Disclaimer: Dude, their not mine… pushy ass suits!… What? Me? (points to self, then begins to shake head rapidly no) I didn't say a thing. Nope. Quiet as a school house mouse… what? Oh, that's not right? Oh, I'm suppose to say quiet as a church house mouse… yeah cause makes so much more sense… idgits! (muttered under breath) Smiles sweetly as hums softly, Carry on…

NOTE#1: Well…. I was actually done and then when I was editing when I was viciously attacked by the plot bunny and hum… well… I changed this chap and added another chapter. So, anyways… Thanks to all my FFF for your support. I recently lost an Aunt (thurs) and it's been emotionally… a roller coaster. So, please forgive me if I'm alittle scatterbrained… ah! I know what you're thinking.. (ya think really loud, ya know) When am I NOT scatter brained? LOL… Seriously, thank you all for the reviews, favs and alerts... oh, have I mentioned the pms and emails... looks adoringly at the screen.

Chapter 13

"So we say it is day one for all of us and start from there?" Toryn asked softly; as she waited she chewed on her lower lip nervously.

"Yeah…" Dean replied quietly. He had spent 40 years as hell's chew toy; he couldn't imagine over 900 hundred. Well he could he just didn't want to. No wonder she had been such a pissed off demon.

"Dean… I don't remember anything really bad happening… I mean getting out and not telling you is fucking awful, not helping you get my soul back… but this blanket do over… what have I…" Sammy started again.

"Sammy." He snapped sternly as his face took on a blank not getting any information here look, "drop it… we're moving on."

"But Dean…" Sammy practically yelled as he tried to get his brother to listen, "I don't remember that and everything is fuzzy… well except you and Bobby. I had a girlfriend in college but… what happened?"

Dean stared as he whispered in a slight stutter, "Wha…t?" he schooled his voice back to a normal tone as he continued, "You don't remember?"

"I mean I know things… like dad's… gone and I've done bad things but I don't remember it. I mean the worst thing I remember is getting out and not telling you. Pretty much the only thing I do remember plus not helping you get my soul back… you told me that. But where I was, what I did and why… blank."

Dean blinked repeatedly as he wondered what to make of this before he finally managed, "And you waited two weeks to tell me this?"

"I was worried about you." Sammy admitted with a shrug before he added; "besides it's nice to feel…" Sammy stopped as he searched for the right word, "Peace."

Dean grinned as he told Sammy, "Easy fix then. Let's enjoy… some peace for awhile."

Sammy gave a return grin dimples and all as he said, "Whatever you say, D."

Dean stopped in his tracks as he stared at Sammy before blasting him with the full force of his biggest smile. It'd been awhile since Sammy had been this calm, enough to use his old nickname and just agree to let things go just because Dean asked him to.

He looked at Meg… Toryn as they walked back towards the house. He hoped like hell this wasn't something he would live to regret. He shook his head as he wondered if they weren't all crazy.

He was concentrating so hard on his thoughts that he didn't hear Cas pop in and was once again surprised to run into someone. Looking up he stared into Cas' blue eyes and stumbled back a step as he mumbled, "I thought you were grounded."

Cas frowned as he replied, "I am. Father gave me a few minutes. You are not crazy, Dean."

Dean huffed as he snapped, "Stay out of my head, Cas."

Cas sighed as he said in a confused tone, "I thought it would comfort you to know you…"

"Cas." Dean whined as Sammy chuckled which earned him an elbow to the side causing his chuckle to end in a cough and an exclaimed, "jerk."

"That's right, bitch. Don't make fun of me." Dean muttered under his breath.

"I wasn't making… what are you two?" Sammy grumbled as he rubbed his side.

Dean gave Sammy a shove as he muttered, "Two and a half, thank you."

"Cas, why are you here now?" Toryn asked quietly as she watched Cas' face.

"To tell you all that Sammy has been given peace. You are being given a chance and Dean… you have only to ask and you will receive what God has for you, the same goes for Bobby." Cas said cryptically.

"What the hell does that mean?" Dean snapped as he realized how tired he was of all the cryptic shit.

"It means when you need it, you will know when to ask for it." Cas explained with a smile.

"Oh… Okay…" Dean said slowly because, hello, still not making sense here. He frowned as he glared at Cas.

Cas looked at Toryn as he stepped closer he told her, "And you Meg… I am…"

"I am Toryn… that's my name." She told him she took a hesitant step towards him.

"Like when you called me Clarence?" He asked confused once he stood in front of her looking down at her.

"Well, more Meg was my Clarence." She stated with a sad smile as she stared back up at him.

"I do not understand." Cas told her with a slight frown.

"It's okay." Meg said with a smile.

"But…" He started only to be interrupted with a kiss that Toryn stood on tiptoe to give him.

"It is one reason you are so loveable, Cas." She said as she stepped away with a slight blush dusting her cheeks.

"I don't under… " He stopped in mid word and looked frantically skyward, "Gotta go, my time is up." And just like that he disappeared.

"Well," Dean began as his words started to drip with sarcasm, "That was enlightening."

Toryn glanced at him as she said in her own confused voice, "I thought it was a little vague."

Sammy laughed at the look Dean gave Toryn as they headed back inside to see what Bobby was up to.

A little while later with Toryn on the laptop looking up what Bobby was instructing her to look up, Dean came into to sit beside his little brother who had wandered upstairs and was perched on Dean's bed staring off into space.

When Sammy said nothing Dean bounced the bed once with his body and then waited for a response from Sammy. The longer he waited and nothing happened the bigger Dean's frown became until it enveloped his whole face. He'd about decided it was time to panic when Sammy commented softly, "Remember old lady Hardwell telling you your face was going to freeze that way."

Dean looked incredulous and then laughed as he asked, "You remember her? You were like four." He commented with a chuckle as he thought of the only babysitter they'd had that didn't freak when dad came to collect them covered in… work. She had just told him to bring us by next time we came to town, like she knew dad was movin' on." He chuckled again as he added, "Which he was."

"D… this is not right." Sammy mumbled.

"Huh?" Dean asked as his panic level rose instantly.

"I know things but I don't remember them happening… tell me that's normal?' Sammy demanded as he looked at Dean with puppy dog eyes in full glory.

"For you… that's…" Dean started only to have Sammy angrily interrupt.

"How can I take care of you if I can't remember jack shit?" Sammy snapped as he stood and stepped away.

Dean jumped up as he snapped, "We take care of each other and nothing can change that… Lord knows everything on the planet and off of it has tried…" Dean voice had risen to a strong bellow as he continued, "But come hell or fallen angels we are doing this." Dean stopped and stared at Sammy and then said softly but firmly, "together."

Sammy blinked a couple of times before he launched himself at his brother and grabbed him in a bear hug as he whispered, "Okay, big brother…" as he felt Dean slump against him in exhaustion he repeated gently, "Okay together it is."

Dean's arms went around Sammy as he whispered, "What I wanted."

Sammy knew that wasn't all Dean had said but it was just enough to know what Dean meant. He led Dean over and sat him down gently pushing him back.

Dean started struggling as soon as he realized what Sammy was trying to do, "No… I."

"I'm staying right here, bro." Sammy said comfortingly.

Dean studied Sammy's face and then nodded before lying back on the pillow. A soft sigh escaped as Dean closed his eyes. He was tired, he could finally admit to himself.

Sammy started to try to get comfortable but as soon as he raised his body off the bed to find a more comfortable spot, Dean's hand snagged his wrist. He didn't open his eyes just gave a slight squeeze and a tiny grin before another sigh. Sammy grinned as he settled back down and placed his free hand on Dean's chest just relaxing in the steady rise and fall of his brother's chest. The rest… it didn't matter. They were together, Bobby and Cas were okay and Meg- Toryn was trying to change. Life was good.

Toryn stood in the doorway, tears streaming down her cheeks. She had hated them for their love for each other when really she had been so damn jealous. Would she be able to be good? It felt so hard. Would she ever be loved like that?

She startled when she felt arms come around her from behind and was even more shocked when she realized it was Cas.

TBC