Chapter 13
She didn't sleep in my bed that night or for the next few nights that followed. I was scared that it had something to do with me. That she was trying to wean herself off of me and that thought hurt. On the final night my mind was exhausted and the tears finally came out.
I was curled up crying with my arms held around myself. I knew she entered the room, but I couldn't face her. I didn't want her to know that I was upset. She was hesitant to approach me.
"Spencer what's wrong?" She asked making her way over to the bed and sitting beside me.
I didn't answer her and instead cried harder. She didn't get upset and she didn't leave, she simply took my hand and crawled in beside me. After a few minutes I calmed down.
"I know why you've been avoiding me." I whispered. "You're trying to stop loving me so that you can forget about me."
"No, Spencer no." She said hugging me tighter to her. "That's not it at all. I've just been scared to be close to you after what happened. If I ever hurt you… I…" She trailed off. "Spencer I love you."
My heart stopped. I knew it because it had been pounding so long waiting simply for this moment and it had now happened. A beautiful person who made me feel like the greatest girl in the world felt about me the same way I felt about her.
"I love you too." then I kissed her. I kept it light because of what happened last time, but my heart was so full that I could barely breathe between. We finally stopped and stared at each other filling the room with more love than I felt two people could ever share with each other.
"Ashley I don't want to make this hard on you so you can take me home tomorrow." Her face narrowed and it took her a few moments to reply.
"I will return to you as fast as I can."
"I know." I said moving the hair out of her face. "That's why I can do this."
I leaned in and kissed her again as the moon light glittered our bodies in silver light. I knew I could leave her for a little while because no matter what she would always be mine.