As Justin looked into Brian's eyes, his mind was awhirl with questions. He was dying to ask Brian so many things. But even if he did not, his mind, ever curious, would seek answers. Justin liked the idea of allowing fate to run its course, but doing so would be very difficult, if not impossible. What Justin found particularly unnerving was that he wouldn't own his future experiences. He wouldn't know if what he and Brian were doing was a new experience or something they had done a million times before. Justin needed to take some control. So he stated, "Brian, I can promise not to ask you or anyone else questions about us, but I can't stand the idea of being completely in the dark, especially about something so important."

Brian rolled his lips into his mouth and looked down. Then, he lifted his head until his eyes met Justin's once more and inquired softly, "What are you proposing?"

Justin hesitated for a moment as he contemplated Brian's question. What was he proposing? How could he level the playing field? Suddenly, the answer came to him. Slowly, he suggested, "I know that you don't want to push me to remember by telling me what we've already said and done, but could you promise that whatever we do from now on is something we've never done before? That all our future experiences are really new?"

Brian remained silent for a moment, pondering Justin's request. In a way, that would be telling of their past, indicating what they had not yet done, but Brian could understand why Justin suggested it. Justin might be okay with not knowing what came before, but he clearly needed to know that their future experiences were as they seemed to be, completely new to him, to them. Brian considered it a fitting compromise.

He nodded. "Fair enough."

Doing so would give them what Brian so desperately wanted, a fresh start.

Then Brian added, "Actually, I've been doing that already, that is, trying to change the way our relationship or whatever progressed last time."

Justin asked, "Does that mean that the pet name you gave me is new?"

Brian nodded and swallowed hard. "Yes, Kitten is new since yesterday. Our dating is new, too."

Justin inquired, in as even a tone as possible, "So we never went on dates before?"

Brian's voice broke a little as he replied, "No, we didn't."

But Justin ignored the implications of that fact and just smiled brightly, a million-watt smile. He declared excitedly, "Good! That opens up a lot of opportunities for us to make new memories."

Brian laughed softly. Justin was still hopelessly optimistic. He responded softly, "I suppose it does."

Justin smiled seductively and approached Brian. He nudged Brian's nose gently and asked, "Have we ever fucked on the rooftop?"

Brian couldn't help but smile back. He shook his head. "No."

Justin purred, "Do you want to? It's a beautiful, warm summer night. That would be romantic, wouldn't it?"

Brian smiled. He drawled, "I suppose it would. Sure. Let's go."

Then, he grabbed an extra blanket from the bathroom closet (as well as lube and condoms) and the rest of the bottle of wine. Justin grabbed glasses and followed Brian to the door. Brian looked back at Justin, staring at him for a long moment, but then took his hand and led him out into the hall. He let go to lock up, but took the boy's hand again and actually threaded their fingers together as he led him up the staircase to the roof.

As Brian laid out the blanket and set down the other items he'd brought, Justin looked over the edge of the building at the street below and then up at the starry sky.

He exclaimed happily, "Oh, look! A full moon!"

Brian chuckled. He thought, "Well, I guess I can blame my headlong plummeting into lesbianism on that" as he wrapped his arms around Justin's waist and nuzzled his neck. Brian had never liked doing anything romantic, but he had to admit that he didn't mind the idea of fucking Justin in the warm, fragrant summer air beneath a starry sky and a bright full moon.

He turned Justin around in his arms, kissed his lips gently, and stroked his cheeks softly.

Justin whispered, "Brian, please stop holding back. Just take what you want."

With those words, everything Brian had spent the evening, the past two evenings, suppressing rose to the surface and exploded. He grabbed Justin by the neck and sent his lips crashing down onto Justin's, plunging his tongue into his mouth, plundering it. Dizzy from the intensity of Brian's passion and the rapidity with which it had burst forth, Justin slid his arms around Brian's neck and moaned softly. He just held on and tried to keep up.

Brian brought his hands down to Justin's ass, squeezed it hard, and pulled Justin to him roughly, grinding their erections together. He ran his hands up Justin's back, pulling the boy nearer as he did so, and slid them behind the boy's neck, deepening their kiss. Then, he moved his head down to Justin's neck and starting sucking on it hard right at the pulse point. Justin moaned deeply. Brian pulled away, but just long enough to pull Justin's shirt off and then began sucking on his chest and nipples as he unbuttoned and unzipped Justin's jeans. Then, he pulled them and his underwear down, lifting Justin's feet up in turn to pull them off and tossing his clothes over his shoulder. He ran his hands up and down Justin's thighs and growled low in his throat before deepthroating Justin's hard and leaking cock in one go. Justin gasped and then moaned, "Oh Brian!"

Brian grabbed Justin's ass and pulled him closer so that the tip of Justin's cock entered his throat and swallowed. In response, Justin shivered, and he threaded his fingers into Brian's hair. After Brian had deepthroated Justin a few more times, he stood up fast, startling Justin a bit, and, as soon as their eyes made contact, Brian ripped his shirt open, sending buttons flying. Justin's sparkling blue eyes widened. He was lost in the depths of Brian's hazel eyes, now a dark, dark brown, so dark they were almost black. Brian commanded huskily, "Get on all fours."

Justin moved quickly to comply. Brian finished undressing and was behind Justin in a heartbeat. He pushed Justin down so that he was leaning on his arms, ran his hands along Justin's back, caressed his ass cheeks gently, and then licked a trail from his lower back to his entrance. Justin gasped. Brian smiled. Some things didn't change. Brian started feasting on the boy's ass almost desperately, swirling his tongue over his entrance, tracing it with his tongue, and pushing his tongue inside. Justin cried out the moment Brian's tongue entered him and then started moaning deeply.

Brian couldn't wait any longer. The noises Justin was making had thrown Brian way too close to the edge. He pulled back, quickly sheathed his painfully erect cock and slicked it with lube, and then placed it at Justin's entrance. He grabbed Justin's hips and thrust all the way inside in one go, moaning loudly the moment his cock was fully enveloped. Justin grunted, but mostly out of surprise. For Brian, the feeling of being inside Justin like this was at once wonderfully familiar and painfully distant. It had been weeks, but those weeks spanned a year, maybe an eternity. Brian shut his eyes tight to prevent tears from falling and then lost himself in all the bittersweet pleasures Justin's body had to offer.