OK I'm not too sure about this chapter please let me know what you guys think.
Josh
I know you that you don't really want to here from me now after me leaving the way I did but you have to understand why I did what I did
Josh I'm pregnant at the time of writing this letter I'm 7months Iv written hundreds of letters to you trying to explain but I just couldn't send them, I know I shouldn't have ran but we both know what your like and what we are like when we are together plus I don't think you will believe me when I say the baby is yours.
But it is Josh its yours , she's yours its a little girl I can't believe it a baby girl I really want to call her Penny but I don't know if you would like that name would you?
Look Josh I'm not expecting some movie style reunion or for you to be here for me or give me any money I just want my little girl to know her daddy.
I had a horrible dream the other day I had the baby and she was beautiful but I floated away from my body I could see the doctors working on my body but they didn't bring me back.
I need to know that if anything ever happened to me Penny would be ok that she would have her daddy I know that you will make an amazing daddy Josh.
Please look after our little girl
I will always love you
Katie
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Kyle had tears falling fast the poor girl knew she knew something was going to happen wiping the tears away she folded the letter back up and placed it back into the box and looked at some of the pictures some ultra sounds pictures of Katie as a baby, Kyle thought back to when her and Alex were with Chris at the hospital he mentioned that Katie's room mate had dropped a box of her stuff off for Penny when she was older. As kyle placed the stuff back into the box another letter fell out of a book it was addressed to Penny and it was in Chris's writing.
Kyle knew she had over stepped the boundaries now but she couldn't help it she opened the letter
To my beautiful little girl Penny
I don't know how to start this, its weird I'm looking at you while doing this right this minute you are 3months old and your fast asleep, you look so beautiful while you sleep you look just like your mommy.
I'm sorry I couldn't save her angel If I could go back and save her for you I would but I can't.
Its hard to believe that its been 3months since she passed and I found out about you To be honest with you I was terrified when I found out about you I didn't know what to think I had just found out your mommy had died and now I was left to not only deal with that but also that I had a new born baby girl, If it wasn't for alex and kyle I don't know what I would have done.
They were there for me when I was being stupid and now wanting to face up to my responsibilities but I'm so glad they gave me the kick up the ass I needed if they hadn't I would have regretted it for the rest of my life you are THE best thing that has ever happened to me and I would never change you for anything in the world not even to bring your mommy back that's not because I don't love your mom its because I know everything happens for a reason and your mommy died so that my life would be changed for the better by having you enter my life, and if your mommy hadn't have passed I would never have realized how short life is.
I know a little girl needs her mommy but hopefully Kyle will be enough for you, we aint together at the point of me writing this letter and I don't think we will be together for a while yet I still need to completely get over loosing your mommy but no matter what happens I know I will be with Kyle one day and she will be your mommy I just have to take my time and see what happens and even if nothing happens she will always be my best friend and she will be the mom you never had, she will be a good mommy and I know that she can never replace your "real" mom but I couldn't ask for anyone better in your life.
I love you so much angel and I really hope one day I will be able to give you this letter and you will understand why I have said the things I have.
I lost your mom Penny and I refuse to loose you or to loose Kyle.
I need my girls to keep me going.
All my love
Your daddy
Kyle's heart had jumped into her mouth she was shaking her eyes stinging from tears gently she placed the letter away and closed up the box and climbed back into bed.
Shock had taken over and now she didn't know what to do.