Yeah, know how I said that no one was going to die in chapter 4? I lied.

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December 31

10:46 PM

School still hasn't started. Regina must've known it would take me three weeks to attempt recovery. I don't know if anyone else knows yet. I haven't even left the dormitory the past two week.

The only reason I'm writing again is because Windy made me. I haven't seen Lorcan.

It just had to happen all on the same day. Finding out that Scorpius chose Rose, and Zane being dead. It'd been only an hour since I left him! In that single hour, my heart broke twice.

Teddy's been writing. Letters, that is. He said that Regina told him everything at Windy's request.

I guess she only listened to Windy because she knew that Windy had my best interests at heart.

I already miss him. I can't believe that was actually going to leave him for Scorpius if he chose me!

I didn't need Scorpius! Scorpius was my brother. I should've been supportive of Rose the minute I agreed to go out with Zane! It took me this long to find that out.

UHG! I need to get my mind to go faster. Oh, look, my first little humorous bit in a week.

January 1

12:11 AM

The fireworks Hogsmeade is showing are amazing. They spell out little words, no one knowing that an amazing person is now dead.

Was Snape like this when Grandma Lily died? I'll have to ask dad one day.

"Lily, do want to see Rose?" Windy asked quietly.

"No. I want to see Totty. It's been I while since I visited her."

"Okay. Want Lorcan to come?"

"I don't care."

I know I shouldn't be acting like this, but I just lost my boyfriend. That was the first time I've said that. The first time I actually called Zane my boyfriend. I feel so bad right now.

Kitchens

12:43 AM

"Ah, Lily! Happy New Year! Today is the House Elves' most celebrated holiday! It shows another year of work ahead of us!" Totty was yelling. Looks like Regina gave them a day off to celebrate. They were all drinking butterbeers, and popping magical poppers. It was all so funny it was hard not to smile. A little.

"Thanks, Totty. Same to you. How're you and Yanky doing?" I asked.

Totty's grin turned into confusion, "Lily, you don't sound happy. I may be half drunk, but I know when you're sad or happy."

"It's nothing, really. My friend Teddy hasn't been sending me anything, lately." The lie of the century.

"Well, have a butterbeer! Regina would clothe us if we gave you firewhiskey or mead."

I nodded, and took the bottle she handed me. Windy and Lorcan haven't said a thing since we got here.

"Why aren't you guys talking?" I asked with false happiness, "C'mon, House Elf parties are always hilarious!"

"Er- Lily, do you want to go back?" Windy asked.

"No, I'm going to… well, I'll do something. Fun."

I went off in Totty's direction. Even if she was half drunk, a little charm can bring her back.

"Totty!"

"Yes- hiccup! - Miss? Oops! I mean Lily! Bwahahaha!"

I did a small Sobering Charm.

"Oh, Lily, what happened? My head is hurting. Ah, you've come to see me, eh? Well, you must have boy troubles," Totty said, now sober. That's offensive! I don't always go to her for boy problems!

"What's happened this time?"

"Zane Rickton has left the school for good," I said, tearing up.

"Oh, Lily. Was he expelled, or was he taken out by his parents?"

"Taken out. And he's not coming back…"

Totty took my hand in her tiny one, and gave it a little squeeze.

"Thanks, Totty, I just needed to get it out. Go, have fun now."

Totty gave me a sad smile, and took another butterbeer.

"Lily? C'mon, let's go back. Windy's having a bit too much butterbeer," Lorcan said after Totty left.

"Okay. You guys go. I'm going to the hospital wing. I need something for…"

"Heartbreak," Lorcan finished for me.

"You know?"

"Yeah, Windy told me. I'm sorry, Lily. I liked the bloke myself," he answered with a small frown.

We half carried Windy out of the kitchens. She kept singing "Merlin's Festive Trousers" while we were carrying her. You can get tired of a carol real easily with this one.

"Merlin's Festive Trousers give off a Christmas-y feeling to everyone!"

Lorcan's singing along. It's already past Christmas! Meh, I don't care. I might as well sing too.

Library

2:36 AM

The Library's been left open today.

Amazingly, I found yearbooks. I didn't know the school had yearbooks!

I took out the one marked Hogwarts: School of Witchcraft and Wizardry Yearbook 1977-1978

"This was our grandparents' year," I whispered to no one.

The yearbook was, no surprise, huge so it took me a while to find Lily Evans.

She has Al's eyes. And so does Dad. But her hair shows in me. Nearly the same shade of red, but mine's lighter.

I went back a bit and found Sirius Black. He looks too arrogant for the hero dad described.

I moved to Lupin. Remus Lupin looked modest, humble, and a lot like Teddy.

I didn't bother looking up Pettigrew. I don't even want to see his face. I skipped to my name.

Dad. It's my dad. Or it looks almost exactly like him, when he was younger, anyway. The eyes are a different color. Dad's nose is smaller, and so are the lips.

I don't remember getting any pictures taken, so how are there yearbooks?

…

Ah, magic. Of course!

I skipped to the "best" and "most likely to" pages.

Best Friends: Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, James Potter

Best Couple: James Potter and Lily Evans.

Most likely to succeed: Sirius Black, Lily Evans, Remus Lupin, and James Potter.

Best Dressed: Harvey Hathrough. HA!

I closed the book, and looked for 1996-1997. Dad's sixth year.

Looking through all the pictures made me want to know more about my parents. I doubt they'd tell me, but other people would.

Neville lost a few pounds since that year.

Mum looks so pretty.

Hermione has the same bushy hair.

Luna looks practically insane.

Ron looks no different but now he has a couple lines on his face.

Dad looks like a hormone-crazed teen.

It's too funny seeing them like this. There are too many people to write down, and it's all so overwhelming, seeing my family young. I know they were terrified and angry at that age, (who wasn't?) but in the yearbook, they're all so happy.

"Hey, why're you starting to cry?"

Who was that?

"Oi! Down here!"

I looked down and saw Ron looking at me next to Mum.

"Why're you crying? This is no time to cry! You-Know-Who's out on the loose!"

"No, he's not," I answered, "He's been dead for about 20 or 30 years."

"Who are you anyway?" he asked.

"Lily Potter."

"No, you're not! She died 15 years ago!"

"The second."

"There is no second Lily Potter!"

I decided what I didn't want was to be yelled at by Ron. But, it be bearable if someone had to suffer with me...

Gryffindor Common Room

3:23 AM

"What, Lily? What's so important you have to wake me up?" Windy asked.

"Look," I said, and I opened up to the page Neville was on.

"Th-that's my dad! When he was sixteen!"

"Yep, and look on the next page," I said, turning the page.

"That's Luna! Oh my gosh! She looks insane!"

"Here, you can look through it. I'm going back to the kitchens to get me a sandwich."

Great Hall

4:12 AM

It feels good to be out of the dormitory.

They left everything here! Plus, the food's still warm! Mmm!

I was about to bury my face in a pie when someone tapped me on the shoulder.

It was a girl. She looked like she'd be a third year. She had long black hair, and bangs nearly hiding her strange purple eyes.

"Lily Potter?" she asked, "Hi, I'm Melonie. I'm Zane's cousin. I know what happened."

Who is this mysterious girl? Why does the school have yearbooks? What is the matter with me? Where are Rose and Scorpius in this chapter? When will Lily solve all her problems? All these questions and more will be answered in the next chapter!

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