Ewonsama: its only fair to let you guys know that Leven and I are no longer speaking. Which means we will no longer be working on Saturday Nights. I'm sorry to say it but unless by some miracle we can message each to get it done, then it will be done. But don't get your hopes up.
Its not Leven's fault in anyway. Its my own. Which is why I feel I am the one to tell you guys this. Leven is a good person and friend, its just I'm not. I have anger and depression problems which I keep taking out on Leven. I'm tired of hurting her and snapping at her so I feel it is best we don't talk to each other for her sake. I'm just so used to being alone and never having friends. They either leave me or I leave them because I'm selfish and stupid.
But I may be FINALLY getting some help because my mother has finally listened to her child after telling her over and over that I need a therapist.
Everyone, I'm truly sorry I'm an ass. Its my fault this, what could have been great, go unfinished. I'm so sorry. But know I will not delete this account or story. I swear that I won't. So if it does go away...I'm just letting you know I'm not the one that did it. Sigh. I forgot what else I was going to tell you guys. Ugh this feels like a fair well letter...
Leven, if you somehow read this, I'm sorry. But its for the best. Its not right for me to keep doing that to you. I can't control it no matter how much I wish I could. Sorry for being a cold, heartless bitch.
Once again. I'm sorry everyone. You can go on and hate me now. Seems everyone else in my life hates me or doesn't care if I exist...