Moving On

Kimiko's POV

I was dreaming something bright. It was like a bright light and I could see someone standing there. I walked closer to the light and the person extended a hand toward me. As I got closer it was Jet. He smiled at me brightly and I smiled back happy to see him. Just when I was about to take his hand, however I heard a voice. I stopped reaching for his hand and slightly pulled back. Someone was calling me . . . calling my name . . .

Suddenly an image appeared next to me in my dream and I could see my friends standing over my body. I was dying and I could see tears in their eyes. I looked over to Raimundo and he was screaming my name for me to stay alive. I put my hand down and continued to watch the image for a while. I blamed myself for Jet's death and thought that ending my life would end all suffering. In the end however, I was just causing more suffering to others. I looked back at Jet who was looking at me confused and I gave a warm smile.

"It's like you said Jet . . . I need to keep living for both of us . . . besides they need me now . . ." I replied.

Jet then gave a warm smile and walked to me and stopped when we were face to face. He brushed his hand on my cheek and I shuttered at his touch. It felt . . . warm. He then leaned close and kissed my forehead. Then a bright light came and suddenly everything just became white and I started to feel my heart beat again. Finally I opened my eyes . . .

As I began to wake up it took a while for my vision to become clear again. I felt very light headed and didn't move for a while. Suddenly I began to felt something in my hand. I turned my head slowly and saw Raimundo. My eyes widen in shock, but then I realized he was asleep. He was holding my hand where I had . . . Anyways I looked around the room and saw that it was just me and him.

"Kimiko . . ." He whispered in his sleep.

I let out a small laugh and then used my other hand and brushed the hair out of his eyes. He looked so innocent when he was sleeping. Suddenly I saw his eyes began to open and he used his other hand to wipe his eyes and then he looked at me and realized I was awake. He was startled a little, but then he grabbed me and pulled me into a hug.

"Thank god you're alright! I thought I lost you!" Rai cried out hugging me tightly and I didn't say anything, but let out a small cry.

"What the heck do you think you were doing!? I can't believe you tried to kill yourself! I mean . . . I just . . . I just can't believe . . . you'd leave me here . . . all alone . . ." Rai cried and I cried to a little.

"I'm sorry . . . that was selfish of me and I'm sorry . . . I just . . . Jet's death I blamed myself for . . . Do you know what's it's like to see someone close to die in front of your own eyes?" I questioned and he said nothing.

Instead he took my hand in his and gave me a small smile. Suddenly Clay, Omi, Dojo, and Master Fung came in and came to hug me and tear up a bit. I reassured all of them I was fine even though I was still sadden by what had happen, I was still deep down inside happy with them being here even if I didn't show it. Suddenly Raimundo pulled Master Fung aside and began to talk to him about something. Master Fung then nodded and then Rai joined us.

"Pack some clothes guys . . . we're taking a day off tomorrow!" Raimundo said.

. . . . . .

The next day came fast and quick. At first everyone was worried for me, but then Raimundo cut in and told everyone that it would be fine. I was actually pleased that he said that because honestly I wanted to get out of the Temple and get some air. Throughout most of the day though Rai had been by my side all day. I'm not really complaining since I enjoyed his company and he did try to make me feel better, but still I did need some place.

Anyways once I got some things packed and so did the rest of the guys we all got on Dojo and were flying somewhere. Rai wouldn't tell us where we were going and said that it was a surprise. Once we arrived at our destination we landed on a beach that was basically to ourselves. Rai helped me off Dojo and I looked around and thought how cool it was to actually see the ocean again.

"Welcome to Rio!" Rai exclaimed.

"This place is amazing!" Clay shouted.

"I couldn't agree with you more my friend!" Omi shouted running to the ocean along with Clay.

I watched as those two dive into the ocean and began to swim around for a while. I sat on the beach looking out into the ocean and just clearing my head. Suddenly Rai sat by me and stared at the ocean too. I glanced down and looked at my wrist and sighed deeply. I'm so stupid . . . How could I even think of killing myself . . . it was selfish of me and wrong. It would bring no one happiness . . .

"Hey there's something I have to show you, but it's not here so will have to leave for a while. Do you trust me?" Rai said extending a hand toward me as he stood up.

I haven't heard those three words in so long from him. I saw he had the Golden Tiger Claws in his other hand. I looked at him with concerning eyes, but then I slowly reached for his hand and grasped it. He used the Wu and we were transported somewhere else. Once we got to the destination I looked confused and shock. We were at the edge of a cliff with someone's grave in front of me. I looked back there was a forest behind me and Rai was behind me. He walked past me and went to the grave. I moved closer and saw the name Bella Heart.

"After we split up for 3 years I went back to Rio. When I did I got into a lot of trouble, but I managed. Still I became a different person when I came back and changed for the worse. Well when I became a different person I met this girl Bella Heart. For a while I thought she could be the one to maybe save me from this emptiness inside me. As you know back then I loved you and after we fought I never thought I'd see you again. So I thought maybe I could move on with Bella, but I was wrong . . . She tried to make me change into an even worse person then I already was when I changed. She tried to get to do all kinds of things that I'd never even consider . . . Realizing the person she was I ended our relationship. But then one night she called me and said we needed to talk. At first wasn't going to listen, but she said if I came she would move on from me . . ." Rai explained still not looking at me, but the grave and was silent for a while until he began to talk again.

"So that night I went to her apartment where she stayed. I saw that her door had been open and I entered to a room that was completely trashed. I looked around for Bella, but she was nowhere at first until I heard a wind blowing. I went closer to the sound and I saw her outside her balcony sitting on the edge of it. I walked closer and I heard her laughing. She turned and faced me still sitting and I saw her grin. She extended a hand toward me and told me to join her. At first I didn't know what she meant until she stood up and smiled and still had her hand out. She said she wanted us to be together and that she could end all my agony if I joined her. . ." Rai explained and my eyes went wide, because I knew what he would say next.

"She was going to jump and kill herself and wanted me to die with her. She said we didn't belong here and that there was a better place for us somewhere else where we could be happy. I refused and I saw her continue to laugh once more and I thought she had totally lost it. I tried to convince her to get down, but she wouldn't listen. She looked at me on last time now with a frown on her face and said this to me . . . "You're the reason I want to die . . . This is your fault . . . Now you'll have to live with this memory forever . . ." Then without saying anything she smiled and jumped . . ." Rai said and his voice began to break.

I came up to him and laid a hand on his shoulder and he immediately turned around and hugged me tightly. I felt hot tears on my shoulder.

"I had to live with that memory every day and soon I began to go insane. I would have dreams where she would be there and that memory would just replay over and over again. I couldn't sleep for days know her death was my fault. Even I had gotten to the point where I . . . was in the exact position you were in Kimiko . . ." Raimundo said.

At first I didn't understand what he meant, until he glanced at my wrist. I quickly pulled his wrist and saw a tiny scar left there. I started to cry soft sobs for him because he had gone through exactly what I had been through. The situation may have been a little different, but still sort of the same.

"Lucky for me the cut I made only made a tiny scar that wouldn't be so easy to recognize. When I thought I was dying I swear to this day I heard a voice calling me. She kept saying my name over and over and somehow that just gave me the courage to wake up. I realized I was in a hospital alive and well." Rai said.

"Who was the voice?" I asked and for a while he was quiet, but then looked at me.

"You . . ." He replied and my eyes went wide.

"You gave me the strength I needed to keep going. I had gotten way over my head and regretted everything I had done for the past 3 years. However, somehow after all that time memories of you and everyone kept me going. So when I got a call from Master Fung I immediately came to all of you hoping to start over with all of you . . . to start over with you . . ."

"Rai . . ." I said weary and I felt him grab both my hands in his as he stared at me with those green eyes.

"I love you Kimiko, and I don't care what your feelings are toward me. As long as I'm with you I can do anything. So I'm asking you . . . Can I stay by your side even if you don't love me?"

I felt his grip on my hands become tighter and his eyes became more serious. I looked into his eyes and then tighten my grip on his hands.

"Rai . . . I was drawn between two men, one of which is the man I love and the other was a man I was dangerously attracted to. The man I was attracted to is now dead . . . the man I love however, is still alive and is with me . . . right here . . . right now . . ." I replied and I smiled.

He looked at me with surprise in his expression and I watched as he began to cheer. I laughed and he turned to me and picked me up and spun me around while I still smiled and laughed at him. He stopped spinning me but still had me wrapped around his arms still holding me. As I looked down into his beautiful eyes I saw him smile brightly at me and I smiled back.

"I really missed your smile," Rai grinned and I laughed.

"So do I," I replied while brushing the hair out of his eyes.

"I love you Kimiko,"

"I love you too Rai,"

Without a second and leaned toward me and kissed me ever so sweetly and it felt as if my heart was going to explode from happiness. The kiss was sweet, passionate, and just more than I could ever imagine it to be. When we parted we smiled at each other warmly and laughed. I really do love him and I couldn't be happier. We may have gone through many struggles along the way for our feelings to be reached, but now that we're together I think we can do anything . . .