I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so SORRY! I haven't even been working on the story, or the next chapter! I've just been... well... slacking. Just thinkin' about blowin' it all off! I was just really discouraged with this, I don't even know why! Oh yeah... because there's not a fighting scene... DANG IT! I've got to add that somewhere here. Oh my goodness, but you know, school kinda brings ya down. I was the new kid this year, but I've made friends, unexpectedly fast, too. I also got a new dog and he's keepin' me up at night and waking me up in the early morning. I HAVEN'T SLEPT IN FOR TWO MONTHS! So again, I think I was discouraged because I was just so nervous that nobody would like me at my new school... But ANYWAY! You don't want to hear any of my business, do you?!

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Or do you?

I regretted sending Bella away earlier. Tonight seemed colder than ever! I checked the thermostat more times that some people can count but it still seemed like I would freeze. The temperature said it was around the hundreds, but it was still freezing in here. It also felt so crowded in my empty house. It felt as though there were an invisible crowd of ice people in my house, shoving me out of the way for them to catch their flight, but eventually not making it. I was confused at first, until I looked up. I saw that I was in an airport. Suddenly, I can see everyone there. They all seemed so grey. Even their clothes. There were no spaces between anyone... except for me. I was the only one in color. My hair seemed to be glowing, glowing so much, it caught on fire, but I felt no pain, so I let it burn.

Just as everyone saw my hair, they all pointed and cried. They all sounded like my mother. Silent. That's when I realized I was dreaming. I had to be.

And I was right. I woke up to the sound of a honking outside. I ran downstairs, not being able to see anything from my room. I moved the curtains away from my kitchen windows to see who was outside. Bella. But there was no car. I backed away from the curtain, thinking that Bella couldn't have made that noise... could she?

I opened the door to see Bella waiting at my front door, smiling. "Hey, there," I whispered, out of breath. Her skin shimmered in the sun. "Hi! Are you dressed for the day? Because I just want us to hang out today! Oh, and in case you were wondering, Alice dropped me off, she didn't want these shoes to get ruined!" Bella lifted her foot off the ground a few feet to examine them herself. They looked a little fancy. Golden colored snake skin flats with diamonds decorating the toe area.

"Wow," I complimented, "nice shoes."

"Thanks! Now, are you ready?" Bella asked, a little too cheery. I found this suspicious but didn't say anything. I looked down at my clothes examining my basketball shorts and Chicago Bulls jersey. I decided I was fine and grabbed my jacket that always hung by the door and left.

I led Bella to the garage and it opened before us, revealing three cars. I took my Volvo without a glance to neither of the other ones and drove off with Bella in the passenger seat.

"So... where are we going?" Bella asked.

"Just back to the one place," I replied.

"One place? That one meadow?"

"Yeah... that place..."

"Yay!" Bella cheered acting like a child. I laughed at her adorableness and she smirked, though I caught something off about it. Something... forlorn.

"Was it just my eyes, or was that your skin sparkling back there?" Bella sighed. "No, that was me. Or... vampires. I find it rather silly, but you know, makes sense. Our skin is as hard as a diamond, why can't it sparkle like one, too?"

"Really? Let me see!" I demanded, almost jumping in my seat as I drove quickly. Bella rolled her eyes and moved her arm out of the shadows and into the sunlight. It started to sparkle, as I've seen before.

"My girlfriend's as precious as a diamond," I complimented. I knew that if Bella could, she'd be blushing. I smiled to myself. I just made the most beautiful creature 'would-be' blush. I felt very accomplished.

"Let's play the questions game! Y'know the one we made up?" Bella asked, changing the subject. I nodded preparing for the questions. As Bella asked away, I kept finding and noting the sadness she hid away in her eyes. She was way to easy.

When we got to the meadow, we sat together. Bella showed me how quick she was, how strong she was, and how dangerous she could be. I brushed it all off stating I wasn't afraid. I didn't tell what I was afraid of. Her leaving me. I couldn't stand the idea, and though it kept popping back into my head, I pushed the thought away. It was just me and her today, even if she was acting a bit strange. I continued to watch her skeptically as she did amazing and inhumanly tricks.

After what felt like hours, our alone time together was interrupted with the sound of my phone ringing. Bella froze in the middle of massaging my fingers and crawled closer to me, not hiding the worried expression that splayed on her face. I checked to see who could have interrupted our nice, quiet time to see that it was an unknown number.

"I don't know who this is," I stated bluntly and was about to turn my phone off when Bella snatched it from me and accepted the call. She sat on her knees, among the wet grass and flowers, her back straight, and her face in an utter turmoil as she listened to the person speak on the other line. She looked at me, whilst biting her lip before looking away and watching the clouds randomly starting to roll in, bringing a chill along with it.

Bella looked as if she would start crying. I hadn't heard anything from the other line because I was too focused on Bella's ever changing facial expressions. She looked at the phone's smooth screen before tapping 'End Call', but still not facing me. I reached to it to take it back and she plopped right into my hands. Whatever the person said had sincerely damaged Bella somehow.

"Bella, who was that?" I asked, not liking to be left out of anything. "That was Alice. We have to leave, now." Ignoring my plead, Bella took me onto her back and zoomed away. Instead of me driving, Bella had taken the keys from me and began speeding down the highway faster than I thought my Volvo would go.

"Bella, where are we going? What happened?" I asked, frustration rising. Bella didn't answer, making me even more worried. Faster than I could think, I saw the hospital sign zoom by, and soon enough the hospital started to become visible from the other side of the hill. Why were we going to the hospital? Is there something wrong with Bella's father? As I continued to think about Bella's parents, I started to compare them to my parents. Remembering that my father had died and my mother was still... in... the... hospital...

Oh no...

Now that I realized what could've happened, even Bella's incredibly fast driving didn't seem fast enough. We were in the garage parking lot, running up stairs as fast as I could. Bella looked at me as I sprinted my fastest and shook her head out of the corner of my eye.

I followed Bella as she slowed down and walked straight to Rosalie, and Rosalie led her to Carlisle. He directed us to the morgue. The dim light hurt my eyes as I walked through the room. I saw my reflection on the silver walls of the room and looked away in disgust.

Carlisle mercilessly pulled out a handle and my mother's lifeless body rolled out on the drawer-like platform. I stared at her sadly, feeling no emotion. I looked at her still eyelids and pale skin that looked green under the odd light of the room. I saw her folded hands on her stomach and the dull veins that showed through her skin. I saw her light brown hair spread out around her as if she were laying on water. I felt my heart crumbling. I felt my brain crackling like a t.v., displaying memories of my mother in sad and happy times.

I remembered my childhood. When my mother would comfort me when we moved and I said good-bye to each and every one of my classmates. She even made little gift bags to pass around on the last day of Elementary. She made my childhood special. She made me feel special. She was my kind of superhero.

A superhero now, finally, defeated by the super villain, death.

I let a single tear slip from my eye, but that's it. It was humiliating enough that I was an orphan now, I don't need to cry in front of my girlfriend and her adopted father, now do I? It wasn't like I was going to cry anymore anyway. I felt drained. I just wanted to go home. I wanted to sleep. Or possibly wake up from this terrible nightmare. Though I knew I couldn't be dreaming. I wasn't that creative. I didn't know that much about illnesses anyway. How could I have possibly made up this story?

"Alice is going to help with the funeral... you'll let her won't you?" Bella told me when we were at my doorstep. I simply nodded and was about to put my keys in the door when Bella did it for me. I was confused. How'd she know we have a key in the tree pots by our front door?

She looked at my confused expression before turning away in shame. "Well, it's not like I haven't been here before Edward... I just get a little worried about you, is all!" She crossed her arms and hopped into the house. I simply put the keys back in the pot and walked, with my head low, into my house.

I sat on my green couch and rubbed my face with hands. My tall ceiling's fan was on when I realized I was sweating. I looked at Bella who still had her finger lingering under the fan's on switch. I opened my arms, welcoming her into my lap. She zipped over to me and snuggled into my chest as I enclosed my arms around her. I buried my nose into her hair and breathed in.

Bella looked up. "You'll let her, right?"

"Yeah. I don't know how to set up a funeral anyhow."

"Okay," Bella finalized. I reached forward, with Bella snuggled into my shoulder now, for the tv's remote. I turned it on and saw that Carlisle was on the News. The lady with the microphone finished her question. "-do you think will happen to Edward Masen Jr. since he is now an orphan, and only one year away from becoming an adult?"

Carlisle replied, "I was thinking about adopting him. I haven't talked to my wife yet, but I'm sure we can find a spare room in the house for him," looking straight to the camera, as if he knew I was watching. I looked down at Bella, and she stared back at me with a small smile on her lips. "Alice asked me, to ask Carlisle, if he could adopt you. I think it just might work!" She told me excitedly.

I smiled back at her, exhausted. So much has happened. And I felt guilty. For being able to smile, when my mom has died. For being able to have something as beautiful as Bella when I feel like I'm betraying my parents by leaving them, and not going to a Child Services Department, but instead, going in to straight living with the most kindest family you could ever hope for, when other orphans have to wait their entire life to find someone worth staying with. I couldn't even think of myself as an orphan. The word orphan was foreign to me. Orphan was Annie, dancing on tv. Orphan was someone who always had a happy ending. Now I understand why the orphans in movies were always so sad looking. They thought they were unloved.

I felt so stressed. My mother died, I'm an orphan, I need to sort a funeral, I also have to go to get my adoption papers, then go back and get adopted, then move in, not to mention all of my inheritance money that I have now. I don't even know what to use it for!

Bella got up to turn the tv off again, bringing me out of my tortured haze. She led me up to my room, somehow knowing where it was, and lying down with me into my queen-sized bed. I pulled her too close. So close, that if she were human, I may have crushed her. But she didn't make a peep. When I was half-asleep, I felt Bella get up to leave. I shot my hand up and reached for her wrist.

"No! Don't leave! Please! No..." I said, disoriented from sleep. She shook my hand off of her and hushed me back to lying down. "I just need to change my clothes, I'll be back before you know it," Bella reassured me. I didn't want to, but I let her go.

I lay with my eyes wide open in my bed without Bella's frosty presence. I must have waited only five painful minutes when she returned. But even that made me feel alone. I couldn't help the tears that slipped by.

When she did finally return, I almost tackled her back onto the bed so that I could sleep. I occasionally kissed her forehead to reassure myself that I wasn't just hugging a giant block of ice.

I didn't know how else to end this story. Sorry, again for the super duper cucumber long wait!

Sorry...

Also! I almost forgot! I want to start working on another story. Hopefully, I'll be more reliable with updating chapters but WHATEVER!

I'm going to start on a new story, but I don't remember what it was going to be about, so it's up in space in the deep corners of my mind that I have never been to before... OOO SPOOKY!

OMIGOSH, so anyways, what I'm trying to say is, if you have any ideas of what my next story shall be, go ahead! Review, PM me! Find a way to communicate with me! I just want to start a story! If you give me an idea I like, I may make that story and might even ask you what else you'd personally like to happen next!