He was sure his screams were heard throughout his building, but the people inside didn't care enough to come breaking down his door asking him to continue his break down quietly. He stomped on the ground, crying out in pain as he punched the walls and the counters. He'd failed today. Today was the day he would forever be labeled as "Jack Kelly; the boy who couldn't protect his brothers and got one of them locked up in the Refuge."

Jack practically collapsed as he sat down on the mattress in the room. This would make the headlines; school boys crushed as bulls attack. And those screams, the screams of his brother crying out for his help, oh they'd never leave his mind. The crip was just too damn slow. The images of Race's wide eyes as they lunged for him and Romeo, Albert rolling over in pain, Elmer holding his bleeding face in his hands, Buttons, Finch, Sniper, Mush, Henry all fighting off cops all because of him. Good old captain Jack. Well captain Jack had had enough. He just wanted to close his eyes and go!

Far, far away there was a place no one would find him. Not the bulls, not Weasel, not his disappointed brothers, not Pulitzer, no one! There was a place he would forget about it all. Tomorrow he'd forget all of it... but deep down he knew there was no forgetting his brothers, his family... his family that he let down today.

When the city's finally sleeping and there was nothing left but the big, grey moon, he would be on the train that's heading for Santa Fe. He be gone and done. He wouldn't need to lie his way out anymore! No more conning people into giving him food or money for him and his boys, no more running from people who were trying to hurt him. No more fat old men ordering him around, dictating his every move, telling him how to live his own damn life. All that would be left was a yellow moon that makes midnight feel like sunrise. It was somewhere where he could live. He could be who he wanted to be.

Jack swore it was written somewhere that "once you've lived here, you gotta die here." He just wanted a break. Why should he only take the crap that people give him? Work, work and more work all for what? For a crummy apartment? A few cheep sweaters? Maybe a few boxes of food? Why should he spend his whole life living somewhere that didn't want to give him a future. All people cared about was how he made them look. Nothing was about him or what he wanted. It was all about the people he "worked for." He was seventeen damn it. He wanted a say in his own damn life.

On top of all that he was breaking his back everyday for people that didn't deserve it. For Pulitzer and Weasel and the Delancey's. The only thing he would never regret are his boys. He'd die for them. But this life wasn't for him, so why should he be there? He wanted to get out. Go far, far away.

He was done dreaming. He'd been teased and bullied for being a dreamer but he didn't care. He wasn't getting any younger and he needed a new start, far from here. He needed to be done. The boys were better off without him running his big mouth. They needed someone who could protect them. But he couldn't. He couldn't protect Crutchie, or Race or any of them. He didn't care if he arrived at his dream land and everyone was laughing at him. He just wanted a place to call his own and he couldn't hurt anyone anymore.

All he wanted was for it all to become real. A place where he could start over. He didn't want it to just be a stupid picture he'd drawn. He wanted to see the horizon and be able to soak in the clean sunlight. He's dead if Santa Fe ain't waiting for him.

He's got nothing without his dreamland. His boys needed someone better. Someone who'd always be there for them. Someone to protect them. And Jack couldn't do it.

Jack had failed.

:'(. Poor Jack.

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