SARA'S POV
It's been 2 weeks since Tegan asked me to move in with her. I am now in Montreal.
Beautiful, cozy Montreal.
I still can't believe she asked me to come back to Vancouver with her.
Tegan. Beautiful, cozy Tegan.
I can't help but smile when I think of this. It's true Tegan is very cozy. So cozy, I can almost spoon her for long periods of time. If it weren't for my womb phobias I wouldn't... I wouldn't mind. Not at all but I would never admit it out loud. At least not to Tegan. She'd never let me breathe in bed again.
"Hah." I can't help but laugh into the half empty closet that I am currently emptying out.
"What's so funny?!" I hear a curious Tegan walking towards me.
I turn around and give her the it's none of your business look.
"Nothing Tegan, Jeees!"
She rolls her eyes and slowly leans in close to me and my neatly folded color coded shirts.
She then gently grabs my shoulder pulling me slightly towards her.
"If you say so Sarrr" she leans in and pecks my cheek.
"So how was the morning walk?" I ask hiding away the blush that was suddenly appearing.
"It was good, Montreal is always so cold." she replies and I smile when I notice her red nose.
"I love that." I say out loud.
"I know you do Sarrr." She thinks I meant the weather.
I cannot help but smile at her cluelessness.
She then kneels down, taking off her coat and slowly wraps it around me.
She then leans into my ear and whispers...
"I'll keep you warm inside my clothes."
I smile one of my rare gummy grins that are only meant for her.
"I swear that nothing will ever change The way we are right now." I sing in return.
"Haha, I love when you sing Terrible Storm Sarrr."
"and I love you." I say as I look down shyly.
"I love you too Sasa." she replies sweetly.
I feel her soft hand make its way to my chin and gently tilt my head so that I can see her deep honey eyes.
"I cannot wait to have you back in Vancouver with me." she says as her eyes lightly water.
"Tee? What's wrong?" I ask worriedly.
"oh shit, ha! I'm sorry Sarrr." she wipes her eyes embarrassed.
" I just can't believe you said yes. I've wanted this Eversince you left for Montreal."
I can't help but feel my heart hit the floor and climb its way back.
"Oh Tee, shhhh." I press my lips to her soft rosy cheek.
"Lets not think about that. That was so long ago."
"I know Sarrr, but gosh I felt so fucking empty after you left. I mean I know you wanted your precious space, independence, just experience a new city and..."
"That's not true Tee." I cut her off.
"I didn't leave for the reasons a gave you and everyone else." I can't help but bitterly laugh at this nostalgic memory.
"I left because.. Well.. You see... I've loved you since then." her eyes grow wide.
"I left because I couldn't deal with those inevitable feelings I had for you."
"I left because I started to grow angry with frustration. Angry that i couldn't just fucking be with you. We began fighting so much... I just. I needed to leave. I needed to leave and not take it out on you. You didn't know. It wasn't your fault... I would give you so much shit and I just needed..."
I am suddenly cut off by a loud guffaw.
Why is she laughing? I look at her angrily.
"Tegan what the hell?! Why are you laughing?!"
She grabs my shoulders tightly as her laugh settles down.
"Sara... " she wipes the tears I've barely just noticed.
"Sara... Me too." i don't understand. I look at her puzzled.
"I've loved you since then." She what? Tegan felt the same? Back then?
I am hit with a slap of silence.
"Sara are you okay?" she whispers softly with concern.
It was my turn to let out a guffaw.
"Fuck!" I let it out.
"You mean to tell me... hahaha... That we...hahaha... For fucks sake! We could have saved ourselves so much..." I am unable to finish that sentence.
"Fuck!" I yell out loud.
I quickly get up and grab the black leather suitcase that lays on my bed.
"Sara what are you?" she looks at me cautiously.
"Packing." I smile lovingly.
"Lets get the fuck out of here and back to Vancouver before we waste any more time." I laugh out loud.
Her worried lips turn into one of the cheesiest grins I've seen this week.
"Let's get the fuck out of here."