Bpov

Esme ran to my side as emmett went to alices. Her arms were hard and cold but somehow so soft and comforting. Esme had me in my arms explaining everything she knew.

I listened flabbergasted. She began to tell me how carlilse went to find jian after alice made her transformation. Alice was unaware of this and carlilse intended it to stay that way.

"you see bella jian told carlilse that he didn't tell alice the most important thing about her transformation. It wasn't permanent. Jian told carlilse that he wanted alice to be sure she was doing this for the right reasons. And if she started to changing back into a vampire and did not want to become a vampire again she could inject more venom into her heart. But, her heart could take the venom injection up to three times. Then after that you either die or change one last time into a vampire forever."

she looked at me and smiled.

"bella alice is madly in love with you and you know I love you like a daughter. But I do not want to lose my beautiful alice over this. Not when there are other ways"

Her smile faded and her lips were now pressed into a small hard line. I heard emmett laugh from the other room.

"bella.... a strap on. Dude you have to let me watch"

I could hear the smile in his voice.

"bella ignore emmett right now. He may be almost eighty but you'd think he was eight."

"esme. What other ways are there."

I wasn't focused on emmett or what carlilse was saying to alice. I was focused on my other option.

"well bella you could always let this happen. But if we did allow alice to change again you have two options."

"what are my options esme?" my voice was hard and forceful.

I was scared of what she would say next. But, I was pretty sure I knew what my options would be.

"well you would either have to let alice go. And if you ask me thats an awful option. I don't think you or alice could live without each other. Or option two. You become a vampire as well"

"ok lets do this. If this is what it comes down too then I am ready"

I was so sure. I didn't even want to think about any of it. I just knew.

"bella you need to think about what your saying. You will not be able to see your parents or friends or family. What about your shop. You need to think this through."

I didn't want to think I wanted to take action.

"no esme none of that means anything to me without alice. I have to be with her. Don't you understand. I love her"

My eyes filled with tears. I wasn't really sure why but I guessed it had to do with the shock I was going through.

"esme. Bella. We need to go alices change is occurring rapidly and her health status is deteriorating.

We need to get her home."

I could hear alice screaming and I knew what was happening. I looked at esme with fear.

"bella if your sure."

Thats all she said I kept waiting for her to continue her statement. But she did not, she just looked into my eyes for the unspoken answer she seeked.

Next think I knew I was in emmett's jeep. Alice was by my side and in his arms. She was withering and thrashing. Even in all of her pain she was beautiful. Emmett was using all of his strength to hold her down his muscles were ridiculously huge.

He looked at me with his soft gold eyes and smiled.

"so bella I hear im gunna have another vampire sister to tease."

He nudged his elbow into my side.

Ouch. That really hurt. I tried to hide my pain and I think I did an alright job because he just smiled and turned his attention back to alice. I couldn't help but cry as I watched her in pain. I needed to make the pain go away. But I couldn't. There was nothing I could do. It was out of my hands.

The entire ride there carlilse was speaking at vampire speed to emmett. I was sure he was giving him instruction as to what he needed to do when we arrived at their house. I was not sure how fast carlilse was going but it must have been over a hundred miles per hour. I could just see flashes of light as we sped down the road.

We pulled into the driveway but before we ever even stopped emmett too off with alice and was headed in the front door.

"bella alice's change is occurring. Now she will be in a state of pain for three days. When she wakes I think it would be best for you not to be here."

He looked at me apologetically and took off.

"carlilse. Wait"

My vice was shaky but I knew he would hear me.

He was back to my side in a nanosecond.

"i want to be changed. I don't want to leave alices side when she wakes. I want to be waking with her"

I looked up into his shocked face. If vampires could have cried I believe he would have.

"bella. Oh bella alice will be so happy. You don't know how much this will please her"

I know how much ill please her. I semi smiled to myself at the thought. Then was nearly crushed when carlilse took me into his arms and began to hug me.

"carlilse. I want to do this tonight. And I want it be by alices side at all times."

"bella are you sure about this. This will be forever. There is no permanent way to change back into human. Alice found out the hard way. I am not sure I can change you tonight. I may not be able to stop. I am incredibly thirsty and I would not feel comfortable changing you while in these conditions"

"carlilse. I do not plan on you changing me. I plan on alice changing me. If anyone is going to have me for eternity it will be alice and I want her venom to swim in my veins."

I felt the words escape my lips in a whisper. He looked at me and nodded. Her ran into the house with me in his arms.

"emmett, esme, bella has decided to be changed. But not by any of us. She wants it to be alice. So I am going to allow bella to put her neck into alices mouth and, either alice will bite down or ill have to clamp her jaw down around bella's skin. Alice will be in too much pain to realize whats happening and bella wants to be with alice at all times during her transformation"

"so what do I need to do"

I asked looking around at three confused vampires.

"well if your sure lets get you up stairs and begin your transformation."

"ok"

Before I realized what had happened emmett had me in his arms and by alices side. She looked like she was being tortured. Ever movement was an act of pain. I leaned down to kiss her mouth. She screamed and broke our kiss. It was now or never, everyone watched as I placed the base of my neck to alices lips. I could almost hear her mouth oozing with venom. Without delay she clamped her jaw down. But within seconds had let it go dew to a scream. I felt like everything was being erased from me. I could hear voices that sounded panic. But I hit the floor. Not being able to tell their voices apart anymore. I went from the floor to a bed by alice and wasn't sure how long it took to get there. It could have been hours or seconds I wasn't sure.

I could easily hear my heart. But it was thundering against my chest with hard quick pulses. I felt my body getting hot. I would have sworn I was being engulfed in flame but when I peeped an eye open no fire existed. Just someone holding my hand while I thrashed and screamed. Who's hand was this?. I heard alice scream. And all I could think about was this being over and being in her arms. I couldn't contain my screams at times it was too much pain to try and be quiet. I had never felt like this before ever. I tried to tell myself I was doing this for alice but I wanted to die. I begged this person holding my hand to kill me. I would have done anything for this man to end my life. I tried to keep track of night and day. But after two sunsets I couldn't open my eyes properly to tell. Although my hearing was coming back slowly. I could hear the voices of the people in the room. I couldn't make out what they were saying but I was still able to understand who they were. I would hear esme and now carlilse. I could hear emmett making a joke about how I was going to be the only clumsy vampire ever to exists. And I could hear one more vice. It took me some time to realize this voice. It was alices older brother edward. I had met him twice during our years of dating. He was always so quiet just playing on his piano or writing in his journals. After awhile of listening to their conversation I could feel the burn in my body turn into mere ash. I didn't trust the ease of pain and I laid as still as possible. I knew if I moved the pain might comeback and I would begin to scream again. I did not want that.

"she is almost threw with her transformation. Just listen t her heart. Its strong. It wont be long."

carlilse?

I wanted to ask him so many things but the words wouldn't come off my tongue. I could feel my heart rate increase. I thought it was going to explode out of my chest at any moment. But then it thundered one more time and stopped. All my pain went away except for the annoying ass itch in my thought.

I opened my eyes.

Carlilse, emmett, jasper, and edward were standing by me with rosile and esme behind them. I was sure to protect them. But I didn't know from what. I smelled the air It was something I had never smelled before in my life. If you could mix a candy factory with the smell of a flower garden then you would understand the aroma.

It had only been a second since I had opened my eyes but it seemed to be much more than that. Everything was so sharp and so clear. Like my eyes had built in high definition lenses. I looked to my left to see alice laying still. Instinct fell over me.

I jumped off the bed and crouched in front of alice letting a fierce growl rip through my chest. It hadn't registered that I was trying to protect alice from her own family as emmett stepped closer I showed him my teeth warning him to back off.

"woah bella. Chill. Im trying to see if alice is awake."

I growled again and I could hear alices heart thud one more time before it went dead in her chest.

I didnt think before I ran to her and kissed her lips.

I could feel a rumble in her chest and it was the hottest thing ever.

"well hello."

she giggled as she skimmed her nose at my jaw line.

For some reason I was extremely calm with alice awake. But when I had first woke up I was ready to fight anyone and everyone. But now im calm. I felt relived knowing my love for alice was still inside me with all of this new blood lust.

"i love you."

"i love you too bella"

She smiled and kissed me again.