Chapter 13: Forever A Friend
Torrie just stood there, like she had just become a frozen sculpture. Her body didn't move an inch. All that was making some movement was her chest rising in and out, quite fast after a sudden bombshell. It had taken her by complete surprise. She felt lost and most of all confused. What does she really say to that? Torrie didn't know.
Torrie continued to stand there, feeling her heels of her black boots on the red carpet of her fashion store. She was speechless, completely lost all ability to talk. She stood there, in complete silence.
A sudden bombshell just hit her, and now her body was trying to register it all, trying to come to terms with it. So she could go back to the real world, and deal with what has just told her.
Torrie felt like she had just fallen from the top of the world, right down to the earth below. She felt the walls starting to shake, the happiness she felt…seem to start fade. It felt like a whole world had suddenly came crashing down.
She was in front of John, but it was like she was staring right through him. Like he wasn't even there.
She couldn't believe what he had just said, it felt like hours to Torrie since she had been silent ever since he had told her but it had only been minutes. She couldn't understand? Why would John say that to her?
Why would one of her closest, utterly best friend she found in the WWE suddenly turn around and say that to her. She didn't understand, she couldn't even register what he even told her right now. It had just felt like a firework had just gone off, startling in the young blonde. Something that just had taken her by surprise.
Surely John's revelation definitely had done that.
Torrie suddenly made the first move, her heel moved from the carpet stepping back. "I'm sorry what?"
John looked at her, and he repeated. "Nick is seeing someone else" he softly told, being careful with Torrie's state of mind.
Torrie suddenly went silent again, still it had shocked her. She didn't know what to say, what to do? All she felt right now was confusion. She had a mental image of herself in a dark room, with some many questions being flung right at her…she had not the faintest idea what to say.
It almost scared Torrie, because she's in a situation with no way of escaping. All she did is stand there, in complete silence.
John continued to stand there, his eyes turned to the wall. Thinking to himself what he can do? At least she wasn't crying or screaming at him….so that was a good sign…but he didn't like the silence but it wasn't as bad he thought it would be…right now.
It looked like a calm storm that had started….who knew if it was going to turn into a thunder, rapids storm.
At least the truth is out, is all John knew that was good about this whole situation.
Torrie glanced at John for a moment before she walked away. John's eyes followed her, and he watched her turn on the radio. He didn't know if that was a good sign or not?
Torrie heard the radio playing, the only sound that was going around the room. She just leaned her hands on the desk, while she heard "Defender" by Gabriella Climi. She heard the lyrics of the song, while John just stood there looking at Torrie, not knowing what was going to happen. Was something lying in the shadows. Was it bad or good thing for him?
Was the eering silence good or terrible? He just didn't know. And what made it worse, Cena didn't know if he should even open his mouth to speak.
Torrie closed her eyes, hearing the lyrics of the song. It made her think of John. Her friend, defending her all those times….encouraging, being a friend to her. Giving her that shoulder to cry on. Letting her lean on him…..just being there for the honey blonde. Then the words came back to her…that changed everything…
So just remember
I am your defender
I won't let you stand there on your own
No matter what they tell ya
I will not surrender
Now until foreverYou will never Be alone
John just fiddled with his fingertips, he didn't know what to say. This wasn't what he was expecting, he thought she would have cried or screamed blue murder at him. His words were like an echo…and still nothing has happened, yet.
I am your defender
I will not surrender
Now until forever
You will neverBe alone
No way I won't surrender
I'm here
Now till forever
Hold on
We're in this together You know I'm your Defender!
The song suddenly faded, a few silent moments passed…Torrie kept her eyes on the desk, John well he just stood there with a scared look across his face. This was scaring him, because he didn't know when Torrie was going to break down or if she was going to snap. Either way, he had to do something. Either be there for her, or defend himself. He didn't know which way this was going.
He just wished for Torrie to speak, at least say something but she remained listening to the radio in silence. The next song was "I Will Be" by Leona Lewis.
Torrie's fingertips touched the end of her soft locks balancing on her shoulders. She just continued to listen to all the songs on the radio, while her body tried to come to terms with it all.
"I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see,
honestlyYou're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down, I'll turn it all around
'Cause I would never let you go
I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
Without you I can't breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I got,
you're all I want,
oh'Cause without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see you're all I need?
Torrie listened to the lyrics, one time in her life all she had was John. And some days when she was alone, and he was the only one there, once upon of time. John was all she had, at least that's what she felt like. The only thing she had as a friend, was John. He was all she needed and wanted in a friend. He was the closest friend she ever had, one friend she got right, not a fake. a True friend. The one that who would always be there. The one that kept her falling apart, time after time. He's always been there, make it all be okay in the end. The one that gave her a reason to fight and never walk away. To Never Give Up! you fall down, you stand back up. he taught her that, the faith. She believed every word he told her! and now...to hear what John said just broke her heart in a million pieces. her heart falling down, shattering to pieces. She fell hard.
She was confused, completely lost. She didn't understand why? Why was he saying this? What was the reason? She felt her walls of happiness come suddenly crashing down. What terrified her, is that what if it was true? What if she had got it all wrong all over again. How about John? Why would he suddenly come out with that. Was it something to do with him not being a fan of Nick.
All she wanted was to be happy, that's all the blonde was trying to do and it seemed the world was against her. Like the tide will turn, and once again she's all alone.
John listened to the song. "This is torture" t was torture for him. He felt scared and worried for himself and mostly for Torrie. Standing in silence, not uttering a single word. Wasn't like Torrie. The radio playing was making the atmosphere worse.
John heard a noise from outside, it made him jump with the atmosphere as well. He was concerned.
The song faded, another moment of silence until another song came on. Torrie suddenly moved from the desk. She grabbed a huge bulk file from the filing cabinet. She let it slam on the desk, the noise startled John. At least it wasn't thrown, or jump on his head. John took in a breath seeing Torrie touching the radio. "You want to throw the radio at me?" he asked, seeing Torrie's eyes staring at the silver radio.
Torrie suddenly broke her silence. Soft and calm. "No not the radio, I like my radio"
John nodded, "Okay" he spoke Breathing in, relief. His grin faded thinking she's going to throw something at him. "Torrie, I'm here if you want to…talk? I'm sorry I really am" he tried to express.
Still nothing from the blonde.
"Hey Tor, you want to see legendary?" John asked, trying to get her to speak. He was scared, because of Torrie's silence. He didn't know what to expect.
Torrie's eyes slowly turned towards John, glaring.
"That's a no then" John spoke.
Without warning, Torrie picked up her desk chair, and threw it over the desk. John stepped back, and almost stumbled to the floor when a chair almost hit him.
"Or a chairs match" Cena added.
Torrie suddenly started to throw things at John. She started to throw t shirts at him. Merchandise from her store. Whatever Torrie could get her hands on, she threw it at John. Torrie threw pens, and pencils, files at him. She just kept throwing things, and John had to duck and dodge them.
"Torrie, let me explain. Okay? Talk to me…" He stressed, ducking at the same time.
"How could you! Why? Would you say that? Torrie suddenly screamed, she picked up the expensive lamp and let it fly almost hitting John's head but he managed to duck. But the shard of glass got him on the arm.
"Okay oww" John moaned.
Torrie just came from the desk, and John stepped back from the furious blonde.
"Okay, I can't breathe….just a second…."
"Why….. would you say that?" Torrie asked, calming down.
John gulped down for a moment, taking in a breath being careful "Because it's true" he muttered.
Torrie looked at him for a moment. John closed his eyes, and knew Torrie would start throwing things at him again. And of course she did.
"Why? Why? For god sake! What the hell!" Torrie kept screaming, hitting John on the head and the arms with a folded up papers.
John stumbled back a few steps, protecting his face. Torrie suddenly stopped and ran her fingers through her blonde hair.
"I'm sorry" John muttered gently.
Torrie didn't say anything. "Why would you say that?"
John took a glance at her, before he braced in a breath. "Because it's true. Okay I saw him with my own eyes. Okay it was the night I bumped into you in the gym. Okay he was there outside the ice cream parlour, I was there for a Make A Wish greeting I saw them together" John explained.
Torrie looked at him, shaking her head. "No. Nick loves me. Okay he's not like that. He wouldn't….okay you're wrong?" Torrie kept shaking her head, with the tears started to rise in her eyes.
John knew this was it, what he was expecting.
"No I'm sorry Torrie, I had to tell you. It's the truth" John gently told.
Torrie just kept shaking her head, not wanting to believe it. "No he wouldn't. No!" she suddenly screamed out. The revelation now had settled in, and the storm had been hit, and it was destroying everything in it's way.
"I'm so sorry Torrie, I really am" John spoke, he went to touch her shoulder but the blonde stepped back.
Her eyes were full of tears, the look on her face….she was heartbroken. Torrie just felt her heart break, John knew it. He could see it, and it hurt him seeing her in a state. He just wanted to hold her, but he felt like if he tried. She would push him away.
"No! No! you're lying!" Torrie screamed.
John shook his head, trying to keep calm. "No I'm not, I wouldn't"
"Yes you are! Nick wouldn't do that to me! He's not Peter. Cena you're liar!" did she believe him? Or was she refusing to believe what John had said.
"No I'm not, I wouldn't lie to you. I wouldn't Torrie I swear to you. What I said is the utter truth. I saw them" John spoke, trying his best to get Torrie to listen to him but it didn't seem to be working.
Torrie kept shaking her head, not wanting to hear it. "No, he wouldn't. he's not like that! He loves me! He wouldn't hurt me. He wouldn't I know him" Torrie kept repeating, trying to stop her heart from breaking even more. Trying to get herself to believe everything is fine.
John didn't know what to say. Maybe he did prefer her hitting him in silence. This was tearing John apart, killing him inside. He had done the right thing telling Torrie, but he was now responsible for what has happened to Torrie. It was his fault, that she looked like a broken woman.
He had taken everything, by telling the truth. Shot right between them. Right between there friendship. He was her fallen angel, there for her in her time of need…now he felt like the destroyer, of her happiness and dreams.
"Torrie…Nick is seeing someone else" John repeated.
Torrie just dug her fingers in her temple, refusing to take it in "No you're lying, no you're lying, no, no, no."
John just looked at her, he hated to see her like this. But he had no choice. He had done the right thing by telling her the truth. But it hurt him, probably more than when she was in the dark about her fiancé's betrayal.
Torrie refused, it couldn't be happening. Not again. Not to her, no way! "No can't be happening to me, just a dream. No" Torrie mumbled, with tears of heartache in her eyes. That moment, was exactly when she felt everything slipping through her fingers.
"No, No NO! you are lying bastard Cena!" Torrie screamed.
John listened, shook his head. "No I'm telling you the truth"
"Okay you no idea what I feel for Nick" Torrie shouted.
John just lowered his head down, taking in a sharp breath. Trying not to lose his temper.
"For the first time in a long time I'm happy! Okay for the first in my life I feel like I have everything! That nothing is about to go wrong! Fall apart!" Torrie sweet voice, came in a scream.
"And you come out and say that! Ugh! I hate you, I hate you!" Torrie growled, with her eyes full of emotion.
"It's the truth" he muttered, hurting after her words of saying she hates him. He hoped to god, their friendship. Their love of a friendship don't turn to bitter hate…over this. The cruel sense of the truth.
"I feel happy! I feel safe and secure! I feel like I'm actually good at something! Do you know what it feels like to lose it all! No of course not! You fucking never lose anything!" Torrie shouted, in venom.
John listened to her, his eyes rising in emotion. Those beautiful blue eyes, were almost full of tears. He's lost everything unknown to the choked up on heartbreak blonde. He knows what it's like to lose someone you love so much, he knows what it feels like to be betrayed. It hit close to his chest, like a dagger being stabbed through.
"Always have the perfect life of a wrestler! Well some of us don't have it so easy! Some hearts like mine don't have it so easy! Have everything they ever dreamed ever wanted! Well some of us don't have it, like people like you!"
"People like me?" John suddenly stressed back.
"People that have absolutely have everything they want in life, you got movies, you got the career!" Torrie shouted back, she didn't know what she was saying. Just came to her, her heart was breaking. She was almost choking on the heartbreak she felt. She couldn't escape it no matter what she did.
John didn't say anything, he just stared at Torrie. Much to say. "There's a lot she doesn't know about him, a lot has changed for John only Torrie didn't know"
"You don't know, how could you know! What it's like to feel like you're drowning. That you're so scared of what is store for you. You wouldn't know because you have it all. The perfect life, perfect career….and the perfect wife you have never lost anything! So fricking perfect, the hero!" Torrie snapped.
Torrie suddenly scoffed. "Some hero you are, you don't know. You have no idea!" she screamed at him.
"I have no idea! No you have no fricking idea Torrie!" John shouted back at her. Suddenly losing his temper.
"No you're lying! Because some reason you don't like Nick! You come up with this sordid, fantasy affair!"
John looked at her, "Why? Why would do that! What the hell have I got to gain from that!" John shouted back.
"You just don't like Nick! He loves me! Okay John. He loves me and I love him! He wouldn't do this!"
John closed his eyes gently, gulping the lump in his throat. Felt like it was choking him. He knew exactly what that felt like. Because it's happened to him. Unknown Torrie, he was already trying to hold on and make up the pieces of his life…because his life was anything but perfect. At the moment, it was a complete nightmare.
That's it he couldn't take anymore, He tried his hardest but no more. John stormed over to the blonde. Overshadowing her. His blood boiled while Torrie stumbled a few steps back away from John, seeing the look on his face. "You want to live in denial then fine! Live in it!" Torrie's nerves shook in fear, his deep voice shouted right in her face. He was breaking her in half. She couldn't believe it was John! That was standing there shouting at her. Couldn't believe it was her friend, after all these years.
Someone so sweet, so friendly. Words of wisdom….to this…
"But what I'm telling you is the god damn truth Torrie! I wouldn't say this for the sake it! You think I like this! You think I wanted to fucking see him kissing someone else! I don't! so stop shouting at me, go and shout at your precious, wonderful fiancé! That is making you look like a stupid, pathetic idiot!" He shouted, losing his temper.
The last words from Torrie, drove him to that. He had to bite his tongue and not tell her.
Torrie stood there in silence, the tears kept falling down. John's breathing calm down, his body went from rapid rising to softly rising when he felt himself calm down. Torrie stood there in front of him, with tears in her eyes, emotion striking her face.
She looked absolutely devastated, this had turned into the worst night of her life.
Destroyed, heartbroken, torn apart. Upset, sadness all these emotions shown in Torrie after the secret had just been discovered. Was it all worth it?
John's light blue eyes lightened up, his anger settled. Guilt pierced him "I'm so sorry Torrie, I didn't mean…to shout…at you I just…." he couldn't even finish his sentence.
Torrie kept shaking her head, her tears kept falling. She turned back to John. "Who are you?" that hit him in the heart, like they were strangers. To Torrie that's what it felt like. This wasn't the John Cena she knew at all. She couldn't recognise….he felt like a stranger to her.
Torrie kept her fingers in her golden blonde hair, "How could you do this to me?" she asked in tears, her voice cracking up. Why was this happening? Why was John doing this?
"I'm sorry" John muttered back.
Torrie just closed her eyes, not knowing what to say. She couldn't scream, couldn't shout anymore. She felt drained. From the tears, from the anger. She felt like a shell. Torrie sat down on the chair, in silence. Drained physically and emotionally, mentally. Like she had nothing left.
Everything had gone, her happiness. Her light…all gone. All that was left, was heartbreak, confusion and she felt lost.
John leaned on the desk, not knowing what to say? He looked at Torrie, seeing the look on her face. It was just blank. Her eyes were red from the crying. Her facial features were just broken. No smile, no grin. Not hint of light. Nothing at all.
John heard his phone suddenly buzz, he took it out of his pocket. He saw Randy's name lighting up. John kept staring, and Torrie's eyes suddenly followed over to him.
"It's Randy" he told.
Torrie's eyes narrowed, staring a hole. Letting the fire burn in her stare.
John saw the expression and cancelled the call. "I'll call him later" he let his phone drop on Torrie's desk. Once he had done that, they were welcomed with even more silence.
"Do you want anything? Something eat, to drink. To talk, men's genitals" John asked.
"Water, please" she mumbled.
John got her cup of water, she just took it and then threw it back in John's face. Cena closed his eyes when he felt the cold refreshed water on his face, feeling the droplets sliding down from his facial features…...to his neck, dripping down to his shirt.. He gasped silently, before wiping his face. Foolish of him for asking.
"You want a glass of water to drink? Or to throw at me again?" John then asked.
Torrie didn't say anything. He just turned away, when he turned back to Torrie. He saw a vase in her hand. "Torrie, okay put the vase down. Alright" he reasoned, nothing was working. So he ducked it, just as it went flying to the floor. Shattering into pieces. Torrie had just flung the vase against the wall, in anger.
"God I'm going to get murdered" He muttered.
Torrie walked towards the door, and opened the store door. "Just go" she softly told.
"No" John shook his head.
"I said leave" Torrie growled, with her eyes almost on fire.
"No, I'm not leaving" he refused.
"Get out of my store! Get out of Texas! Get the hell out of my life!" Torrie screamed at him. John held on, and just kept shaking his head. Much to say he's not leaving Torrie alone.
Torrie looked at him, "I said get the hell out of here!"
John didn't move, he just stood there "I'm not leaving you, not like this. Okay I'm not going to leave you alone,"
He came forwards, Torrie suddenly started to attack him. Pounding her fists, her hands on his chest trying to keep John away from her. Trying to stop John from coming near her. All her aggression, all her anger, all the emotion….she just kept hitting John on the chest. Trying to stop him, but her fists weakened. Feeling him closer, somehow it just weakened the blonde.
She just cracked up in tears. John put his strong arms around the crying blonde. He could feel the heartbreak in her, he could see the broken sensation across her face. She just kept crying, and crying while clutching a handful of John's shirt in her hand.
Torrie just kept crying, he heard the sobs from his friend. John stroked her blonde hair gently, comforting her anyway he can. He knew maybe all the comfort in the world wasn't going to be enough to heal Torrie once again…could this be the final time she'll fall down, and this time stay down.
"Shh, shh it's okay" John muttered.
Torrie's cries softened, her heartbeat slowed down. She seemed to start calming down. "I'm okay, I'm calm" she muttered ever so softly. John let his arms release. He wasn't prepared to what was going to happen.
Torrie had grabbed a hard object lashing out, and smacked John right in the side of the temple with it. John just yelped out in pain and fell down to the floor. He suddenly became motionless. He was unconscious for a moment, his head titled to the left. His chest and stomach rose rapidly, after the object colliding with his face. His breath released through his lips, every time his heart beat.
Torrie just lashed out, her eyes looked down at John. She didn't mean it, but she just wanted him to stop. Stop telling her, stop explaining because it hurt. Hurt her terribly, she still didn't even know what to believe. All she felt right now was pain, and her heart breaking in two half's. cuts her like a knife.
He just laid there after a sudden attack, his arms laid beside him. With one of his top palm of his hand on the carpet, and the other hand pointed down on the carpet.
He regained consciousness a few moments later. It didn't hit him hard enough to be completely out of it, but still managed to knock him off his feet.
Torrie threw the object down, and fell down on the chair. Drained of the crying.
John rolled over on his front, before he felt his back hit the carpet. He let out a soft yelp of pain, coming back around from being dazed. His body started to get back to normal after the sudden collision.
His vision was slightly blurry. He laid on the floor, his hands rose slowly off the carpet and went over his forehead. He sat up, still his fingertips on his temple.
He looked at Torrie, sitting there. Was it all worth it?….is what John thought in his head. As much as he hated to admit it, how much it pained him to admit…
Yes it indeed was.
That's what a forever friend is, the one that is always there to get you through the storm.
End of Chapter.
Okay so doesn't look too good for John, but at least Torrie knows! I must admit. I had trouble writing this, I never really had Torrie and John at each other's throats, shouting at each other.
Anyways thank you to all the those are reviewing, love you guys so much!
Now until next time (Probably quite soon Loll I'm into this updating regularly lol I don't have college to worry about…yet)
Next Time: Torrie breaks down, and realises John is telling the truth when everything starts to add up, what happens when Torrie confronts Nick? Will he be able to talk himself out of it? he'll do anything to save himself...his words could land in John in the crossfire Big time!