Our penultimate day in paradise.
Even though coming her may have made you angry, and I am sorry for that, I am glad I did.
The time to think and decide, especially without extra crap piling up (with the exception of the McFlirty news) has been great. And just the sleep. I hadn't realised what a toll this year had taken on my body and mind. Being an intern is hard enough work as it is, but with the year I'd had, well, lets say two weeks of r&r has worked some magic.
Not declaring myself bright and shiny. I think I learnt that lesson. But I am relaxed, and peaceful, and well… balanced.
So, to the crux, "so over".. not about us (hopefully).. I am in, completely and utterly, you are the love of my life, and I can't leave you either. I have don't have all the answers on how to make this work, but I have a better idea about some of the things I need to do than I did a few weeks ago. We both need to work on this, and compromise a little, but I think the end game is worth it.
I know you want commitment from me and probably proof we are really moving forward, so, well, I was thinking. I mean your nearly 40, not that that's a bad thing, but an attending and all. And well, casa interna, not a lot of privacy, I mean I love my friends, but well, you know, us, a couple, come first, in some things, like people not barging into our bedroom.. Rambling, I know.. so anyway. A suggestion, maybe we should go apartment hunting. Together. Something close to the hospital? Maybe, anyway, lets discuss, when I am back, in a few days.
I miss you, can't wait to see you
Love
Meredith
PS –. I know this has been onesided, and while I am trying to remain hopeful and positive that you will still be in this too, a little sign when I get back, that you know.. you're in too. Well that would be nice. Doesn't need to be your yellow ribbon type cliché, but yeah, a sign, either way, in or out, would be good.