Is it just me or is anyone else getting annoyed by how slow I've been updating. I'm apologizing to you guys now. But yall need to know that I've been really busy. I'm studying for the SATs and also going through some unfortunate personal problems. I'm trying to update faster, I really am, but it's getting hard. Please forgive me? Oh and total props to My-Bella. Her story Life's Little Choices is unfortunately over and as sad as I am to see it done I'd like to say that I totally love this author. If you haven't read her stuff, you need to. She ROCKS! Of course you may become like me and develop an unhealthy addiction to her writing and need to take a trip to Dr. Dover. You don't know who he is, dude where have you been? Under a rock? Read the author VJGM also if you haven't. Boycotts and Barflies is the shit.

Edward POV

Bella pulled into our room and sat me down on the couch. It was times like these when I would do absolutely anything to hear what she was thinking. Her silence was maddening. She wouldn't look at me, preferring to stare down at her hands in her lap. I knew she wanted to say something, but she wouldn't. I couldn't understand why she wouldn't talk to me.

"Please say something," I pleaded, surprised to hear my own voice crack. I understood that she was going through a lot right now, but she needed to understand that I was always going to be there for her. I smelled the tears before I saw them splash on her entwined fingers. "Bella, please don't shut me out," I whispered.

"I'm so sorry Edward," she started. I knew she wasn't finished so I just sat there, quietly waiting for her to finish. "I'm not meaning to shut you out. I'm really not, it's just that Emmett is the only one who doesn't treat me differently. Everyone else does. I want to talk to you, so badly, its just that… it gets so hard because half the time it feels like your talking at me, and not directly to me."

"Bella, I'm sorry. I just, I didn't want you to think me insensitive. I want to be there for you, but I don't know how."

"Edward, no, don't feel bad. It's not just you. It's everybody."

"Except Emmett," I growled under my breath. Bella smiled apologetically at me. Then all of a sudden Bella jumped on me and embraced me as tightly as she could. I was slightly taken aback and very surprised, but after a few motionless moments I embraced Bella as tightly as I dared.

"I really am sorry. I don't want you to feel as if I'm pushing you away," Bella whispered.

I smiled and chuckled a little, "It's ok love, just to feel you in my arms again is enough. I've craved your touch for almost a week now."

Bella looked at me with remorse in her eyes, "I'm sorry I hurt you."

"No Bella, you didn't hurt me. I understand that you needed your space." I said, not wanting her to feel guilty. But still she looked away from me. I was about to protest when she suddenly looked back up at me and pulled me into a passionate kiss. I felt compelled to push her away. Not because I didn't want it – because boy did I want it –, but because I wasn't sure Bella was ready and I didn't want her to do something just because she thought it would please me. I would not take advantage of her. I pushed Bella away from me so that our lips were barely touching.

"Bella, you don't need to do this. You don't need to prove anything to me. I can wait for you."

"Do you want me to stop? Do you not want me anymore?" Bella asked me.

"No, of course not. This is not like that. It's just that, when you and I are together, I want it to be just you and I lost in each other. Not you trying to prove something to me because you think that you've upset me."

"Edward, shut up," Bella said, startling me, "Edward I love you and right now I need you. Only you."

I looked into Bella's eyes and I could see the conviction smoldering within them.

"And I need you," I said just before Bella crushed her lips to mine. This kiss didn't start off soft and sweet, this kiss held all of the urgency and passion that we had for each other. It was as if either of us was afraid to let go for fear that the other would disappear. I wanted her so bad and to not hold back, but I knew that I had to, for her safety. But this would do, for now. I couldn't help but think how it would be so incredible our life would be when she was forever my equal. I almost felt guilty for thinking this way. Then I heard that lovely moan flow from her lips as I gently caressed the skin of her stomach.

Bella traced my abs with her fingertips and I couldn't hold back the shiver that I felt as she touched me. I was beginning to grow impatient as Bella and mine's breathing became even more ragged. I pulled my lips away from hers so that she could breathe but continued my trail over her neck to her collarbone. I tried to go down further but Bella's shirt was in the way. I reluctantly moved my lips away from her skin to remove the tank top she was wearing, thankful that she wasn't wearing a bra. After Bella's shirt was out of the way Bella quickly removed my shirt and it was so fulfilling to feel her skin against mine once again. It felt like it had been such a long time since I had a chance to be with Bella in this way.

I began to knead and suckle Bella's breasts. I felt her writhing underneath me and heard her incoherent moans.

"Edward," Bella moaned, well incoherent except for my name.

As I continued my ministrations I didn't realized that Bella had placed her knee between my legs, so it surprised me, pleasantly of course, when she started to gently massage me with her leg. I groaned and looked up at Bella. She was smiling at me as she continued her delicious torture on me. I ripped her tiny shorts off of her and started to play with her clit. The smile was quickly wiped off her face as she continued to moan my name and incoherencies. Bella reached down and tried to remove my pants, but was too distracted with what I was doing to her. I smirked and removed my fingers from her. Bella whimpered in protest but soon stopped as she realized that I was removing the rest of my clothing. When I was fully naked I took a very good look at Bella.

She was absolutely stunning. Her eyes were half lidded in a love/lust-induced haze as she took in my naked body, the moon radiated off of her skin making it look as if she were glowing, the rays dully shining in her hair made it appear as if she had a halo. Her lips were red and swollen from our kissing. She truly looked like an angel. My angel. I could have cried right then, just so that I could release some of the love that I was feeling for this beautiful creature that was threatening to overwhelm me with her very presence.

"God, I love you so much Bella," I said as I made my way over to her.

"I love you too Edward. I can't live without you." Bella said to me.

"Neither could I without you," I said as I slowly entered her. The rest of night air was filled with the sounds of our moans, gasps, breaths, and screams as we called out to each other.