-MESSED UP WORLD-

AN: Inspiration- All yours from the ECLIPSE soundtrack lol;)

Edward POV

She continued to stare at the radio she looked sad, so broken, like she had no emotion, as if she were trying to hide it behind a mask.

"When I met Jacob it was at a restaurant. He was on a trip there also, just like Alice and I. He was from a reservation near Forks, I couldn't believe we met many miles away. I remembered thinking he was so nice to me, Alice didn't know what to think. At that restaurant I saw you also..." She paused as I sucked in my breath. She saw me before she moved to Phoenix?

She smiled without any humor, "I remember you seemed to glance our way, but you were too distracted with your family. So you didn't even notice me. When I saw your family I remembered thinking I wanted a family like that too. Jacob was trying to talk me into going out with him, but I kindly rejected him." She shook her head as if she was trying to forget.

"Yet, I couldn't reject giving him my number. His smile was just so contagious, he was just bright, he made me smile...so we kept in contact and then when I went to back Forks before moving to Phoenix, we bonded." She paused and took a deep breath before she continued, " When I moved to Phoenix we lost some contact, and I somewhat missed him, when I moved back to Forks everything went by so fast and when I least expected it, he proposed, and I stupidly accepted because I was blinded by what I seemed to feel for him." She suddenly seemed to hold her breath as she processed everything she had told me. I waited as I thought about everything I didn't know what to say...

I waited for her continue, I wanted her to let me in. To tell what Jacob did to her in their married life.

"Well, lets go Edward." She said she patted her lap, as if what she said didn't hurt her...

I just looked at her in shock, we met and I didn't even know, well I saw her and I forgot! I could have prevented everything if I had just realized she would be important to me. I felt myself get a bit angry at this situation. It was so messed up. She wouldn't tell me about Jacob, but I knew that today we took a huge step forward.

I chucked as I started to drive to the hospital. Why did the world work so wrongly?

"Edward...are you sure going to the hospital okay?" She seemed nervous as we reached our destination.

"Of course love, why wouldn't it? There's visitors every day." I walked ahead and she paused behind me. I looked back in confusion, what was wrong?

I looked at her questioningly and she looked at me with slight fear. I approached her cautiously as I laid my hands on her shoulders and I looked into her eyes, "What's wrong Bella?"

"You called me... love." She mumbled as she looked down. Did I? I hadn't realized it.

"I am so sorry if it makes you feel uncomfortable I won't ever do it again." I really wouldn't. If this meant I could possibly lose her because of something like this I would never do it again.

She seemed to think before she she spoke again, "actually it's fine Edward. I feel a bit better about myself."

She started shuffling her feet and she bit her lip, as if asking me if I was okay with calling her love. She looked very cute. Why would I say no, calling her love was something I would be honored to do, even if it didn't mean anything to her and it only made her feel better. I would gladly be her slave and do whatever she asked of me.

"So lets go inside love!" I said as I pulled her hand toward the hospital.

When we got inside I went to retrieve coat. I realized I was holding her hand when I tried to put it on. She was slightly blushing as I looked down at our entwined hands. I tried not to think about it as I let go, the calmness I felt and the airy feeling I felt was gone. I put on my coat and I tried not to think about it, but I was disappointed, I wish I could hold her hand longer.

"Good morning Edward!" A few nurses waved at me from the reception and I smiled as I began to take my charts.

"Wow Edward, so you are still a heart breaker!" She laughed at she looked up at me.

"What?" Heart breaker? Again we went over this before.

"Edward you just have to start realizing the effects you have on these women!" She gave me a weird look of confusion.

"Well.." I looked at the nurses and Bella was right, they continued to stare. I began to feel uncomfortable now that she pointed it out.

"I didn't know." I mumbled as I looked away from the nurses with a slight embarrassment.

I began to walk ahead to my patients and I usually worked with kids, that was why I loved the hospital.

"So Edward what are we up to today?" She asked as she followed along.

"We are just checking up on some of my patients and then chill and then play." I said.

She her brown eyes looked up at in confusion? "We are going to play?" She asked.

"Yes my lady." I said as I tried to imitate my best Jasper imitation.

"Okay Jasper." She said sarcastically.

We went into the first room and I chuckled as I saw Renesmee playing with some of the dolls I had given her. . I smiled as she looked up at me with her angelic smile.

"Hey sweetheart!" I said as I mess up her hair.

"Hi!" She grinned as she hugged my waist.

"How are you today?" I asked.

She was about to answer until she saw Bella standing behind me.

"Who is she Edward?" She pouted as she clung on my arm. I grinned as I looked down at Rensemee

"She is someone I am really close with and I'm sure you'll love her, just like I do." I was about to continue when I realized I slipped. I told Renesmee that I loved Bella. I looked at Bella, but she seemed to be distracted by Renesmee. She began to crouch down to match her height.

Bella and Renesmee looked so beautiful together I would've have believed that they were mother and daughter. They had big brown and eyes and gorgeous hair, except that Renesmee's seemed to look more like mine.
"Hi Renesmee, I'm Bella." She said as she extended her hand to her. Renesmee stared at Bella with a huge intensity until she she shook Bella's hand.

"Hi Bella." She mumbled. Renesmee was still clinging on me with her other hand, Bella continued to look at her, "You know Renesmee you're really pretty..how old are you?"

"I'm eight." Renesmee let go of me as she began to get closer to Bella.

I thought Renesmee just wanted to talk to her formally or something, like she usually did to strangers, but that hand that was holding my coat was suddenly on Bella's cheek. Bella's eyes widened, but she didn't push Renesmee away.

"I know you suffered, but you're really pretty too." Renesmee said.

Bella sucked in some air. How did this precious little girl of mine automatically realize that Bella suffered while I took my a long time to figure that out.

Renesmee didn't end there, "You should marry Edward." I was about to laugh, but there was so much conviction in her voice, she was so serious. I didn't know what to say. Bella's eyes were glued to Renesmee's face. Renesmee suddenly let her hand away from Bella's face and then she ran back to her bed to play with her dolls.

I just stood there in complete shock. Bella stood up and she continued to look at Renesmee.

"Edward does she usually say that?" Bella looked frantic as she met my eyes. She looked confused.

"No this is the first time I heard say that." I assured. I took Bella's hand in mine and I looked into her eyes, "Bella don't fear her. Renesmee just seems to see things others don't, I have no clue how, but I want to help you." I said with as much conviction as I could muster.

Bella looked scared as if she had just been exposed. She looked at Renesmee again, I was about to try to talk to her but a nurse ushered me from the outside to hurry.

"I have to go Bella, stay with Renesmee please." I let go of her hand and I went to the emergency room.

After I was done I was happily walking back to Renesmee's room. I was wondering whether I should bring some food over, it had been many hours since I left and I was hungry. I walked into Renesmee's room, but I couldn't find either of them.

"Riley!" I shouted a bit. He paused and he walked back toward me when he heard me.

"Yes Edward?"

I really didn't want to ask Riley, but he was the only one in the hall. His actions always got on my nerves he never seemed to have respect for the patients. He was always trying to hit on a nurse and usually in front of patients. Why was he even a doctor?

"Have you seen Renesmee and a women with her?" I asked.

He smiled slightly, "Oh you mean the gorgeous brunette that was holding Renesmee's hand?" I felt a bit of jealously well up inside of me.

"Yes."

"They went outside." he grinned. I wanted to punch him for some reason. I hated that grin on his face.

"Thanks." I said as I waved and let quickly outside.

I was thinking about scaring them when I caught sight of Bella's back, but then I saw Renesmee on Bella's lap sleeping. That would have been a bad approach.

Bella was carefully running her hand through Renesmee's hair with so much care. I felt my heart tug a little. She looked so beautiful. A content smile seemed to be on the corners of Bella's lips, her eyes were closed, and she just looked like an angel, I felt something inside of me wanting her more.

I quietly approached them both, Renesmee hands were around Bella's legs. She seemed to be smiling in her sleep.

"Bella." I whispered softly. Her eyes opened up in surprise, but she smiled. She looked peaceful.

"Hey." She whispered back.

"Are you ready to go." I said.

She pouted as she looked down at Renesmee, "So soon."

"Bella it's getting late the sun is setting." She looked around and she laughed quietly.

"I didn't notice time passed by so fast." She said as she continued to touch Renesmee's hair.

"Well, I usually don't either when I hang out with Renesmee." I said as I sat down next to both of them.

"Edward can I ask you a question?" She looked a bit hopeful.

"Anything." I said.

She paused for a moment looking into my eyes, "Why is Renesmee here?"

I sighed as looked at sweet Renesmee, could Bella take it?

"She's sick." I paused as I took Bella's hand into mine again. "She has Leukemia."

Bella looked sad as she brushed Renesmee's cheek, "How long has she been like this?"

"Since six moths ago." I answered.

"Where are her parents how come they didn't visit her today?"

"Renesmee...she lost her parents in a car accident." Seconds passed and Bella's grip on my hand tightened.

"She's alone." It wasn't a question she knew Renesmee was alone and I'm sure she felt just as sad as I did for her.

"Edward is she going to be alright?"

I sighed, " I don't know."

Bella let out a strangled cry as she held Renesmee closer.

"Why is life so cruel to so many good people." She said as she let out a few tears. I outstretched my other hand and gently removed the tears from her cheekbones. I understood her clearly.

"That's the same question I have asked myself love." I said sadly.