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Chapter 13 The Morning After

Brenda slowly opened her eyes as the sun came through the curtains. She stirred slowly letting out a little moan. She looked around and remembered she had drank as soon as her head felt heavy and started to throb lightly. She looked over and saw Dylan sound asleep, she looked down and realized she was still naked and so was Dylan. She remembered drinking vodka, playing games and to top it off she remembered having some wild yet amazing sex with Dylan. Why did he have this hold on her? Why was she allowing him to have his cake and eat it too? That's the one thing a women can withhold from a man and Brenda was giving it away, without commitment. She wasn't like that but her feelings for Dylan were different now. She was almost 18 years old, they were still as intense as before but now it was physical and emotional. She knew what it was like to have a physical relationship with someone she cared about, loved even and it was hard not to take him when he was willing. She enjoyed being with him and it was getting better the older they got. She didn't have anyone to compare Dylan too but she knew he was an amazing lover, she just knew he did everything right, knew where everything was. She was pretty sure most 18 year olds weren't like that. She knew she did not want Dylan to go out on dates especially with that skanky Jennifer. Brenda turned to face Dylan, who was lying on his side, mouth slightly opened. She leaned in and kissed him gently on the lips. He stirred a bit and licked his lips and opened his eyes.

"Hi beautiful." He said with a husky voice

"Hey" She smiled at him.

"Waking up next to you is becoming a habit and I like it." he moved the hair from out of her face and looked intently into her eyes.

"You are pretty cute in the morning I must say so myself."

Dylan looked down shyly, "Thanks"

Brenda felt the urge to kiss him again and knew most likely they would go for round two. She stopped herself.

"Dylan we need to talk." Brenda sat up taking the covers with her to cover her breasts.

"About what?" he said in a calm and quiet voice as he sat up leaning back on his hands.

"About us Dylan." Brenda got annoyed, she wasn't sure why probably because he was looking sexy and sitting there leaning back, the covers covering his lap showing just enough. Brenda stopped her thoughts.

"What are we doing?" Brenda looked down

"I don't know Bren, you're the one that won't take me back. I have been trying to get back together with you for months."

Brenda looked down sadly, "I don't know if I can trust you."

"Bren, I told you it was a mistake and that I was sorry, I don't know what else to do. You either give me a chance or you don't." Brenda sighed

"Do you love me?" Dylan asked seriously

"Of course I do." Brenda looked at him.

"Do you miss me? Dylan smiled

"So much." She smiled back

"So what's the problem then?"

Brenda sat quiet for what seemed like several minutes but it probably wasn't. She knew she had to ask him but after these past few months she didn't want to know. She knew she couldn't get back together with him if she didn't have all the facts. Brenda took a deep breath.

"Dylan, I need to know about this summer."

"Bren, come on, you don't need to know, it doesn't matter."

"It does matter to me." Brenda raised her voice.

Dylan took a deep breath, and closed his eyes, "What do you want to know?"

"What did you guys do? How did it start?"

"Well….it didn't start right away, I was going through some stuff with my dad, and he was up for parole. I ran into her at the beach, we talked and joked. It was innocent really."

"And..?" Brenda looked at him with her big blue /grey eyes

"We started flirting…and I helped her baby-sit Erin, we watched old movies…."

Brenda closed her eyes as a tear fell down her cheek. "Go on"

Dylan wiped the tear and hesitated, "We kissed" Dylan heart sunk, it was like telling her for the first time all over again.

"Was that all? The only time?"

"No." Dylan looked down; it was hard to look at her. She made him feel like crap and he didn't know how to handle it. He had a pit in his stomach.

Dylan explained the kiss at his house, in her cabana, the fact that David caught them and the kiss in the water after they went jet skiing. Brenda was crying at this point. She didn't know what to say, she thought, they had fun, they had an affair literally. It was more than just a one time thing. Her heart sank. And she had wished she didn't know the details. She was heartbroken all over again. He ended with telling her about camping on the beach and the discussion they had about her and Andrea catching them. Dylan took a deep breath, it kind of felt good to get it out and tell her the truth but by the looks of her, he knew she was really upset. Dylan sat quiet holding back the guilt tears he felt himself getting. Dylan wasn't good with handling these emotions with women. His mother had left when he was six and even though he knew he was good with the ladies, Brenda was the first girl he ever loved. He wasn't sure what to do. He reached out to hold her but she resisted.

"How could you do that to me? Did I not matter at all to you? Was it just a physical thing? Could you honestly not keep your penis in your pants for 6 weeks? I was madly in love with you Dylan and thought you were too" Brenda was sobbing.

"I am madly in love with you Bren." Dylan took a deep breath, "I am so sorry. I don't know why I did it. She was there, she was flirting with me, and you were so far away. Things had gotten so intense and difficult with us that I was almost relieved when you left for Paris. I mean your dad hated me, we weren't allowed to see each other, and you were living with me. I needed a break". He said it and felt even guiltier after it came out, It sounded meaner out loud than in his head.

"How am I supposed to know that if things get difficult with us you won't do that again? And we are seniors, soon spring will be here, prom, and on to college. Where will that leave us?"

"We will figure it out, people do it all the time." Dylan wrapped his arm around her pulling her into him, this time she didn't pull back.

"Brenda, I love you, I know now I don't want to lose you again. I don't want to be with anyone else."

"But.." Brenda for once had no words.

"I don't know why I did it but I know I don't ever want to do it again. I don't want to be without you Brenda; I think we are truly meant to be together. I am sorry"

Brenda took a deep breath.

**

Brandon opened one eye and looked around. His head stinging a little from the 6 beers he had the night before. He looked over and saw Kelly lying on his arm. She was just as beautiful in the morning without a stitch of makeup as she was when she was wearing it. He heard a moan as she moved slightly.

Kelly opened her eyes as she made eye contact with Brandon.

"Morning" Brandon smiled

"Good Morning" Kelly smiled back

"How did you sleep?"

"Really good actually." Kelly stretched

The two stared at each other and Brandon thought about what had happened the night before which was nothing. Brandon was chicken. He made out with her, they did almost everything else but when it came down to actually doing the deed, he chickened out. Plus he didn't want to rush into it either.

"Can I talk to you?" Kelly's face turned serious.

"Sure"

"What are we doing? I like you and then…" Kelly hesitated, "and then last night I thought I was giving you the vibe but you didn't... Do you not like me?" Kelly seemed sad.

"Oh god Kelly, no I like you a lot. It's not like that at all." Brandon sighed, "I thought that I should talk to Steve and make things a little more……official with you before we go there."

Kelly smiled, "I have never met anyone like you." Kelly just stared at Brandon

"What do you mean?"

"My whole life, well teenage life anyway, I always had guys that saw me for one thing. They didn't respect me. I just assumed you wanted to." Kelly looked down.

Brandon moved in close to her, so close their noses were touching, "I do respect you and I like you. I always have and believe me I do want to." He smiled, leaned back and looked her up and down.

Kelly playfully hit is arm. Brandon grabbed it and pulled her in and kissed her passionately as the bedroom door opened.

"Hey Bran" Steve froze "Ah sorry" Steve said quietly as he closed the door quickly.

Brandon closed his eyes and bit the his lower lip, "Shoot" he whispered

**

"Bren wait." Dylan begged

"Dylan…I need to think."

Brenda got dressed and went into the kitchen and noticed Celeste was making breakfast.

"Hey, are we the only ones awake?" Brenda said as she poured herself some coffee

"No Steve is outside"

Brenda looked through the sliding glass door and saw Steve sitting on the swing out back with his head down. Brenda put on a jacket and walked outside sitting next to him.

"God it's cold out here, who would have thought I was from Minnesota?" Brenda laughed but Steve didn't say anything.

"Hey you ok?"

"Yeah I am fine" Steve sighed

"Steve, come on, what's wrong?"

Steve looked over at Brenda, "Have you ever trusted someone or thought you loved someone and they let you down?"

"I am an old hand at that one."

Steve felt dumb he totally wasn't even thinking, "Of course you know. Its different I guess."

"Steve what happened, is it Celeste?"

"No Celeste is great, she is prefect actually." Brenda looked confused.

"Look Brenda I know we haven't really been real close but I think it sucks what Dylan and Kelly did to you."

"Yeah, thanks, I don't know what to think with that whole situation." Brenda looked out at the snow

"Well you guys look like your getting along."

"We are but it's hard to forget about something like that. I mean whether we are together or not, the title isn't there." Brenda paused, "Maybe that's my way of not getting hurt again, and on the other side Kelly is my best friend and so is Dylan, is my pride worth losing them both?"

"Brenda, I do think Dylan cares about you a lot. Do you want him back?"

Brenda looked down before meeting Steve's glance, "I do"

"Well then go for it. You may never know what could have been if you don't try."

Brenda smiled, "Since when did you get so sentimental? I never thought I would be taking love advice from you but you're sweet. Kelly always said you could be and now I know what she meant." Brenda leaned in and gave Steve a kiss on the cheek.

"Ha Kelly" Steve looked out

"Are you sure everything is ok?"

Steve gave Brenda a tired smile, "Yeah it is now."

Their moment was interrupted by Brandon with the squeaking of the sliding glass door.

"Hey Bren, mind if I talk to Steve for a second? Dylan is looking for you too."

Brenda nodded; "Thanks Steve" Brenda got up and went inside.

"Hey bro" Brandon went and stood at the railing overlooking the yard.

"Hey" Steve said quietly

"Look Steve, I am just going to come out and say it. Brenda stayed with Dylan and she roomed with me. I am sorry you walked in like that. I like Kelly but I wanted to talk to you about it first."

"Bran, you don't have to explain anything, Kelly is free to date or kiss whoever she wants, it was just surprising that's all. I think part of me will always love Kelly but I don't have any claim on her. I mean…god Brandon we have been broken up for 3 years." Steve paused. "Your sister actually put things in perspective for me."

Brandon looked confused, "Why what did Brenda say?"

"It wasn't really what she said but if she can forgive Dylan and Kelly for this summer, I mean that's says a lot about her. I don't think I would have been as forgiving." Steve was getting off track, "Soo you like her huh? Does she like you back?" Steve gave his best friend a smile.

"Yeah I do and yeah she does back."

"Well I will tell you what I told Brenda, go for it. You may never know what could have been if you don't try." Steve got up and gave Brandon a friendly pat on the back.

"Celeste is cool, I like her." Brandon said returning the manly pat on the back

Steve glanced inside and saw Celeste setting the table and laying out the breakfast spread she had made, "Yeah she is, come on let's eat I am starving."

The two of them went in and sat down with the rest of the group and ate breakfast. Brandon made eyes at Kelly and gave her a confirmation nod that everything was ok with Steve.

"Who's up for skiing today? Steve said cheerfully

"Not me" Brenda said as she buttered her toast.

"Yeah not me either, I prefer water sports" Dylan smiled

"I am down bro." Brandon gave Steve a nod

"What about you?" As he turned towards Kelly.

"Yeah I will try, I am not that good though. Will you stay with me on the bunny slopes?" Kelly smiled at Brandon.

Brandon smiled back, "Sure I will." Brandon leaned in and planted a kiss on her cheek.

Donna looked at them confused and leaned in to Kelly, "What is going on with you and Brandon?" Donna whispered "Are you guys…? Kelly nodded and smiled.

Donna's eyes got big, "Really?"

"I will tell you later." Kelly whispered

They all got ready to go skiing; everybody was going except Dylan and Brenda. Brandon turned to them before leaving, "Are you sure we should be leaving you guys here all alone for the whole day?"

"Bye Brandon." Brenda rolled her eyes.

Brandon laughed, "Bye, be good." Closing the door behind him.

Brenda cleared some of the dishes that were left on the table and started loading the dishwasher. Dylan sat on the barstool facing the kitchen and just stared at her. He looked her up and down not in a sexual way just couldn't believe how much they had grown. He started flashing back to their first date and how young they looked. How intense they were. He realized that at such a young age he couldn't believe what he was feeling. Sitting there watching her wash the dishes, he thought about his life with her, married, with a small army of kids. Was it normal to have these thoughts about someone in high school? He saw being with her forever, spending every night with her and waking up next to her. He walked over and wrapped his arms around her petite frame pulling her close to him. He felt her exhale as he buried his face in neck.

Brenda walked out of his embrace and went and sat on the couch. She looked out the window and watched how the snow glistened in the sunlight. Dylan went over and sat next to her and stared at her.

"I love you more than I thought I could love anyone Bren." Dylan tilted his head and tried to get her to look at him.

Brenda looked down before finally meeting his stare, "I know, I feel the same way. I want us to be together Dylan. I don't want to be without you." Brenda wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly as she closed her eyes. Dylan exhaled as he moved his hand down the back her head. They backed out and looked into each other eyes.

"Don't hurt me like that again." The way Brenda looked at him reached into his soul.

"I won't." he shook his head "I promise I won't." Dylan leaned in and slowly kissed her.

Ok hope you liked the Big Bear trip. It was sentimental chapter. lol I couldn't help it, I was in a somber mood. I hope I made both BK and BD fans happy with this one. I know most of you have guessed I am a b/d freak but I do adore bk even though most of the cute stuff goes to bd but in time bk will have their moments. Their just starting out, Brenda and Dylan have been on an off for 3 years or something. There is a lot of history there to work with as for Brandon and Kelly, it's new, as a writer we never got to see high school Kelly and Brandon so there isn't anything to go on and they just started dating so things can't get to intense and sexual right away. Also after everything that happened that summer in season 3 I personally think that if something like this happened in the show and you kept season 1 and 2 Dylan this would have happened at least the intenseness of it all. Anyway I have some drama planned of course. But I hope you approve and like how our couples got together or back together. Please hit that button down below and show me some love.