WHATS THIS! TWO CHAPTERS IN ONE WEEKEND! ITS UNHEARD OF! Well here is chapter 13! And finally I'm getting to the point where I wanted to be. The past couple of chapters were supposed to fly by fast but whatever I got where I want to be. PLEASE REVIEW

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Todays song is brought to you by the letter C… as in Cher. If I Could Turn back Time by Cher. Only because I believe many of the character feel this way in this chapter and because Cher is just a huge inside joke with my friends and I.

I don't know why I did the things I did
I don't know why I said the things I said
Pride's like a knife, it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons, they wound sometimes
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't wanna see you go
I know I made you cry

But baby
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that have hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back time

"What do you want Bella?" I said bitterly. I really didn't want to talk to her at this point but she wasn't going to stop bugging me unless I did.

"Hey Alice," she said back almost like she was scared or shy. "It's been a while since we really talked. I just miss you so much."

"I know… I miss you, too" I swallowed hard. She was doing it again. The way she can always wrap me around her finger like I was a lock of hair. I hate when she did shit like this especially at a time like this, I felt terrible for leaving Jake alone.

"Then come back to me, I'm at your house right now. Come see me, I know so much has happened but come see me." Her voice was so warming to me, I did want to see her but the thoughts of her that day tore me apart inside. "But I can't forgive you for what you did." The anger was building inside of me and she was the source of it all.

"I know what I did was… not the best choice."

"It is totally inexcusable." I said, the last of my anger flying out the window.

"I know but please, don't put yourself in the middle of what's going on between Jacob and I. Come home and see me right now. I'm wearing that lace nighty that you love so much." I had to be strong, now she was playing dirty. I looked off back towards the edge; he was just sitting there alone. That was all I needed. "I'm with Jacob right now."

"Well, I'll be here when you get home."

There was no winning this fight; there never is when I'm dealing with Bella. "Ok we can talk tonight when I come home"

"Awww, I love you so much."

She was punching holes in my defense. "I love you, too."

She let out an evil giggle. "Edward's here, he says he wants to talk with you."

GRRR! Why couldn't they just let me get back to Jacob? I looked at him, so sweet, so innocent just sitting there. "Fine, let me talk to him."

"Hey Alice." His voice was calm.

"Hey Ed," I said back.

"Where have you been lately? I swear I was scared that you run away from home."

"Yeah, I know we haven't talked in a long time."

"What have you been doing for the past couple of weeks? Spoon feeding him."

"Well, I've been cleaning up the mess you made." I was angry, how could he ever say anything like that. This was his entirely fault that Jacob is like this "He's not good Ed."

"I guess he's standing in the mess he made. Had it coming if you ask me."

"Don't say that," I snapped back at him. "No one ever deserves that."

"Oh come on Alice, don't take his side over mine, you know what I've had to go through Alice? No, you haven't even been home."

"You don't know what I've had to deal with," Now I was yelling, his words drilled so much anger inside me it finally exploded. "He's like a zombie. You know how hard it is for me to look at him like that, he's a wonderful person and you just dragged him down and crushed him. I don't know how you can be so blasé about all of this. Don't play like you're not hurting Edward because I know you are."

His voice finally cracked and changed. "I miss him Alice," he was crying now. His voice was evidence of it. "I didn't think I would but I really do. But he hurt me; he kissed Mike Newton and totally lied about it. I'm hurting too Alice, but you don't see that, do you?"

"I do Edward, but you're not hurting in the same way. This was the first cut. I guess I'm just trying to stop the bleeding. I don't want him to go the same way that you did. When you left us, it ripped me apart. I was always so worried. I don't want him to do something like that." I looked back to the edge of the cliff but Jacob wasn't there anymore. My heart dropped in my chest. Forcing as much strength as I could to my legs to get me back to the edge. He didn't, he wouldn't? I looked over the edge to the frigid water below. Why would he do that? My emotions instantly took over; my eyes became cloudy with tears. My breathing went from simple and easy to haggard and hyperventilating. "Jacob!" I called, but nothing came back.

"JACOB!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Nothing. He was gone. "E…Ed… Edward, I…I…gotta go. J…Jacob ju…just jumped off…a… cliff." Saying it out loud hurt more then anything. Edward went silent but I didn't care, I hung up the phone and ran back to the car. I needed to get help.

I felt the warmth surrounding me. Was this Heaven? Was it all finally over? How would Alice react to this? I hope she doesn't take it out on herself; it wasn't her fault. She was there for me, she was stronger then I was. She took care of me, of both of us. Not once did she complain about her relationship ending while I became a broken mess over this. What would Billy say? Would Alice be the one who had to tell him? Would he cry? What about Rachel? I felt bad for her; she already lost her twin to marriage, now she had to lose her little brother to water. How fast would the news of my death spread through Forks? Would there be a big memorial service? Would everyone in school show up acting like they were my best friends even thought most of them didn't know me? Would they cry? Would they even care? Will I be forgotten in a year's time, just another teen statistic? What would Edward say? What would he do? Would he blame himself for all of this? Would he try and block out the pain by cutting or something along those lines? Would he even be sad or would he be happy that I'm finally out of his life forever? Will I see my mother again?

The light I was heading towards was dim at first but soon it began to grow in strength. Soon the small light was now engulfing me and soon that was all I could see. I could hear voices as well, were these voices of the past? "I think he's waking up, keep it up Sam!" one called. Sam? Who the hell is Sam? I never knew a Sam.

"He's starting to move." Another one called. The first one was definitely a guy this one now a girl's. Now I could start to feel everything start to work again. My fingers moved slightly as I could feel the graininess of sand between them, the feeling of fabric on top of me, warming me, hand pushing down on my chest a couple of time and then lips pressing on mine, blowing air into my lung. The water in my lung gurgled for a second and then my body began to reject it. I weakly opened my eyes and spit the water from my body. There was a blinding light shining on my face. As I squinted, trying to get used to it, I could make out a couple of shadowy figures standing around me. My body shuddered again, forcing more water out of my system. I was alive. Figures I couldn't even kill myself right.

"Seth, you idiot, get the light out of his eyes." A harsh but familiar voice screeched.

"Oops" Another familiar voice said as the flashlight turned off with a click. For a second my vision adjusted. My eyes were sore and stung from the saltwater. It wasn't long before the blurry silhouettes because more and more defined. There were eight people standing around me; all had dark black hair and their skin shone a copper from a flickering fire close by.

"Are you alright?" One asked. It was the brawny guy I saw today. "Can you tell me what your name is?" He asked. I heard his words and I tired to respond but my throat was on fire from ingesting so much water. I tried to speak but nothing more then wisps of sound came out.

"Get him some water." The brawny guy said to another guy. This one was thin and tall with round muscular arms. He ran off while the others still stared down at me. Water was the last thing I wanted considering how much I had swallowed but I was in no position to fight them on it.

"Do you think he hit his head, Sam?" A kind voice asked. It was the girl with the long scars down her face.

"I don't know, Emily." The guy looked down at me again. "Did you hit your head?" He asked. "You don't have to say anything just nod or shake your head." I shook my head; I didn't feel like it hit it. The rest of my body ached from being slammed repeatedly on the rocks. "Good, now do you remember your name?" I nodded. I did remember that, it was Jacob Black. One thing I didn't remember was how did I get out of the water and on to the beach.

"His name is Jacob," I knew that voice. It was Seth, the kid who I had talked to earlier today. Sam nodded. I also looked around to see Leah's face, the harpy who scolded Seth for talking to me.

"Ok Jacob, I need to know, is anything broken." I wiggled my fingers and toes, moved my knees and arms, twisted a little to move my back and hips. Everything seemed to be intact. I shook my head.

"Here's the water." The thin kid came back with a bottle filled with clean, clear liquid. Sam took it and I felt some hands lifting me up into a sitting position. Sam held the bottle to my mouth. "Drink, it will make your throat feel better." I didn't fight them, just let the water fill me again. This time it didn't sting but helped cool the fire in my throat. "Thanks" I said in a harsh, hoarse, weak voice.

"JACOB!" I heard Alice's voice calling from a distance. She must still be up on the cliff. Her voice was almost straining into a bloodcurdling scream.

"Is that your friend?" Sam asked. I nodded; I didn't feel like talking that much.

"Embry, go get her." Sam commanded to the thin kid. He was about to run but I croaked out a 'no'. He nodded and ran off to one of the nearby cars.

"Why did you jump off of there, Jacob?" Emily asked in her sweet sounding voice. I reviewed what happened before I had jumped. She was talking to Bella and… Edward. My body shook at the thought of his name. She said that I was a burden and that I had put her through hell. Well that's not what she said exactly but it was close enough. "I just wanted it to end. I realized I had put my only friend left through hell and I just wanted it to end. For her and me." Emily really didn't understand my response but she didn't push the subject either.

"Come on, you must be freezing, let's get you by the fire. Are you strong enough to walk?" She asked. I lifted myself off of the sand into a standing position. My legs wobbled and I almost fell back but I was able to hold myself up. They all stayed close to me in case I fell and walked over to the roaring fire. It felt amazing to be near such a strong source of heat. The fire danced with reds, blues and greens. I'd heard about that before, it was from the driftwood; all the salts changed the color of the fire.

They all sat down in places around the fire, their eyes still on me as I attempted to warm up. Seth took a seat next to me. "So what happened? How did I get out of the water?" I asked since they were all looking at me.

"Oh, I saw you jump," Seth said. "Once I saw that I told Sam and he jumped in after you. He was able to drag you ashore and give you CPR." I seemed a little embarrassed that they had to help me. I didn't want anyone to know. "Thank you," I said taking another drink of water. "I guess I should say it's nice to meet you all but I would hope that it would have been under better circumstances."

"Well, it's nice to meet you. I'm Sam Uley. This is my fiancé Emily Young." He pulled her closer. I wanted to ask what her scars were from but I didn't want to be rude. I let them go on with their introductions. They introduced Paul, Quill, and Jared. Leah and Seth I had met already.

"Well, it's nice to meet you all. I'm Jacob Black." The one named Embry pulled back up. "She wasn't up there. She must have left before I could get up there." I knew at this point Alice was probably panicking. I pulled out my cell phone to call her but when I looked at it, it was totally fried out. The water had destroyed it. "Damn it. I have to go." I got up from the logs we were sitting on.

"Do you need a ride?" Seth asked.

"I guess. My ride totally took off." I tried laughing but no one else seemed to think it was funny. "Well Leah and I can give you a ride." Leah seemed annoyed about getting volunteered to drive but she didn't say anything.

XXXXXX

We pulled up in front of my house. Yup, Alice was here. Her yellow Porsche was parked in the driveway. "Thank you again, you guys." I said as I unfastened my seatbelt and stepped out of the cab. "Hey, it was no problem," Seth said. "Hey, if you ever want to hang out just come on down to La Push. You're a pretty cool guy." I smiled at the thought to making new friends. It's just what I needed right now. "Thanks. I just might take you up on that offer." I closed the door and they drove away.

I walked past the cars in the driveway and opened the backdoor. The sounds of crying were coming from the living room but they suddenly stopped when I closed the door behind me. Walking into the living room I found Alice and my father both horror-struck, their mouths agape, eyes red from tears. "Hey," I said weakly. Neither of them said anything, they just continued to stare at me.

Alice got up from her seat slowly and walked over to me. Her hand touched my face, as if checking if I was really there and not just an allusion. "You're alive," She whispered as she pulled me into a tight hug. It stung as her hand rapped around my bruised back. "I thought I lost you." She cried as she buried her face into my chest. After a minute of weeping into my body she pulled back and her face looked like a dragon about to strike down its prey. "YOU'RE ALIVE!" she was in a rage. "What the hell were you thinking jumping off of that cliff? You could have been killed!"

I looked down at the small girl before me and I knew I had misconstrued her words. She really did care for me. "Truthfully, that's what I was trying to do. I heard what you said about you have to 'clean up' Edward's mess. I thought I was just some charity case to you. I didn't want you to have to burden yourself with me." She just laughed a struggling laugh through her worries.

"Don't you dare ever think that again! I'm here because you're my friend Jacob. It's been a tough couple of weeks having to see you like that but I wouldn't trade our time together for anything in the world." I hugged her again; this time I ignored the pain that ran through my back.

"That was a pretty stupid thing of you to do, Jake." My dad said as he watch our entire exchange of words.

"I know, Dad. I wasn't thinking and just let my instincts take over. That's one thing I'm not doing again."

"How the hell did you get out of the water?" He asked. Alice pulled away from me again and we both sat down on couch.

"Oh, one of the locals jumped in and saved me. I actually talked to some of them and they all seemed really nice. They invited me back there any time. I think I might just start hanging out there more."

"Oh yeah, who were they?"

I ran through some of the name in my head. "Sam Uley, that's the guy that saved me. Umm… Seth and Leah Clearwater."

"Oh yeah," he perked up at the sound of their named. "The Clearwater's. No shit. You know, they are Harry and Sue Clearwater's kids." The Clearwater's were some of my Dad's old friends, epically Harry. Him and Charlie always go fishing in La Push so it's no surprise that they were friends with the locals. I guess at the time I just didn't put two and two together. He never really talked about them. "I haven't seen Harry or Sue in a while. You know I used to live down in La Push when I was your age."

"So are we related to the tribe there?"

"Oh yeah. But me and your mother decided that once she was pregnant with you and your sisters were going to start school we wanted you to have somewhat a normal life so we decided you should go to public school." Wow, hearing all this really made me want to go back to La Push. I wanted to know more about the tribe and find out about some of my past. I was dragged out of my thoughts when there was a hard knock at the door. "Come in," Billy yelled as none of us wanted to go answer it. A frantic and scantily clad Bella ran into the living room, eyes puffy and bloodshot. "Oh God Billy, I just heard…"When she saw me sitting there her face turned white and looked like she had seen a ghost.

"Well hello, Bella," Billy said. "What brings you here so late?"

"Umm well, I came to see how you were doing. I heard that Jake jumped off the ledge of a cliff and killed himself. I see he's still alive." Alice slapped her hand to her forehead.

"I totally forgot I was on the phone with Edward when that all happened. I better call him to clear everything up." Alice pulled out her cell and started to dial.

"Don't bother. He's totally wasted. After you told him, he grabbed a bottle of vodka and drank himself stupid. But you should call the rest of your family, Esme will be relieved." Alice changed the numbers on the screen of her phone and got up from her seat and walked into the kitchen.

"Well, since my son is still alive, I'm going to bed." Billy wheeled out of the room to his bedroom, leaving Bella and I alone. We stared at each other for a couple of minutes before either of us said anything. She took a seat in the loveseat across the room. "Thanks for coming to see Billy."

"I was told you died. It scared me to hear that. I was angry at myself that the last thing we really said to each other was mean and spiteful. I hated myself; pretty much beat myself up the whole way over here wishing I could have changed all that. So I wanted to make up for it by being here for Billy. I bet you can imagine my surprise and relief that you're still alive. I guess I get a chance to make up for all of my mistakes."

"Yeah," I ran my fingers through my hair. "I guess neither of us have been the best of friends to each other lately." She nodded in agreement.

"I never meant for Edward to break up with you, I just expected he would be really pissed for a while. But I just was angry I could only see red and…" I stopped Bella before she could go on any further.

"Bella, you don't have to say anything. We both did stupid things and really hurt each other. I'm sure if we could turn back the hands of time we would both take back everything we did. How about we hold the apologies and say everything is in the past and start anew? How does that sound?"

Small tears rolled down Bella's rosy cheeks. She quickly did away with them with one swipe of the back of her hand. "That would be amazing." We both stood up and embraced each other in a hug. It felt amazing to have Bella in my arms again. She constricted tightly around me causing me to wince in pain but I didn't break away. "Next time you try and kill yourself make sure we're on speaking terms." We both started laughing. It sure was great to have her back.

"Wow, I must have missed something?" Alice said as she walked back into the room. We pulled apart and laughed a little more. "Yeah, Jacob and I decided that it would be best to be friends again."

"Yeah, if we lost each other while we were still mad neither of us would forgive ourselves."

"Well great. Esme and Carlisle are thrilled to know that you're still alive. You said Edward is drunk now?" Alice put her phone away in her purse and picked up her jacket. "I better go take care of him now."

"Yeah, you should have seen his face. All the color drained away, he looked like alabaster stone. Then he just went straight to the liquor cabinet and drank up. I tried to talk him out of it but he wouldn't listen to me." I nudged Bella a little bit towards Alice.

"Well Alice, before you leave I was hoping to talk to you. I was thinking since Jacob and I are friends again we're going to be spending a lot more time together to make up for the weeks we missed. I don't want things to be awkward between anyone so I was hoping that you and I could make up as well." That's all it took to bring down Alice's defenses. The two of them embraced each other in a short but passionate hug. "Oh god, I miss you. You don't know how hard it was to stay away from you." Bella said.

"Yes I do." Alice hugged tighter. When they pulled apart, Alice jingled her keys in her hand. "Well I better go make sure Edward can still walk tomorrow. I'll see you both at school."

That night I had to sleep on my stomach. It hurt too much to even think about lying on my back. Despite that, sleep came easy this night. I didn't have that heavy pressure in my chest… at least not at much. I had one of my friends back. But Edward still eluded me. Thinking about him brought back those feeling of anxiety. He's still the one piece missing from the puzzle of my life. I knew deep down that he still cared about me.

XXXXXX

The next day Alice was already outside waiting for me before I even had a chance to wake up. Bella has already gotten ready and jumped into the car. I groggily got out of bed. I was still very weak from a combination of trying to recover and the lack of medicine. I decided it wouldn't be right to not to my medicine, so I pop one in and started to change. I looked at myself in the mirror, my entire back and was an array of colors; black, blue, purple, and some slight yellow around the bruises. I changed into a new shirt and jeans, my sneakers, and went outside to join them. It was as if nothing had change. They held hands in front seat while I just watched out the back windows. I was ecstatic that they were back together but I didn't dare look at them; it just brought back too many painful memories of when there was a group of four instead of a trio.

"So what did you do to Edward to wake him up?" Bella asked. Hearing his name caught my attention.

"Oh, I just opened at all the curtains in his room and pulled him out of bed at the ass crack of dawn. That will teach him to get wasted on a school night."

Once we entered the parking lot, all eyes were on us. Walking up to the school was even more unsettling; everyone was watching us walk up to the school, whispering to each other or point otherwise. "Alice, what's with all this?" I said leaning towards her.

"I guess bad news really travels fast. I guess everyone expects you to be dead." I just let out a hard sigh. This was going to be a very long day. With every class that passed, more and more people stared or whispered. After Biology it was pretty damn annoying especially when my teacher said 'Oh Mr. Black, its so good to see you're still with us." I wanted to walk out of class and go home but Alice clamed me down.

"Take it easy. Gossip spreads fast. Give it a couple of days, everything will blow over." Great! A couple more days of this shit, as if life isn't hard enough already. Walking through the halls, people didn't even try and be quiet anymore.

"I heard he tried to shoot himself and his crippled dad had to wrestle the gun away from him." One girl said as I walked past.

"He totally did it for attention." Another person said. I gritted my teeth and swallowed my urge to punch them all. As good as that would make me feel I don't need to get suspended as well. Gym was a total different story. For once, Edward looked like death warmed over. His amber eyes were bloodshot and puffy, dark bags hung under them, showing his lack of sleep. The way he looked at me after I walked out of the locker room made me think he was going to punch a hole in the brick wall. I wonder if Alice left out the part of me surviving my jump. Either way he looked like he was going to rip me apart. I just tried my best to avoid his gaze but I could still feel his eyes on me.

Basketball was something I enjoyed. It came simple to me, if I could play a game of ball all day, I would. I would lose myself in it. It was almost as good as fixing up a new car. "So, I heard you died this weekend." James said as he came up to me as I set up to take a shot. The way he said it just made me laugh.

"Yeah, that's the rumor. What did you hear?"

"That you went totally nuts and jumped off a bridge."

"Close," I laughed. "It the was cliff in La Push." He let out an 'Ohh' evident that he was hoping that he had heard the right rumor. I let the ball fly from my hands scoring a nice basket without using the backboard.

"So, can I ask you what made you do something so nuts?" I looked back behind me; Edward was glaring again like he does everyday.

"I'll give you one guess." I nudged my head in his direction. James looked back and then turned towards me again. "Really? He's the reason. Dude, you have to learn to let go of all the feelings you're holding onto. I'm pretty sure if you don't, next time your gonna end up in the grave."

"You say it like it's so easy. It's not something that can just happen over night." James stepped closer; looked around, and then pulled out the locket that Edward gave me. "It looks to me like there still stuff of his hanging around," He dropped it back down and when it hit me it felt like a hammer slamming me in the chest. "You know. I've decided, out of the kindness of my heart, I'm going to help you. Meet me out front after class, we're taking a trip." I went to argue against it but he wasn't hearing it. He just told me to get dressed and don't give him any more lip. Needless to say I was a little more then curious so I didn't argue anymore.

I stood outside of the school. The wind had picked up and was blowing in a cold front. I tugged my jacket tighter around myself. James came speeding up in his car. "Get in." He said from the rolled down window. I didn't hesitate. The ride was quiet; he just drove with a smirk on his face. I recognized the trees as they passed by. "Are you taking me to La Push?" The smirk only grew larger.

We drove through the familiar trees until we came to a stop on top of the same escarpment. He walked out of the car and headed towards the edge without any words. I followed close behind. When he stopped at the edge I stopped as well. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me till I was just next to the ledge and he was directly behind me. "Take it off." He growled in my ear. I closed my eyes and unclasped the locket. I held it in my hand, watching it shine as the sun glimmered off of the gold. "Now drop it." I couldn't believe what he was saying. I curled my hand back up so I couldn't let it go. "I can't. It was an amazing gift," I squeaked out. I wouldn't. It meant so much to me. "He's never going to love you again. This is the only way to rid his spirit from you body. As long as you hold onto it, the longer he's going to haunt you. NOW DROP IT!" I uncurled my hand again and held it over the ledge. It swayed back and forth in the wind as I held it from the chain. "Do it now." He growled again. It took all the strength in my body to unlock my fingers. As soon as it dropped my eyes filled with water. I was finally letting Edward go. I felt weak crying because of a stupid piece of jewelry. James put his arms on my shoulders from behind.

"That's step one. If you have anything else of his you better get rid of it. Now comes the next step. Kiss me." I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Excuse me?" I asked turning around to face him

"You haven't kissed anyone since him… at least not in the way you should be kissed," He ran his fingers down my cheek sending shivers down my spine. "The next step is to lose the physical memories of him. The touch of his lips, the feel of his hand caressing you, you need to replace him. Soon every memories of him will fade into oblivion. Now kiss me!" His last words were filled with a slight growl. He grabbed me and pulled my lips to his. His lips were cold, nothing like Edward's. They were hard like granite where Edward's were soft and inviting. He bit at my bottom lip. A part of me didn't want this but another part of me needed it, wanted it, craved it… just not from him. But I didn't pull away. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't. I missed feeling someone else's body. It made the numbness inside me of wash away.

OH NO! Evil James! Well I guess we have to find out what happens. You didn't really think I would kill Jacob did you? THAT'S NOT HOW HES GOING TO DIE! Oh snap! Lol spoilers!!! Well not really. Hope you enjoyed it. Keep on reading. LOVE YA!