Chapter 13: Shattered

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And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love, without, love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on. But I know, all I know is that the end's beginning. Who I am from the start, take me home to my heart. Let me go and I will run, I will not be silent. All this time spent in vain, wasted years, wasted gain. All is lost; hope remains, and this war's not over. There's a light, there's the sun, taking all shattered ones. To the place we belong….

Tears streamed down Hailey's cheeks like an endless waterfall. She was wrapped up in her covers, in her bed which is where she's been for the last few days. She just couldn't find the courage to face the world. The brunette also felt a pang of guilt for making her family worry about her.

Hailey just wished there was an easy way out of all of this. Something that would make it all better or make it all go away. She sighed, she already knew the solutions to all her problems but she couldn't do that to her family and friends.

A beeping sound from her phone made her stop thinking and she grabbed her phone from her nightstand and looked at the text.

Gone to airport 2 pickup Lauren. Breakfast is in the kitchen if u feel like it honey. Be back soon. – Maria Jones/Mom

Hailey threw her phone gently on the bed. She lay down on the bed again, shutting her eyes tightly in hope to get more sleep. Hailey had been having bad dreams ever since the incident about Brett raping over and over again. Why did this have happen to her?

"So how is Hailey?" Lauren asked her mother once she sat down on a chair. Her mother asked her to come home from collage for the weekend seeing that she was worried about Hailey.

Maria placed a plate of breakfast in front of her oldest daughter before sitting across from her. She took a moment to take in her daughter's appearance and see if changed a little. Lauren still had her big baby blue eyes that she inherited from her mother and highlighted her cheekbones and her long blonde hair which went past her shoulders. The blonde had tanner skin then Maria remembered but no major changes.

"I don't know." Maria admitted honestly, there was a hint of worry in her voice which Lauren instantly picked up on. "She's been in bed for the past two days and she said she's sick."

"You don't believe her, do you?" The blonde asked, looking up from her delicious bacon.

"I don't know what to believe anymore." The mother replied softly.

Kendall knocked on the door of the Jones' house hoping Mrs Jones, who he got on with well would let him in, even if it was against her daughter's wishes. He was skipping school just to see Hailey. He knew that she wouldn't tell any of her family members, so she was probably locked up in her room suffering in silence. The worst way to suffer.

The door was opened and Kendall came face to face with a girl he could not place. She had long blonde hair and blue eyes like Hailey's mother and she looked a bit sluty.

"Um hey." She said casually as she tried to figure out who this boy was.

"Hey, is Hailey home?" Kendall asked.

"Yeah. Who are you?" The blonde finally asked after wrecking her brains trying to figure out who the teen was.

"I'm Kendall Knight." He replied.

The blonde snapped her fingers and opened the door a little more as if it to make it more welcoming. "Oh you're Kendall! Hailey's boyfriend!" She said excitedly pulling the boy in before closing the door. "Oh I'm Lauren. Hailey's and Tyler's older sister."

"It's my pleasure to meet you, Lauren." Kendall told her charmingly.

After checking him out, Lauren smiled. "Oh believe me. The pleasure's all mine."

"Can I see Hailey?" Kendall asked, getting straight to the point.

"Sure, she's up in her room." The blonde girl replied, smiling. Kendall nodded in response and headed up stairs. "Well done, baby sister."

Kendall took a deep breath before twisting the knob to Hailey's door, but it was locked. He tried again using all his strength; he was able to get the door open. The blonde smiled, he was quite pleased with himself. He entered the huge bedroom, his eyes quickly darting towards the bed to see a small form curled up under the sheets and facing the window.

Kendall shut the door and walked in slowly. "Hey…" He said before sitting down on the bed. Hailey looked up at him and she didn't look happy to see him. He looked down at the floor as she just looked at the clock on her night stand. "The thing is I'm really sorry." The blonde added coming clean at last. He was actually over at Lucy's and they kissed but that was all.

"Yeah, you said that already." The brunette replied coldly, referring to all his text messages. Her eyes looked like they had a fire blazing inside of them and her tearstained cheeks were flushed red.

"C'mon Hailey, I made a mistake, okay?" Kendall told her, taking hold of her hand slowly and loosely, and traced his fingers over her knuckles softly. It was a stupid onetime thing.

"Ya know what Kendall? I've heard it all before, from you." She said, annoyance was evident when she rolled her eyes. "God just do me a favour and leave me alone."

"Whatever." Kendall told her, sounding frustrated and he got up. He got up and was just about to leave but the blonde stopped in his tracks. He slowly turned around and keep his gaze set on Hailey's bed.

"Hailey…" He said softly before shutting his eyes tightly. "I love you."

She looked up at him shocked. He did tell her that in the hotel but the brunette thought that was because he wanted to keep her. But this time the blonde said it meaningfully. Hailey took a few moments to think before replying. "Yeah, well I don't love you."

"I don't care." Kendall admitted firmly, lying down on the bed beside Hailey wrapping his arms around her. "I'm staying and we're going to talk."

Silence settled in the bedroom. Kendall watched the brunette stare blankly up at the celling. Something inside of him told him that she probably wasn't going to talk, that he was wasting his time. But something happened, changing everything.

"…I can still feel him sometimes…" Hailey said quietly making the blonde turn his head to the side to face her. "His rough hands running all over my body. His lips kissing my neck. Him kissing my lips, his taste is still in my mouth. It makes me sad that this happened to me. How I have to live with this for the rest of my life, it's all I can think about. It's in my dreams too. Like there's no way to escape all of it and move on."

She slowly placed her head on his shoulder. "You were all I could think about when he was touching me." Tears started streaming down her cheeks and Kendall wiped them away.

For the next few hours they just talked about what happened on that day. They talked about the rape and the cheating. There were tears and tissues along with hugs and comforting squeezes.

Kendall lifted Hailey up and placed her on his lap with no protests from the brunette. The blonde nuzzled his nose into her neck softly taking in the scent of her perfume. He placed kisses all along her neck, eliciting a small moan from Hailey's lips.

Kendall pulled down the collar of her fuzzy jumper revealing her shoulder and a bit of her back. He placed a kiss on her shoulder before kissing her back. He went back to her neck and sucked softly on a sensitive spot making her moan louder.

His hands played with the hem of her jumper before bringing it over her head. Kendall started rubbing the soft skin on her hips as he kissed her back lovingly. She loved it. He kissed back up the way, kissing her back and kissed her neck before nuzzling it with his nose again.

Hailey turned her head to the side making Kendall look up from her neck and looked into her brown eyes. They both felt that they were drawn to each other like magnets. Before they knew it their lips met, moving slowly together.

"I love you…" Kendall said once again when they parted from the kiss. "You don't have to say it back, yet. But I'm going to be there for you, ok? And I'm never going to hurt you physically and I'll never be rough with you…unless."

The brunette smiled at her boyfriend's expression. His green eyes were glimmering with excitement, his eyebrows were wiggling seductively and a smirk played on his lips. "Don't rule that out." Hailey bit her lip before continuing. "Stay with me for a couple of days."

"Sure."

…and his love will conquer all. ~ Shattered by Trading Yesterday

A/N: Hey guuuyyysss! :) It snowed for ten minutes here! But it's all gone. You really can't trust Irish weather ;) Anyways, this was short but I couldn't think of anything suitable to fill in the gaps. Ah well! I hope you liked it and please review. Also happy mother's day!

Peace out ~ Mystery Girl 911