"Hey Jadey, I was wondering when-" Cat gasped and covered her mouth with both of her hands in shocked, to find Beck and Jade in bed.
Beck and Jade pulled up the sheets to cover their naked bodies.
"Cat!" Jade yelled at her.
"Sorry, I didn't know you had company."
"Hey Cat," Beck said, waving a hand at Cat.
Cat giggled and said hi back.
Jade stared at Cat, wondering why she was still here. "What do you want?" she demanded.
Cat shook her head, trying to remember why she came in here in the first place. "Oh. That's right! I was wondering when you guys were going to go to Canada."
"Why?"
"Cause I wanted to check out some of the concert halls there, for future performances."
Jade tried to remember the exact date they were going to Canada. She reminded herself of how it got pushed two months back. They were supposed to go to Canada after one month of filming but they moved the latter filming before the Canada filming to make things easier for them. "I think it's already this week," she confessed.
"Kay. Kay. I'm gonna have my manager call yours to book the same flight." She walked out of the room, leaving Jade and Beck with their privacy.
Jade lied back down and pulled the sheet over her head to cover her face.
"What are you doing?" Beck asked her.
Jade took a big exhalation. "Cat's going to give me another one of her lectures after seeing us in bed together."
"Would you remove the sheets so I can see the beautiful girl that I just made love to?"
Jade smiled, but said no.
Beck began to tickle her and she was moving uncontrollably underneath the sheets. "Stop it Beck!"
After a minute of tickling, she realized it was day light and she was naked. Beck could see the cuts on her wrists. She quickly got out of bed, making sure he couldn't see her wrists. She ran to her drawer and grabbed a red button down long sleeve and black slacks with underwear. She walked towards the bathroom in her room.
"Are you gonna shower?" Beck asked, scratching the back of his head.
"Yep."
"Without me?"
"Yep."
"Don't you remember back in high school we used to shower together in the morning after a fun night." He emphasized the word fun.
"Not today. Maybe next time. IF there's a next time," she shut the door and turned on the shower.
Beck got out of bed, and put on his clothes. He walked outside of Jade's room to find Cat.
"Hey Cat?"
Cat was eating a bowl of cereal on the island bar table. "Yeah?"
"Can I shower in your bathroom?" he asked, running a hand through his hair.
"Sure, there's extra towels in the bathroom closet."
"Thanks!" He headed to Cat's bathroom in her bedroom.
"Where's Beck?" Jade asked Cat. She pulled out a chair on the island bar and sat down, across Cat.
"He went to go take a shower in my bathroom," she said, motioning behind her, where her room was. "Why didn't he just take a shower in yours?" She raised an eyebrow, curious.
"Cause I was taking a shower." Jade pulled out her cell phone and started browsing on it.
"Why didn't you guys just shower together?"
"Geez, what's with all these questions?!" Jade raised her voice at Cat. She was being highly defensive, but Cat didn't know why.
"I just asked two questions. Sheesh. Relax!" Cat told her.
Beck came out of the Cat's bathroom, wearing the same clothes he wore yesterday. His hair was still wet and uncombed. That was when Jade thought he was the most attractive. "Hey, I'm gonna go home and change into some new clothes, before I go to work." He motion towards the door.
"Ok. I'll see you at work," Jade waved at him.
He saluted to her and walked out the door.
As soon as the door closed, Cat immediately hit Jade's arm.
"What was that for?" Jade asked, rubbing the spot Cat slapped.
"I cannot believe you slept with him!" Cat exclaimed at Jade.
Jade rolled her eyes. Great, another one of Cat's spiels.
Cat grabbed Jade on her shoulders, and made Jade look at her, directly in her eyes. "Read. My. Lips. Beck. Is. Still. With. Tori!"
Jade shoved Cat's arms, forcing her to take it off of her shoulders. She crossed her arms over her chest and rolled her eyes. "Non-exclusively!" Jade yelled back at Cat.
"And?! He's still with her. How many times do I have to tell you this?! He's still with Tori. Obviously, there's nothing that will change that."
"How do you know?" Jade's brows furrowed.
"I don't know. BUT, do you like being his second option? Does it make you feel good knowing that he claims to love you but in the mean time he's still sleeping with another girl!"
Jade stood up and got out of her seat. She grabbed her bag, and started towards the door.
"Where are you going?"
"I don't need this!" Jade yelled back.
"You didn't eat breakfast!"
"I'll pick up something on the way!" Jade slammed the door. She stormed off to her car as soon as she could.
When she got in her car, she slammed her door, and buried her face in the steering wheel. Tears fell down her eyes. She hated Cat for reminding her of the reality of her situation, but she knew Cat was only doing that because she cared. She knew Cat was right and that someone needed to point it out to her.
She wiped the tears from her face and dug in her bag to find her pair of scissors. She opened it, and gave herself another cut. She stared at the blood coming out, and her eyes filled with tears again. She grabbed a napkin and gently dabbed the blood off. She dug into her bag again and pulled out a big square bandaid. She placed it securely over her wrists.
Beck walked into his apartment and turned on the lights. He walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. He looked at the towel rack and noticed he needed a towel. He turned around and Tori standing there.
"Oh my God, you scared me!" Beck ran a hand through his hair. He never got scared, ever. But for some reason, seeing Tori in his bathroom scared the shit out of him.
"Where have you been?" Tori demanded, crossing her arms over her chest. She leaned her weight onto her left foot and tapped her right foot repeatedly, waiting for an answer.
"I was out."
"Clearly. With who?"
"An old friend."
"What old friend?!"
"Can we not do this right now? I have to shower and get to work."
Tori walked out of the bathroom, letting Beck shower in peace. She waited patiently on Beck's chair.
After he showered, he got dressed, and he dreaded walking over to the living room to face her.
"Hey," he waved at her, cooly.
"Beck?! What is up with you?"
"What do you mean?" he asked, clueless. He took a seat next to her.
She faced him. "Why have you been acting so strangely?"
"How?"
"I don't know. Are you dating someone else?"
"I don't think that's any of your business," Beck told her, getting off the chair.
"Ah-hah! You are! And something's up. 'Cause usually, when I ask you if you're dating someone else, you tell me who it is, without hesitation."
He walked over to the fridge and pulled out a bottle of sparkling water. "You're looking way too much into this."
"Am I? Am I really?" she asked, standing up to walk over to him.
He nodded and took a sip of his water.
"Can we go to dinner tonight?"
Beck knew he couldn't talk himself out of this, especially in the mood she was in right now. Plus, he figured tonight would be perfect for him to call off the non-exclusive dating relationship with her. He wanted to date Jade, and only Jade. He knew he wasn't going to be fair to either one of them if he continued dating them both.
"Alright. Seven?"
Tori nodded and gave him a kiss before he left for work.
Jade worked in her office at her desk. She looked over the scenes they needed to go over in Canada.
She pressed number 1 on her office phone to dial Josh. "Hey Josh, when are we scheduled to go to Canada."
"This friday boss."
Jade looked at the calendar and saw that today was Tuesday. "Can you prepare a draft of the itinerary by tomorrow, and have a final itinerary on Thursday?"
"I'm on it, boss."
Someone knocked on her door. "Thanks Josh." She hung up the phone. "Come in."
The door opened, revealing Beck on the other side. He smiled at her and she smiled back. He held a small box of cereal, a small carton of milk, and a small bowl and spoon in his left arm. He sat down on the chair on the other side of her desk, facing her.
"Hey, pretty girl."
"What are you doing here?"
He picked up the cereal box and held it in the air. "I thought you could use a hearty breakfast."
She raised her right eye brow and smirked. "Cheerios?"
Beck chuckled. "Hey. It's hearty, according to the commercials."
Jade rolled her eyes, but smiled. "It's alright. I already ate."
"When?"
"Ugh, before I came to work. I picked up something to eat." Another lie. It seemed like she was telling lies everyday. Then again, it seemed like everyday someone would ask her to eat. It was hard to skip meals with someone nagging her about eating.
Jade looked at the clock. "Time to work!" She got up her desk and pulled Beck off his chair.
When Jade called it a wrap for the day she walked into her office and checked her phone. She had one voicemail, from Andre.
Hey Jade, it's Andre. I don't mean to spring this on you, but I was going to be in town tonight, and I was wondering if you wanted to get dinner with me tonight. No pressure though, if you're busy. Just let me know.
She called back Andre.
"Hey Andre... Yeah, I got your message. Yeah, I can meet with you tonight, but can we not do dinner? I already ate... Yeah, I know it's only 5PM, but I had a big meal for lunch and I'm still full from it... We can just got out for a drink?... Yeah? Ok. I'll meet you there. See you."
As soon as she hung up the phone, she heard a knock on the door.
"Come in."
Beck walked in and closed the door behind him. "Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I can't hang out tonight but don't be mad I-"
Jade held up one hand to stop him from continuing. "Don't worry, I'm meeting up with Andre tonight."
"He's in town?"
"Yeah, just for tonight though. We're gonna get some drinks."
"You should probably pick up something to eat before you go. You don't wanna drink on an empty stomach."
As soon as the words slipped out of his mouth, Jade replayed the days when she was anorexic years ago, and drank. Each time she drank on an empty stomach, she vomited out acid. Yellow, bubbly acid. It was completely disgusting.
She made a mental note not to drink too much. One beer was fine. She just had to drag it, so Andre wouldn't notice.
"Yeah, I'll pick up something before I go," she lied.
Beck walked over to her to hug her and kiss her head. "Have fun. But not too much fun. I'm gonna miss you. Tell Andre I said hi."
"You going out tonight too?" Cat asked Jade, noticing how dressed up she looked.
Jade wore a black long sleeve tight dress. It accented her coke bottle curves, but also made it clear at how much flatter her stomach looked. Her legs were slimmer.
"Yeah. I'm gonna go get some drinks with Andre tonight," Jade said, pulling down her sleeves, making sure it covered her cuts on her wrists.
"Did you eat already? You don't wanna drink on an empty stomach. We all know what'll happen if you drink on an empty stomach."
Jade rolled her eyes. Another eating check by Cat Valentine. "Don't worry. Beck told me the same thing, so he had a big plate dinner dropped off at work when we finished," Jade lied. "Where are you going?"
Cat wore a pink dress with light pink polk-a-dots. Her hair was in it's signature pony tail and pink stilettos. She was beginning to develop a uniform that she wore every day to almost every event.
"I'm going to dinner with Robbie. Maybe you guys can join us?"
"Robbie's in town too?" Jade asked, dodging Cat's question.
"Yeah. Totally unplanned. Robbie and I didn't even know that Andre was going to be in town."
"Why is Robbie in town?"
"He has a show tomorrow at San Diego, so he decided to stop by and have dinner with me."
"Another date?" Jade asked Cat. Cat giggled. Jade didn't understand Cat and Robbie. They both liked each other. They've been on dates. Yet, they don't want to be boyfriend and girlfriend. It didn't make any sense to Jade. The long distance thing didn't really come in to play with them, since - somehow - they alway manage to see each other at the most random-est times. And they talk and text and email each other twenty-four seven.
Cat giggled. "Yeah," she confessed.
"Have fun."
"You too! But not too much. Be careful. Don't drink too much!" Cat called out to Jade, since Jade was already walking out the door.
"Alright MOM!" Jade called out back to her.
"I missed this..." Tori said, grabbing Beck's hand, and holding it on the table. She smiled at him and he smiled back. She genuinely missed this; going on dates with him like this.
"Me too," he confessed. He too missed this, but not as much as before. For some reason, he felt like the more he spent time with Jade, the less he wanted to spend time with Tori.
"So how's the movie?"
"It's going great. We're going to Canada next week monday."
Tori jaw dropped, stunned. "This is news."
"Sorry. It was supposed to happen two months ago, but they pushed it back. I thought I would be away while you were away."
Tori frowned. "Can I come with?" she asked, hopeful.
"I don't think you can. It's strictly business. I'll be busy the whole time. We won't even get to spend any time together," Beck lied. He wasn't exactly lying though. He knew they had a tight schedule, but he was planning on spending whatever little time he had with Jade.
Tori frowned again. "Ok..."
"Listen, I need to talk to you about something really import-"
"Let's talk about it later," Tori interrupted him. "I wanna go to the ice cream bar," she said, pointing at the ice cream bar that resided on the right side of the restaurant.
Beck stood up and followed her to the ice cream bar, reminding himself to talk about breaking up with Tori later, at the house. It was better that way, he figured. At least she wouldn't have to suffer from public humiliation.
"Hey!" Jade greeted Andre. He opened his arms and gave her a big, tight, hug.
"It's good to see you again."
"So, why are you in town?" She slid into the small booth they stayed in.
Andre slid in, sitting across her. "I needed to pick up a tape at one of the studios here. I had enough time to do get out tonight, so I asked you."
She held up the bottle of beer. "Lucky me."
He clanked his bottle against hers. They both took a gulp. "So how have you been? Cat told me about you and Beck?"
Jade rolled her eyes. "Of course she did. It's... complicated."
"What makes it so complicated?"
Jade went on explaining to Andre her situation. Andre didn't interrupt. He let her speak out every detail and he only said something when she asked for his opinion. She loved talking to Andre about whatever. He always listened. He was a really good listener.
She told him about the pits and peaks of her relationship with Beck so far. Then she asked if she could even call what they have a relationship since he was still with Tori. She mentioned how hurt she was when he ditched her for Tori and how he surely made up for it weeks after.
She told him almost everything. Everything except her visit to Dr. Bristol and her cutting, and eating disorder. She knew he would be upset, just like Cat. She wanted to save herself another lecture.
She made sure to keep him off that trail. She intended to keep her problems to herself.
It's my business. My life. No one else's. She told herself in her head. Those were reasons enough to fight the urge of telling someone.
She had too many cuts and scars to go back to her road of recovery. Her stomach had gotten used to the change of diet. Her stomach didn't growl. The only way she got any protein or energy was coffee, water, and celery. One a week she would drink a jamba juice drink. She figured that was enough to make her say that she wasn't anorexic.
At least I'm still taking in calories from Jamba juice and coffee. She reassured herself. That convinced her that she wasn't completely anorexic. She was smart about it after all. She knew she didn't want anyone on her trail, which meant she had to have enough energy to function normally.
"Can I tell you something?" Cat asked Robbie.
They were eating dinner at a quaint restaurant. Robbie nodded.
"I think Jade's not eating again," Cat confessed. Her voice was soft.
Robbie eyes widened. "What makes you think that?"
"I don't know. She doesn't eat at home anymore. Every time I ask her to join me, she says that she ate out earlier or she was gonna pick up something."
"That doesn't mean she's not eating. She could be telling the truth. Maybe she really is eating out."
Cat pouted. "I don't know... Hey! Can you ask Andre to ask Jade what she ate today?"
"You really wanna be that nosy?"
"It's for her own good!"
To: Andre
From: Robbie
Message: Can you ask Jade what she ate today?
To: Robbie
From: Andre
Message: Why?
To: Andre
From: Robbie
Message: Cat said to ask.
"Did he text back yet?"
Robbie checked his phone. He shook his head. It's been twenty minutes since Robbie texted Andre and Andre still hasn't replied. Cat was getting really worried.
"Hey, are you hungry?" Andre asked Jade.
She shook her head. "Nope. I'm still full from earlier," she patted her stomach, to pretend she was full.
"What did you eat?"
Jade arched her eyebrow. "Why do you wanna know?" she asked, defensive. It wasn't like Andre to ask.
"I was just making some small talk," he said, trying to sound innocent. "If you don't wanna talk about it, then forget it."
She gave a big sigh. "I ate a regular plate of chicken cutlet with two scoops of rice and mac salad on the side. Oh and I have six pieces of gyoza before that."
"Whoa," Andre said, jokingly. They both laughed. He waited a while before replying to Robbie, not wanting Jade to notice.
"I had a blast tonight," Tori said, walking into Beck's apartment.
"Me too." Beck shut the door and followed her to the couch.
She gave him a kiss.
Beck hesitated, but decided to bring it up. "Hey, ugh, I have to talk to you about something..."
"Shoot."
"Ugh, how can I put this?" He ran a hand through his hair and gave a nervous chuckle. "I think we should... end our non-exclusive relationship."
Tori smiled big. "You mean we can be exclusive?!" she cheered.
Beck sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "Ugh, no. Not exactly. Umm, I want to end out dating relationship, non-exclusive and exclusive."
Tori's jaw dropped. "Why?"
Beck thought about how to answer. He tried to phrase the best explanation. "I just think it's best. You want so much more from me, and I can't give it to you. And I care about you, which is why I think it would be best if we just break up, officially. I can bare losing as a girlfriend/dating partner, but I can't bare losing you as a friend."
He thought that was a good solid answer. He was being honest, yet breaking it nicely. He didn't want to hurt her. Yet, tears fell down her cheeks. She opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but she was speechless.
He put his right hand against her cheek and wiped the tears on her cheeks with his thumb. "Don't cry, please. It's better this way."
She shook her head and closed her eyes. "No... Is there someone else?"
He hesitated, thinking about whether or not he should tell her the truth. He sighed before answering. "Yes..."
"Who?" she demanded.
"It's not important."
"Please Beck. Please don't leave me. I need you. I know we've been distant, but I can fix that."
"I don't think you can fix the way I feel now Tori," he told her.
She hugged him tightly. "Please. Don't. I want you. I wanna be with you. Please don't leave. Please..." she pleaded, as she sobbed on his shoulder.
He felt so bad. He wrapped his arms around her. What could he do? He felt so guilty. He didn't want to hurt her.
He released a big exhalation, regretting what he was about to say. "Ok..."
She leaned away from him and stared at him in confusion.
He sighed again. "Just never mind what I said. We can still be together..."
Her frown quickly turned into a smile. She leaned over and gave him another hug and then kisses to follow.
He didn't want this to happen. He wanted to end things with her. But she was so sad. He was a sucker for seeing her sad. He didn't want her to be sad and he didn't want her to cry over him and over this. He knew though, that he would continue to regret this until he finally ends it with Tori... if that ever happens.
"I hate love triangles!" Jade chugged her shot of vodka.
"Whoa, you should probably stop now. That was your fifth shot of vodka and you already drank nine beers."
"Whaaa? No! I was only supposed to drink one," she slurred and giggled. She was drunk, not really conscious of keeping track on how much she was drinking.
"I... lo...looove... Oliver... Beck... O-live-errrr!" she slurred, laughing to herself.
"Alright, let's get you home." He got up and pulled her up from the booth.
"Whaaaa? Nooo! Not yet Andr- Andr- Andy!" She tried to push him off, weakly.
He picked her up from the booth and craddled her into his arms. He fished out the keys from her bag and opened her car. Luckily he took a taxi here, so he didn't have to worry about leaving a car here. He wasn't drunk. He only drank two beers. He was good to drive.
Jade tried to fight him off but she was weak and flimsy. He set her down on the passenger seat and reclined it so she could lay down.
She would slur and murmur some words but it was no use trying to make sense of any of it.
"Oh my Gosh! What happened?!" Cat asked as Andre walked into the loft with Jade cradled like a baby in his arms.
"Hiiiiii!" Jade said, waving at Cat and Robbie.
"How much did she drink?" Robbie asked.
"Five shots of vodka and nine beers."
"Put me down," Jade demanded. She started slapping and hitting Andre.
He set her down gently on her feet. She pushed him away from her. She started to sway a little.
"Maybe you should sit down," Cat suggested.
"I'm fine!" Jade yelled back at Cat. She tried to get a hold of herself, but she couldn't help but feel light headed. She looked at Andre, Cat, and Robbie and gave them a big smile with her eyes half open. "I'm fine."
Before she knew it, she bent over and vomited. It was the worse kind of vomit. It was yellow acid bubbles, because she didn't have any food in her stomach.
"Oh my gosh!" Cat cried.
Jade collapsed onto her knees and continued vomiting on the hard wood floor in front of her. She cried out each time she purged because it hurt so much inside, physically. Her stomach hurt so much. Cat and Andre kneeled down on either side of Jade. Andre held Jade's hair back while Cat patted Jade's back. Robbie went to fetch a plastic bag for Jade to vomit in.
After twenty minutes of vomiting and gaging, Jade stopped. Andre carried Jade to her bedroom and let her sleep. Robbie set a trash can next to her bed and Cat place a bottle of sparkling water and two pills of Emetrol.
They turned off the lights and let Jade sleep in peace. They closed the door slightly.
Cat slapped Andre on the arm. "What the hell happened?!"
"I don't know. She was fine drinking the beers. By her eighth beer she felt a little tipsy. The shots came in after her ninth beer. She took shot after shot."
"But why did she vomit out yellow acid bubbles instead of food?"
Andre shrugged.
Cat slapped him again. "I thought you said she ate."
"That's what she said."
"Then why did she vomit yellow acid?!"
"I don't know. Ask her tomorrow. I gotta go though."
"Me too," Robbie said.
Andre hugged Cat. "Tell her to call me when she can."
Robbie hugged Cat and gave her a small kiss.
Cat went to Jade's room to check on her. Jade was still asleep. She took this opportunity to snatch Jade's phone and call Beck.
She searched for Beck's number and dialed it.
"Hey Beck, it's Cat... Yeah, I just wanted to ask you something... No, nothing's the matter... Yeah, ugh... Did you and Jade eat together today?... Oh... Ok... Thanks Beck... No, nothing's the matter... Don't worry...Thanks again... Bye." She hung up the phone and placed the phone back into Jade's bag.
Cat's jaw literally dropped when Beck confirmed that he and Jade didn't eat together today. Jade lied and Cat couldn't believe it.
Why would she lie? Cat asked herself. She really wanted to know. She made sure to get the truth from Jade as soon as possible.
Will Jade tell Cat the truth?
Will Beck find a way to cut Tori loose?
Will there be chaos on their trip to Canada?
Stay tuned to find out!
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