Creation began on 03-07-16

Creation ended on 03-20-16

Neon Genesis Evangelion

Modern Day Legend of a Rage-filled Anchor: Love without Rage

A/N: Here's a side-story for the Ceres universe's incarnations of Shinji Ikari and Asuka Soryu-Ayanami.

Two Years Ago

It was Mother's Day, but Asuka Soryu-Ayanami never saw Shinji Ikari at school. She tried his house after school ended, but nobody seemed to be there.

If he's not at school or at home, then there's only one other place he can be, she thought as she ran down the street towards the beach.

A droplet of water fell onto her face. She had just remembered that today was supposed to rain heavily into the next two days.

-x-

Sometimes, he felt that his time spent at the beach was the one thing that made the twelve-year-old Shinji feel at ease. Being near or even on the magatama-shaped stones that seeded the entire town sometimes calmed him from the Rage-filled Anchor that was his awful heritage and legacy.

Even if I go back there, nobody will be there, he thought, referring to his mother and grandmother, who wouldn't be home tonight. What point is there in going to a place where there is nobody waiting for you to come back?

The stone was wet with heavy rainwater, but Shinji didn't mind it. Water was an essential part of life, and then there was Asuka, a girl six months younger than he was, who put up with his unwanted disposition as the current custodian of the Rage-filled Anchor.

"I knew I'd find you here!" He turned away from the crashing the waves and to his left of the stone, seeing Asuka, soaked to the bone, standing in front of him, looking ragged as she was out of breath. "This is the only other place we come to!"

"Why did you come here?" He asked her, sounding as depressed as he felt inside right now.

"You weren't in school today…and I worried over you," she answered him; every now and then, he would skip school to be by himself, and, sometimes, she would join him on those days, just to see what went on during the hours they were supposed to be in school. "I tried calling your phone, but…"

She then looked over behind him and saw his phone, with a cracked touchscreen. It must've been the third time his phone got damaged to the point where it either needed to be fixed or replaced.

"Oh," she sighed.

"I tried calling her," he told her, referring to his mother, who was often absent from his days…or weeks…or even months. "I was trying to say that I hoped she would have a nice day. But her voicemail box wasn't turned on. I threw it against the pavement."

Mother's Day wasn't one of his good days, as Asuka knew that his mother and he had a rather distant relationship…and there wasn't a day that went by that the girl knew enough about Yui Ikari to know that she wouldn't qualify for Mother of the Year. Not even Mother of the Day.

"We should get you home before you catch a chill, Shinji," she told him.

"What would be the point?" He questioned. "Even if I returned, there wouldn't be anyone there to go back to. The lights are often off. Darkness is that house's only occupant."

"Shinji…"

"You should go, Asuka. I'll be alright."

She raised her left hand to caress his face, but hesitated because of the expression on his face. It seemed to be contorted between sadness and rage, his desperation to connect to the woman that breathed life into him…and his own rage that paled in comparison to the unending rage that was built from siphoning the negative emotions of all those around him. A rage…born from a failure to connect to a parent that was supposed to matter.

"I wouldn't be good company, anyway," he told her, and buried his head into his knees.

Asuka pulled her hand away.

"I'm sorry you feel this way, Shinji," she told him.

CLASH! Lightning flashed in the sky above their heads, but neither reacted to it.

She turned to walk away, carefully wading through the wet sand so as to not get any in her shoes. There were times where she had to question why she fell in love with him, but found him as a tortured soul with a broken heart that was difficult to mend, even with her presence. Some people were just incapable of being completely relieved of their pain.

I would've went with him if he asked me to come with him, she thought, setting her feet on the solid pavement outside the beach.

"Asuka," she heard Shinji's voice behind her, and felt a pair of hands wrap around her waist. "I'm sorry, Asuka. Please, don't leave me."

She turned to face him, and saw only sadness on his face. His tortured, soaked and lonely face.

CLASH! The lightning came again, but neither teen reacted to it, as they looked into each other's eyes as the rain continued to pour around them.

Asuka raised her hands up to his face and kissed him.

Shinji merely held onto her waist.

"The darkness doesn't have to be the only occupant," she told him, referring to his house.

-x-

They were on his bed, and she was on top of him, kissing him still. He reclined back to support their weight, feeling Asuka's tongue bypass his lips and into his mouth.

"Uugh," he groaned as his closed eyes tightened and his hands balled into fists on the sheets.

Asuka moved back a little and allowed him a moment to relax.

"There is light in the darkness," she told him.

"Hmm?" He reacted, confused, and then saw her lift up her shirt and throw it to the floor, revealing a braless body…and a small-but-lovely pair of breasts that were the first that the teen boy had ever seen in his life. "Oh."

"Do you…like what you see?" She asked him, sounding a little embarrassed.

"Mmm," he nodded his head in the positive. "I do."

She then lowered herself to his chest and unbuttoned his shirt, removing it from him so she could place her palms on his untouched skin, seeing several shades of darker or lighter skin; Shinji had been a victim of unintentional self-harm ever since he turned eleven because of the Rage-filled Anchor. Her right hand had passed over a month-old burn from burning paper on his waist and her left hand moved over a week-old scrape from falling down a flight of stairs. But she knew him better than this, and knew he wouldn't have caused such harm to himself without a definite reason to, so she always overlooked his injuries. To her, he was stronger than the rage, and the fact that he was able to endure it was all the proof she needed.

"I love you, Shinji, and I want as much of you as I can get," she told him, lowering her head to be under his, rubbing her nose against his neck. "Even if that means you're like this. Landed with angry emotions that aren't yours."

"Asuka," he uttered, and she rose up to look down at him…and kissed him again. "Asuka."

She smiled at him and then moved away, her left hand touching him below his waist.

"Aah!" He shuddered, baring his teeth, trying to relax his balled fists in the sheets. "Asuka…"

"Urgh," the red-eyed redhead shut her eyes as she positioned herself atop him, lowering down, feeling him slowly sheathe into her.

"Aaahh!" Shinji yelled in pain, feeling like he had pricked one of his thumbs against something.

"Aaahh!" Asuka yelled in as much pain as she felt, feeling like she had cut herself somewhere between her legs and her stomach. "Aaahh…aah… I…never thought it would be like this before. It's…so hot."

He looked up at her, seeing that she was in just as much discomfort as he was feeling, but demonstrated a defiance against such an inconvenience, and raised his hands up to her shoulders.

"It feels so different from what I had expected," uttered to her. "It's so painful…but it's a different, lesser sort of pain. Aah!"

She shifted her lower body in order to ease the both of them.

"Does this help?" She asked him, smiling.

"Yes," he answered.

"That's good."

He rose up to meet her face closer…and kissed her again before lowering her to her back so that he was now on top.

"Shinji…we're one now, right?" Asuka asked him.

"Yes," he answered her. "Yes, Asuka, we are."

"That's good, then," she said, and felt him thrust into her. "Does this feel good for you?"

"It feels…really good…Asuka…"

"Knowing that…really…makes me…happy to…know…"

His left hand, which was on her right breast, moved to her side as she raised her arms to hold his face. He had never felt this way before. Ever since he met Asuka years ago, there was a time where he wanted to keep her at a distance. Maybe even now, he wanted to keep her at bay because of his celestial heritage. But he didn't feel that way, anymore.

"Asuka… I…I can't…can't stop," he told her, feeling like he was about to explode out of his skin.

"Me, too, Shinji…" She responded, feeling the walls close in on her. "Shinji… Aaahh!"

Her legs, which had wrapped around his waist, tightened around him as he felt a sudden release from all of his bindings.

"Aaaah!" He gasped, seeing only Asuka surrounded by white. "Aaah…aaah…"

"Aaah…aah…" Asuka felt like a dam had cracked opened and spilled out a massive amount of water onto an empty town and washed away most of everything that existed. "Aaah…"

She felt Shinji's head fall onto her breasts, mildly exhausted, just as she was at the moment. It was as though…all that he was at the moment…just flowed out of him. It had all flowed out and was absorbed into her.

He shifted over onto her right side, looking at her with a small smile.

She smiled back and held him in her embrace.

"Asuka," she heard him speak.

"Yes?"

"I love you."

"I love you, too."

While Mother's Day might've been one of his least favorite days because of his lack of a relationship with his mother, at least this Mother's Day was one that he felt happy about, even if the happiness wasn't what he had originally desired. And right now, all he really wanted at that moment…was just to be held by the woman he loved. That was…all that he wanted in that moment.

-x-

As the rain blanketed the morning and left everything wet, Shinji and Asuka had ignored the world outside said boy's bedroom, as they were just cooped up in his bed, their clothes from the previous day scattered on the floor.

Asuka knew she would have to explain to her guardian, Mine Ayanami, where she had been last night and why she didn't come home, but she wasn't as concerned about that as she was lost in this bliss she was sharing with Shinji. Even though she had crossed a line that most would say is forbidden until after you're in a committed relationship with someone on a long-term basis, she knew what she felt for this boy was true.

Shinji, for what to be the thirty-seventh time in his life ever since the Rage-filled Anchor made itself known in him, hadn't felt its presence while holding onto Asuka. And he hoped that it would stay that way for a while. He had never felt this way around anyone as he had with the redhead.

"Hey, Asuka?" He spoke.

"Hmm?" She responded.

"Do you…wanna skip school today?"

She moved his head away from breasts and looked him in his eyes.

"Sure," she answered him.

Then, as he slowly got out of bed, a random thought about his mother rose up in his conscious. She didn't know that he had sex with Asuka for the first time, and on Mother's Day. He would've had to let her know, eventually…but then decided that he didn't want her to know about this. Or his grandmother, for that matter. He just wanted to cherish this good thing he had with Asuka.

"Is it alright with you…if we didn't tell anyone about this?" He asked her.

Asuka rose up, using the blanket to cover her breasts, and expressed, "Shinji, nobody has to know if we don't want them to."

"I just…don't want to lose you now. To anyone."

She moved over to him and held his shoulders as she rested her head against his back.

"I'm all yours, Shinji…just as you're all mine," she assured him. "What happened between us…can stay between us."

Shinji turned to look at her and smiled.

"Thank you, Asuka."

She smiled back…but then pulled him back into bed with her. It might've been a while before his mother and/or grandmother returned…and she wanted to take full advantage of the time these two had the house to themselves since they weren't going to go to school.

To be continued…

A/N: The rest of what they did in the bed, I shall leave to your imaginations, readers. But hey, do feel kind enough to leave a review to question if Asuka Soryu-Ayanami will engage in that sort of stuff with Shinji of the Eva universe as she had with her Shinji from the Ceres universe. Peace.