Still don't own BTR or Th1rteen R3asons Why.

*Bold means its on the DVD.

*Italics means its Jo's memory.

"I'm assuming you want to finish the discs. Once you finish the them, you'll understand more. I can just read while you watch them. But don't blame yourself." James gave him a quick hug, and then started reading, plugging in some music.

Kendall took a deep breath, and thought a little bit about what had happened. Obviously he had been to some sort of heaven, because heaven was wherever Jo was. At least, that was his type of heaven.

He put in the next DVD and stuck in his earbuds.

Jo sat on her bed cross legged and sighed. "So, the last few days prove life isn't all bad. I really was going to kill myself, but well, I got someone to talk to. I guess this is the next reason, even if it really isn't a reason for killing myself. He's one reason I might not kill myself. Reason number eleven, James Maslow."

Taking a deep breath, I walked down into the lobby, having no idea where I'm going but knowing I'll probably just pick up a bottle of pills and do it that way.I almost got through the lobby without anyone saying anything, when someone tapped me on my shoulder.

"Just leave me the fuck alone, I don't want to deal with any of your shit right now." I snapped, shrugging the person off and stomping away.

"Jo, it's me." I turned to see James standing there confused.

"Oh. What do you want James?" I sighed, knowing he probably had a lot of questions he wanted answered.

"Can we talk? Your room maybe?" He asked, and with a long internal sigh, I nodded and we went to my room.

I sat on the end of my bed and he pulled a chair up and sat in front of me. Then he looked at me. Actually looked at me, like I was someone worth looking at, and he looked at me with so much warmth and care and concern it made me want to cry.

"Jo, what's wrong with you?" He asked, reaching out for my hand. I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't want to bottle everything up inside anymore, I was tired of it, tired of never telling anyone about people tormenting me or anything, so I basically collapsed into his startled arms and poured out almost everything to him, omitting only the possible rape from Dak and the almost rape from Jett. In a moment of complete stupidity, I even yanked up my sleeve to show him I cut. He looked like he was in shock, and once I was done and I was basically a sobbing mess, he comforted me, cradling me like a baby and just being there for me.

Once the worst of my cry fest was over he looked at my tear streaked face. "Jo, you always come and talk to me whenever you need to. You feel like hurting yourself, talk to me. Someone's giving you shit, tell me. You need me, I'm there." He hugged me, and I hugged back, feeling like maybe I could fight through it all.

Jo smiled, a true smile even, something rare in these videos. "Thanks to you James, I might be able to fight this. I could fight this stupid depression and maybe even get away from everyone and everything. James, I feel like you're my guardian angel. You're the big brother I never had, and I'll never be able to repay you for listening to me and helping me. That being said, I hope no one will see these tapes, because James, you make me feel like life is worth living." Then she shut the video off.

Kendall shut the laptop and walked over to James. He didn't say anything, just hugged him. James hugged back, and after awhile Kendall went back to his bed. Before he pressed play on the next DVD, he looked over at James who was laying down looking at the ceiling.

"Thank you for being there for her when I wasn't." Kendall said to James, who didn't really respond but wiped his eyes.

Then Kendall pressed play.

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