It'd been a week. A week since I'd gotten Nick's letter, a week since I found out the terrible news, and a week since my heart had been shattered. I hadn't replied to Nick's letter yet, though I'd wanted to. I just didn't know what to say? What was I supposed to say to this man I hadn't ever met in person about this whole shitty situation?

Dear Nick, hi! I'm sorry you're in the psych ward...could I join you? Because all I want do right now is die, my heart is smashed. I caught Joe fucking the brains out of a girl who wasn't me...

Because that letter would go oh-so well...not. I didn't know what I was supposed to say, how I was supposed to tell him what I had to say. I stared at the field trip papers our teacher had handed out a few days ago and sighed, Germany. Seeing how I was going, I sort of had to write him back, not to be rude. To be honest, Germany was the only thing that I was looking forward to at the moment. Well, that and graduation, which was three weeks after we got back from the trip. I'd gotten a german language tape so that I could at least try to talk to this dude, hopefully he spoke English as well as he read it, or we were screwed.

Anyways, Joe had cheated on me. I was completely blind sided by it, it was the last thing that I thought would ever happen. He was my rock, my everything, and I thought he was my soul mate. We'd just had a pregnancy scare, for God sakes! How could he do this to me? I had walked in on him in the girls bathroom. The girls' bathroom, of all places to fuck someone who isn't your girlfriend. What a douche bag!

-Flashback-

After the third period bell, Demi and I headed into the bathroom to gossip and take care of our business. As we opened the door, we heard a loud gasp and then a whimper, "faster! Yes! Yes!" The girl moaned and the guy grunted a bit. My stomach dropped as I heard the explicit sounds. Demi covered her mouth trying not to laugh and I just looked down at the floor as if my world was ending. Walking to the stall where the sounds were coming from, I banged on the door as hard as I could with my clenched fist, making Demi jump in horror and confusion.

The door opened a few moments later after I heard fumbling and whining. One of the school's biggest whores walked out of the stall and smirked at me as she fixed her shirt. Joe slowly looked up and cringed when he saw me. Courtney, the girl, giggled and winked at Joe before walking out. For a few moments, I was stalled, I just stared at the brown tiles of the bathroom until my eyes slowly looked up to see my boyfriend, the man I thought only loved me, the man I thought only touched me.

"Mile-" he started as he walked towards me.

Demi gasped and shook her head, blazing fire bolts shined from her eyes as she looked at Joe with disgust. She finally understood why I was so bothered.

I looked into his eyes and slowly nodded as I saw the remorse and guilt, "wow," I exclaimed quietly, my voice breaking, "wow. Just wow."

I bit my lower lip and watched as he slowly took steps towards me. My fist pounded into his chest and my hand slapped its way across his handsome face, leaving a red mark and a hand print. His head whipped to the side and he put his hand up to where mine had left a print. He looked at me again, "I-I'm sor-"

"I don't want to hear it," I growled, "I trusted you! I loved you! I was there for you always! And this is how you repay me?! What? Was I not good enough? Was I a terrible girl friend? Because I thought we had a great relationship. Sure, you know, we've had a few ups and downs, but I thought we loved each other."

"We do," he whispered, "baby, this was the first time. She came onto me an-"

I couldn't help but interrupt him, I didn't want to hear his shitty excuses, "and what?! Your hard dick fell into her vagina? Let me guess, let me guess, wait, Dem, haven't you heard this line, sis? 'I was thinking of you the whole time, baby.' You know what Joe? I told you that if you ever cheated on me, it'd be over immediately, no second chances, no take backs. So guess what? Congrats. You're free, go fuck whoever the hell you want because we're done."

Tears came to both of our eyes as the words escaped my lips. He leaned down and kissed my lips one last time, "I'll always love you," he whispered.

The words just sent odium shivers down my spine. I didn't want to hear that. I didn't want to hear those words fall from his lips ever again. He quickly left the bathroom and I walked to the mirror. Looking at my reflection, I quickly wiped my tears away and fixed my mascara, Demi walked to my side and wrapped her arms around me. I hugged her back and rested my head on her shoulder.

"It'll be okay, sis, you'll see," she whispered as she stroked my hair.

I nodded and pulled away after pulling myself together, "y-yeah, you're right. He's just a boy anyways, right," I asked laughing lightly. My eyes directed themselves toward the mirror again as I placed a smile upon my lips, there's that mask again. I fixed my cheerleading uniform and took her hand, our fingers intertwined and we walked out of the bathroom and to our next class.

Later that night, in our house, with my bedroom door locked, I sobbed as she held me tight. The mask came off and my heart showed it's true emotions, in front of someone. It felt good, even though I was heartbroken. It felt good to cry with someone else who wasn't my stupid ex-boyfriend or my mirror. It felt good to cry in my sister's arms because I knew that whatever happened, no matter what, if we were both breathing, we'd be there for each other.

-End Of Flashback-

People at school had been buzzing about the fact that the "golden couple" had broken up and Courtney wasn't afraid to spill that it was because she had been the source of the trouble. She wasn't afraid to tell people that she'd shown Joe a good time, but she'd made up the part that we'd broken up because she'd given him a better time than I'd ever given him. Joe had been sulking around school a bit, trying his hard to be happy, but he was beating himself up inside and that made me smile a bit. Meanwhile, I had already practiced enough so that I could simply look like I was fine with the whole situation, a smile, though it was fake, hadn't left my face at all during the school days. I was either smiling or laughing. My classmates had gotten used to the fake smile so they couldn't tell I was hurting, they thought I was taking the break up well, better than anyone else would've and all the girls looked up to me for that. When girls had asked me if I was okay, or my guy friends, I'd just laugh and say, "never shed tears for a guy, he isn't worth it". And they'd believe me and go about their business.

Then, I'd come home, do the housework, and walk up to my room where Demi would hold me as I let myself unravel into a depressed mess. The truth was, I didn't know how to get over him. I didn't want to know how to get over him though because this shouldn't have been happening. I should've been happily in love still. I shouldn't of had to change my relationship status on FaceSpace from "in a relationship" to "single". I shouldn't of had to burn my diary, and I shouldn't have a broken heart because the man that I'm in love with shouldn't have done what he did.

Turning my stereo up, I blasted the latest hits and grabbed a pen. Weather I liked it or not, I had to write the letter to Nick, and who knew? Maybe it'd help me to find some closure.

Dear "Nicholas" (AKA My Dork),

I'm hope you're doing better, I'm glad you're getting help, though I wish it had been before you collapsed. Eat, boy! Food is yummy! When I come to Germany, I will bring you some of America's finest foods and you better believe, you're going to scarf them down.

I write this letter with a broken heart. Joe and I are over. I found him having sex with another girl in one of the girls' bathroom in our high school. Although this whole situation sucks, it brought something good. He helped me learn right from wrong, he helped me learn how to love and how to love, and so much more.

My sister and I have been growing closer because of this. From birth, we've always been close, but ever since she tried to commit suicide, we haven't been as close. She's been distant. But now, after coming home from school, tired of holding up my mask, I can run up to my room after finishing the housework and she'll hold me as I release my emotions. It's nice to know that there's someone out there who'll dry my tears and let me. I thought I had to be strong for my sister, little did I know, she could be strong for me too.

I know that I told you my mom came back. Well, not much has changed, we just go about our business as if she'd never left. It disgusts me, but hey, it's not like they're really ever home anyways. I bet they still think I'm dating Joe, and it's been a week since the break up.

I'm praying that you get better and that you'll recover. I can't wait to meet you in Germany in a few weeks!

With love,

Destiny Hope Stewart (Full name. Surprised?)

P.S- I miss your song lyrics

P.P.S - I decided to write lyrics about our friendship this time, otherwise they'd be too depressing

Take me to the docks, there's a ship without a name there

And it is sailing to the middle of the sea
The water there is deeper than anything you've ever seen
Jump right in and swim until you're free

I will remember your face
'Cause I am still in love with that place
But when the stars are the only things we share
Will you be there?

Money came like rain into your hands while you were waiting
For that cold old promise to appear.
People in the churches started singing about their hurts
You said "My God is a good God and He cares"

I will remember your face
'Cause I am still in love with that place
When the stars are the only things we share
Will you be there?

I've got a plan, I've got an atlas in my hands
I'm gonna turn when I listen to the lessons that I've learned
I've got a plan, I've got an atlas in my hands
I'm gonna turn when I listen to the lessons that I've learned

A/N: I don't own the song lyrics, they're from Benjamin Francis Leftwich, a song called "Atlas Hands". if you haven't heard him, you're missing out big time, his CD is probably my favorite at the moment. It's a very different sound, but it's great! Anyways, sorry for the late update, my summer has been ridiculous! Thanks for reading! Review please? :)

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