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Chapter 13: Decision

I felt my heart drop to my feet. His tousled brown hair covered his coal black eyes, his teeth glinted through the darkness. His clothes were dirty and ragged; they were the same clothes he had worn when he said goodbye.

'Edward?' his name barely a whisper against the air. His lips pulled into a crooked grin that i used to love - but I love no more...

I heard the sound of a plate crashing from inside the house.

I couldn't breathe.

My lungs seized up, the pit of my stomach erupted, my hands began to shake. I was going to faint.

Two cool reassuring hands wrapped around my waist. Edward's unreadable eyes broke off to meet Carlisle's.

'Carlisle, I came to apologise,' he announced, I soon realised that everyone was in the hallway behind me.

'Bella,' he said again. I could detect the demand in his voice as he held his arms out towards me. I unlocked Carlisle's safe haven hands from around my waist and took two measured steps toward Edward. He clutched me and locked me up tight against his cold chest. It was uncomfortable. I felt him pull a strand of my hair and inhale deeply.

'Edward,' Carlisle warned, taking a step forward. I felt Edward stiffen against me, 'I just think it would be safer for Bella if you weren't thirsty,' I wondered why the air was so still, why the Cullen's were not welcoming back Edward with open arms. I twisted slightly and caught Rosalie's eye, she glared out at Edward from her blonde locks and I remembered her words,

'Seeing you walk into his arms like that -- it just seems unnatural,'

I could not move, I jerked awkwardly when he placed his lips against my neck.

'Edward please,' Carlisle pleaded quietly. Edward took a shakey breath then released me. He glared at Carlisle before disappearing and leaving us in silence.

The only noise that could be heardwas a choking sound, a whimpering that broke through the silence. It was me. Alice pulled me back into the house, mumuring words of comfort that I could not distinguish.

We stood around the kitchen, a frozen party. My mind was reeling, Edward was here. His fingers had a clasp around my heart, ready to break me. My eyes began to burn and my chest was screaming. I wanted to be away from those concerned golden eyes - I hated this constant attention around me,

'I think I need to use the bathroom,' I muttered, lurching towards the staircase. No-one stopped me, they had all turned to statues of great pain. As I staggered up the step; clutching desperately to the banister, I heard Alice whispering,

'I didn't see this,'

The bathroom was perfect, with full facilities even though it was a home to vampires. I wanted to take a moment to bask in the wonder of it but my knees buckled and scraped against the floor. The sobs ripped my throat, the hole in my stomach was tearing in two; strand by strand I fell apart. Not even my own hands could hold me together.

'Unnatural,' Rosalie's words chanted in my head.

A light tap at the door caught my attention. I placed my hand over my mouth to muffle my sobs. The door opened and revealed Carlisle in the doorway. His eyes brimmed with concern when he saw me on the floor.

'Please Carlisle. Just leave me,' I choked, burying my head into my hands and pulling my knees up. I did not want him to see me like this, I could waiy till he left me to calm myself down.

The door closed and the lock clicked loudly. My head shot up to see Carlisle's heartbreaking face just inches from mine. Ever so carefully he placed his hand under my chin and with his other hand he brushed his fingers across my face, wiping away my tears.

'Please don't cry,' he begged softly,' you don't understand how much it hurts me to see you like this. I want to help.' his golden eyes sparkled even in the dim lights of the bathroom. I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing, slowly in and out to match his. His hands were still holding my face, I leant into them, his soft fingers still stroking my cheek,

'I love you Isabella Swan,' he whispered to me. I felt his lips press against mine softly. His tongue caressed my lips as he pulled me toward him. Every move was a gentle as the next. I could feel every part of me wanting him. He was the one. I did not want this heartache anymore, I just wanted him.

My eyes parted to see him kneeling infront of me,

'I would do anything for you,' he insisted, 'all I want is for you to be happy. If you wanted him, you could leave with him if you wanted,' My lips opened in shock to what he was offering, but it was too late. I pushed myself towards him, kissing his lips as feircely as I could to make the point,

'Carlisle, I want you, I always want you,' I whispered between kisses. His hands slipped around my waist, holding me against him. His kissed me back with much more intensity than before. When he finally let me breathe, he held me close. My mind resolved,

'I've made my decision,'

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