Derek felt bad for snapping at her. He sat on the blanket and watched as she grabbed the bottle of wine, opened it and then fell down beside him taking a huge swig from the bottle. She handed the bottle to Derek and he took a huge swig from the bottle.

The continued to drink from the bottle. There was nothing left to drink from the bottle. They just sat on the blanket, in front of the roaring fire. They just lay and stared at each other.

There was two little words that they both had to say to each other but they couldn't get the words out.

"I did buy a bottle of tequila for you." He tells her.

"I think I am fine at the moment." She says. "I need a shower though."

He watches as she stands up and watches as she walks the floor to the bathroom. She closes the door behind her and leaves Derek's eyes at the door. He stood up and opened his bag he had packed. He pulled out the bottle of tequila and Meredith's anniversary present.

He was hoping this weekend would be lucky between them two. Tomorrow, he knows it is cliché but it was St. Patrick's Day. He was hoping luck was on his side and the two of them get through a beautiful weekend of love.

He changed from his clothes and into his pyjamas. He then collected Meredith's clothes.

The water soon turned off. He took her clothes and followed the same steps she took earlier. He opened the door slowly. The steam in the room escaped the bathroom and he saw her standing at the basin, naked. He walked up behind her and placed her clothes on the basin. He took a moment and then placed his hands on her hips and kissed her neck. Then looked at the mirror and caught her reflection.

Meredith climbed out of the shower and stood in front of the basin. She didn't know why she was doing this exactly. In the shower she was thinking in her head what she was going to say to him. She wanted this trip to be good. She wanted it to spark a new step in their relationship. She wanted to make love to Derek. She wanted to be held by him. She wanted him.

She heard the door to the bathroom open and heard footsteps. She saw his hand reach around her and place her pyjamas down on the basin. She looked in the mirror and she felt his hands come to her hips and a kiss placed on the back of her neck. She saw his face in the mirror and he met her eyes.

"I'm so sorry Meredith. For everything that has happened. Especially with Addison. All the times I've been mad and upset and disappointed you and made you feel upset. Especially when I brought Addison home that day and you were so shocked. I was an idiot and I never gave you the time. I'm so sorry." He whispers placing a kiss underneath her collarbone.

She fell into his touch and a small smile came to her face. She turned around and they were face to face. Their lips inches from each other.

"I'm sorry too Derek. I forgive you for everything you have done and I apologise for the things I have done. I love you so much." She whispers before closing the space between them. She met his lips softly.

The kiss was long and hard. It deepened from a soft kiss to a passionate kiss. It is what they had both been waiting for. They pulled apart for a moment and he pulled her into his body and he held his wife.

"I love you Meredith." He says kissing the top of her head. "And I'm sorry. I'll be sorry until I die. I mean it."

She looked up at him and kissed him again. He led her out of the bathroom and onto the blanket that had been laid out on the floor in the fire. He held her in his arms and they looked at each other. A look of reassurance.

"I have missed you so much." He says.

"Me too. Not being with you sent me into an overdrive of wanting you. Every moment you left I wished I had kissed you. Every moment you were at home I had wished I climbed into bed beside you and we made love. I wished so badly. I should have fought harder but we are both stubborn and if one tiny thing gets in the way then we can't be in the same room as each other." She says smiling.

"I know. We acted terrible."

"I think you need to hit rock bottom to realise the pain and guilt that has happened. You then realise that it's time to make amends and fix the things before it's too late."

"I think we hit rock bottom a long while ago it just took us a while to realise that we had hit it." He says.

She smiled and he kissed her lips again.

"Before we get into the good stuff I have a present for you." He says.

"I didn't get you one."

"Hey I don't want one." He says placing a finger on her lips. "I needed to get you something."

He stood up and grabbed the neatly wrapped present and sat down on the floor beside her.

"Here."

She smiled as she took it from him and then opened it.

"Derek it is beautiful." She says taking the necklace out from the box. "It's gorgeous. I wish I got you something."

"Your gift to me is to enjoy our weekend away and to be happy. That's all I want."

"And a lot of sex." She says smirking.

"Yes and a lot of sex." He says smiling. "Let me put it on you."

He takes the silver necklace, with a diamond heart and clasps it to her neck. She takes it and holds it smiling.

"This is more than a gift. For us it is the thing we can remember when we are 100 years old, the thing that was there when we moved on and forgot about the fighting. The sign of our love for one another. The sign that we really are meant for each other." He says smiling at her.

"Even if you didn't get me anything I would not have cared. We would take a pamphlet home and remember that this place is where we rekindled and forgot about our stupid fighting and we were a couple again. We brought the love back to our relationship." She says holding the heart in between her hands.

Derek kissed her. "Do we want to make this night special?"

"It could be our lucky weekend." She adds. "It's St. Patrick's day tomorrow."

"I know it is. The luck of the Irish." He smirks and winks at her.

She giggles and kisses him again. Placing a hand on his chest. "Make love to me Derek. Let's get lucky." She whispers against his lips.

…

The next morning she woke to Derek waking her up. He had ordered a room serviced breakfast.

"I have breakfast waiting." He whispers. He pushes the fallen hair away from her face and kisses her cheek. "You need to get your energy back."

She looks up at him with a smile and kisses him lips. "Good morning. My favourite way to wake up, you know?"

"I know. I'm your husband and breakfast in bed is the best thing in the world for you."

"Well so is sex." She says smirking. "Just like the first time you woke me up. Haven't been woken up like that in a long time. I say more wake ups like that."

They sit down at the small table and begin to eat.

"God, you were a maniac in bed last night." He says. "You just had this energy to come out and you never stopped."

"It's called a couple of months Derek. It's my sex overdrive. It hasn't been met like it usually is." She says. "Sexual frustration."

"I know. I think we should make a deal."

"What sort of deal?"

"Well we can't go more than 3 days without sex. Unless one of us is away, but you know phone sex makes up for that." He says. "But sex is what is best between us. That's how we communicate."

"3 days. Ok. That is a good enough deal. Just if I am pregnant again and really tired and whale like there should be exceptions."

"Well we will have those exceptions for when you are actually pregnant but for the time being you aren't and we are going to spend this whole weekend naked and having multiple orgasms. Making up for what we missed out on." He says.

"Well can we go out drinking tonight for a little while to celebrate St. Patrick's Day? Cause at the pub down the road they have an Irish theme tonight and we should see how the locals celebrate this day."

"Of course we can. We just have to have a lot of sex before we go out to make up for the couple of hours we will miss out on." He says.

"Deal." She says.

The whole night before she kept the necklace around her neck. Derek insisted she wear it because she looked beautiful with it on. They had rested for only short amounts of time during their sex-a-pade last night and this morning they slept in for a few hours before Derek woke her up with an unexpected wake up before they went again and then fell asleep and he woke her up for breakfast.

They showered together and then fell back into bed with each other. They didn't stop for lunch, they just kept going. New positions, new styles, new techniques. Meredith knew she was going to be walking funny tonight.

"I'm not going to be able to walk properly, you know." She says breathless.

"Well I'll just piggy back you then or carry your bridal style."

She just giggles and smiles. They look at each other again and share a long and lingering gaze.

"Thank you for this weekend. It's only been a day but its' been great." She says.

"Anything for you Mer." He says kissing her again. "Even if it means keeping the people either side of us up, I don't care because I am with you."

They had a lazy afternoon and then got dressed to go down to the Irish pub. They walk hand in hand and enter the pub.

"Welcome to Paddy's pub. Happy St. Patrick's day. We are hoping you are here to enjoy good grub and drink a lot." A man at the door says. "We have a hat for you sir and a necklace for you my lady."

They looked around the pub and it was already buzzing with people wearing different items of clothing. People in hats. People in vests, ladies wearing red wigs and green everywhere.

"First drink is on the house tonight. Are you to looking to eat tonight?"

"Yes. We are starving." Meredith says and catches Derek's smirk.

"Very hungry." He agrees.

"Well here is a menu. Order now if you want and then sit back. We have a great line up tonight. So sit back and enjoy the hospitality."

"We shall." Derek says.

"Thank you."

They find a table and sit down reading the menus.

"What do you want to eat Mer?"

"A hamburger please but can we get drinks first and order later?"

"Sure. I'll be back."

She smiles as he leaves the table. People were drinking from pint glasses and they seemed to lose themselves and not care how ridiculous they looked in some of their costumes. She smiled and looked around the pub. It reminded her of Joe's a lot. She found a blackboard with tonight's line up. Karaoke was starting in twenty minutes. Then a band was playing, it was a special guest band. So no one was sure at who exactly was playing. Derek came back with drinks and sat down.

"Karaoke is going to start soon." She tells him.

"Explains the number of people at the bar buying drinks." He says smiling.

"Are you two interested in singing karaoke tonight?" A lady asks.

They look at each other and smile.

"No its fine. We'll just sit back and watch." Meredith says.

"I don't have much of a voice to sing."

"Come on, its St. Patrick's Day. It's a tradition for everyone to sing karaoke and laugh and have a good time with green dyed beers and other green foods. You two have to get up and have fun and let loose. No one cares how bad and how good people are."

Derek nods his head and smiles at Meredith.

"Okay fine."

"Well we have a set list here. Just write down your names and the song and bring it up to the table."

They flick through the song list.

"Why did you say yes?" Derek asks.

"Because she said it's a tradition and it's about letting loose and we need to let loose and have some fun embarrassing ourselves." She says smiling. "Oh this one Derek."

"Really?"

"Yeah, it's one of our favourite songs we sang together as teenagers."

"Ok. Fine." He says smiling at her. "I don't remember the lyrics though."

"There's a reason why it's called karaoke." She says getting up and leaving the table. She sits back down. "Just skull that drink Derek and get yourself another one and you will be fine for when we start singing."

He kisses her and skulls his beer before going back for another. He sits back down and the karaoke starts. They wait until they are called up.

"Next we have Meredith and Derek."

"That's us. Come on." She says.

He leads her across the floor and up onto the stage. People were spread out everywhere in the pub and they take their microphones and look at the screen. The music starts playing the lyrics come up onto the screen.

Baby you're all that I want.
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven.
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart.
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven.

The whole time throughout the song they looked at each other. Smiling and not taking their eyes off one another. When they finished singing Derek kissed her long and hard as the audience clapped.

"I love you Meredith Grey Shepherd."

She smiles at him and he leads her down from the stage to their seats.

"I'm going to go and order us some dinner Mer."

Derek left and she sat and watched the other people sing in the karaoke. He came back and sat down beside her.

"We thought that you two were great up there." Another couple says approaching them at their table and taking a seat.

"Why thank you."

"Are you two professionals?"

"No. Not professionals just two people looking at letting loose and having a great weekend." Meredith says laughing.

"Really, you would have had me fooled."

"That's probably the booze." She says. "No, we are both doctors."

"Well that's great. Are you two here for your honeymoon?"

"Actually our anniversary. 3 years next weekend." Derek says.

"Are you planning on kids?" The woman asks.

They looked at each other and smile.

"We are planning on more."

"You already have kids?"

"Yeah we do. Two actually. A girl who is 6 and our son who is 2."

"Well you two seem happy. A happy family and a happy marriage." The man says.

They look at each other and nod their heads knowing that they are married. Marriage is real and yes the honeymoon period may be over but they know that a lot of happy times and fun times are to come. Some very grown up times and some very hard times.

"Are you two married?"

"Yeah we are. Have been for 10 years. We got married St. Patrick's day 10 years ago. We come here every anniversary because we had our honeymoon here and we fell in love with this place. St. Patrick day celebrations carry on over the weekend. And if it's on during the week then they have it Saturday night so people come to party and they have a special guest band come and play each year. It's really great."

"Sounds amazing. Do you two have any kids?"

"We have 3. An 8, 6 and 4 year old."

"That's great." They both say smiling.

"Anyway we better let you both enjoy your night. Nice meeting you."

They smile as the couple leave. Their food is placed in front of them and they begin to eat.

"This is a great place." Meredith says.

"You can feel the love that is in the air around this town."

They finish their meal and call home. Kaylee chatted away about her day and how she missed her mummy and daddy. She asked what they exactly got up to and they said they walked around town, went on a wine tour and now they are at a pub celebrating St. Patrick's Day with the town. They then assure her that there will no longer be any more fighting at home. They say goodnight to her and hang up.

"Do you want to dance my lady?"

"There's no music and you don't dance in public."

"I slow dance with the woman I love." He says.

"Of course I would." She says smiling.

Derek smiles back at her and it is that smile that she remembers from the first day they met. That first day when they spent a whole English lesson getting to know each other and soon becoming best friends. The smile that was on his mouth when he told her how much he liked her and asked her to be his girlfriend and when he told her that he loved her. That smile from all those surprises he gave her during their teenage years like after their first sexual encounter or to when he surprised her with that lost bracelet. The smile when he first saw Kaylee on the screen. The grainy black and white image. Then to when he felt the kicking and when he saw Kaylee after she was just born. It was this smile that she loved on him and a smile she would forever hope to see time and time again.

When he finally held his children and when he got to kiss their tiny heads and hear their cries. When they held his finger for the first time and when they first smiled and laughed. When they first crawled and walked and talked and reached every milestone. This smile was something she loved and she had a feeling she would see this smile of joy and love and happiness after their weekend away.

Well she hoped she would.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, that conducts our karaoke for the hour. We will continue it again after our guest band performs." A lady says. "We always have our crowd favourites and our crowd losers. I would like to announce our crowd favourites and Meredith and Derek Shepherd."

They look at each other and walk up onto the stage.

"Each competition we have we always have a winner. You two were a crowd favourite. Enjoy your little St. Paddy's trophy and free drinks at the bar." She says.

"Thank you." Meredith says. They leave the stage and look at each other with a smile.

"Now each year we have a guest band or singing here to perform. Last year we had The Lumineers perform for us." She says. "Tonight though I would like to inform you we have a singer. A male singer. I would like you to put your hands together for Mat Kearney."

Meredith turns to Derek and smiles before kissing Derek.

Kearney comes onto the stage with his band.

"Hello everyone. Hopefully everyone is having a great St. Patrick's day. I am surely enjoying the environment in this room. I will also confess that I stood at the back of the room and listened to the karaoke. Let me say that we have some great singers upon us in this room and some not so great." He says smiling. "Now I would like to get the night started. Have a great night. Drink a lot and dance a lot. Ships in the night."

"What are the chances of this happening?" She says.

"One in a million." He says smiling at her. "But I have my one in a million right here with me. So it was just luck."

He holds her in his arms and they sway side to side to the music. Not in beat but just holding each other is all that counts.

"Now for this next one I have a shout out. To Meredith, my love. Happy 3 years. This weekend will mean a lifetime to us. You're all I need. I love you. Derek."

Meredith looked at him with a smile on her face.

Here it comes it's all blowing in tonight
I woke up this morning to a blood red sky

"How did you get him to dedicate this song to me?"

"Well when I went to the bathroom earlier I ran into him. I dropped my wallet on the ground and he picked it up and looked at the image of Kaylee, you and I on our wedding night. He commented on how beautiful you were and Kaylee as well and he told me he was singing tonight. I mentioned that we danced to this song on our wedding night and he said he would do a shout out for me."

"Really. That is so sweet."

"Anything for you Mer."

They swayed to the music. Bringing back memories from their wedding night.

"There's no baby bump in our way now." She says.

"No baby bump. Anyway you looked beautiful that night. The most beautiful bride I have ever seen."

They spend the night dancing and when Kearney stops singing they start karaoke up again during his break. He comes over to Derek and Meredith.

"This must be Meredith." He says.

"Thank you so much for that shout out. My husband does these things very sneakily to be romantic and spontaneous and dreamy."

"Well he is a special guy." He says. "Are you two from around here?"

"Seattle."

"That's a beautiful place."

"We both have a thing for ferry boats." Meredith says.

"Who wouldn't? They are great." He says. "Do you two want a drink?"

"Sure."

He buys them a round and they sit and talk. Never in a million years would Meredith imagine talking to him.

"Our little girl loves the song All I Need." Meredith says.

"Is she the one in your wallet?"

"Yes but she was three then. She is now 6." Meredith says. "Here is a more updated family photo." She says taking her phone out and showing him a photo that was taken at Christmas time. That's our son Cooper. He will be 3 at the end of June."

"Are you two planning on any more children?"

"We're working on it. Just playing it by year." He says smirking at Meredith.

"Well let's raise our glasses to love and family."

"Cheers!"

…

The next morning they both woke to a slightly sore head. They were doing shot after shot with Kearney and the rest of the pub. They stumbled in the door just before 2 and made up for lost time. They done their famous drunk sex act.

"Morning beautiful."

"Morning." She replies.

"What a great night."

"It really was great." She says smiling.

"We had our famous drunken sex act." He says pushing her hair away from her face and kissing her.

"I know we did." She says smiling but the smile soon fades.

"What's wrong?"

"Derek what if karma has gotten to us. You know the whole teenage pregnancy thing then the adulterous sex we had and got pregnant."

"Meredith you have carried two kids to term. There is nothing wrong. We have been stressed and I believe that a baby knows when to conceive and the last few months has been a hostile environment. So we haven't conceived a baby but we are still young and healthy. There shouldn't be any problems."

"You promise?"

"I promise a whole lot Mer. We just need to keep going at in. Let's say by Cooper's 3rd birthday, if we have not conceived a baby, we will go and see a fertility specialist and have the tests done just in case."

"Ok. So 3 and a half months of baby trying?"

"Exactly. It's a win/win situation." He says smiling.

She lays there and smiles. "What do you think we are going to have next?"

"A girl." He says. "We have that pattern happening. Girl, boy, girl, boy."

"Kaylee wants a little sister."

"Of course she would. She has a brother. She needs a sister. She has one of each."

"I can just picture us in 10 years Derek. We will have Kaylee, Cooper and hopefully two other kids."

"We will be turning 35." He says. I'm going to feel so old. 4 kids at 35. Kaylee will be 16."

"And dating."

"No way will she be dating. I don't want her having a baby at 18."

"Derek, we will drill it in her head from the time she starts going through puberty. Even though I might not mind being a grandma at 36." She says smiling.

"We can have a TV show based on us Mer. Youngest grandparents."

"I think we would lose on that one." She says smiling.

"Well we would just enjoy our family."

She looks at him for a long while.

"What?"

"You have to be honest with me. What would you do if Kaylee came home when she was 17 and she told us she was pregnant?"

He swallowed the lump in his throat. "I honestly… I don't know. I never knew what my father's reaction was to us. I guess I would be upset that she done the same thing we did. I would never call Kaylee a mistake. I just wish she wouldn't go down that path. But I wouldn't mind because I would becoming a grandfather." He says. "But maybe not for another 20 years."

Meredith smiles at him and leans in and kisses him. "We are going to live a wonderful life Derek. Hopefully with lots of grandkids running around and our house on the land. You with your salt and pepper hair. Chief of Surgery. We are going to have a great life Derek and I hope to die in your arms when we are 100 years old." She says.

"I would want to die at the same time as you because if the love of my life dies I would not be able to live a single day without you Mer."

"What if Alzheimer's gets me first?"

"It never will." He says kissing her nose. "We are going to live an illness free life."

She smiles at him. "Thank you for this weekend Derek."

"It's my pleasure Mer."

There it is. Their reunion and road to recovery. Some may not agree on this but it's MerDer. Life wouldn't be great without MerDer.

Next update will be 6 weeks later and a lot of moving on has happened and they are in pure bliss and by the end they will excited at what will come.

Reviews would be great and I shall try and update soon and much to my dismay I go back to school next Wednesday so updates may not be very regular but I will try my best.