Chapter Thirteen

Jacob's Point of View

I was sat in Emily and Sam's front room staring at the TV. Around me were the whole pack, but Seth. The show we were watching wasn't anything interesting, and I couldn't concentrate on it. Well, actually I haven't been able to concentrate on anything since Zara left me. I sigh, and change my position on the sofa.

My mind wondered to Zara, I could remember her amazing beauty. I can see her in my mind now, her long, straight blonde hair swaying in the breeze, as she looked up at me with those amazingly bright green eyes. I catch my breath as I remember her, I can't believe she was mine once, I should have known she would leave. I could have stopped her.

I feel a throb in my heart and my pain breaks through the mental barrier that I was trying to build up to block it. I was overwhelmed with grief and depression but didn't want to shake it away; it's the only thing I have left now that links me to her. I feel my face involuntarily change expression, and I can feel the eyes of the pack on me, but I wouldn't look back at them. Every time I look at them, all I can see is their sympathy, and I don't want it. I only want her. The only person who can even begin to relate to me right now is Seth. He had become so close with Zara over the last however many months, and he was feeling almost as much pain as I was over her disappearance. We call it 'disappearance' because no one has any idea of where she went. We tried convincing the Cullen's to tell us, and her parents but both said that seeing as she hadn't told us where she was going, they shouldn't either.

I pull myself back into reality as Seth walked through the door. I push my feelings aside and move over so he can take a seat but he doesn't sit. He just stands there, looking overly excited and not saying a word. He has a huge smile painted across his face but it was also clouded with nervousness. We all look over to him, as he stands there, not sure of what to do with himself.

"I… uh… I… I know where Zara is." He said. The whole room went quiet as we all stared at Seth in disbelief. "I know you told me not to ring her Sam, but I couldn't help it, Jake needs her, it's the only way he's gonna stop being so stupid." I wanted to growl at him but I knew this was nothing but the truth.

All eyes shifted to me, but I had nothing but blank all over my face. I didn't know how to respond.

"What did she say?" Jared asked Seth, sounding really interested. "Where is she?"

"That's the shocker, she really did leave the country. She's in Thasos, Greece, with her family."

"What else did she say?" Embry asked him.

"Well she said she's not coming back yet, but she will be soon because of school…"

"And?" Quil questioned him.

"Well… she said that she still loves you Jake…" He moved quickly on turning to look at me. "She's convinced that we are all going to hate her and that you're not going to want to talk to her. Ummm… She said she wasn't coming back, so I asked if we can go to her, and she didn't answer but she told me where she was so I'm guessing it's a yes. She told me that all her pain from her depression is gone when she's there and that's why she wants to stay and because she wants her independence back. But she says that in being there she has found another pain and it feels like she has left part of her behind, and she wants it back." He finished.

I didn't know what to say. Part of me was overjoyed and edging to get out of my seat and start running, but part of me was mad because she hadn't rung me to tell me any of this. What was she thinking? I've been in so much pain for all this time and she hadn't even considered me. Seth seemed to know what I was thinking.
"It sounds like she's been really busy," He stated but not saying anything else.

I looked over at Sam who seemed just as unsure about what to do as I was. So Embry jumped in sounding way too excited. "I think we should go to Greece."

"We can't just leave La Push unsupervised." Sam replied heavily.

"The Cullen's would keep an eye out," Quil reminded him.

"Maybe, but do we really want to put everyone's lives in their hands?" Sam asked the others.

"For Jacob, yes." It was Leah who had said this, and I was surprised that she even cared. She always seems so heartless because of the fact the she had been in love with Sam and then Sam had imprinted on Emily and had to leave her.

I wasn't the only person who was surprised by this; everyone had turned to look at her in amazement.

"She was a really good friend to me too." She muttered.

"Since when?" Paul asked bewildered,

"Since a long time ago, just drop it. I think we should go see her." Leah pushed the idea.

I noticed everyone had turned back to look at Sam, but I couldn't take my eyes off of Leah. Since when had she been friends with Zara?

"What do you want to do Jacob?" Sam asked me.

I turned and looked blankly at him, and could see everyone's eyes move to face me. I shrugged. "Whatever you guys want to do. Yeah, I wanna talk to her, but if you don't want to go, I'm fine with that." I said. There was a war going on inside of me, my heart reaching out to her, so badly wanting to go and find her and just be able to hold her again, but my head was telling me she could hurt me again.

Everyone looked back to Sam. He nodded, and said, "I think we should phase so we can watch Seth's memory of the call and then decide."

The pack one by one nodded their heads, Emily and Kim (Jared's imprint) moved out of the room, and one by one the pack stripped off their clothes and phased into the huge wolves that they truly are. We watched Seth's memory of the phone call with Zara. She sounded too lifeless to me; I had never heard her voice sound so empty. It hurt to know she sounded like that, and felt like that, to know she was hurting too. I whimpered a little bit until Sam made his decision. "We'll go to Greece," he said in his Alpha voice, and he sounded sure that going was the right thing to do.