As soon as Charlotte leaves, i grab my bag and run out of the room, down the stairs and out on to the busy street. I walk quickly, breathing fast as i try to regain some control and try to make sense of what had just happened. It was like a scene from a film, where the bitchy girlfriend bullies the main character and at first no one sees but at the end everyone realises how horrible the girl really is. Somehow, i didn't think that i would get to the happy ending.

I end up waiting at the station for an hour, not knowing where else to go. I get a text from my mum, whilst i wait.

Hey honey, i hope you had a great trip and i can't wait to hear all about it! I hope Dan was a gentleman with you! ;) Miss you so much xxx

I start to tear up as i read it, wishing that i could reply and tell her that it was amazing, but i can't bring myself to lie to her, but neither can i tell her what really happened. A few minutes later and my phone buzzes again, and deep down i know who it is.

Hey, Charlotte told me that you had to leave suddenly? That your train was earlier than you realised. Hope you're okay, would have been good to say goodbye.

I can tell that he is upset that i left so suddenly and i start to feel guilty. I so want to reply and tell him everything, but i'm so scared that Charlotte will read my text first and i don't want to get into anything that could end nasty. So, i turn my phone off and count down the minutes till i can leave and get back to reality.

ONE MONTH LATER

After getting back from London, my life went back to normal, like nothing ever happened. At first my mum kept on questioning me about the trip, wanting to know about Dan and why i wasn't texting him anymore. I even stopped making videos on YouTube, too scared that Charlotte would count that as contacting Dan.

I worked as usual, came home, helped mum with housework, slept and went back to work, nothing was different. Dan had contacted me a few times, wondering if anything had happened, why i wasn't replying. He also texted me to say that the footage we filmed got deleted somehow, it didn't take me long to piece that one together. It was heartbreaking getting messages from Dan and not being able to reply, i got so tempted sometimes to just call him and tell him everything. But i would think about what would happen after, would he even believe me?

It was like all the noise and colour in my life had faded, bit by bit, until i was left with a boring, silent, black and white film. And that was how i thought that my story would end.