Hi guys yes im finally back, im not even going to give you guys an excuse. I just suck and have gotten involved in tumblr and fandomsand my senior year. But im glad i finally go this written

here you go, the last installment of this story. I'm not going to lie, im a little sad that it's over.

The butterflies in my stomach increased as I looked up to see…

"Jordon?" I couldn't believe my eyes. No, this couldn't be true. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I'm not giving up, Alexia. I never will." His eyes bore into mine. "You might think you can do this alone, and I bet you can but even so, I want to be here for you when you do it. I've accepted that maybe you don't want to be with me, but I still want to be here. I...I love you, Alexia. You're the only one that I want to be with and you're not going to get rid of me."

My heart almost stopped. Jordon had just told me that he loved me. I was caught again, caught in the struggle between Jordon and my honor.

No.

No no no, this wasn't happening not now. Not when the moon was less than an hour away from being at its zenith. "No. You have to go. Now." I looked up towards the moon.

Jordon suddenly looked surprised, like he knew that his confession was, of course, going to make me change my mind.

"I-I... okay... If that's what you really want." His eyes closed for a second and when they opened they were red, like he was about to cry.

He leaned towards me and gave me a small kiss on the cheek. I couldn't help but lean into it, hoping his lips cold just linger for a little bit longer.

"Bye then. I guess I'll see you tomorrow. Or well, whenever you get back." He said. The hue turned around and walked out of the cave, almost if he was walking out of my entire life.

I wasn't sure how to feel about it. For one he was finally going to let me do what i wanted most, but I just couldn't shake the look he had as he was leaving. I'd never seen Jordon cry,I don't think. I'd known him since i was little and he'd never showed as much emotion as he'd shown the past few weeks. And then he had to go and say he lov-

Pain shot through my body.

It was time. I was finally going to become a true shifter. My excitement increased, as did my heart rate as another unbearable feeling ran through me.I headed out of the cave as well as i could, trying to deter the pain from affecting my shift. The old myth was that with the moonlight washing directly over you, instead of being stuck inside, your instincts could better take over and it would make the first shift easier.

Apparently i was doing well at getting the pain out of my mind, because i couldn't stop think about Jordon. I'd hurt him so much throughout these past few weeks, and all he wanted to do was be nice to me. He just wanted me to be with him and i refused him everything. Why did this boy have to do this to me. Why couldn't he just leave me alone and let me live my life. Things would have been so much easier. I wouldn't be worrying about the fact that doing what i wanted was hurting him. I would just be doing this with no thoughts only instinct.

But maybe the fact that he was there had been making things better. I mean, he was distracting me from the pain that was going through my body.

As I was thinking this, the pain just continued to get worse and worse. It eventually got so bad that I couldn't stand anymore, forced to lay on the ground and stare at the thing that was causing all of this for me. But after enough time, the pain became unbearable. The edges of my vision became all fuzzy, until the sight of the moon was completely gone altogether.

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I'm running through a meadow.

Correction, Jordon and I are running through a meadow. He gives me a wolfy grin, literally, and I notice Jordon is in his wolf form and through further inspection, I realize I am too. The wind rushes through my hair as I dodge trees and jump over branches littering the forest floor. This is it, I'm finally a true shifter, finally a guardian; a protector of my fellow shifters and wilderness.

"Alexia!" Jordon is calling for me.

I notice he'd stopped a while ago. "What?" I ask because he's looking at me weird.

"Alexia!" Jordon just keeps yelling my name.

"Alexia, Alexia, Alexia!"

"Alexia! Alexia!" Jordon was still yelling my name but it mas more muddled this time. Not as clear as it had been a second ago. My eyes were shut though. I cautiously opened them, blinded by bright light of the moon at first. They soon adjust and a figure is standing over me. A red-haired, blue eyed figure.

"Alexia, are you alright?" He asks, concern covering his face.

"Jordon." I say, my cheeks lifting up at the sight of him.

"Oh my god, you're alive! I was afraid..." He drifts off and instead of finishing his sentence his arm wrapped around my body.

His lips touched mine in a sweet embrace.

"You made it." A salty droplet fell across his face. "You survived." He looked astounded, relieved, even amazed. But most of all, I could feel it radiating off of him. Maybe it was the full wolf senses or just intuition, but no one had ever looked at me as proudly as Jordon was at that moment.

Then the realization hits me. I'm alive. I did it. No one has ever made it through the full moon alone.

Nobody but me, that is.

"I...I." Im not sure whether it's raining or if the droplets are coming from my eyes. "I did it."

"Yes, you did."

I glance around for the first time. The grass is tickling my feet. The silky robe is slipping, dangerously close to showing everything. Leaves flutter, shaking from the soft breeze. Everything is pink, slowly turning brighter and brighter. Dust floats through the air and for a moment, I wonder if somebody replaced my corneas with magnifying glasses.

I was still in the clearing.

"How did you know what happened?" I asked. "I thought you left."

"I couldn't do it. I couldn't leave you alone. I had to make sure you would be alright." He admitted and I couldn't help but smile.

"I hid from you so you wouldn't see me." He continued. "I couldn't stand to see you mad at me."

"I could never be mad at you." I shoved my face into his chest, reveling in his overpowering scent, only made better with my newly transformed nose. Why was he so perfect? I didn't deserve him. Why was I the one he picked? Out of all the wonderful people, I had the opportuniy to be his mate.

His mate.

I could be his mate now that had one through my transformation. The thought made me bubble up inside.

"It makes me even happier." He said, his voiced muffled from where it was coming through my hair.

At first i was confused. Had I just said that aloud?

Jordon laughed. "No, you didn't know?"

"Didn't know what?" I asked, confused.

"When you transform, you and your mate can hear each others' thoughts. It's how we communicate with each other in wolf form.

"But I thought that was only when they connect during the full moon?" I pointed out.

"This is the first time this has happened. Nobody could've guessed what it would be like. Maybe it's because I was near you or maybe it's just a thing with true mates." He shrugged.

"Oh yeah. This is a first." I looked up at him. "We are a first." I touched my lips to his a gain and when we parted he was looking into my eyes.

"I love you." I heard him think to himself.

"I love you too." I replied. Totally outloud and for the first time. It felt good to actually say it out loud.

"I love you so so so so much, and I'm so glad you stayed to be with me."

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