A/N: Sorry for the delay. I had writer's block for a several weeks and I was sick for some of them. I am back in school so the homework is going to pile back on. I will try to update as often as possible but I can't guarantee anything. Anyway I hope you enjoy this chapter and thank you for reviewing everyone!!!
Warnings: abuse, violence, swearing etc.
Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans. I do not own the song by Saliva.
Chapter Thirteen
Always
Beast Boy walked into the garage flicking on the lights. He grabbed a key from the rack not caring which vehicle it was as long as it wasn't Cyborg's. He pressed the unlock button and the lights on a red convertible flashed. He walked over and jumped over the car door. He started the engine and pressed his foot to the gas, the engine revved and the tires squealed as he rocked out of the garage.
Beast Boy ran fingers through his hair with a shaky hand. So many thoughts rushed through his head. Raven had made up his mind for him, which shocked him but at the same time it seemed she had lifted some burden off his shoulders. He had been so confused about the whole situation and though he didn't really want to admit it he still was. 'Don't be so blind! Terra never really loved you; she never said it to you unless you prompted her. She used to run off most days saying she was doing something else leaving you alone in the house and she would come home at odd times in the morning. Where was she all that time? Out with someone else perhaps? She just used you. You know it's true.' A voice said in his head.
He clenched his teeth suppressing the need to growl. 'I still love her even though I have always loved Raven. God I love Raven.' He thought with a smile. 'Terra didn't want you. She just didn't want Raven to have you. She pretended to love you; she never actually cared about you. This was all just a part of a plan. This was a game for her.' That voice nagged.
I hear a voice say 'Don't be so blind'
It's telling me all these things
That you would probably hide
Am I your one and only desire?
Am I the reason you breathe?
Or am I the reason you cry?
He sighed as he pulled over in front of the apartment building. He shut off the engine slowly and sat in the car for a moment trying to prepare himself for the worse. That little voice seemed to come nagging back at him, 'You may love her but think of the things she did to you. She used you. She played you for a fool. She left you alone in solitude waiting for her to come home. She probably cheated on you. Come on think about it.' Beast Boy groaned burying his head into the steering wheel. The voice was right but he couldn't get over the fact that he was still in love with her. An image flashed before his eyes of smiling lips and silky hair of violet. He smirked a little at the thought. He was going crazy. He was being pulled in two directions by his own heart and mind.
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I just can't live without you
Beast Boy climbed out of the car and entered the lobby of the building. The elevator ride felt like forever before the doors opened to the 14th floor. He turned down the right hallway heading towards the door. As he approached he noticed the entire floor sounded eerily quiet but he pushed the thought out of his mind as he stopped in front of the door. He jammed the key into the lock and walked in.
The apartment looked the same for the most part. There wasn't a mess on the floor anymore but the furniture seemed to be in the same place. The entire place was in darkness as the blinds were shut to. He glanced around the apartment looking for the blond locks that belonged to Terra. He slipped off his shoes and walked further inside. As he entered the living room, he could feel the hairs on his neck prickle. He looked in the far corner to see Terra sitting in a large chair that hadn't been there before. He froze as those icy blue eyes stared at him.
"Well hello, Beast Boy. I was wondering when you would show up. I figured you would fuck that slut before you came here. Obviously you already had." Terra said her voice dripping with venom. Beast Boy growled low in his throat. 'How dare she call Raven a slut! How dare she say that I slept with her!' "Oh, so I am right?"
"No. You're. Not." He said biting out each word as his anger suddenly seemed to take over. She smirked as she stood walking a few feet towards him, her hands glowing slightly as she tried to control her own anger.
"You're leaving me, the love of your life for some two-bit trashy whore. Weren't you the one who always said you couldn't live without me?" She asked her voice coated with fake sweetness. Beast Boy felt his eyes glow dangerously in the darkness of the room. 'How could you have ever loved a bitch like her?' That voice wondered.
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
"I was mistaken back then. You had me wrapped around your fucking pinkie finger. You made me believe you loved me but you never did. This was just some sick twisted game of yours. You never wanted me around. You wanted to have a life where you could fuck what you wanted, when you wanted without being tied down. I guess I was wrong that I couldn't live without you. And you are the one that is a whore. Now if you don't mind I'm here to pack my things." Beast Boy stated heading towards the bedroom not even bothering to look back over his shoulder at the girl. He heard her stomp after him as he entered the bedroom.
I feel like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things
I guess I'll see you around
He grabbed a bag from his closet as he started piling clothing in from the closet. He felt her storm into the bedroom as the floor shook a little from her powers. He didn't look up as he felt her stand over him.
"I should kill you now so that you can't ever have what you want. I am the only one you should ever want. You love me. You want me. You can't even live without me. It's only because of that tramp using her magic on you that you don't love me anymore." Terra shrieked as the floor continued to shake. Beast Boy stopped in his movements slowly turning towards her.
"For your information, Raven has been as high as a kite she wouldn't even know how to use her powers let alone work magic on me. I still love you but I don't want you anymore. I don't need you anymore. It'll take some time for me to find out if I can't live without you but I'm pretty sure I can. Now if you have nothing else you want to say I am trying to pack so I can get out of your life for good." He said his voice as cold as steel before he continued packing.
Inside it bottles up until now
As I walk out your door
All I can hear is the sound
Terra's powers seemed to make the building shake even more as his anger climbed to heights that Beast Boy never imagined. He felt rather than heard her leave the room for him to continue packing. He found another of his bags and started putting his mementos in it. He was breathing heavy trying to calm down his heart that was beating so fast. He was scared that she was right that he couldn't live without her but he knew he had before so why not now?
He ran his fingers through his hair shakily as he heard a door slam somewhere in the apartment. The house continued to shake continuously but that was something he didn't care about. He growled as a scent from the bed made him stop. He knew scents all too well and this was one he was shocked about.
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I just can't live without you
He turned to Terra as she walked into the room. His eyes were glow an eerie green as he glared at her. Her hands shook as she took a step into the room. He looked at her hands but didn't care about what was held in them.
"You slept with him." His voice held nothing but contempt for the girl in front of him. She seemed a little taken a back by his statement causing her to move slightly back into the hallway. "You slept with him!" Beast Boy seemed to be panting rather hard for the anger in his veins seemed to be rushing faster and faster.
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
Terra glared at him as she smirked smugly. Her smirk turned into a full out laugh as she turned her head towards the ceiling howling in laughter. Beast Boy watched her seething as she continued to laugh before her head turned towards him maliciously.
"So the beasts' senses finally picked up his scent. Took you long enough to notice it. I'm surprised you didn't notice it before when I came home nights. His scent was all over me and in me. Too bad it took you this long to figure it out otherwise maybe you could have saved poor little Raven a little sooner." She said heartlessly. Beast Boy yowled loudly, it echoing throughout the small room. He leered at her as his muscles seemed to tighten in anticipation of what was to come.
"You slept with Mark. You let that happen to Raven. I can never forgive you for that." His voice stated in steel coldness.
I left my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart?
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Terra didn't seem very fazed by what he said to her as she moved farther into the room. A pistol shook in her glowing hand as she aimed it at Beast Boy. He didn't move knowing the girl would shoot if he did.
. "If I hadn't shown up just after your birthday, things would have gotten a little out of hand between you and Raven. I knew you still had feelings for me so all we had to do was find someone the little birdie would be interested in. We made it so but then that bitch had to try to kill herself and you went running to her. You just had to be a hero and make sure that she didn't die. If she had all would have worked out but no, you had to go and save her. The plan would have been complete and nothing could have stopped us. So now I have to change the plan and make it sure you don't make it back to her." Terra assumed as the pistol shook in her hand.
Beast Boy just stared at her for a moment. Thoughts ran through his head quicker than he could recognize them. 'Terra and Mark had worked together to keep him and Raven apart but why? Mark had tried to kill Raven's spirit so that nothing remained but an empty shell. Terra tried to isolate me so that I would be hers always. Why did they want to keep Raven and I apart so badly?' He thought. 'It's Raven's blood on her hands. She did that to Raven not just Mark. Raven's injuries were caused by her. This was all part of her plan.' That voice declared loudly. He crouched down lower his muscles readying themselves for anything. His dangerous green eyes never left her icy blue ones.
I see the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel more like a man?
Was it all just a part of your plan?
He lunged at her grabbing for the pistol. She gasped as her back landed against the wall hard. He struggled for several moments with her. Her hands and eyes glowing as the floor beneath his feet arched and pitched in an attempt to shake him from the pistol. He wouldn't give up; he wasn't going to die here not after everything he had been through. He hissed his fangs showing to the other blond. She just smirked.
"Oh the little kitty has come out to play to bad that beast isn't there otherwise he might just have a chance to win. Though I highly doubt it." She taunted. He growled biting down on her hand causing her to let go of the pistol. He grabbed it, backing away from her slowly. He grabbed his bags slinging them over his shoulder as the pistol shook nervously in his hands.
The pistols shaking in my hands
And all I hear is the sound
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
Terra hissed at him as she cradled her wounded hand. Beast Boy stood looking at her with hate-filled eyes. He had never loved someone only to find out how much he really hated them for what they did to him and someone he cared about. All the tender moments he had shared with her didn't matter anymore. All the things they had said and done didn't matter either. He was done with her and as soon as he could get to the door, he was gone and never coming back. Then he would have the rest of the Teen Titans hunting down her and Mark. They would rot in prison if he had anything to say about it.
He shook violently; his heart was still reaching out for her. He couldn't hurt someone he had loved. It just wasn't in his nature.
"What's the problem Beast Boy? Don't have the guts to kill me?" She asked haughtily. He glared at her as he pointed the pistol at her. He moved closer causing her to step back into the hallway. He followed after her as she moved into the living room he slipped into the entry way slipping on his shoes with the front door at his back.
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
"I'm done with you, Terra. If I ever see your face again, I won't hesitate to kill you. You hurt Raven even if you never laid a hand on her. It was your plan that made her become the way she is today. I don't care why you tried to tear us apart but I will make sure you or Mark never does it again." He said reaching for the doorknob and turning it slowly. She laughed.
"Oh don't worry. We won't be apart for very long. Our plan will come together even if it wasn't the way we originally planned it. Now go home to the slut while you still can." She chuckled as the floor pitched causing him to fall on his tailbone. He glared at her as he picked himself off the floor.
"Oh I am not worried at all, bitch. Unlike you I have friends that are willing to back me up. I have people who actually care about me. So I don't have to live a life of solitude with you." Beast Boy stated as he turned and walked out the door.
I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor
And now I'm done with you
Beast Boy threw the bags and pistol in the back of the car before he started the engine and roaring back towards the Tower and to Raven. 'I promise I won't let anyone come between Raven and I again. Mark and Terra are going to pay for what they did to her and what they did to me. I will always go after Raven. I will always protect her with my life. I will always love her, no matter what.'
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To Be Continued…
I hope you enjoyed. I'm not sure if this chapter turned out the way I wanted it to but I think it works. Anyway I'll try to update again soon. Please Review.
Next Chapter:I'm thinking of using Wash Away Those Years but I'm not sure yet. All I know is it's time for Raven to start to recover.