A/N – I am so tired....believe me I am. But I thought that after you read this chapter then you'll maybe review and my mood will rise. Please?

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Vix's POV

I leaned back on the door and rested my head back.

There was a knock on the door, and I jumped up in fright. I could only guess who it could be, and I didn't feel like opening the door, not because I was scared or embarrassed, these things do not happen to me. I am...me.

I was just...just...I just didn't want to see him right then but my brain didn't think so and told my hands to turn the handle of the door and reveal the person still standing outside looking for a way in. To what? Yeah, I'm not too sure.

My hands did as my stupid part of my brain wished no matter what the smart part was screaming, yelling, shouting.

I opened the door, and a tall, dark haired, blue eyed girl with one of her hands in her blue jeans' pockets and the other playing with the hem of her yellow shirt, was standing there smiling at me.

'Hey is Todd here cuz-'

'Yeah, yeah, he's upstairs' I said waving my hand towards the stairs and Kayla stepped into house looking around herself, as if it was the first time she was in here.

With one last blink at me, with her blue eyes covered with bright green eye shadow and lines of smudgy eyeliner and mascara, I'd say too much for a girl of 13 or 14 whatever age she was, but why should eye care about what Todd's girlfriend does. That's right, I shouldn't and I don't. I don't give a crap about her, I'm just glad it was her and not Shane Grey. Well, she went upstairs.

I tried to ignore my own thoughts and I slowly edged towards my room, I took in every step I took on the stairs, every colour of wall that was in the hall to my room, as if it'll be my last day in that house, but then again if it was my last day in the house I would be having a party with people I don't know and be trying to figure out a way to knock the house down so I can rip my ceiling off.

I ran my hands down the walls until I finally reached my room. I opened the door and went in.

I collapsed on my bed and lay like that for what seemed to be 17 seconds. I was counting.

I pushed myself up and grabbed my guitar off the floor, placing it on my lap. I struggled to get a notepad and pen which were also on the ground. When I had everything that I needed around me, I played the first chord of the song I was planning to write.

I wrote down a couple of words on the white page and read over them. It was just the start so why worry. I always try to finish the song first and then go over it changing things and adding other thing on. It was easier that way.

I tried to put the first line and my first chord together, but it just didn't seem right yet, so I moved on.

I played a couple different chords and scribbled some words down on the pad. It went over and over like that, chord, lyrics, chord, lyrics chord...you get the point.

After a while I looked over my page tried to read the song within the page of scribbles and little doodles and a lot of crossing out and arrows. Yeah, it was hard to read, but still I could just about guess where the words to the song were.

It seemed like I was at it for a very, very, very long time, but when I look up to look at the time I found out I only spent a couple of minutes at it.

A couple of minutes, yeah, that must be a record for song writing and as I was reading over, it was the best song I've ever written. And I have written a lot.

At least 500 from my 16th birthday. I had a lot of time, since I was grounded for 8 months.

I looked over it again, just a glance, and played my first chord again. The song was coming together and even I knew that it was at least a little bit good.

I wanna live...don't wanna die,

But when I get my hopes up,

I get my dreams stomped on, everytime.

I love life...but it's getting hard to live,

I'm scared of death just like anyone else,

But when you call me I won't stall you, I will bring you with me

Everytime I think war is over, the gunshots start all over

It might be easier to put a gun through my head,

And let a bullet fly.

I need silence, I need silence to breathe,

I need silence, I can't live with the screaming

I am tired, of everybody shouting, thinking they have a right.

I need silence, to get my head working,

I need silence, to try to break away from these chains.

I can't walk...I'm falling down,

But everytime I hit the ground,

And I can feel the screeching pain,

I am brought to my feet and I fall again.

I can't breathe...I'm underwater

I feel it stinging my eyes, but everything else is blank,

I can't hear anything only my own thinking,

Just the way I want it to be,

But I am brought to the surface, and the screaming

Is returning.

Everytime I try to fly, I spread my wings and flap away,

But I am caught and brought down to face the truth.

My wings are cut and I bleed to death,

My own screaming ringing in my ears.

I need silence, I need silence to breathe,

I need silence, I can't live with the screaming

I am tired, of everybody shouting, thinking they have a right.

I need silence, to get my head working,

I need silence, to try to break away from these chains.

OH, but I am breathing.

OH, but I am living

Everytime I think I don't want to anymore,

I think of you and I'm back to Earth...

Everyone has days when they wish to be someone else,

But a different name, different face, different faith.

But right now the voices are screaming to let go of dreaming,

But I can't let go, just like you can't let go of breathing,

Dreaming is just a part of me....

I will fall asleep in silence, I will awaken to see,

That everything was just a nightmare...

I need silence, I need silence to breathe,

I need silence, I can't live with the screaming

I am tired, of everybody shouting, thinking they have a right.

I need silence, to get my head working,

I need silence, to try to break away from these chains.

I wanna live...don't want to die,

But when I get my hopes up,

I get my dreams stomped on everytime...

Just then I realised that my door was just slightly open, and I could of sworn I closed it. Through the little gap I could see a dark brown eye peering in, and a strand of black hair over it.

'SHANE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!' I screamed letting my guitar fall to the ground as I jumped off the bed and stormed over into the hall.

'I went around to your back door and your brother let me in...'

'There's a wall there...between the front garden and the back...how-'

'I climbed?' he offered. I was out of words, and I have to say Vix Hatel has never, ever nothing to say.

I was about to scream something when he sat down, right there in my hall, on the ground, against the wall and looked up at me.

'What are you doing?' I asked shocked. Not many people sneak into someone's house and sit in the middle of their hallway.

'Thinking'

'So you need to sit on the floor to think?'

'Well, yes. Don't you?'

'Rarely'

'Well let this be one of those rare times' he said patting a spot of red carpet beside him.

'What are you thinking about?' I said looking down the place on the carpet that my butt was begging to sit on.

'About how that song might have been the greatest thing ever written...' he said and I laughed

'What about that Shakespeare person?' I laughed

'Well...okay. The greatest thing written this year'

As I was thinking, Todd and Kayla came out of Todd's room and both of them stared at Shane Grey sitting on the ground.

Kayla's mouth dropped open as her hand rose to point her finger at him. Shane stared back at her giving a girly wave.

'Come on Kayla, let's leave them to their sluttiness' said Todd tried to lead Kayla towards the stairs but the girl wouldn't move.

'But that's...that's...' she stuttered

'Shane Grey?' offered Shane and Kayla nodded.

'Where are you going?' I asked turning my attention to Todd.

'Probably to Kayla's hou-'

'Uh uh. No. You are not going anywhere. You are grounded. Kayla, is not even supposed to be here.'

'Who are you my mum?' he snapped back and I growled at him. Yup, growled.

'Kayla, home, now' I ordered but Kayla was in OMG-SHANE-GREY! mode.

'Kayla' I said waving a hand in front of her eyes but she just looked at Todd once and looked back at Shane. What's with these people and suckish Rockstar's?

'KAYLA!' I screamed and she only then decided to look at me, with a very angry expression on her face.

'Kayla, either you go home now, or I'll have to pull you out of here.'

'No! She's not going anywhere! You slut queen! If you don't like it get out yourself' Todd shouted at me standing up in front of Kayla, protectively cuz everyone is afraid of little 14 year old dorks.

I pushed Todd aside and grabbed a handful of Kayla's hair.

'I told you I'll pull you out of here' I told her as I dragged her downstairs. Kayla wasn't shrieking in pain or anything, probably still in OMG-SHANE-GREY! mode.

I opened the door and threw her out with Todd bellowing behind me.

'VIX! You are so getting grounded!' he said waving his hands around.

'Okay, sure, girly-girlington' I said shoving the big, big man to the side and climbing upstairs with Todd still at my heels, shouting ever, so hurtful things, yeah right.

'Bitch!'

'Witch!'

'I hate you!'

I'm telling mom!'

Hurtful.

When I went up I saw that Shane was no longer thinking, on the ground but was leaning back on the wall.

'YOU ARE SUCH A BITCH, THAT I-' Todd was still yelling at me but came to a sudden halt and I turned around to look at him 'Wait a sec. I have a copy of your diary.' He said

'So?'

'I know something that you would not like, for that gay person over there to know' he said nodding in Shane's direction causing a very funny 'hey' to leave Shane's mouth.

'And that would be?...'

'A song about a certain cloud'

'About a what- OH NO! TODD!' I screaming running towards him ready to rip his head off, but Shane held me back. I screamed and kicked, kicking Shane a several times, but he kept holding on to me, and to me it seemed like I was flying.

'I'll just go and get it' said Todd disappearing into his room.

Shane struggled for just another minute, to hold me but then pushed me to the ground and pinned me to the carpet.

He looked down at me not saying anything, as he started to edge closer to me.

It was happening again, and my body was listening to my stupid side of the brain telling to keep my head straight, but the smart (and ignored) side of my brain was screaming to jerk my head to some side, but my head wasn't listening no matter how much I asked it to.

He kept getting closer and closer until he couldn't get any closer...

Todd came out of his room, with the copy of my diary in his hand but when he saw me and Shane, he turned on his heel and went back to his room.

'Never mind' he muttered.

The song that Vix wrote is a lie! I wrote it! I wrote it! She is lying! I am the one that spent days at it! I did! It was me!

Okay, so please tell me what you think of the song, cuz it would mean the world to me, just like you do too.

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