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Bella Swan;
The pain increased until I passed out on the drive to the hospital. I don't remember being moved, everything was black, and when I woke up I was lying in a hospital bad. The bed was extremely uncomfortable, and lumpy. I glanced around the room and saw Edward sitting in the corner sleeping. He desperately needed it after all he scratch that we have been through.
The bags under his eyes were still clearly visible. I instantly felt bad, if I would have left right after I found out Tanya wasn't there than none of this would have happened!
But did I really want none of this to happen? Did I really not want to have Edward? Could I handle losing my air? Edward and my baby were my life. They were extremely important to me. Edward was my air and this baby was my water, you can't survive without both. A gentle knock on the door alerted me. Two policemen and a doctor came though the door.
"Miss Swan?" The taller police man whispered, noticing Edward was sleeping. I nodded, I gave him my police report, and they already got one from Edward. Once the police left, the doctor had a frown on his face, I instantly knew something was wrong. I was scared.
"Well, Bella," he wasn't formal, I liked that. "There is bad news." I closed my eyes preparing myself for the worst.
"Bad news is." He hesitated. "You lost the baby." My breathing stopped, my eyes watered up. How dare he tell me my baby was dead! I mentally told myself to calm down, it wasn't his fault.
"You lost the baby out of enormous stress and one bad hit to the stomach." The doctor said walking out allowing me to mourn. If I ever saw Tanya again, I would hurt her. I'd make sure she'd know the pain I am feeling right now. I would make sure she would never fuck with us again; I didn't even realize I was crying until Edward said something.
"Its alright." He said moving next to the bed, he pulled my against his chest, I breathed in his scent.
"Its not, IT WILL NEVER BE OKAY!" I shouted, punching him in the arm, begging to break free from him. I didn't want for him to see me vulnerable I wanted him to leave until I got stronger. I never showed vulnerability ever, not even when I was little and this was hard. Extremely hard.
I couldn't understand though, was this some sick karma for taking Tanya's husband? Was this karma? I couldn't understand why this happened to me, I've never done anything horrible in my life to deserve this.
Why me? How come everything goes wrong when I'm with Edward?
Everything happens for a reason? Yeah right, what was the reason for losing my child? I felt Edward gently kiss my head, so gentle I barely felt it. For the moment I was grateful that I had Edward in my life again, but in a way I've always been grateful to have this angel in my life.
Edward was truly my night a shining armor. The man in my dreams.
If I ever lost him again, I would honestly die, it felt good just to be in arms. A gentle knock on the door broke us out of our trance. I looked up and saw my brother and Rosalie there. There eyes were full of pity, I didn't want pity. I hated pity. I always will. I stopped the growl the almost escaped my mouth.
"Oh Bella!" Rosalie said weakly, before running up and pulling me into a bone crushing hug, if I was blind I would have thought it was Emmett.
"Yeah…" I patted her back awkwardly.
"I know how you feel." She whispered in my ear. I shook my head.
"How could you possibly?" I whispered in her ear.
"Two years ago…we lost a baby too, you're the only one who knows that." I felt my eyes widen in shock, I should have never left, and I could kill myself for all the stuff I missed. I could have missed my brother wedding!
"I'm so sorry." I said, I know understood the reason people always give pity when someone loses a baby, or something important to them, I now understood so much more. She nodded and hugged me tighter.
"When can I leave?" I asked looking at Edward, who had no idea, what I and Rosalie said in our secret conversation.
"Well…Probably tonight?" Edward questioned, not sure. I rolled my eyes.
"Can we not be all sad…being sad wont help anything." I said making a ticking noise with my tongue. It was true, the longer we we're sad the longer it would haunt us, I wanted to move forward not stay in the past. I'm learning that more and more everyday.
-2 weeks later; Bella's birthday-
Edward was sweet; he's been keeping me out all day, making me buy stuff, mainly stuff he forced me to buy because I didn't ask for anything. I was fine, I had him and I hated birthdays. He also was hiding something for me, and it was nagging me.
Later that night, I knew why he kept me out, when I got home and turned on the light, everyone I knew jumped out in surprise. I groaned.
"I hate parties…" I said frowning, Emmett knew that. Hell, they all knew that.
Before I knew it, I was buzzed and opening presents. Alice handed me hers.
"Its clothes." I said signing, I knew Alice, she's always hated my style, and she gave me an innocent smile and shrugged. I opened it and it was indeed a pair of skinny jeans and a new pair of heels, along with a sweater, jewelry, and a purse. A complete outfit.
Emmett and Jasper got me a new radio for my car, Esme and Carlisle gave me a digital camera, and Rosalie she gave me a necklace, a gold locket necklace when I opened it, it was a picture of all of us from high school, I was crying by that, I gave her a huge hug.
"My turn." Edward said excitedly. I shook my head and chuckled.
"No more Edward, you've gave me enough today." He ignored me and went to get my present, when he got back.
I was completely shocked; this just made my tears worse.
My present was my mom. My mom was standing there in the middle of the room; I ran up and hugged her.
"Oh my. You've gotten so big." She said patting my hair down,
"Well you've gotten smaller." I said smiling at her.
"I've dropped a few pounds or so." I let go of my mother, and turned around to Edward.
"Thank you, you've done so much for me." I said, my tears were leaking on his shirt.
"I love you." He said simply.
Before I could realize what was happening, Edward was on one knee and had a ring in his hands, the tears got even worse if possible.
"Bella, I love you, and I could never lose you again, if I did. I would die, will you marry me?" it all stayed silent for a while, because I couldn't talk. I was so shocked, I was speechless.
SAY SOMETHING STUPID!
"Yes." The one word everyone was waiting for came out of my mouth, Edward lifted me and spun me, and I giggled as he kissed me.
I loved Edward, he loved me. Everything was perfect; I had my mommy, my best friends and an amazing fiance
Should I end it here (with the next chapter as an epilogue?) OR put one/two more chapters? You tell me. im stuck….
i dont think im ready to let this go, but I NOW HAVE TWO MORE STORIES IM WRITING.
So tell me, what should i do?
THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE AN EPILOGUE?
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