Yes, this is indeed a new chapter after god knows how long. I'm gonna finish this story if it's the last thing I do!
Emily's POV
"I think I'm in love with you, Emily Fields."
My eyes go wide like a deer caught in headlights, my continued silence grabbing Olivia's attention.
"Emily?"
I audibly swallow before speaking.
"I'm sorry Olivia. You just took me by surprise is all." I say evenly, trying to think of what to say next in my head. She rubs her thumbs over the backs of my hands as she holds them in hers.
"I'm sorry if this is too forward but I couldn't hold it in anymore I've actually felt this way for the past week. That's why I've been so constant with my texts," she leaves a small pause, smiling at me like I'm the best thing in the world, "well, is the feeling mutual?" she asks quietly, scared of what the answer will be. I look her in the eyes and truly see so much happiness and love in them and I start to feel terrible for what I'm about to say.
"I'm sorry Olivia, but I can't say that It is." Her eyes instantly begin to water, she pulls my hands tighter in hers. Her eyes are almost fluorescent now, unshed tears making the light of my lamp reflect off of them. I hear her sniffle back a sob before moving her hands to my face, resting them lightly against my cheeks.
"is it something I did?" she whimpers softly, keeping eye contact with me. I look down, not wanting to see her crying anymore. My heart breaks for her and I find myself trying to hold back a few tears.
"of course not, you've been perfect. Exactly what I wanted and needed, I just. Love wasn't part of my plans with you. We both know that." I say calmly, not wanting it to come out the wrong way.
"I know, I just, I couldn't help myself Emily. Do you not know how perfect you are? How was I not supposed to fall for you?" Before I can reply her lips are on mine and she's pushing me down onto the bed. I kiss her back for a few seconds before a wave of guilt rushes over me. Spencer. Why am I doing this? I can't keep doing this to her. After our last few 'encounters' I feel a connection I've never felt before. It's not just about sex for once, I genuinely want to get to know her better while we're fully clothed. I gently push on Olivia's shoulders.
"Stop, Olivia." I say lightly. She pulls back slowly, looking into my eyes for an answer. It looks like she finds it, sitting up abruptly, pulling her hands off of me so fast, as ifmy skin is on fire. Her emotions go from sad to full on rage in 0.5 seconds, her eye brows scrunching up in anger.
"there's someone else, isn't there?" she accuses, tears still fg from her eyes but for a completely different reason now. I pull myself out from under her and sit back on my calves.
"Yes." Is all I say, not wanting to go into detail, considering Jessica was the first girl I kept from her, but I decide that she doesn't count at this moment in time. I see her hands clench into fists as she slams them down onto the bed.
"how long have you been seeing her." Her aggressive tone scares me. I decide to be honest.
"a few weeks, and before you ask, yes, I initiated." I say slowly, trying to tread around this as smoothly as possible. She takes a deep breath to compose herself trying to subside some of her anger.
"do you have feelings for her?" She sounds defeated, already knowing the answer. This is the first time I'll be admitting it out loud. I like Spencer Hastings. I really like her. It's finally going to be out there in the open.
"yes, I do. I didn't plan this either Olivia, it just, happened. I had no control over it and I'm sorry for not telling you sooner and saving you all this grief but I didn't know any of this earlier." I rub my fingers through my hair, slightly shrugging my shoulders at my own answer. Olivia stand up abruptly getting dressed quickly before pacing in front of the bed, fists clenched in anger.
"I opened up to you Emily! I haven't felt this way in forever and when I finally do, you do this to me? I feel so fucking stupid! I just- I thought you were different. I thought tonight was going to start a relationship, not break my fucking heart. I- I need to go. I'll call you tomorrow because I honestly can't stand being in the same room as you right now." And with that she grabs her bag and storms off down the stairs, the loud slamming of the front door making me jump from my spot. I groan out into my now empty room, wiping the last few tears from my eyes. I don't bother redressing as I slip under my sheets, hoping to sleep this whole ordeal away.
Spencer's POV
My first class of the day begins to file in, Emily running to the door just in time to join the end of the line. She looks super tired, and for a second I feel sad for her; that is until I remember why she's probably tired. I pull my eyes away from her and let out a loud huff, keeping my anger at bay. I write the lesson plan up on the board and the whole class follows accordingly, starting to write out their assignment drafts.
A few minutes pass before I find myself looking at Emily again. She seems to notice and looks up from her book to meet my gaze. She flashes that million dollar smile at me and I can't help but smile back, mentally slapping myself for giving in so easily. I quickly stop smiling and look away from her, getting back to the tests I started to mark.
The rest of the lesson I manage to ignore Emily, not look over at her once the entire time. The bell rings and I dismiss the class, telling them to close the door on the way out as I finish up my last few papers. I hear the door click closed, a few minutes later I hear someone clear their throat. I jump a little bit at the sound and I hear them giggle. I know who it is before I look up. Emily.
I send her a quick 'hey' before returning to the test I'm currently grading. I hear a quite hey in reply then footsteps. Before I know it she's behind me, her hands resting gently on my shoulder as she leans in and kisses me on the cheek. I lean in to the touch as she starts massaging the muscles of my shoulders, my whole body instantly relaxing. I enjoy the moment for a split second before I remember why I'm angry at her. I sit forward slightly, making her hands leave my body. I expect her to say something but she just shrugs it of and kneels down beside me, looking at the paper I'm grading.
"whatcha doin?" she asks, accompanied by a cute smile. I look down at her and can't help but smile right back at her. Urgh, why does she have to be so damn cute. I turn my attention back to the paper before answering.
"Just grading the last few tests from my other class." Without warning she turns my chair around to face her, seeing her kneeling in front of me makes me blush. She places her hands on my knees, lightly circling the joint.
"I haven't seen you in a while, don't I get a kiss? " she inquires playfully, her smirk turning from cute to sexy in a matter of seconds. My body reacts before my brain yet again and I lean forward, placing a chaste kiss on her lips, returning to my sitting position quickly after. I look down at her and see her pout. Don't give in Spencer!
"that's all I get? Do you want me to beg?" the playful tone leaves and makes way for the lust filled, husky voice I've grown accustomed to when it comes to Emily. I audibly gulp and she giggles. You're giving in Spence. I lightly shake my head and turn my seat back to face my desk. She stands up and sits down on the desk next to me, making sure not to sit on any of my things. She places her hand under my chin, making me look at her. She looks genuinely concerned.
"what's wrong Spence?" Don't slip in a nickname, you know what you've done! I decide to stop this now. I need to bring it up now while the wound is fresh. I push her hand off my chin, making her gasp.
"don't 'Spence' me. I know what you've done Emily." I say sternly. At first she looks confused but it all sets in after a few seconds.
"This is about Olivia isn't it?" she inquires quietly, playing with the hem of her shorts. I sigh out of frustration.
"Of course it's about Olivia, I saw you with her last night. You obviously have feelings for her since you can't seem to let her go." I accuse, making her get up from her sitting position.
"it's the total opposite Spence, yes, we did have sex last night but not for the reasons you think-" I cut her off before she can finish.
"What other reason could there possibly be Emily, I know you. Although it's great most the time, you are a total horn dog. You can't keep it in your pants." I say matter-of-factly, crossing my arms. She pinches the bridge of her nose out of frustration, trying to calm her self.
"No Spencer, it's not like that at all! Olivia told me that she loved me and I-" I cut her off again, slamming my hand onto the desk.
"You like her don't you! This is ridiculo-" She cuts me off this time, copying my actions from before.
"No! It's not like that at all! I don't like her I-" I stand up now, making my chair slide back and hit the wall.
"Then what Emily? Why don't you like her-"
"Because I like you Spencer!"
I gasp, then a moment of silence fills the room. We make eye contact and an electric current passes between us. I knew she liked me!
"I like you too Em-" I'm cut off by a searing kiss, my butt pushed into my desk instantly. I moan embarrassingly loud into the room. Just as I start to grab her butt the bell rings. We jolt apart quickly and have a look around the room to see if any doors or windows were open. Good, no one saw. I run my fingers through my hair and straighten out my clothes, I see that she does the same. I can't let her win that easily.
"This isn't over Emily. You can't just have me back after what you did. You have to earn it. You better hurry to your next class." She leans in for one last kiss but I place my finger on her lips before she can reach me. She let's out a sigh of defeat and rushes out of the classroom. A few seconds after Emily exits Aria enters, holding a large cup of coffee.
"Wow there, that's the messiest I've seen your desk Miss Perfection. Bit stressed?" she jokes as she hands me the coffee. I thank her before taking a sip. I look down at my desk and see the papers have been slightly messed up, the ones where my butt would have been are scrunched up at the bottom. I lightly blush at the memory before answering.
"Just finished up marking actually. No more marking for at least a week." I throw a little celebratory fist pump into the air and she laughs. I slide my papers into a pile and put them in my top draw.
"Hannah has this session free too, want to come grab lunch with us?" she asks before taking a sip of her coffee
"Sure thing." I grab my handbag and follow Aria out.
We meet up with Hanna in the halls before heading to Aria's car. My mind flashes back to Emily and her confession. She likes me, and I like her. It's all out in the open now. Well, not quite. It's time I discuss this with the girls before it gets too far.
"Um Guys, there's something I need to tell you about." I say almost inaudibly, but they still manage to hear me. They both look up from their meals, giving me little nods to tell me to continue. My palms start to sweat like crazy and I feel nauseous. You need to do this Spence, pull yourself together. I look around to see most of the tables around us are full, a couple of them other teachers from rosewood high.
"Um, maybe not here. Come over to my house tonight after school?" I offer, taking another forkful of my Caesar salad. They both agree and continue with their meals.
It's Five in the afternoon when I hear them knock.
This is it. Time to lose my best friends.
I let them In shortly after they knock, greeting them before offering them a drink. We all settle on a glass of wine each and take a seat in my living room. There's a few minutes of small talk before Hanna cuts to the chase.
"Alright Spence, what did you want to talk about?" my hands begin to sweat once more the nauseous feeling returning full force. Alright, here goes nothing.
"Emily and I are seeing each other." I blurt it out as quickly as I can, wincing at the end as if waiting for them to hit me. There's a few seconds of silence before Aria clicks in to what I've just said.
"you're what?! Spencer Hastings! How-wha-when did this start happening?!" Aria shouts, pulling me by the shoulders and shaking me a little bit. Hanna is still sitting there it utter shock, trying to take it in.
"A bit over a week ago." I answer slowly, trying not to anger Aria any more. Hanna raises a questioning eyebrow.
"wait, what do you mean by 'seeing each other'?" she finishes her enquiry with a cheesy wiggle of her eyebrows. Aria scowls at her before returning her attention to me. I audibly gulp, a bead of sweat running down the side of my face.
"well, it's um, exactly what you think it means Hanna." Aria might as well spontaneously combust right then, Hanna on the other hand merely chuckles at Aria's angry face.
"She any good in bed?" Hanna asks, making Aria slap her arm.
"ouch, it was just a joke, geez, calm down." Aria slaps her again before shaking me by my shoulders.
"How could you do this after you specifically told me you wouldn't!?" Before I can answer Hanna cuts in.
"Because Emily is smokin' hot Aria, why else would she do it?" Aria smacks her for the third time.
"Shut up Hanna!"
"Ok, it did actually start out like that but I genuinely like her Aria and she just told me today how much she likes me too; and if you really must know Hanna yes, she is the best I've ever had in bed." I answer truthfully, hoping Aria will at least stop shaking my shoulders.
"Knew it!"
"Hanna!" Aria shouts.
"Sorry." Hanna raises her hands in defeat. Aria finally let's go of my shoulders and moves back to her side of the couch.
"How many times?" Aria asks quietly. I blush profusely, avoiding eye contact with her.
"Four times." Aria let's out a little gasp.
"you've only been seeing each other for like a week! How even! I can see what you mean by really good in bed." Hanna cuts in, making me chuckle.
"This isn't a laughing matter guys. This is serious. Spence, what were you thinking?" She asks.
"I honestly can't answer that because I wasn't thinking. Of course it started with an attraction but after that I genuinely started to like her: the cute little pout she does when she doesn't get what she wants, her pefect smile and adorable laugh, not to mention that sexy smirk of hers that could probably persuade me to do anything. I don't know why this has happened but I'm glad it did. You guys are the only ones I've told. I'm trusting you with this, but I'm also asking for acceptance. I hope you understand." there's a small moment of silence where I hold my breath, awaiting their response. Hanna is the first to speak.
"I know this is a totally messed up situation, but if she makes you happy then I'm happy for you Spence. I just hope it all works out for the both of you." she comes over and gives me a hug, I whisper a thank you before parting from her. We both turn to Aria waiting for her to rip me apart. Instead she slides over and hugs me as well.
"you're an absolute idiot and I'm still angry at you but, I do agree with Hanna. If she makes you happy, then we're just gonna have to deal with it, aren't we?" she says jokingly.
Well, this went a lot better than expected. I pull them both in for another Hug.
"I love you guys so much!"
"we love you too Spence.":
Ok. There's no point apologising because I do it every chapter cus I'm a lazy little shit. I'm not gonna promise anything but I really do want to finish this story and I will try my best to get chapters out as fast as I can. If anyone is still interested in this story, thank you for being incredibly patient. I appreciate it greatly. I hope you enjoyed this chapter