Hiccup felt like he was under water, but he wasn't drowning...

/It's so warm.../
/Am... Am I... dead...?/

All he saw was darkness, yet he felt so warm, and safe, but he couldn't move.
'I'm sorry... I'm so... so sorry... please... forgive me...' He heard Jack's voice and felt something warm drip on his face.

/Jack...? Is that you...?/
He tried to open his eyes, but he was so tired, he wanted to keep sleeping...

/Jack... I'm so happy your back... /
'I should have been there... I shouldn't have said those things to you...' he heard his lover sob, and he wanted so badly to comfort him, but he couldn't move...

/No, Jack…! Please... don't cry... it isn't your fault.../ Hiccup begged, his heart couldn't take anymore sorrow from his lover...
He felt Jack's hand on his cheek and he smiled, /Jack... you're so warm.../

Hiccup felt so warm and happy, he knew Jack's gentle touch when he felt it. 'Hiccup... your still my prince... I just wish I could have protected you... like I promised...'
/It wasn't your fault Jack... and your still my guardian.../

/I love you.../

'I have to go now Angel...'
/No Jack! Don't Go!/he screamed not wanting him to leave.

'I'll be back first thing tomorrow... I promise...'
/No! Please Don't Go! Don't Leave!/Hiccup cried trying to force himself to move, to do something!

He opened his eyes and sat up, but that just made him dizzy, he looked around, and Jack wasn't their, /Jack... I-I need... to... see you.../ he ripped the tubes from his arm and tried to walk. He heard muffled sounds all around him, his legs hurt and he felt dizzy, but he didn't care, he just wanted to see Jack again...

A nurse tried to stop him, but he just kept going, "J-Jack... I need to find him..." he muttered looking around, hoping he was still around.

His vision started to get blurry and couldn't feel anything, he still didn't have enough blood, and his body was still dehydrated and malnourished. Before he knew it someone was holding him in they're arms. Hiccup looked up with blurry eyes and smiled, he could clearly see white hair and blue eyes, and the scent in the air... he knew it better then anyone...

/Jack.../

He rested his head on Jack's shoulder as his lover picked him up into his arms, his body was numb, and his ears were ringing, but he didn't care, Jack was there, and thats all that mattered. Everything was peaceful, until a doctor took him out of his lovers embrace, "No!" he shouted thrashing in the man hold, he reached desperately for Jack kicking and screaming,"Jack! Jack!"

Two nurses tried to retrain him, but they only hurt him in the process, "Stop! You're Hurting Him!" Jack shouted when Hiccup cried out as the tried to keep him still and in bed.

Hiccup despite his lack of energy, broke free, but that used up the last of his energy and adrenalin, he fell into Jack's arms when his leg finally gave out, "Hiccup!"

"Jack... my Jack... I'm so happy..." he whispered softly as everything started to go dark, "Your back... I'm... so happy..." tears ran down his face as Jack picked him up and set him in bed.

The nurses connected the tube to his arm, one for blood, one for water, and one for nutrients. Jack stroked his hair back once more, "Goodnight... sweet Prince..." he said kissing his forehead, "Sweet dreams..."

"I think it'd be best for you to stay here, just for tonight..." The nurse said much to his joy.

"Thank you..." Jack replied holding Hiccup's hand.

When she left he took his time to look over Hiccup, and what he saw, made him feel like crying again. He was so thin, he had bags under his eyes, he was just a mess, Jack shook the thoughts from his head, this wasn't the time to start blaming himself again, what good would that do anyway...?

Look where it got Hiccup, if he kept blaming himself, they both might end up dead.

He wasn't sure when, but sometime in the night Jack had fallen asleep, and when he woke up, he felt someone stroke his hair, he opened his eyes and looked up to find Hiccup wide awake and smiling. "Morning Sleepy head..." Hiccup whispered with a chuckle as tears ran down his face.

Jack pulled him into a tight embrace, "You idiot... you really worried me..." he laughed as hot tears streamed down his face. "Don't ever do that again..." he cried into Hiccup's shoulder. "I'm sorry... I just thought... everyone would be better off... if I disappeared..."

The white haired teen pulled away and looked at him, he cupped the green eyed teens face and gently wiped away his tears. "Don't ever think that... do you hear me...? No ones better off without you..."

"You were... thats why you left..." Hiccup whimpered as more tears flowed from his eyes. Jack clinched his eyes shut and pulled Hiccup's face closer and kissed him, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." he whispered when they parted, "I never meant to leave for so long..." Hiccup held Jacks hands keeping them in place.

"Than why did you...? I missed you so much..."

"I know... I know... I'm sorry..." Hiccup held him tightly and cried into his chest, Jack rocked him back and forth in his arms. "... it's ok... it's ok... all that matters... is I'm back... and I'll never leave your side..."

"I wouldn't count on that..." they both stiffened at the sound of the husky voice. Hiccup started to tremble and he clung to Jack's shirt, jack turned to see a very large man with a shaggy bread at the door.

"First Ruffnut sends me a picture of my son kissing another man'\" Hiccup hid further into Jack shirt at the sound of disappointment and anger from his father, shaken like a frightened animal" Then I get a phone call telling me my boy tried to off himself...!"

"And now, he doesn't even have the back bone to look at me..."

Jack stood up and looked the man in the eye,"With all do respect sir... I won't have you talk to Hiccup that way..."

"And who, are you?"

"My name is Jackson Overland Frost, and I'm Hiccup's boyfriend-"

"Not anymore, once he's strong enough, Hiccup is coming home to Berk.…"

"Dad No-!" hiccup cried, "This isn't up for desiccation Hiccup! You are coming home! Its whats best for you!" Stoic barked making his son turned to walk out and Jack tightened his arms around his beloved, "Don't you mean whats best for you...!" Jack shouted at the man. "What did you say...?"

"This is about you being embarrassed of him! Hiccup is old enough to not need your permission on who to be with..." Hiccup looked up at him, "I love Hiccup... and I wont let you take him from me...

I know I messed up... I know he got hurt because of me... because I wasn't there to protect him like I should have been..." Stoic raised his eye brow with interest.

Jack held the back of Hiccups head and kept an arm around shoulder. "But I love him... I want to protect him... from here on out... I'll protect him, and I'll never hurt him again..."

Hiccup held him and rested his chin on his shoulder with a peaceful smile on his face, Stoic let out a sigh, "I believe you..." he said leaving "I know you don't need it... But you have my blessing to be together..." Hiccups eyes widened as he looked at his dad, but Stoick kept walking.

The white haired teen let out a sigh of relieve as he held his lover, the green eyed teen nuzzled into his lover's neck and closed his eyes.

The time in the hospital passed by quickly, Tooth, Bunny, and the others visited him to make sure he wasn't still suicidal, he wasn't of course, but he clung to Jack like they were glued together.

When they finally released him, Jack drove him home to the house, they hadn't really seen Stoick after Jack stood up to him. And Hiccup couldn't help but feel both relieved and sad, he wondered if his dad still cared about him. "Jack...?"

"Yeah snowflake?"

"Do you think my dad still loves me...?"

"Of course he does... never doubt a parent's love for their child..."

Once her parked the car, Jack picked him up and carried him into the house, he sat him down on the couch, but he just wouldn't let go. Hiccup acted like a puppy the whole time, if Jack stood up or tried to leave, the brunette would cling to him and start whimpering. He was just joking around, and even as big as he had gotten, the whole puppy act was adorable, the blue eyes teen pat his head and give him lots of kisses on his cheeks and forehead.

Hiccup hugged Jack's waist as he nuzzled his warm stomach happily, "I love you... I love you so much..." he'd whisper every now again, and Jack would respond the same way. The whole day Hiccup kept cuddling and hugging Jack, not want to part for a moment.

And when it was time to go to sleep, they kept they're arms wrapped tightly around each other.