help but to crack a little smile. "I don't either, but I'm sure we can figure it out together."
Santana just looked at Brittany. Her mind was going in a million different directions, but before she could say anything, Brittany brought her hands to her lips and kissed her knuckles.
"I'm a little scared too." Brittany admitted. "I don't have a lot of experience with sex. I've only been with one person before; I had no idea what I was doing, and he didn't seem that experienced either, but I ended up pregnant, so we must have done something right-"
"Brittany, that's not funny." Santana said very seriously cutting her off.
She did not like talking about him at all. She loved Brittany, and she loved the baby so much, but as far as she was concerned, the guy who got Brittany pregnant and then left her without a second thought was nothing. He didn't exist in her world.
"I'm not trying to be funny." Brittany said and she rubbed the tops of Santana's hands with her thumbs. "I just meant that it's new, and we're both going to be lost at first, but we'll figure out what works for us. I want to be with you, Santana. It's been hard keeping my hands to myself, because I love you so much and I just want to touch and kiss every part of you, but I don't want to rush you into anything you're not ready for."
"I want be with you too. I do." Santana said. She wanted to be intimate with Brittany for a while, and though her performance anxiety had been holding her back, she knew she could overcome that with Brittany's help; but Brittany's pregnancy was the biggest thing she was unsure about. "I just…what about the baby? How's that going to work? I'm kinda afraid that I'm going crush him or something. I don't want to hurt him."
Brittany giggled. "I think if we keep pressure off my belly, the baby will be fine.
"Do you know that for sure?" Santana asked and Brittany had to admit she couldn't say that for sure, but it seemed logical.
"There was a chapter about sex during pregnancy in that pregnancy book your mom gave me. I didn't read it though because I was reading the book while we weren't talking a few months ago, and I couldn't bring myself to read a chapter about sex when I thought you were mad at me, but we could look at it and see what it says."
Santana nodded. She was going to need to read that chapter for sure, if for nothing else than for her peace of mind, but she was hoping it would give her some ideas of what was safe to do and what wasn't.
Brittany smiled at the serious look on Santana's face. "Relax, honey." She said and leaned in to place a soft kiss to Santana's lips. "I don't think it's that complicated."
"Well I don't know that." Santana said. "I've never had sex with a pregnant woman before. I don't know the rules."
Brittany couldn't help but to chuckle at that.
"Come on, Britt, this isn't funny." Santana said with a pout. "I'm really freaked out about it."
"I know you are honey, and I love you for it." Brittany said kissing the pout away from her lips. "We'll figure it out together. I promise."
"Okay." Santana said with a sigh. "But, I'm still going to need to read that book."
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The next morning when Santana woke up, she saw that she had slept in to almost eleven o'clock. Brittany had given her the pregnancy book when they went to bed, and together they read the sex chapter, which had been helpful in easing Santana's nervousness about the baby. Her fears about hurting the baby were typical, and even though the book was geared towards hetero couples, she now had a better idea of how to keep the baby safe and Brittany comfortable, especially as her pregnancy progressed.
After reading the chapter, Brittany fell asleep because she was exhausted, but Santana stayed up late, thumbing through the rest of the book and reading a few chapters that interested her.
Santana yawned as she rolled over and she found Brittany sitting in bed beside her, reading.
"Hey." Santana said, her voice cracking, dry from sleep.
"Hey." Brittany cooed and she leaned down giving Santana a kiss.
"What are you reading?"
"Baby names." Brittany sighed closing the book. She set it on the nightstand and she scooted down in the bed, turning onto her side so she was on Santana's level. "Your mom gave me the book when she gave me the pregnancy book, and it's full of baby name, but so far I haven't found anything I like."
"Well it looked like a thick book, I'm sure you'll find something you like."
"I know; I haven't looked at all of them. I've just been skimming them. It's just that none of the names I've seen so far have interested me. I want something that has meaning, you know?"
Santana nodded and kissed Brittany softly on her lips. "I get it, it's a big decision."
"Do you have any name suggestions?"
"Um, not at the moment." Santana said unprepared for that question. She was still trying to wake up. "But if I think of anything, I'll tell you.
"Good. I was hoping that you would help me name him." Brittany said.
"Really?" Santana asked with a small smile.
"Yeah." Brittany said taking Santana's hand. "You've been with me through everything with this pregnancy. I couldn't give him a name that you didn't like."
Santana felt her heart swell and she kissed Brittany again. "I would love to help you name him."
"Awesome." Brittany cooed and she kissed Santana again, and this time the kiss lingered between them.
When they parted, they just stared at each other smiling for a few moments before they spoke.
"So about last night…" Brittany started to say.
"What about it?"
"I just wanted to make sure you're feeling better about things now that you read the book."
Santana nodded. "I do feel a little better."
"I do too." Brittany said. She definitely learned a few things as well. "Soooo…um, if you wanna touch me you can."
Santana's eyes widened and they nearly bugged out of her head. "What, like now?" She yelped and her heart rate immediately spiked.
Brittany giggled and squeezed Santana's hand. "No, I didn't mean like right this second. Your mom is up, but I meant that for future reference, you know when we're making out and stuff. I'd really like you to, but only when you're ready."
Santana swallowed and nodded. "I'd like that too. You can touch me too." She said.
"Are you sure?" Brittany asked. "We can wait."
"No!" Santana blurted and Brittany bit her lip to keep from giggling at her little outburst. "I mean, we don't have to wait." The idea of touching Brittany and being intimate with her still frightened Santana, because it was a big deal to her, but after their talk from the night before, and after reading the book, she didn't want to wait anymore.
"Okay." Brittany said with a smile and leaned in kissing Santana softly. "Let's just take things slow, and see where it goes."
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A week later Brittany walked into the living room holding an extra-large bowl filled with candy. It was two days before Halloween, but since the holiday fell on a Monday, Lima was doing trick-or-treating on Saturday night.
"I feel so grown up giving out candy on Halloween. I've never done that before." Brittany said as she set the bowl on the coffee table and sat beside Santana on the couch.
"I'm actually surprised you didn't have us in coordinating costumes and out trick-or-treating." She said with a chuckle because she could just see Brittany wanting to do that, and of course, she would have went along with it if it made her happy.
"The thought did cross my mind, but I was a little afraid that someone might play a prank on us, and I didn't want to take the chance with the baby."
"Yeah, good idea." Santana said.
Her mother was working an overnight shift because Halloween was one of the busiest nights of the year for the ER, and most of the time, it was alcohol related or because of a prank gone wrong. Santana would go full-on Snixx on anyone that messed with Brittany, even if it was a harmless prank, and she was not in the mood to deal with that.
"I'm happy with just giving out candy and watching 'Hocus Pocus'." Brittany cooed, leaning into Santana's side. "Plus, staying in means that we can cuddle while we wait on kids to come by, and you know how much I love getting our cuddle on."
"That's definitely a much better idea than trick-or-treating." Santana said putting her arm around Brittany's shoulder and kissing her on her temple. "Although, I have to say that you would have been cute in a costume."
Brittany giggled. "I am in a costume… well at least the baby is."
She was wearing black leggings and an orange t-shirt with black markings at the bottom that made her belly look like a jack-o-lantern. Her stomach was still a tad bit smaller than what was considered average at almost twenty-three weeks pregnant, but not by much, so it filled out the shirt nicely to make it look like a nice round pumpkin.
"Okay that's true and that shirt is cute." Santana said. As soon as she saw it, she had to point it out to Brittany.
"I like your shirt, even if it is kinda mean." Brittany said looking at Santana's black t-shirt that said, "Zombies Eat Brains!" and then right below it, it said, "(You're Safe)"
"Hey you wanted me to get a Halloween themed shirt, so I went with the most honest for the people of Lima. I keep it real."
Brittany giggled and kissed Santana on her cheek. "I love you."
"I love you too, Britt." Santana said and she leaned in, kissing her softly.
A few moments later, they were taken from their sweet embrace when the doorbell rang with their first trick-or-treaters of the night.
"Showtime!" Brittany chirped pecking Santana's lips again before picking up the bowl and Santana followed her to the door to open it.
"Trick-or-Treat!" Two little boys around four years old, one dressed as Batman and the other dressed as Superman called as they held out their jack-o-lantern candy buckets.
As soon as Brittany saw them, she smiled widely, because it dawned on her that in a few years she was going to have a little boy that might like superheroes and look just as cute as they did in their costumes.
"Santana look! Batman and Superman are here to protect us!" Brittany said dramatically.
The boys just beamed. "I'll protect you." Superman said flexing his 'muscles' and Batman just said shyly, "You're pretty ladies."
Santana, Brittany, and the boys' mothers just chuckled.
"Aww, thank you." Brittany said and put two pieces of candy in each of their buckets.
"What do you say?" One of the mothers asked and the boys both said, "Thank you!" and waved at Santana and Brittany before they turned away.
When they closed the door, Brittany put the bowl on the table beside the door. "They were so cute." Brittany sighed with a little glint in her eye.
Santana smiled, putting her hands on either side of Brittany's belly. "They were cute, but this little guy in here is going to be the cutest little trick-or-treater anyone has ever seen when he's big enough to go out."
Brittany just smiled and wrapped her arms around Santana's neck, pulling her into her and kissing her softly. Santana hummed into the kiss and slid her hands around Brittany's back to bring her even closer to her, while being careful not to put too much pressure on her belly. They kissed sweetly for a few moments, but before they could deepen it, Santana felt a small, very faint push on her stomach and it made her pull away.
"What?" Brittany asked when she saw the shocked look on Santana's face.
"I—I think I just felt the baby." She said looking down at Brittany's belly.
"Oh my god, really San?!" Brittany cheered. "He did just move!"
Santana put her hands on the area that she felt the little push and held them there. "I think so." She said getting really excited. "Maybe he'll move again."
Brittany put her hands on top of Santana's and they only had to wait a few seconds before Santana felt a little push against her left hand.
"I felt that." Santana said excitedly. "I felt him!" She said a little louder that time. Brittany smiled widely, but before she could say anything, they baby moved again, and Santana yelped, "There he is again!" She looked up at Brittany and they stared at each other for a moment before Santana kneeled down. She lifted Brittany shirt and placed several soft kisses to Brittany's bare stomach where she had felt the baby. "I love you little man. Your mommy and I love you so much." She said and kissed the belly again.
When Santana stood up, she had tears welling in her eyes. "I finally felt him Britt."
"I know, honey. I'm so happy." She said wrapping her hands around Santana's hips and kissing her deeply.
Santana retuned the kiss, but the doorbell ringing interrupted them again. They pulled apart and Santana still had tears of joy in her eyes, and two streaks down her cheeks.
"I'll take care of the kids." Brittany whispered. She knew Santana wouldn't want whomever was at the door to see her in an emotional state. "I'll meet you in the living room in a minute."
"Thanks." Santana whispered and quickly kissed Brittany on the lips before she left and sat on the couch. She wiped her face and just stared at her hands until Brittany came back in the room and sat beside her.
"It's pretty awesome feeling him, isn't it?" Brittany asked.
"Yeah." Santana said in wonderment, looking up at Brittany. "He's really in there." She said.
Of course, she knew the baby was inside Brittany, but actually feeling him move, and knowing that he was big enough now that she could feel him made him feel so much more present than seeing him on the sonogram did.
Brittany giggled. "Yeah. He's really there."
Santana just looked at Brittany and her beautiful pregnant belly, and she couldn't help but to feel like she was the most amazing woman in the whole world. "Come here." She said cupping Brittany's cheeks before kissing her in a need to feel her close to her.
The kiss started out slow and sweet, but as it continued, they deepened it, and Brittany pushed back on Santana's shoulders until they were lying beside each other on the couch. It was a bit of a tight fit, but they made it work by tangling their legs together and pressing into each other.
They kissed until Brittany finally broke away from Santana's lips, and trailed a line of kisses down her jaw and her neck as she slipped her hand under her shirt, running her hand up Santana's abdomen and over her left breast. Santana let out a throaty moan as Brittany gently massaged her breast through her bra. She loved it when Brittany touched her like that. After their talk from last week, they had eased into a more physical relationship and she was no longer timid of Brittany touching her intimate areas, or returning the contact, so she slid her hand down Brittany's back, and over the swell of her ass, pushing her hips into Brittany looking for more contact.
Brittany had just pressed her thigh against Santana's center, when the doorbell rang, bringing everything to a frustrating halt.
"Damn it." Santana sighed.
"The kids." Brittany said flatly.
They had been so wrapped up and concerned about each other that nothing else mattered, and they had forgotten that they were going to have tick-or-treaters coming to the door.
"Yeah." Santana sighed resting her forehead against Brittany's. "Fucking Halloween." She grumbled. She wasn't nearly as happy about giving out candy now that it was interrupting their make out.
"I know, but they're just going to keep coming."
Santana sighed again. "I know. Let's go fill them full of sugar. The quicker we get rid of the candy, the quicker we get to be alone."
They were busy for more than an hour, the doorbell constantly ringing as their neighborhood had a reputation in Lima for being one of the best ones for trick-or-treating. At first they were giving out two pieces of candy per kid, but when it wasn't disappearing fast enough for Santana, she just started reaching into the bowl and giving out handfuls.
Around nine o'clock, things started to slow down, and by nine-thirty, they finally reached a lull. Fifteen minutes had gone by without anyone coming to the door, so Santana thought they were done. She wasted no time in picking up where they left off, which Brittany had no problem with, because she was just as frustrated as Santana, if not more so because of her hormones.
When they kissed, it immediately became heated. Their hands roamed each other's bodies and moans of passion filled the living room…until the doorbell rang again.
"Fuck." Santana growled. That was the last straw for her. "That's it. I'm done!" She said getting off the couch and stomping over to the door. She picked up the candy bowl, took a few pieces out that were Brittany's favorite and set them on the table by the door for her. When she opened the door, she saw that it was a couple of middle school aged boys in regular clothes, holding plastic grocery store bags. "Here, take it all." She said, dumping the rest of the candy into their bags, which the boys seemed very happy about.
She didn't stay to listen to them thank her. She closed the door and locked it, before she turned off the porch light, and went into the living room. She turned off the movie that they really had not been watching, and then took Brittany by the hand.
"Come on, let's go upstairs." She said helping Brittany up from the couch.
"Okay." Brittany said with a giggle, because she was all for that plan.
They went into Santana's room, and as soon as Santana closed the door, Brittany kissed her deeply. Santana moaned into the kiss, wrapping her hands around Brittany's hips. They were both so hungry for each other, that their hands couldn't stay still. Brittany was quick to put her hands on Santana's ass, pulling her hips into her, and Santana ran her hands up and down her torso, but she was careful not to touch her breasts. She had learned a few days ago, much to her disappointment, that they were overly sensitive from the pregnancy, and Brittany didn't liked them being touched, especially the nipples.
They kissed in the middle of the room until they needed to stop for air. They stared at each other for a few moments before Brittany put her hands on the bottom of Santana's shirt.
"Can I take this off?" Brittany asked, hoping that she would say yes.
Santana swallowed and searched Brittany's face for a moment before she nodded.
"Are you sure, honey?" Brittany asked just to be sure. She needed to hear Santana say it before she went any further.
"Yes." Santana breathed out, and her eyes were pleading for her to continue. She was so ready to be with Brittany that she was practically shaking in anticipation.
"Okay." Brittany cooed and kissed Santana's lips softly before she lifted her shirt over her head and discarded it on the floor.
She stared at Santana's covered breasts for a few moments, mentally preparing herself to see them for the first time uncovered, because while she had touched them a few times over the past week, she had not seen them yet. Making out and heavy petting had been as far as they had gone as the time had never been right for them to take it to the next level, but it seemed as if tonight might be the night that changed that.
When Santana didn't make a move, Brittany slid her hands down Santana's arms to her hands and put them at the bottom of her shirt, silently asking her to take it off.
Santana felt her cheeks heat up. "Oh, sorry." She said embarrassed. She had been distracted by watching the look of pure excitement on Brittany's face as she looked at her, that she didn't think to remove Brittany's shirt as well.
"It's okay. Don't apologize." Brittany said with smile.
Santana lifted Brittany shirt, pulling it over her head and putting it on the floor with her own.
Brittany wrapped her arms around Santana's back and kissed her as she unhooked her bra and slowly pulled it off her arms. Without breaking the kiss, Santana removed Brittany's bra as well. Their bare stomach's pressed into each other, and Santana moaned from the electrifying feeling of her skin moving against Brittany's.
Santana was the first to break away from the kiss, and she just stared at Brittany's bare torso for the first time. "You're so beautiful, Britt."
"Not as beautiful as you." Brittany said, running her fingers over Santana's taut stomach and looking at it wistfully. "I miss having abs."
She had adjusted to her changing body for the most part, but there was still a part of her that was self-conscious of her growing belly, softening muscles, and increasing weight. She missed being so fit and flexible.
Santana shook her head. "Britt, you are absolutely gorgeous. I loved the way you looked before you started showing, but I don't think you understand what your pregnant body does to me. It's so sexy and it gives me tingles all the time."
"You're just saying that to make me feel better." Brittany said.
"No, I'm not, I mean that. When I look at you, all I see is the most incredibly beautiful woman in the world. I love every one of your curves." She said slowly trailing a finger down the side of Brittany's hip. "Sometimes I can't believe how lucky I am that you picked me."
Brittany cracked a smile and she pulled Santana into her a little tighter. "I'm lucky that you picked me too."
"Can I show you how much I love you?" Santana said with an unexpected surge of confidence that she didn't know she had.
Truth be told, as much as she wanted to be with Brittany, she was still nervous about their first time. She was in unfamiliar territory when it came to being with a girl sexually, and she was afraid that inexperience would make her a terrible lover and Brittany wouldn't like being with her, but she wanted to show Brittany that she loved her as she was, so she found the strength to push aside that nervousness.
"Yes." Brittany cooed her answer.
Santana smiled, leaning in so the side of her nose was touching Brittany's. "I love you so much." She whispered, before she closed the distance between them, kissing Brittany tenderly.
When they parted a few moments later, Santana put her hands on the top of Brittany's leggings, pulling them and her panties down her long legs. Brittany stepped out of them, kicking them off to the side, and then reached for the button on Santana's jeans, popping it open and pulling the zipper down. Once Santana was rid of the rest of her clothes, she took Brittany by the hand and led her to the bed. Santana flipped the covers back and they slid into bed, laying on their sides facing each other.
Santana scooted closer to Brittany, tangling their legs and carefully pressing their stomachs together. She traced her eyes and hand from Brittany's mid-thigh all the way up her side until right below her right breast before she cupped her cheek and kissed her again. Brittany hummed as their lips touched and slid her hands down the swell of Santana's ass, squeezing it as they kissed.
They kissed slowly and deeply, aching to feel the other's skin against their own as their hands glided over each other's bodies, and stopping to give extra attention to any area that they elicited a whimper or moan.
Santana broke the kiss after a few minutes and started a slow line of kisses down Brittany's jaw to her ear. She sucked and nibbled on the lobe before trailing her tongue along the shell of her ear.
Brittany moaned, her hips pressing harder against Santana looking for more contact as Santana kissed down her neck and her hand slowly slid down her side and over the front of her belly to her lower abdomen. When Santana's lips reached Brittany's collarbone, she nipped lightly at the skin before looking up at Brittany and kissing her softly on her lips.
"Are you okay to lay on your back for a little while?" Santana asked.
One of the positions the pregnancy book recommended was for Brittany to lay on her side, because it meant there was no pressure on her abdomen, and laying on her back could be uncomfortable, but it did say laying on her back for a short period would be okay as long as Santana didn't put her weight on her belly.
"Yeah." Brittany said rolling over.
"Do you want a pillow?" The book also recommended a pillow under Brittany's lower back to help with her comfort.
"No, I'm okay." Brittany said with a little smile.
"If it starts to hurt or becomes uncomfortable at all, just let me know, okay." Santana said.
"Okay." Brittany cooed loving the amount of care Santana was taking with her.
Santana scooted closer, straddling her arms over her and pressing her hands into the bed on either side of Brittany to help support herself so their upper bodies could touch, but without the pressure of her weight pressing into Brittany. She leaned down kissing Brittany's lips again and they both moaned as their breasts touched for the first time.
The kiss lingered between them, becoming needier as the seconds ticked by, until Santana pulled out of the kiss, and started a wet line of kisses down her chin and the front of her neck. When she reached her collarbone, she started on the far right side, pressing soft kisses every few inches all the way to the left side and then back to the middle, pressing a lingering kiss in the hollow of her neck before peppering kisses over her chest above her breasts.
Santana really wanted to touch Brittany's breasts. They were so round, and full, and completely perfect, but she knew that they were very sensitive and she didn't want to hurt her or make her uncomfortable by kneading them with her hands or playing with her nipples, but she thought that she might be able to at least kiss them without it being uncomfortable for Brittany.
"Hey, can I try something?" Santana asked. "I promise to be gentle, but if you don't like it, just tell me to stop."
"Okay." Brittany said running her hand up and down Santana's side. She trusted her completely.
Santana smiled and playfully pecked Brittany on her lips. "Love you." She whispered, nuzzling her nose with Brittany's.
Brittany gripped Santana's hip and kissed her again. "Love you too."
Santana giggled and kissed Brittany lips, then her chin and neck before she placed a few kisses down her upper chest. She paused when she reached her breasts, taking a moment to appreciate them up close as she shifted so she only had to support herself with one hand, and rested her other hand on top of Brittany's hand that was resting on her hip. She leaned down and placed a tentative, soft kiss to the top of her left breast. When Brittany didn't jerk away, as she did when she touched them with her hands a few days ago, she looked up at Brittany to see if she was going to stop her. Brittany just smiled at her and turned her hand to lace their fingers. Brittany's smile gave her more confidence to continue and she kissed the right breast. She lightly traced the tip of her nose over Brittany's breasts to the next spot she wanted to adorn with her lips.
She savored the moment, loving Brittany's little moans as her lips lingered on every new spot that they found. She was careful, making sure not to nip or put any unnecessary pressure on the sensitive mounds, and she actively avoided the immediate area near her nipples to keep it as pleasurable for Brittany as she could.
After a few minutes of aquatinting herself with Brittany's lovely breasts, she placed one last kiss to them before she sat up and shifted to her knees, pushing Brittany's legs further apart and repositioning herself in-between her legs. She put both hands on Brittany's stomach, caressing her bump as she started a slow line of kisses from the top to the bottom.
Brittany squirmed, her breathing getting faster and deeper as she moved down her abdomen. When she felt Santana kiss her at the base of her belly, and right above her aching center, she let out a moan, balling the sheets in her fists in anticipation of Santana touching her where she needed her most.
Santana's next kiss was right above her clit, then in the crease where her legs met her body, and then her inner thigh. It seemed as though that Santana was teasing Brittany because she was kissing and touching everywhere except where she wanted her to go, but Santana wasn't trying to tease her. She was buying herself time to calm down before she went there, because she was so nervous. She was face to face, so to speak, with Brittany's most intimate area, but she was second-guessing herself because she wasn't sure what to do next. She didn't know if she should use her fingers, or her mouth, or both. She really wanted to please Brittany and be a good lover, but she was afraid of doing something wrong.
Thankfully though, before her thoughts could get away from her, Brittany groaned in frustration, and it helped her make a decision. "San, please stop teasing, I can't take it anymore! I need you inside me!"
"Okay, Britt…" She said with a smile, kissing Brittany's thigh one more time. With her mind made up, she leaned forward, being careful not to put any weight on Brittany's stomach, and she pressed one hand into the bed beside Brittany's head and cupped Brittany's core with the other hand. "But you have to kiss me first." She said with a smirk.
Brittany whimpered as she felt Santana put a little more pressure on her center and she buried her hands into Santana's hair, kissing her heatedly. Santana was taken by surprised by the intensity of the kiss, but it stoked the fire that was burning in her own center and she returned the kiss just as vigorously. She ran her fingers thought Brittany's folds, coating them with her wetness and she slowly slipped two fingers inside. Brittany moaned into the kiss and Santana tentatively started to move her fingers back and forth. She had no experience with touching another woman, but she had touched herself, so she used that as a basis of what to do and she curled her fingers as she pulled back, causing Brittany to moan loudly, breaking the kiss, and moving her hands out of her hair to her chest, taking both breasts into her hands. Santana let out a little moan of her own from the feeling of Brittany kneading her breasts, and it spurred her on, moving her hand a little faster.
With each moment that ticked by, and with every moan or cry of ecstasy that left Brittany's lips, Santana's confidence in what she was doing increased, and it didn't take long before she had lost all her inhibitions and she completely lost herself in pleasing Brittany.
She pushed her fingers in and out, winding Brittany up higher and higher until she was wound so tight, she was ready to snap.
"I'm—I'm so c-close." Brittany stuttered letting go of Santana's breasts and gripping on to the sheets so tightly that she her knuckles were white.
Santana felt Brittany inner walls constrict around her fingers, so she leaned back, sacrificing a little momentum as she shimmied down her body. She spread her folds a little more and took her clit into her mouth, sucking and flicking it with her tongue.
"Ugh, fuck!" Brittany cried, her breath becoming more ragged as she tried to hold on a little longer, but as Santana moved her fingers a little faster and sucked a little harder, she couldn't hold on and she tumbled over the edge, falling hard.
She was shaking slightly when Santana stopped her movement and released her clit from between her lips. As she pulled her fingers out, she twitched and let out a whimper. Santana took Brittany's hands into her own, and moved them up near her head as she braced herself against them, placing soft lingering kisses up her belly, over her breasts, and then kissing her lips deeply before she move out from between her legs and laid down beside her on her back.
Brittany rolled over, wrapping her arm around Santana and curling into her side. Santana wrapped her arm around Brittany's shoulder, and played with her hair as she caught her breath.
It took a few minutes for Brittany to recover, but when she was able to move again, she started giggling.
"And you thought you didn't know how to be with a girl." She said with smile, lifting her head so she could look at Santana. "Can I just say you are a freaking amazing lady lover! You completely blew my mind."
Santana couldn't help but to chuckle at Brittany, but she also gave an internal sigh of relief, because to hear Brittany say that she was amazing and not terrible as she had feared, made her feel so much better.
"I was a little lost for a bit." Santana said honestly. "I was just trying to avoid putting weight on your belly and making things up as I went along, hoping that you'd like it."
"I loved it." Brittany cooed and leaned over, kissing Santana. "And it didn't feel like you were lost. It felt…perfect." She said with a content sigh.
Santana felt her heart and ego swell with that assessment.
"Now it's my turn." Brittany drawled. She wasted no time kissing Santana while trailing her hand up her flat abdomen to her breasts.
She kneaded her left breast with her hand for a few moments before she rolled the nipple between her fingers. Santana moaned loudly into Brittany's mouth, wrapping her hand around the back of Brittany's neck and pulling her closer to her.
They kissed for a few more moments before Brittany released Santana's lips with a pop. She leaned down and slowly circled Santana's right nipple with her tongue before she took it between her lips and sucked it into her mouth.
Santana moaned even louder with both of her nipples being played with. She bucked her hips up, unfortunately finding nothing to press them into. She wished that Brittany could lay on top of her. She craved to feel her whole body pressed into her, but she wasn't able to dwell on her wish though because Brittany switched it up, taking Santana's left nipple into her mouth and her right nipple between her fingers, making sure to give each mound equal attention.
Santana squirmed and moaned as Brittany turned her into complete mush just by playing with her breasts. She was sure Brittany could make her come from just that, but Brittany was perceptive when it came to Santana, and she didn't want her to come before she had a chance to explore more of her. She sucked on her nipple one last time, teasing it with her teeth before she pulled away and placed a painfully slow line of wet kisses down Santana's flat stomach.
When she reached her belly button, she circled it twice with her tongue before she trailed her tongue down to the top of her center, stopping just shy of Santana's clit.
"Briiiiiiitttttt!" Santana whined when Brittany pulled away and sat up. "Who's teasing who now?"
"I'm not teasing." Brittany said with a chuckle. "Okay, maybe I was a second ago when I was kissing your stomach, but at this angle it's just a little difficult to go further because I'll have to lay on my stomach."
"Oh…it's okay if you don't go down there." Santana said, feeling her cheeks heat up. She was a little disappointed, but she didn't want it that bad to risk potentially hurting the baby. "Just use your fingers instead."
"I will." From where Brittany was positioned, using her fingers was easily done. "But I want to kiss you there too." She had been looking forward to it. "Here, I have an idea." She said and slid out of bed.
Santana raised a curious eyebrow, a little confused as to why she was getting out of bed, but when Brittany put a pillow on the floor beside the bed, she realized what she was doing. It was another suggestion from the pregnancy book. It was going to be modified as the book was written with hetero couples as the examples, but they could make it work for them too.
"Come here baby." Brittany cooed as she motioned for Santana to come towards her.
Santana smiled and scooted towards the edge of the bed, her legs dangling off the side. Brittany spread them further apart, stepping in-between them and leaned down, kissing her as she braced herself with one hand on Santana's shoulder and palmed Santana's breast with the other. After a few moments of heated kissing, Brittany pushed on Santana's shoulder, laying her flat on the bed as she kissed down her abdomen, and Santana was thankful that it wasn't as slow and teasing as the first time.
When Brittany reached the spot above Santana's clit that she stopped at last time, she placed a lingering kiss, sucking on it slightly before she pulled her lips back and kneeled down on the pillow on both of her knees. She ran her hands up and down Santana's thighs a few times before she lifted her legs and put them over her shoulders. Santana lifted her head as Brittany wrapped her hands around her legs and pulled her closer to her, right to the edge of the mattress, but when Brittany kissed her inner thigh, she moaned in anticipation laying her head back as she felt a tightening in her core.
Brittany kissed up Santana's inner thighs until she reach her center. She had been looking forward to this moment for so long that she wasted no time spreading Santana's folds and slowly circling her clit with her tongue before she took the sensitive nub into her mouth.
Santana moaned loudly and gripped the sheets tightly as Brittany sucked and flicked her clit with her tongue.
Brittany loved all the noises coming from Santana and she smirked to herself proudly. She sucked on the nub for another minute and then she flattened her tongue and made long and slow broad strokes before she pressed her tongue inside Santana.
"Ungh, that feels s-so good." Santana cried out pressing a little harder into Brittany's face.
Brittany pushed her tongue in and out of Santana until she knew that she was close to coming. She slipped Santana's legs off her shoulders and she stood up in-between them. She replaced her tongue with her fingers, running them through her folds, and coating them with Santana's wetness as she leaned down to take Santana's nipple between her lips.
Santana wrapped her legs around Brittany and she cried out as Brittany pushed two fingers inside her, slipping in and out of her, slowly at first, but gradually getting faster until she was pumping her hand as fast as she could.
Brittany knew that it wasn't going to take long for Santana to fall apart, so she took Santana's other nipple between her lips, teasing it for a few moments, before she kneeled down again, taking her clit in to her mouth, and sucking hard.
Santana gripped the sheets tighter, moaning loudly into the room, and within seconds, she hit her peak.
Brittany kept a steady rhythm with her fingers until Santana fell limp on the bed, her breathing fast and uneven.
"Holy hell." Santana breathed out in amazement of what she had just experienced. She could barely think and she twitched as Brittany pulled her fingers out of her.
"I know." Brittany giggled, standing up and leaning over her, bracing herself with her hands on either side of Santana. "I didn't know it would be like that." She said before she kissed Santana's neck on her pulse point, causing Santana to twitch again.
Santana shook her head, because she didn't either. It was amazing being with Brittany. She had had sex several times before, and with different guys, but she never really enjoyed it. She never wanted to touch them as she craved to touch Brittany, and they never were able to make her feel as good as Brittany did.
"I guess with feelings its better." Brittany said, kissing Santana's jaw and then she placed a soft kiss on her lips. Santana wrapped her arms around Brittany's back, deepening the kiss a little more.
When they finally parted, Brittany nuzzled her nose with Santana. "I love you so much, San." She whispered.
"I love you too." Santana said feeling emotional to the point that she was moments away from crying and she was trying to push the tears away. She didn't want to cry, even if it was happy tears.
Brittany leaned her head back a little so she could look at Santana and she started giggling.
Santana raised her eyebrow in curiosity. "What?"
"You were so loud." She said remembering how vocal Santana had been and Santana felt her cheeks heat up. She had never been that loud during sex before.
"Yeah…well you weren't quiet either." She said in her defense. Brittany had been pretty vocal as well.
"I loved that you were loud." Brittany said nipping at Santana's lip.
The smirk on Brittany's face was enough to push Santana's near tears away and she couldn't help but to giggle as well. "I loved that you were loud too." She said, but then a few moments later a thought hit her and her face fell. "Wait, do you think the baby heard us?"
"Probably, he can hear."
"Oh my god!" Santana gasped in embarrassment and covered her face with her hands. "We've probably scarred him for life."
Brittany tried not to laugh, but she couldn't help it. "Santana, we didn't scar him."
"But he heard us having sex Britt! He's literally right there!" Santana said moving her hands so she could look up at Brittany.
"Okay, that's true, but it's not like he's going to understand it or even remember it." Brittany said with an amused smile. She loved how much Santana fussed over the baby, even if it was a little silly. "All he's going to know at the time is that I'm really happy, and if I'm happy, he's happy."
Santana searched Brittany's face for a moment as she pondered her words, and she nodded, relaxing a little. "You're right, I'm sorry. I guess that was a little ridiculous of me."
Brittany's smiled widened and she leaned down, kissing her lips. "Don't apologize about that. I think it's cute."
Santana smiled and playfully rolled her eyes.
Brittany giggled and kissed Santana on the tip of her nose. "We should probably get up." She said. She was still standing in-between Santana's legs, their hips and bellies touching as she leaned down over Santana laying on her back.
"Aww, but I like this." Santana said wrapping her arms around Brittany again. She loved the closeness.
"I do too, but it's starting to get a little uncomfortable for my back. We can still cuddle in bed." Brittany said. "We can watch 'Hocus Pocus' again since we really didn't watch it earlier, and if you want, we can heat up two cups of apple cider and have some of that pumpkin spice cake your mom made."
"You throw some kisses in there too, and you've got a deal." Santana said.
Brittany smiled standing up and helping Santana to her feet. She wrapped her arms around Santana's waist and kissed her softly. "Deal.
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A/N: Hi everyone, thank you for reading. I hope this long update made up for the wait. I know it's been a while since I updated, and for those of you that left a review for the last chapter and did not receive a response from me, I truly apologize. I've always sent out thank you messages for signed reviews, but unfortunately, a couple of days after my last update, my dad passed away unexpectedly and threw my world for a loop. He had been living with several chronic illnesses for the past few years, but he had been doing really well for a long time and seemed stable, so his passing came as a total surprised to me and my family.
As always, my beta naynay1963 deserves a huge thank you, not only for being a good friend, but also for still beta-ing this chapter, even as she was dealing with her own personal tragedy at the same time I was dealing with the loss of my dad.
Anyways, sorry for all the sad news after such a happy chapter…I really, really hope you all liked this chapter. It certainly helped to lift my spirits a little bit. If you can, please let me know what you thought about it, and thanks again for reading.
And if you're Canadian, Happy Thanksgiving!
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