A/N: As usual I am sorry for the delay... The sun finally decided to show it's face and where I live, you don't ignore the sunshine, then college and work got in the way followed by a serious case of writer's block. Can't say I adore this chapter, and it's doubtful you guys will love it either, but I had to put it in... also, seeing as how I've more or less decided to write a sequel to this, plus the other story that's nagging on my brain, I think this will be the penultimate chapter of this story. On a different note, I'm thinking of changing my username, just thought I'd give the heads up before I do so, so you guys won't think someone's after ripping off my stories ;) ha ...

I walked solemnly into my apartment, Erica was sat at the breakfast bar, reading the back of a cereal box, the sound of the door clicking shut catching her attention. She looked at me curiously, this wasn't going to be easy, hell, I could barely make sense of any of it, but that's exactly it, none of it made any sense, I was running on pure instinct and slightly insane intuition.

"What was that all about?" She finally broke the silence, nodding her head at me, her tone wasn't angry or hurt, she genuinely seemed oblivious to what had just transpired; I won't lie, I found this strange, Erica had always been eerily perceptive.

"I- uh…" I really hadn't given the slightest thought as to what I was going to say to her, I felt almost guilty, I know technically, out of the three of us, I haven't exactly done anything wrong but I still couldn't help but feel that by asking her to stay over last night, that I had maybe led her on, regardless of the fact nothing romantic happened between us, it was still an olive branch extended by yours truly. "We need to talk."

She walked cautiously to the couch, keeping a suspicious, questioning eye on me the whole time. "Callie, what's going on?" She asked, taking my hand in hers as I sat to her right.

"You left." I stated plainly. "You just left, you didn't look back, you made no effort to contact me, you left me feeling like I was nothing. Like I didn't matter."

I could see the pain and remorse etch onto her face, she moved to speak but I rose my hand in the air to silence her.

"No. Let me finish, please?" She nodded. "You left and I-I wasn't looking for another relationship, I was broken. But then Arizona and I-"

"You two are-?" She cut across me but stopped short at the look I gave her. "Sorry." She whispered.

"Yes. Well, no. We… I'm not really sure what we were - are… she left before we could figure anything out. What I'm trying to say is that, you left, and I didn't think I could be happy but then Arizona came into my life and I realised that healing was possible, that I could make it through the loneliness and heartbreak. Asking you to stay last night was a mistake, and I know nothing happened, but still, it left a suggestion that something could happen and I shouldn't have initiated that. It wasn't fair, to you or to me."

"Then why did you ask?"

"I guess… I was lonely." I dropped my eyes to my feet, I had always portrayed such an outward hardcore persona that I was a little ashamed by how weak I could be when it came to being alone, I hated it. "I know that was selfish of me, but I'm just so tired of people walking away…"

She moved her hand to my chin and delicately pulled my face up so that our eyes met once again. "I won't make the same mistake twice. It's not too late for us Callie."

I stared deep into her eyes, which emphasized her words with the truth that lay there. I shook my head, my features softening as I prepared for her reaction to what I was about to say. "That's just it, it is too late. Erica, I'm not in love with you anymore. I got over you."

She nodded her head and pursed her lips. "And Robbins? I mean, she walked away from you too, but you ran after her like a puppy just now."

I released a heavy sigh, throwing my eyes to the sky before returning my gaze to her. "I know. And I wish I had an answer for you Erica, I really do, but I don't. They way I feel about Arizona, I just…" I was literally at a loss for words, how could I explain to someone else, something I didn't understand myself? So I tried, with only honesty and vulnerability on my side. "I'm in love with her." I saw a flash of hurt cross over Erica's features, but she quickly masked it with a look of indifference. "I don't know what's going to happen between us and obviously I'm mad at her for leaving… but, I have allowed people to walk away from me too many times. I'm in love with her, and I know I should be unbelievably mad at her, and deep down, I am, but, not as much as I should be, and that, I can't explain. I just think I owe it to myself to make this decision and if it blows up in my face, well, I'll have no one to blame but myself. It's crazy, I get that, but I'm sick of always being the one to play it safe. I'm not going to let Arizona just walk back into my life and forget she ever left it, but, I'm also not going to let her just walk away again, I'm going to try, take it day by day. Erica, with you, we had our chance and we just, weren't meant to be. Arizona and I never really got to get off the ground, and maybe it's because she's got some warped sense of commitment or because I pushed or rushed things too fast, but I think I owe it to myself to have the time to explore my feelings, to take this risk."

She stared at me with an unreadable expression, nodding her head so slightly I wasn't even sure she was aware she was doing it. "Some way to start out a relationship." Although her words were slightly scoffed, there was no harshness. Her face became serious again. "You really think you two could be good together?"

She looked more vulnerable than I had ever seen her; I thought momentarily about altering the truth to spare her feelings, but I don't like liers and I certainly don't plan on becoming one, so I nodded in confirmation as realisation hit me.

"I think we could be great together."