{{ A/N: Kay here's another chapter. I'm sorry that this one has taken longer than expected, I've been completely unmotivated for this story. This is in Riku's point of view. Tell me what you think, be honest. I want to know if you think that it's freaking amazing but I want to know if you think that I should burn all of my story notebooks and become a recluse out of shame of my horrid writing skills, also. Anyways, yeahhhh.
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Chapter Thirteen

"I don't deserve you." I said quietly.
"Yes you do." Sora whispered from his place in my lap. "You didn't hurt me on purpose. It's not like you were expecting to meet me. I know that if you had a say in the marriage you would have chose not to go through with it."

"How can you have that much faith in someone who you've only known for three months?" I asked, continuing to run my fingers through his wet hair.

"I have no reason not to." He must have seen the confused look on my face because he continued. "It's like disowning a dog before he shits on your carpet or one of the many things taboo that a dog does. Why would I not trust someone if they haven't proved to be untrustworthy? I like to start off new friendships with a clean slate, which includes trusting them." His thinking was naive, but I couldn't help but find myself agreeing with him. I've never met someone that trusting before.

"You're an amazing person, you know that?" I whispered before planting a kiss on his forehead. "Duh! I mean come on! I'm freaking awesome!" he joked.

Feeling something get off of me, I opened my eyes to see Sora sitting in front of me yawning tiredly. While I pondered when exactly we fell asleep Sora leaned over and kissed me and returned to his spot in my lap. We were almost back asleep when a sudden splash of freezing cold water was dropped on us. "What the fuck!" I screamed as I sat up quickly and hit my head on the wood planks holing up the top bunk. "That is r-really c-c-cold." Sora said through chattering teeth. Axel stood by the now soaking bed smiling brightly. "Get up, lovebirds. Xigbar wants us at the lake house in an hour." I got up reluctantly while muttering various insults directed towards Axel under my breath. "There's only one shower open. Roxas, Demyx, and Zexion are using the other three." Axel said as we walked to the bathroom that wasn't being used. Just as I turned to tell Sora he could go first I heard water turn off followed by Roxas announcing that he's done. "Roxyyyy!" Axel whined. "You were suppose to stay in the shower so they'd take one together." My face heated up as I took cover in the bathroom that was occupied by Roxas.

"You what!" I whispered angrily to Roxas who had just finished putting on his boxers. "Hey, it was Axel's idea." Was all Roxas said to defend himself before grabbing his clothes and running out of the bathroom. Letting out a sigh I began to undress and started the water.

Contrary to what Sora had said the night before, I knew he was too good for me. Too good to be true. Which, in it's own little way, is true. He wasn't real, more like an elaborate illusion that my mind decided I needed. An elaborate illusion that would, in the next week, be torn away from me. The past three months were a blur. They went by too fast to actually expect to keep him as my boyfriend. Too fast to actually enjoy it. It wasn't fair. The one person who showed me to love without restrictions is being ripped out of my life faster than I could tell him that I really, truly do love him. 'Why is it so hard to say?' I thought, mentally kicking myself in the face. He deserved so much more than I gave him, so much more than I could give him. I couldn't give him the love he so desperately needs. The comfort he longs for. I can't even utter the three words that will tell him how I feel. I know I love him because of the simple fact that I've never felt this way toward anyone since my mother died. Even before she died I noticed that everyone who I had actually loved, were ripped out of my life. Despite my protest, we were torn apart; and just like the others, Sora and I will be torn apart too. So what's the point? What's the point of telling him I love him if we were going to be ripped apart in a week?

I sighed, defeated. That wasn't a good enough reason to withhold the verbalization of my love, I knew that... so why? Why can't I?

I turned off the water and got ready for the day ahead of us as quickly as possible while ignoring my self-conscious doubts and inability to vocalize my love.
Right when I pulled my pants to my hips I heard a loud knock from the other side of the door followed by Axel saying, "If you don't hurry up I'm gonna have to piss on you."

"I'm out. I'm out. Sheesh. Don't get your panties in a bunch." I walked out pulling my shirt over my head and running into someone. Before I could see who it was we both tumbled to the ground. "Ahaa wow Riku. If you wanted to be on top all you had to do was ask." I heard Sora say jokingly from under me. "Ha ha. You're hilarious." I said while I helped him up. He pulled me into a deep kiss before walking out of the cabin, leaving me wishing we had more time together. I sighed trying my best to suppress my worries as I threw on my socks and shoes along with a random shirt I found in my bag.

The lake house roared with laughter and talking as I walked in. As I wondered where the rest of my friends were, Lexaeus stepped onto the plate form and coughed obnoxiously into the microphone to shut everyone up. Despite the fact that it was annoying beyond comprehension it obviously worked because as I made my way to the hard-to-miss redhead everyone turned to the front and quieted down to a slight whisper.

"We're throwing a party tomorrow night in the Dinner Hall to send you guys off happy and whatnot." I rolled my eyes. It's not like I was going to go anyway. Just as I turned to leave Sora grabbed me by my hand and looked me in the eyes before asking if I would go with him.

Despite my mind screaming no, I found myself nodding in agreement. 'Dammit, what did I just do?'

Oh ho ho ho. -Clears my throat- Anyways. Again, I apologize for the long ass wait. This chapter just wouldn't cooperate with me and then I got all caught up in drama and whatnot. I also want to apologize for the suckiness... yeahhh.

This probably isn't the place to ask but oh-fucking-well. I may or may not do a sequel to this. Yay or nay?

So yeah, review, favorite, alert. (: