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Jace didn't think he had ever hated Sebastian.
Until today.
Today, he hated Sebastian with a passion.
But he comforted himself with the fact that Clary seemed to hate him as well.
"More coffee," Clary grunted, shoving her coffee cup across the table to Sebastian. She looked like death, her face pale, her eyes blood shot, her long red hair pulled back in a messy bun on top of her head, strands escaping and hanging scraggly against her cheeks. Her make up hadn't been scrubbed off last night, and so she looked something like a raccoon, dark eye make up all smudged in big circles around her eyes.
Not that Jace was judging.
Because he was guessing he didn't look all that much better.
He hadn't even thought he had drunk that much last night, but now that he was sitting on the couch this morning, nursing a cup of black coffee in his hands and hissing everytime the sun hit his face, he realized that he had had a lot more than he had initially thought. He tried to mentally count how many drinks he had thrown back last night, but then his stomach rolled over, and he wondered if he might throw up for the first time in years because of a hangover, so then he resolved not to think about last night.
"Do you guys want me to go and get you something to eat?" Sebastian asked with a cheery grin, looking golden, and healthy, and far too fucking happy.
"Fuck off," Clary grunted. "Get me more coffee." Sebastian just laughed, and both her and Jace groaned at the noise and pulled the fingers at him.
"How about I make you more coffee, you guys go shower and shit—you know you'll feel better. And I'll also go get you some food, okay? I'll get McDonalds," he added that as though it was a winning bargaining chip. Which it definitely was in Jace's book, and apparently was in Clary's as well.
"I want a hundred hash browns," Clary grumped, and Sebastian snorted.
"Go shower," he told her. Clary dragged herself off the couch and stumbled out of the room. Jace just closed his eyes and slumped back against the cushions. He could vaguely hear Sebastian moving around but he was too tired and in far too much pain to open his eyes and follow the man with his gaze. It wasn't until he felt a gentle hand resting on his shoulder that his eyes opened. "Here," Sebastian said quietly, handing him two painkillers and a glass of water. "This'll help." Jace tried to crack a smile, but it felt more like a grimace, and took the painkiller, throwing them back with a mouthful of water. Sebastian was still standing over him, watching him after he had swallowed, and Jace was surprised when the other man reached out and ran his fingers gently through Jace's hair.
It did all kinds of weird things to his heart, and his stomach flipped over a couple of times.
"Right, I'm going to head down to McDonalds, I'll just splurge on their breakfast menu," Sebastian said as he stepped back. "Have a shower after Clary, and I've put on another pot of coffee." Jace nodded, the skin of his forehead still tingling from where Sebastian had just touched him.
Jace stayed out in the lounge, almost falling asleep twice before Clary came out, wearing a pair of baggy sweatpants and a sports bra, and told him that the shower was all his. Jace's stomach was churning, and despite the coffee and the painkillers, his head still felt like a complete mess. He considered just going back to bed after the shower, but he was pretty keen on the greasy food that Sebastian had gone out to get. He lost track of how long he was in the shower, just leaning against the cool tile wall and letting the water run over his face and down his body.
When he finally dragged himself out of the shower and got dressed, he could hear Sebastian's voice in the lounge. He came into the lounge, not feeling quite as shit as he did before, but he blinked in surprise when he saw what had happened in the lounge. The couches had been pushed backwards so that there was a space big enough for a mattress to be dragged out and put in front of the TV.
"Sometimes this is how we spend our Sundays," Sebastian said with a grin as he saw Jace staring at the blankets and pillows that were dumped on the mattress. Clary came back into the room, with a cup of coffee in one hand and a hash brown in it's paper packing in the other. She glanced at Jace for a moment before stepping onto the mattress and making herself comfortable. "Come on," Sebastian said to Jace as he sat down down on the mattress and held out the paper McDonalds bag to him. Clary shuffled closer to Sebastian, purposefully making some room for Jace as she stared up at the TV.
All three of them, on a mattress.
That was making all kinds of thoughts fly through his head, even though he was pretty sure both he and Clary still felt too sick to do any of them.
"I'm just gonna have a cigarette," he told them, carefully stepping around the mattress and walking out the open door. The breeze felt good, which was probably why they had it open, to let it into the lounge. Jace made sure to take a few steps away from the house so that the cigarette smoke didn't go inside, and tried to calm himself down.
They were hungover, and it was a lazy Sunday.
They were just gonna watch movies.
It didn't mean anything, other than the fact that they were close friends.
Well, maybe he and Sebastian were close friends, but Clary...Maybe she was just welcoming him in.
In all honesty, he probably wasn't even going to be awake for the whole thing, he was probably going to fall asleep in half an hour if he was stretched out on a mattress with a blanket over him.
Great.
Falling asleep with Sebastian and Clary.
That just brought on a whole new wave of thoughts that he should really be avoiding.
After Jace finished his cigarette he went back inside. He hesitated when it came to sitting on the mattress, but Clary lifted the blanket up next to her, her eyes still on the TV, as though it was just an automatic, normal movement. Like she invited him to climb onto a mattress with them any other day. Jace glanced over at Sebastian, who smiled and jerked his head in an invitation to join them. He handed over the McDonalds bag and Jace was hit with a wave of how hungry he was and he buried his hand into the bag to try and find something to eat. There were a couple of hash browns left in the bag and a bacon and egg bagel.
Sebastian was sitting up on the mattress, watching the movie that was playing on TV, while Clary was laying down, blanket pulled up near her torso, and her body curved slightly so that she could rest her head on Sebastian's lap. From the way that she was bent, it meant her ass and legs were only a few inches away from Jace's legs, he could feel her body heat underneath the blanket. Jace was a bit scared to move, not wanting to move around too much and touch her, so he stayed awkwardly stiff for nearly half an hour.
Clary fell asleep soon, and she changed her position. Sebastian moved around as well, slumping down underneath the blankets and then raising his eyebrows at Jace.
"We're not gonna bite, you know," he noted playfully.
"Oh, so you've changed your preferences then?" Jace shot back with a teasing glint in his eye. Sebastian looked surprised and Jace was worried that maybe he had crossed a line. But then Sebastian huffed out a laugh and rolled his eyes.
"Wouldn't you like to know?" Sebastian snarked back, and Jace bit his tongue, because his answer to that would definitely not be appropriate, especially with Sebastian's girlfriend lying right between them. "Just make yourself comfortable, you look about as shitty as she does." Jace snorted and looked down at Clary. She was fast asleep, her pink lips slightly open, and they looked so incredible soft. Jace knew what Sebastian meant when he said that she looked shitty, given her skin was a whole lot more pale than it usually was, and her eyes had been puffy and blood shot, but she still looked beautiful.
"You're lucky," Jace couldn't stop himself before the words were out of his mouth, and Sebastian—who had turned back to the TV—whipped his head around to look at Jace. "To have her. And her to have you." Sebastian stared at Jace for a beat, and he looked almost sad. But then his lips shifted up in a smile, even though it didn't reach his eyes, and nodded his head.
"I know," Sebastian answered.
Jace managed to watch another ten minutes of the movie, before he fell asleep as well.
When Jace woke up, the room was a lot darker than it had been when he had fallen asleep, and he frowned, wondering how long he had slept for. It had been close to eleven when they had all gathered in the lounge, but he definitely didn't think that he had slept long enough for it to be dark outside. But as his eyes adjusted, he realized that there was still daylight coming through the window in the opposite room. Either Sebastian or Clary—probably Sebastian—had gotten up and closed the curtains in the lounge, so that they had been swathed in darkness, other than some light coming from the room opposite them, and from the TV.
He also realized that there was a heavy, warm weight on his chest, and over his legs. Jace blinked a few more times and tilted his head down, seeing a mess of red hair on his chest.
Clary.
She was asleep on him.
She was sprawled out over his chest, an arm around his waist, her head on his chest, and it felt like one of her legs was twined around his. Her weight was comforting and she was warm, and Jace felt his heart contract at the way she had wrapped herself around him, as though they had always done this. She was still fast asleep, but as Jace turned his head, he saw that Sebastian was awake. He had pulled one of the arm chairs closer to the mattress, so while he was still sitting next to them, he could lean back against the chair to support his back. So far, he didn't seem aware that Jace was awake, his eyes fixed on the TV, one of his hands resting on Clary's back.
So he knew that his girlfriend was laying pretty much on top of him.
Jace tried to stay quiet, not wanting to disrupt either Clary or Sebastian, but after a few moments, Sebastian seemed to sense the eyes on him, and he looked over at Jace.
The air between them felt charged.
There was something simmering in his dark eyes that sent a spike of arousal right down to Jace's cock, which wasn't helped by the fact that Clary's knee seemed to be resting right there, and putting pressure against him. Jace couldn't look away from Sebastian, swallowing hard as he stared at the other man.
It was Clary that broke the moment, making a snuffling noise as she moved, rolling over so that she was no longer pressed up against Jace, turning so that she was facing Sebastian. She was still pressed up against Jace, her back and legs against the length of his body, and one of her hands reached out as though instinctively for Sebastian. She loosely gripped his shirt, making a contented noise in the back of her throat as Sebastian smoothed his hand over her forehead, and then her breathing evened out again as she fell back asleep.
Jace swallowed again, so hard that it felt as though his breath was going to get stuck in his throat, and he looked away from Sebastian. He wondered if he should get up from the mattress, maybe go into his own bedroom, but he was still tired, and he was so comfortable, and it wasn't as though Sebastian was telling him to leave.
In fact, he was pretty certain that if he looked back over at Sebastian, the expression on his face was saying the opposite of 'go away'.
Clary was still fast asleep, her body warm against his, and he let his body relax again, the tension leaving his body as Clary shifted again, twining her foot between his legs, resting against his ankle. He tugged his pillow closer to him, and he fell asleep again within minutes.
Clary was awake the next time Jace woke up and sometime after six, they ordered in pizza and sat on the bed, carefully not to drop any of the toppings onto the blankets. Around ten, Sebastian dragged the mattress back down to the bedroom, and Clary gathered up the blankets, almost tripping over the blankets that were trailing under her feet as she walked out of the room. Jace tried to bite back his laugh at her awkward hop-skip to keep her balance, but obviously she heard, because she looked over her shoulder and mock-glared at him, but there was a playful smile on her face as well.
The rest of the week felt better than the week before.
Clary was around more, and he didn't feel awkward or like he was encroaching on their time together. Sometimes she was gone in the morning when Jace got up, so he gathered that Sebastian had been telling the truth when he said that she was out, going for a run. Sebastian had also been steadfast on Clary not working any more overtime if there was no-one else there with her, and so that meant she was home most evenings throughout the week, except for Wednesday, when a group of them were working late.
They cooked dinner together, twice, all three of them bumping around together in the kitchen. The kitchen hadn't seemed small, but it was definitely crowded when there were three adults trying to work around each other. Somehow, though, they made it work; Sebastian putting his hand on Clary's side gently to move her out of his way, Clary bumping her hips against the boys playfully when they were standing somewhere that she needed to be, Sebastian flicking water at Jace when he was washing the dishes.
The way it felt with them...It was easy.
It felt as though they had been doing this for far longer than a week, and Jace felt as though he had known Clary for longer than two weeks. It felt as though the awkwardness between them in the first week had never happened, and even though he felt a clench of jealousy in his stomach when he saw Sebastian and Clary kissing and laying over each other in the evenings when they were watching TV, he didn't feel particular resentment for either one of them.
Jace was still trying to figure out what had happened, how he had managed to make things right with Clary. Not that there were things going wrong beforehand, but they had definitely started off on the wrong foot. Maybe that was his fault, he had kind of been giving off vibes that he was completely uninterested and almost angry at her when they had first met. But he liked it now, he liked how it felt to be around them.
He could be happy with their friendship.
He would be happy with their friendship.
He had to be.
So! My song recommendations this time are Help Me Close My Eyes by Those Dancing Days, Burn So Bright by Bella Thorne and Broken Prayers by Riley Clemmons. Ooh—and I Wanna Know by Bea Miller. Shit, I love most things by Bea, she's bloody amazing, and I've had this song on repeat, for like the past two months. Haha. Oh, and Go Dark by Cassie Steele! It took me a while to get into this one, but I adore it now. Ooh ooh! And Lie by Halsey featuring Quavo. Fucking looove it. Although let's face it, I love everything by her. Omg! And also What I Need by Hayley Kiyoko featuring Kehlani. I've only recently gotten into Kehlani, since I saw her open for Halsey, but I adore Hayley, and I'm so glad she's becoming more popular. This video has just come out and its amaaazing.
In other news...The second season of Queer Eye is almost out! Whoop whoop! I bloody love them all, and I cried in every single episode of the first season. Antoni is just bloody beautiful, and Tan and Karamo...Omfg. Gorgeous. And then Bobby is so talented and Jonathan is amazing. Haha. I recommend to all! Also, has everyone seen the new Robin Hood trailer? I love Taron Egerton, can't wait for the movie!
I've starting dabbling in oneshots again. I generally post them all at one time, when I've got chance to come back and edit them all properly, but I'm taking requests if you want to see them through. Doesn't have to specifically be this fandom, go onto my profile and check out other fandoms I'm in or send me a message. Send through songs or ideas and I can try to make them work!
Lastly, I keep meaning to pimp out the amaaazing reppinda5o3, who I absolutely adore. First of all she's got this amazing trilogy that is currently on it's second installment, first one called Send My Love (To Your New Lover) and the second is called Hello. Then there's her latest story and I've fallen in love and we're just one chapter deep, Set Fire To The Rain. And then her baby, Clarissa Is A Punk, which is an angsty ride, but I trust her to get us there in the end! Go and check them out and show her some love. She's ridiculously busy, but she still finds time to write, and her detail and care in her writing is insane, and also listen to me with my one million ideas and was also one of the people to keep me sane when I was house bound for a few months. Including keeping my company literally as I'm typing this because I'm home sick. So go. Go, go, go, go, go!
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