Chapter 12

Gibbs can you pleas come back to bed. Your driving me crazy wandering back and fort like this. Why can t you sleep ? What's wrong.

Nothings wrong honey . I…………………….. . Pasting even more frantic back and forth in his bedroom. "We shouldn't have left Abby alone after what happen to her at work today . Not tonight. She's not all right. I should stayed with her. I ……………….. ."

Then call her Jethro. Make shore she's ok. Or just go see her if that makes you feel better. I all ready called her Jen. She don't answer her phone. Gibbs grabbed a pair of sweatpants and a hooded sweatshirt on his way out the door. The past had probably caught up with Abby, and she wasn't strong enough to deal with it alone yet. Well on his way he called Jen. I'm sorry about leaving without telling you Jen. But she might need me tonight. Ill take her home with me . Can you pleas make lots of coffee. We're gone need it . Shore Jethro. I will . Do you want me to wait up for you , or do you wane be left alone? Grab a blanket and crash on the couch. Ill wake you if your asleep when we get home . OK ? Love you. Love you too Jethro. The rest of the drive went in silence. Gibbs thinking about the past . He shouldn't given into her request for being all right home alone. He knocked at her door gently when he arrived at her apartment. No answer. He used his key to let him self in. The place was dark as in a grave and he could hear Abby sobering. "Abby " he said out laud enough for her to hear him , but not scare her. With in sec she came running into his arms crying. I'm so scared Gibbs. I don't know what to do. I keep seeing him and feeling him all over me. It's a nightmare. I haven't had those dreams in years. Tonight triggered it. I didn't wane be a burden for you and Jenny. You have your own life now , and I ……………………………….. .

Come on Abs, your coming home with me Jen is waiting for us. She is worried about you too. We all are. And you need to talk to someone. You never did years ago. Just me , and I'm still here for you. Do you still trust me Abs. Abby just nodded. She was exhausted.

They didn't speak on the way back to Gibbs house. Abby fell asleep for a little while, and Gibbs wouldn't wake her at any cost. Jen was awake sitting in the kitchen when they arrived .She looked worried at Abby who was paler than she normally was. "You should have told us Abby that you needed company . We would have taken you home with us. You know you are always welcome even if I'm here." I know Jenny. It's just that………………. ."

There is fresh coffee in the kitchen, and you can talk to Jethro as long as you need. I've made up the bed in the guestroom. God night you too. See you in the morning. I won't disturb you. Jen turned around heading out of the living room, when Abby spoke.

"I want you to hear this Jenny." And I need you to understand my relationship with Gibbs. Pleas stay and listen to what I have to say. I need to talk about things to. Not just what happened to night, but also what happed to me a long time ago.

Jen sat down, not shore she was ready to hear Abby's story , but she had to.

Abby started :

I meet Gibbs at campus a long time ago. I was teaching ASL and he was in my class. One night I didn't show up for class,……………………… .

Gibbs started helping her out. We waited for a while , but when she didn't show up , we all went home. Some how I took another way home that evening, and that was when I found Abby. She had been beaten and raped. She didn't wane call the police, so I took her home with me. Since I already worked for NCIS, I new how to take care of the evidence. Abby refused to go to the hospital , and I didn't force her too. She stayed with me because she had no other family around , and somehow she felt safe with me. Our friendship grew deeper , and She stayed with me for a long time. I managed to get her back in school , getting her grades up and getting her interested in forensic scientist.

Jen looked at Jethro, knowing there had to be more to the story.

After a few weeks I found Abby crying her eyes out in her bedroom. She just found out that she was pregnant.

"you were pregnant?" I'm so sorry Abby. That must have hurt.

Well Jenny, the fact that I knew the man who raped me also got me pregnant , made it worse , because he was an old boyfriend of mine. He couldn't take it that I broke up with him. I wasn't ready for a committing relationship, and he was. He felt rejected and he wanted to hurt me. He managed to do that. I took a long tome before I told Gibbs who raped me , but he had already figured it out, waiting for me to tell him. We never went to trail, Ken pleaded guilty and got his sentence. He's still doing time. And………………………

Jenny was shocked of what Abby had been threw. And even more sorry about giving her an assistant. The only thing she could say was " I'm so sorry Abby , I'm so sorry."

Gibbs had left the roome to let the two woman speak to each other. But he new Abby well enough to know she would probably need a bucket soon. He got one out of the pantry along with a thick blanket. He heard Abby's last words s he came back into the living room. He headed towards her ,noticing Abby looking around desperately. Gibbs didn't say a word , just handing her the bucket. But it was too late. She threw up all over her self and the floor. When she got a break , Gibbs put the bucket in front of her , gently stroking her back. When there was no more to threw up, Abby started to sob. "I'm so sorry Gibbs, I……………….. "

"Hey Abby , don't worry about a thing. " I'm taking you to the bathroom , and then Jen can help you get undressed and in the shower. Ill clean up here. And I don't mind. And with out waiting for a response, he lifted her gently of the couch and carried her to the bathroom Jen follow, hoping Abby would let her help.

When Gibbs had left , Abby turned to Jen who was helping her with getting rid of her discarded clothes.

"Can I ask you something Jenny. "

"Ask anything you want Abby".

"Well I haven't told Matt about me being raped or having an abortion. And I do care so much about him , that we still haven't had sex yet. I'm scared Ill lose it, or not being able to go threw with it. And I don't wane loose him. I love him so much." I don't know what to do?...

Well Abby you should talk to him, and tell him everything. If he loves you, he'll respect you and your feelings. And he won't push you into anything until you are ready. Take a shower now. Ill be right here and we can talk if you want to. And Just as you know Abby, I still haven't made love to Jethro since we got back together. I want to , but we're taking things slow this time around, and we respect each other.

Abby nodded in the shower, not believing what she had heard..

After cleaning up the living room , Gibbs went into the kitchen. He new Abby was gone be hungry , and it was almost morning. So he made omelets with ham & chees , pepperoni& onions. And a lot of toast. More coffee too. When everything was ready , the ladies came sniffing into the kitchen. They where booth grateful for the food.

"Abby , I called Matt. He' on his way home right now. Just talk to him ok. You and Jen are staying home today. I'm just gone grab a shower and then I'm heading to the office. Ill get some sleep later. Faith will be in school all day , so have fun, get some rest and call me if you need anything. Half an hour later, he came into the kitchen, giving Jen a kiss before he left for the office.