Chapter 12

[My newly-built hell]

Rin's P.O.V.

I walked out of the classroom as fast as I could. I ran to my class to grab my bag. Unfortunately, I stopped onto something big. I almost fall as it was very huge. I looked down at the object to see a sleeping Len on the floor. How did he get there? Let it be.

He was sleeping on the floor like a baby. This is what I call a baby. His soft, silky hair covered one of his eyes. Being unconcious, I bent down and played with his beautiful bang. When his body started to move, I jumped and ran to my desk acting as if nothing happened and grabbed my bag.

"Hey, Rin. You're late. Where have you been?" Len asked with one half-opened eyes. He rubbed his eyes and tied up hair into a ponytail. "Why do you care?" I asked while trying to run away from him. "I saw your bag and thought that you were still in the school. I decided to wait for you and walk you to your house." He said with his hoarse voice.

"Who asked you to wait?" I said. "Who asked you to be my loyal dog?" I asked him full of anger. Well, I kind of shouted at him. "I'm sorry. You don't need to shout at me. You really felt uneasy with me that you can't even accept my kindness, huh?" Len said and left the class wit a hurtful expression.

I stood on my standing spot for about 3 minutes, I guess? I feel like crying. It's like the world has come to an end. My cheeks started to feel hot. My throats felt dry. I can't breathe. The urge to cry was very strong. My eyes started to turn red. Why do I feel sad? Shouldn't I feel relieved? He came to hate me. He might put a distance between us. Isn't that what I had wished for?

I did hurt him badly, huh? I felt sorry for him. My feet was wobbly that I fell on the floor. My body hurts as I touched the floor but I don't care anymore. My feelings was a mess. My mind went blank. My tears won't stop. I hate this.

I tried to get rid of him but, I ended up feeling guilty and lonely. You should have seen his puppy face when I avoided him, his hurtful expression when I scolded him. I felt a pang of pain in my heart. My heart felt uneasy.

When I came back to reality, a guy with dark blue eyes were staring into my eyes. He caressed my cheeks and wiped my tears away. "Rinto." I said with my hoarse voice. "What happened?" he asked me. Tears started to flow down my cheeks, again. "I hate him." Is what came out of my lips repeatedly.

"Relax, Rin! You're shaking too much." Rinto said hugging me. Well, Rinny! You have found a new hell for yourself. My heart breaks as the time passed by. My shattered heart felt weird by this man's body heat. I pushed him harshly and I was glad he take a step backward after I did that.

The thing that made me stopped thinking wisely was the concerned and full of emotions expression on his face. "Leave me alone. I need to be alone."I said and ran along the hall way. I wore my shoes and ran back to my home.

I slammed my beg on my bed and started to undress myself. I got into the bath tub to enjoy the hot bath. I almost slept in the bath tub as I was too dissolved in the calmness that the bath gave me.

"Such a typical virgin." "Don't be too shy, dear. Everything will be ruined if you keep on acting this way." "Where have you been?" "I decided to wait for you and walk you home" "Relax Rin! You're shaking too much!" every word that both of them told me made me felt uneasy. I dipped my head in the water and came out gasping for air.

Falling in love makes you feel like having marathons, everyday. I always felt restless. Maybe, just maybe, Rinto wanted to make me feel uncomfortable with skin ships and heart beating fast for a guy. Oh, what am I kidding? My heart is still unable to cope in facing that legendary guy (LEN) even though it have been 7 years. No one can get used to that, or is it not?

What am I doing? I know the answer for that! Congratulations, Rin Akita. Now, you are officially building your own brand new hell. Care to destroy it? I don't know myself anymore.

Am I insane? I think so…