A/N: Wew~ chapter done _ hope you guys like this. i hope you guys haven't given up on me and hoping this chapter would spice up some facts about Natsuki's background :) hope you enjoy.

Chapter 11: i'm your nightmare

Two females sat on the carpeted floor. One leaned back to the cushiony sofa while the other leaned her head on her companion's shoulder. The roaring fire gave heat to their bodies that fought the coldness of the wind coming from the rain outside.

"A few years ago I was told I was involved in a car crash. I was injured and unconscious, so they told me, and when I woke up I was already in America, covered in some bandages and no memories at all." A soft accented voice said as she looked at the burning wood with her crimson eyes filled with sadness. She sighed a little before feeling comfortable to Natsuki's body. "No matter what my grandfather told me, I know that something big is missing." She added.

Natsuki stiffened a little upon feeling Shizuru's body against her. She knitted her brows and tried to remember why the brunette was invading her private space. 'Oh yeah, thunder suddenly disturbed the sky and the mighty Viola jumped on me. Not to mention her chest came suffocating me. Sheesh, if it wasn't for Mai and her own twins, I would've fainted. ' She shook her head slowly to remove the oncoming bad thoughts of a certain brunette and her healthy body. She felt her heart skip a beat when she heard Shizuru's past. Her body went on automatic mode and wrapped an arm around the actress. "Whatever happen in the past must not be dwelled too much on. Since maybe, the past would just hurt your future."

The brunette couldn't help but feel the warmth of Natsuki's body being nostalgic. She closed her eyes and snuggled closer to Natsuki's warmth. "You must be lucky Natsuki, you have memories that are all intact." She said sadly. Snaking her hand to gently grab hold of Natsuki's left hand, she can feel the long scar and the marred skin of the hand. She felt Natsuki flinch her hand away from her touch and that caused her to pout. "What's so scary to you that a mere touch makes you flinch away?" she asked, looking at Natsuki's emerald eyes. "What are you hiding, Natsuki Kruger?"

Natsuki glared at Shizuru to make the girl back off, but her efforts were in vain as the brunette merely looked at her sadly. She took a deep breath, a move that stirred her cold façade to crack as she smelled the sweet tea scent of the actress, and looked at her with a cold yet sad eyes. "My hand…" she sighed. 'Maybe Shimera was right, fragments won't hurt.' She turned her attention to the fireplace and furrowed her brows. "A few years ago, I asked someone to elope with me. But I didn't know my bike's breaks were busted, and we ended up in an accident. My hand pierced through a large shard from a car's windshield and was marred by the numerous of tumbling and skidding from the asphalt." She painfully said. Her hand felt no pain but her heart felt it like it was being constricted by a barbwire.

Shizuru saw the pained look from Natsuki's eyes and couldn't understand why she too feels the pain. Upon instinct, she took the blunette's left hand and placed it on her left cheek, feeling the fighting hotness and coldness of the skin. "I'm glad you survived, but what happened to the one you were going to elope with?' she asked.

The blunette tilted her head back and closed her eyes. "She's gone. Or should I say, she survived but I let her go."

"Is she safe?"

"Safe as she deserves to be. I pushed her to the nearby grassy side of the road before I crashed. I believe she's safe now and that's why I let her. If she's with me, she will just be hurt or worse, disowned by her family." Natsuki retracted her hand away from Shizuru's cheek and clenched it tightly. "She deserves happiness to where I know I can't give. Especially now."

"Is it because we are engaged by our grandparents?"

Natsuki gave Shizuru a stern look. "It's exactly because WE ARE arranged to be married." She roughly said and growled.

The actress can tell that Natsuki loved the girl. The way Natsuki told her about the mystery of her hand, she can feel like Natsuki was carrying a big burden. Her mind drifted off to the unknown girl whom Natsuki offered to elope with. For some unknown reason, she felt no ill feeling for the person who was with Natsuki at that time. Unlike when she actually saw Natsuki and Arashi or Sun being sweet with Natsuki, she felt like she wants to throw her tea at the females who are lovey-dovey with her fiancée. All seems confusing to her. She has a boyfriend and she knows she likes Reito, but whenever she's with Natsuki, she doesn't think of Reito at all.

Two hearts beating at the same time. One beats for anxiousness while the other beats for confusion. Wine colored eyes looked at emeralds whose brows furrowed in annoyance. She can read through the emerald orbs that everything is familiar to her. Emerald reads wine colored eyes and read confusion and desperation to know the truth.

Natsuki gently pushed Shizuru away from her and stood up. She eyes showed sadness and she hid her marred hand on her jean's pockets. "It'll be over in a week and a half Viola. After that we'll get a fake marriage then when all is contented, I will leave your life, never to bother you again." She said in an expressionless face. Her voice carried seriousness and a slight pained tone.

The actress looked up to Natsuki and felt her heart twitch. It's like something important is going to leave her. Then it hit her. Her dream and Natsuki's story is almost the same, her father being favorable to Natsuki, her mother knowing Natsuki's family and Natsuki being overly cold to her, there must be a connection between Natsuki and her past. She stood up, being a bit taller than the blunette and looked at her sternly. "Natsuki, who are you to me?" she asks, her eyes full of confusion.

Natsuki looked away and balled her fists. She clenched her teeth. "I'm your nightmare." She said harshly.

Shizuru was about to speak again but a sudden knock on the door had cut their conversation and Shizuru had put up her façade when she heard a familiar voice.

"Shizuru? Princess open up! Are you okay?" a male voice said from the door. The voice sounded so worried and the banging didn't subside.

Natsuki too recognized the voice. She left Shizuru to tend with the guest while she walked towards the kitchen to fix a snack.

Seeing Natsuki leave gave her a small pang of guilt. She shook the thought away and began to head towards the door and opened it. There, she saw Reito, slightly wet from the rain and panting. "A-Ara? Reito?"

Reito blinked a few times and hugged Shizuru immediately. "Are you okay princess? I had to ask Armitage-san your address just to know if you are safe. It started raining and I know you are scared of thunder." He said worriedly. Shizuru smiled at Reito and suggested they should go inside so that her boyfriend can dry up.

She led the guy to the living room and Reito couldn't stop himself from admiring the house. She chuckled and offered him to sit in the sofa. "We'll regards to Natsuki for having such a house." She said.

Reito nodded his head and wolf-whistled. "I guess this Natsuki is rich. I haven't met her personally. Usually she's wearing that biker leathers and helmet so I haven't seen her overall appearance." He informed her.

Truth enough, Natsuki never did show who she is to Reito. Apart from the first meeting where he saw the blunette a few tables away but since the lightings of the restaurant was dim, he didn't see what the blunette looked like up front. Shizuru noted to herself to ask the blunette that. She chuckled and smirked at Reito. "Oh my, if Reito were to see Natsuki, he might break up with me just to court her. She is beautiful, sexy, and did I say beautiful already?" she put up her fake sobs and her jealous act to tease her boyfriend.

But Reito just smiled at her and took hold of her right hand and planted a kiss on the back of her palm. "You know I'll never do that my princess." he said softly. He was going to try and kiss Shizuru but a cough stopped him midway.

Shizuru, chuckling a bit, turned around and saw Natsuki carrying a tray with two cups. Her face was etched with her annoyed look and her posture was rather stiff. She can tell that Natsuki prepared some tea since the cups on the tray was steaming. "Ara, ara, it seems my housemate is kind enough to prepare us some tea. Am kinda jealous since she doesn't prepare me some tea but now Reito's here, she prepared us some. Does that mean she's a fan of Reito?"

Natsuki snorted and glared at Shizuru. "Yeah right. Shut up." She said sarcastically. She placed the teacups to the table and was about to leave when Reito grabbed her hand and looked at her from head to foot.

"You remind me of someone." Reito Said, looking closely at Natsuki.

Natsuki raised an eyebrow and forced Reito to let go of her hand. "Toothpaste model better not be touching me again, or I'll create a hole in the middle of your eyes." She threatened. She made a gun gesture on her hand and pointed it between Reito's eyes. "If you value your life, you won't make the same mistake as you did with Fumi." She flicked her wrist, imitating a gun being fired at him. She turned around and left the two of them, Shizuru was looking genuinely surprised and Reito rather speechless.

When Natsuki left them, Reito bolted up from his seat and was about to ran to Natsuki when the civilized mind of him halted his attempt. He looked at Shizuru who was giving him a confused look. "I'm sorry princess, it's just…" he sat down and tried to calm himself. "She's someone I met a few years ago at a Tokyo bar." He explained. He ran his hand over is hair and clicked his tongue to calm down. "Damn lesbian…" He unnaturally cursed.

"Did Natsuki do something bad to you before?" Shizuru inquired, she was feeling rather left out and her ears twitched a little when she heard her boyfriend bad mouth Natsuki. She asked Reito to sit down and calm himself.

With a deep inhale and a quick exhale, Reito calmed his nerves down and sat beside Shizuru. She took the cup of tea and calmly whiffed the sweet aroma from it. "That girl, Natsuki was it?" He paused, waiting for a confirmation from Shizuru. When he heard some clothes rustling, he leaned his head back and sighed deeply. "Natsuki, or should I say, Searrs-san, is the person who dared lay a finger and then again should I say, a fist… on my face." He informed the Kyoto-born actress. He chuckled pathetically and placed a hand over his left chin. "Got three stitches from it too." He said in a slight jest. He can still remember how Natsuki gave his toothy smile a good lesson never to cross paths with that certain blunette.

The brunette knew that Natsuki's public name was Natsuki Searrs since she once saw a magazine about the blunette while she was at Chie's office. "What happen?"

Clenching his left fist and shaking it a little, closed his eyes to avert crimson ones that shows concern over the blunette. "To tell you the truth, I was drunk that time. I saw that lesbian charming my ex fiancée, Fumi Himeno, and I lost it. Got angry, shouted at Fumi and slapped Searrs-san on her cheek." He looked at his hand that he used to slap Natsuki with and regretted doing it. He remembered the cold steel barrel being pointed at his forehead; cold sweat had formed from every pores of his body.

Shizuru, knowing her fiancée's temper can only imagine those emerald eyes burning in anger upon intrusion of her personal space. She leaned back to the sofa and sighed. "Reito, is that why you hate lesbians?" she asked, putting the pieces of Reito's anger towards Natsuki and her lil sister's affection over a certain busty chef.

With a nod and a sad smile, Reito answered his girlfriend silently.

"Is Fumi the one?"

Again, Reito nodded his head.

"I see, you want me to ask Natsuki about her?"

The dark-haired actor looked at his girlfriend with a slight hope in his eyes. "N-no… I… I can't…" Reito was now stuttering as he tried to stop his tears from falling. He closed his eyes and clenched his fists. "Fumi's gone and it's that Searrs' fault." He said sadly, unable to stop his feelings anymore. Shizuru felt pity on her boyfriend and moved close to him and gave him a comforting hug.

After a few minutes of comforting and a cup of tea to calm the dark-haired male, he looked at Shizuru's confused eyes. It was his turn now to comfort his girlfriend. "You still haven't found it princess?" he asked, placing a hand over Shizuru's left cheek.

Shizuru felt the warmth from Reito's hand and she leaned closer to her boyfriend. She closed her eyes and savored their moment. "yes. It seems the big part of my past is elusive and making sure that it won't reveal itself to me." She spoke in a sullen mood. She can feel that something in her past is really trying hard to come across to her path to discovery. "I'm scared that I might not know. Even if we shouldn't dwell with our past, I can't see my future clearly without it." She said looking straight at Reito's eyes.

Reito saw the sadness in Shizuru's wine-colored eyes. Among the years he met the actress, rhis is the first time for him to see her all worked up on her past. He can see in the brunette's eyes that something's bothering her and he knew he can't do anything much about it. "We promised to each other right? I'll be your light in case you are swallowed into that darkness of your past. Now don't pout alright princess?" he pulled Shizuru into a gentle hug and placed a kiss on her forehead. "Just like when I first met you and we both agreed on our goals, I will not leave you."

"Ookini Reito-kun." Shizuru held her boyfriend's hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. "I'll help you as well in return. Just as we promised, I'll be here for you until that promise comes to an end."

"Thank you and it's no problem princess. I do like you and it's enough for me us, to have each other's back. " Reito gave Shizuru one of his dashing smiles and he slowly got up. "So shall my princess tell me where the tea is so that we can share a cup or two?" he said, offering his hand to Shizuru.

Shizuru chuckled and she grabbed hold of Reito's hand, letting the gentleman to pull her up. "The tea is in the kitchen and sure a cup or two would be nice."

Meanwhile, in a club a few kilometers away from the Kruger residence, a blunette is currently drinking alone by the bar. Clothes slightly wet and a freezing aura being emitted which makes anyone who dared to join her think twice. She quietly drank her 8th shot of her liquor, her alcohol tolerance is slowly depleting her cold façade. "Damn Viola. Damn Kanzaki." She mumbled, drinking another shot full of liquor. She sighed and asked the bar tender for a refill.

"It seems President Kruger has a lot on her mind. Or should I say Nat-su-ki." A playful female voice said from behind Natsuki. Audible gasps from nearby admirers of the blunette came when someone dared to speak up to her.

Natsuki, recognizing the voice very clearly in her semi-drunken state, snorted and raised a shot glass to the one that spoke to her. "Evening to you too." She looked at the person and saw a smiling silver haired lady, dressed in a black slim shirt and black slim jeans that showed the curves of her body. "Arashi." Natsuki ended, drinking in toast to the presence of her vice president.

Arashi nodded her head and sat beside Natsuki. She ordered a mojito and turned around to give her president a sly grin. "Hello-hello Natsuki, please do tell why a hottie like you decided to grace this lowly bar your prescence. I imagined the cold president would much hang out at some rich club or something." She said, gesturing the whole area which is filled by drunks or a group of friends hanging out. She thanked the bar tender when her drink was given to her and took a little sip.

"You talk too much." Natsuki's voice was rather low but loud enough for Arashi to hear.

The silverhaired woman laughed and patted Natsuki's head lightly. "Surely I don't bug you unlike any other people who dared talk to you. Last time I check, aside from your close circle of friends, family, fiacncee, your fiancee's family and your daughter, I'm next to them being close to you. After all, I'm still you girlfriend Natsuki." She laughed when Natsuki chuckled and gave her a drunken look.

"Pft yeah right." Natsuki said, looking at her drink. Her eyes are showing a soft expression as she looks at her shot glass. "You still cling on that huh Arashi?"

"I try my best. But I still go out and enjoy being a girl. It's just…" she moved closer, placed her right index finger under Natsuki's chin and tilted the blunette's head upward to face hers. "Such an ice beauty like you is hard to come by so I take my chances and try to woo you again. Who knows, I might be the replacement for your Kyoto–born lo~"

-the sound of gun being loaded with bullets-

"Guns won't work on me Natsuki. Not during our college days and definetly not now. So Tell me, why are you here?" Arashi said boredly, letting go of Natsuki's chin and turning her attention back at her drink.

Natsuki had put her gun back to her holster hidden at the back of her pants and sighed. She drank her liquor and placed the shot glass on the counter. "My problem is Shizuru Viola."

omake:

Zaki: watch movie?

Natsuki: no...

Zaki: dinner?

Natsuki: no...

Zaki: watching the sunset together?

Natsuki: cheesy! no!

Zaki: amusement park and then watch the fireworks?

Natsuki: oh hell no! c'mon Zaki-kun, you can think better than that! It's a huge celebration for you two and all you can think of are cheesy things?

Zaki: -_- oh? then give me some pointers!

Natsuki: why would I? you should be original! think of your own!

Zaki: then i'll ask Shizuru. Hey Shizuru can you give me a good idea for a date? i mean, you know,,, THE date?

-Shizuru walks in, sat beside Natsuki and hugged her-

Shizuru: hmmm THE date huh? lets see... i had 3 THE dates with Natsuki before. 1st one is she took me out to dinner

-natsuki figetted-

Zaki: O_o

Shizuru: then we watched the sunset together.

-Zaki looks at Natsuki, Natsuki tries to free herself from Shizuru-

Shizuru: And finally Natsuki took me to the amusement park and we watched the fireworks there aswell.

-Natsuki finally escaped Shizuru's clutches and ran away with Zaki-kun running after her-

Zaki: *from afar* AND YOU CALL ME CHEESY! GET BACK HERE!

Shizuru: Fufufu, maybe i should've said that i told Zaki-kun was just hlaf of it. the other half... -day dreams- ara i think i'm having a nosebleed