Meredith woke up the next morning feeling Derek's hands on her body.

She opened her eyes and he was grinning at her cocky while beginning to massage her breasts.

„Good Morning", he whispered.

„Derek", she said breathlessy, while trying to stifle a moan.

„Hm?"

„No sex...work...", she said, desperately wanting to give in to the sensations Derek's touch were giving her.

Instead of saying something he kissed her, hard and passionate.

„We have some time", he mumbled into her mouth, „and I've been horny ever since I woke up next to you", he added getting a few giggles from Meredith as his hand slid under her pants and closer and closer to her throbbing center.

Meredith moaned. „You're...pathetic", she muttered, closing her eyes, just as he was about to touch her clit, but instead he withdrew his fingers causing her eyes to shot open again.

„Derek", she whined. „What are you doing?"

„Who's the pathethic one now?", he teased as he went to kiss her.

„Haha, so not funny", Meredith muttered, feeling a bit pissed off that he had just abandoned her.

„Oh, baby, I will make it up to you", he said at a pouting Meredith, but she could her the amusement in his voice.

He began to suck on her nipples, taking of her shirt and in an instant she was moaning again. He pulled down her pants as well, so she was lying completely naked beside him, trembling in anticipation. He kissed her thighs, working his way up to her center. She moaned when he reached it and began to suck on her clit she could hardly stand it as her hips began to move into his face.

„Oh, Derek...Der...you are...oh my...", she said between her moans.

He thrust a finger inside of her while he tounge was still working elsewhere and she quickly reached her orgasm. He pulled away from her as she was regaining control of her breathing again.

„Thank you", she said.

He looked at her adoringly. „I love you, Mer. I'd do anything for you", he said sincerely and she felt tears flood her eyes because she knew he was honest.

„What's wrong? Did I hurt you?", he asked, as his look changed into one of concern.

„No, it's just...I love you, too", Meredith said, a few tears falling, „you're so sweet. I don't deserve you", she whispered the last part and turned away from him, embarrassed and pulled up the sheets to cover her. She was feeling like she was not enough for him.

„Mer, don't ever say that", he said, putting his arm around her and turning her around, but she just looked down.

„Mer, please look at me", he said and she looked up, revealing her sad, tear filled eyes and her damp cheeks.

„Mer, of course you deserve me. We deserve each other. Why would you think you don't?", he asked. He brushed her tears away with his hand.

„Because...", she let out a sob, „I-I'm not good enough", she said with another sob.

„What are you talking about? You think you're not good enough for me?", he asked, frowning.

She shook her head. „Oh, Mer. That's not true. Of course you are good enough for me", he said. He took her into his arms when she began to cry harder.

She must have had a really crappy childhood to think such things, he thought. He seriously wanted to punch Ellis Grey in her face and after that make her realize what a fantastic, gorgeous daughter she had.

„Mer, baby. Shh, calm down", he said softly into her ear. She grabbed his shirt, clutching it out of pure desperation, unable to stop just yet. His scent was comforting her while she tried with all her energy to stop the sobs.

After a few minutes when the sobs had stopped he pulled away from her just slightly to let her know he just did it, so he could look at her.

„Mer", he began as their eyes locked, her's full of fear and sadness with a tiny bit of hope, and his full of love and concern for her, „You are good enough for me, you're more than good enough. I know your mother probably made you feel the exact opposite, but you're here now, Mer and we will work on that. You have to believe me, Mer.", he said softly.

„Ok", she said quietly. „I do...believe you"

He gave her his McDreamy smile and a soft kiss. „What do you say? Hot, steamy shower sex?", he asked with raised eyebrows.

Meredith giggled. „Hot, steamy shower sex?"

„You have never done that?", he asked surprised.

„You don't have to look so surprised. I didn't do it everywhere with everyone, ok?!", she suddenly snapped, hurt. He immediately regreted his words. He had not meant to make it sound like that.

„I didn't mean it like that, Mer and you know it", he said.

„Whatever. I'm not a whore", she muttered. He didn't hear her last statement, though.

He stroked her cheek. „Let's go shower, okay?"

„Uh-huh", Meredith said getting up and walking naked into the bathroom straight to the shower.

He was confused by her behavior. She knew he had not meant it like that, didn't she?

He walked into the bathroom and she was already in the shower so he stepped in it also.

She was just about to wash her hair with her shampoo.

„Let me do it for you", he suggested. He knew every woman liked it when he did that. He just had the right hands.

„No, thanks", she said shortly as she began to wash her hair.

„Ok", he said, still confused, but decided not to say anything more.

They both finished their showers in silence with no sex. Meredith was the first one to step out and put a towel around her when Derek came out as well.

„Mer", he began as she rubbled a towel through her hair, „if it's about what I said-"

„It's nothing", she snapped.

He sighed. „I'm sorry if you misunderstood me"

„I didn't", she said walking into her bedroom to put on some clothes. He followed her.

„Then why are you acting like this?", he demanded a bit more forcefully.

„I'm not acting like anything. Everything's fine. You're McDreamy, I'm a whore. Everything's fine", she said as she clasped her bra.

„What? Mer", he said disbelievingly.

„What?", she hissed, „You pratically called me a whore, Derek! So fine!"

„That's why you're so pissed off. Because you think I called you that? I never said such things. I was just surprised that you have never had shower sex!"

„Yeah, surprised because you think I do it everywhere!", she snapped.

„I don't think that, Mer!", he said his voice raising. „I just have had a lot of shower sex in the past and for me it is normal and god, that sounds stupid, so I was just surprised you didn't! Could you trust me please once?", he asked exasperated.

Meredith didn't reply. She had finished putting on her clothes and simply went out of the room, slamming the door hard behind her.

„Damn it!", Derek said. He shouldn't have said that.

So, so, so, as, as, as, as, as, as...kind of having a writer's block, but since I'm not a writer that's not even possible, haha soo funny, aren't I?

Well, don't know when I'm gonna update again on this story. I still have to update my two-shot story. Couldn't because I had an exchange student last week, actually till tuesday this week. And now I'm rambling to myself, I know. I can't help it, I've been even crazier and more hyper in the last 4 days (since the exchange student is gone!) than I am normaly...uahhhhhhhhh. I was so damn excited for the season premiere and now I am soooo so dissapointed, I really hoped for more than this. And especially more MerDer! I mean that was totally almost nothing! Not even a kiss! I wished for a kiss! And it's still all the same between them I think, expect that Derek will be living together with Mer from now on, but they still didn't really talk. Or maybe I think that because I didn't understand half of all what was said in the episode cause I'm neither a britain nor an american! I'm a freaking german and it's really hard to undertsand the American english sometimes, I know all of this doesn't bother you one bit but ugghhhhh I just had to write it out! Dancing it out doesn't work for me!!

What do you think about the season premiere?? (if you are still reading by now)

Review! Please!