Disclaimer: "Harry Potter(a.k.a 'him'), Hermione Granger, Voldemore(a.k.a 'Him') and Dumbledore(a.k.a 'The Old Man') do not belong to the 'Dreamer. The vague plot featured in this chapter doesnt belong to her either. In fact, she owns nothing, because, as many have most astutely stated, if she did, why on earth would she be writing fanfiction?
Hello
Time has flown by, hasn't it?
I've scarcely thought of you these past few months
What with all the drama at the end of last year,
And the sorrow
I could barely stand the look on his face
It made me feel so guilty
knowing I hadn't stopped him
knowing I could have stopped him
I've bought a new knife
I was wandering down Diagon Alley when I saw it
In a potions store
This beautiful little knife Nothing special
but sharp
and shiny
The stress has been getting to me as of late
Everyone thinks im just getting a bit more neurotic
But really I feel like tearing out my hair and SCREAMING!
Its astonishing how it weighs on you
that your entire future could be decided by one little piece of paper
Just a little scrap of parchment
And now HE is back,
the Old Man is making us keep secrets from him
he was so angry when he found out.
I hated myself so much
But the blade comforts me in ways i never would have thought
There are so many scars on my arms now
I am eternally grateful for the dismal climate
and the cold stone walls
They give me an excuse to wear my long sleeves,
even though its the height of summer
God. Whats happening to me?
I used to be so pulled together
So calm
So intelligent
But who I am now...Oh I dont know
You know though, dont you?
You've pulled the knowledge from the deep recesses of my mind
I can see it in your eyes
Those empty brown eyes
I feel like your looking into my soul
STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!
Cant you see you've done enough already?
You, who has clawed up from the depths of my heart and smiles at me from within the glass
Its all your fault you know.
Ever since we found each other it has gotten WORSE.
Since I met you I've discovered the TRUTH about my STUPID self!
But never mind
Your not so perfect now.
All cracked
With crimson tears streaming down your face
It isnt even your sorrow
Its not your world to cry and bleed in
ITS MINE!
And you'll never take it from me
Ever
I swear it...
A/N: Holy Chocolate Starfish Batman! I found the lost chapter!!!!!! But it was crap so I wrote this one. What do you think? Have you guessed who she's talking to yet? Im trying to make it blatently obvious, but you never know, its hard to tell. I've finally got around to incorporating bits of Book Plot into the story, and from here on im going to attempt to follow the sixth book as closely as I can...eh, maybe I'll even create a plot for the seventh year summer holidays. Who knows? The possibilities are endless
So review my pretties!
Or you shall never know what happens!
Muahahahahahahaha!