Chapter 13
Particle eclipse of the heart/ whispers to shadows from the window n empty wind
Heart shattering, to a million pieces standing looking out the window, tears streaming down his face, whispering to the shadows of the empty wind picturing, Derek in his mind, the pain beginning to become, too much to handle for his broken, beyond repair bruised and scarred heart.
Turning around, he looks around his room seeing all the pictures, of happy but dark blossomed, scattered memoires of him and Derek. His fallen angle, now made him into a mountain of tears feeling, the emptiness of midnight with the comfort of no one only his own.
The sorrows of tomorrow, now setting in feeling like death inside, his soul dark like black roses, then thought, to himself 'it's all about the passing game now' now laying, in his bed curled up on his side, smelling Derek's scent on the pillow next to his he pulls, it close to his chest holding it tight inhaling, the other mans scent the tears turn from a mountain of tears to a water fall.
Just trying, to get through this cold, lonely night once again. Finally falling, to sleep with memories of Derek lying, next to him- sleeping through some of night, before waking up in sweat, with a screaming cold heart beat shout, heart pounding and racing, in his chest his mind screaming, 'wake up' the wind whispering, outside his window sounding, like it was whispering his fallen angel's name. sitting up he wipes his weeping eyes, just sitting there for a minute shaking his head thinking ' why is this happening to me why did he do this me' looking at the clock, reading 5:13 am he throws, himself back down on the bed with the feeling of his bladder going to burst, If he didn't get up to use the bathroom .
Getting up heading to the bathroom, he felt the his blood rushing through his body, feeling like something in him changed, without Derek it was nothing but utter hopelessness.
God did he love, and miss, Derek like hell he starts, to wonder is Derek just as torn and frayed, as he is. While walking back to his room the thought hit out of blue ' did Derek find someone else maybe that's why he left him'
The mysterious, unexpected thought, of the midnight affair that Derek might, be having with someone else sent stone cold shivers down his spine, not being able to shake, this feeling of the hidden, mystical kiss of death.
Cold is now the sense, all the thoughts of their blood and kisses, mixing together sent a rage through him, getting dressed he snatched his jeep keys and wallet off the dresser, running down the stairs and outside to his jeep, he jumped in and took off . Peeling wheels, out of the drive way woke john. John gets up walking, over to the window only see Stiles, driving like a maniac, he grabs his phone, pulling up Stiles number hitting the call button, letting it ring, for a few minutes, not getting any answer, but bitched, he then texted his son.
" Stiles what are you doing you need to get back here its pouring down rain and stop driving like a damn maniac you better have your seat belt on"
Stiles glancing at his phone bitching john not in the mood to be getting yelled at he had enough on his abandoned, delirious insomniac, not a lucky charm mind.
Finally, making it to the prison, he pulled up right outside, Derek's window, just watching for his movement, after waiting for a few minutes, he finally sees Derek looking out of his cell window. Derek glancing down, he sees Stiles jeep the thought ran, through his head "why can't he just stay away he don't know the pain he puts me through every time I see him'
Derek walks away, from the window with nowhere, to go but inside his head to his untold thoughts, with rapid knocks ringing through his head, putting him back at square one, where the rope was too short, when came to miss Stiles.
Derek now seeing, the chilling visions of yesterday's tomorrow without Stiles, cold elbows approaching slowly, looking around, him in a place no one wants to be, where everyone was made of glass eyes, and fake heads. The sour breeze, blowing throwing the window making Derek almost sick to his stomach. His wolf crying, through the creaking cracks of his mind saying 'never turn your back on him love him hold him'
Derek can hear the water cashing through his ears, his secret soul, drifting dark to red revenge, the thought of gory plots, on the kid that put him here, tearing him away Stiles running through his head over and over again. All he do is weep, in his own sadness's knowing he did this to himself, he pushed Stiles away, and hated it, all he wanted was love him, and be with him .but no he had to go and be asshole and break it off hurting Stiles once again why does he keep hurting Stiles.
A little while later ,Stiles returns home, walking through the door ,seeing his dad sitting on the couch waiting, for him he said.
"don't bother I don't care anymore just leave it be!"
John gets up walking over to his son and says. "I do care and I told you before and I will tell you again I will not lose the only thing good In my life because of another I guy I understand you love him and want to be with him but I refuse to let something happen to you Stiles the way you pulled out of here was uncalled for!"
Stiles, goes to walk away but john stops him, pulling him by the back of his shirt, turning him around to look him in the eyes and says. "Pull out of here like that again and your gonna be sorry got it!"
Stiles smirks an evil grin, at john and says. "what are you gonna do dad have me put back on the depression medicine put me away or maybe even beat me there's nothing you can do I'm 18?"
John became enraged, with Stiles john step forward towards, Stiles and said.
" You're playing with fire boy you better stop why you're ahead of the game!"
Stiles huffed, and then laughed in his dads face ,not showing any fear of him and said.
" Whatever dad I don't care!"
John backed away, from his son yelled " Stiles!" standing, there looking at his son getting ready to say something when Stiles, cut him off and said.
" What's the worse you could do dad shot me? Go ahead put out of this miser!"
John popped, him in his head and said. " Boy you need to stop talking to me like that I am your father and you will respect me I'm not playing with you!"
Stiles walked away, going to his room, his body red and hot, he stripped of his clothes down to nothing but his boxers, going towards his dresser pulling out a pair of shorts and tank top, pulling them over his body. Looking around his room once again, he decided to take down, and put away any pictures of him and Derek, not wanting the reminder of them every time he was in there, before doing that he turns on his music turning it all the way up , the song that was playing, was kinda how he felt, about Derek right now. Chancing the words, to the song he starts sing and pulling down, all the reminders of Derek.
He's like the wind through my tree
he rides the night next to me
he leads me through moonlight
Only to burn me with the sun
he's taken my heart
But he doesn't know what he's done
Feel his breath on my face
his body close to me
Can't look in him eyes
he's out of my league
Just a fool to believe
I have anything he needs
he's like the wind
I look in the mirror and all I see
Is a young old man with only a dream
Am I just fooling myself that he'll stop the pain
Living without him, I'd go insane
Feel his breath on my face
his body close to me
Can't look in him eyes
he's out of my league
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind
Feel your breath on my face
Your body close to me
Can't look in your eyes
You're out of my league
Just a fool to believe
(Just a fool to believe)
he's like the wind
(Just a fool to believe)
Just a fool to believe
(he's like the wind)
Just a fool to believe
(Just a fool to believe)
he's like the wind
(Just a fool to believe)
Just a fool to believe
he's like the wind
Just a fool
He's like the wind
he's like the wind
Just a fool
he's like the wind
Just a fool
Hours later, Stiles finally had all the pictures down and put away, feeling, his stomach starting to burn, knowing he was hungry he went down stairs and into the kitchen only to see john, Melissa and Scott sitting in there talking, Scott turns and looks to Stiles and says.
"hey man where you been?" Stiles, didn't open his mouth, john tapped Stiles and said.
" Stiles your friend is talking to you!" Stiles, turns and said. " Hey man!" Scott, can see the shattered, look on Stiles face, he stands up and grabs, Stiles by the arm and drags him in the other room, and says.
" Man what's going on with you you look broken?"
Stiles bows his head and says. " Derek left me!"
Scott's mouth, fell open and said." 'I'm sorry man I didn't know!"
Stiles shakes, his head and says. " no one knows I didn't tell anyone don't be sorry! any way why is you and your mom here?"
"Scott lips, curved a smirk and said. " well you dad is finally asking her out on a date!"
That bought, a small smile to Stiles lips, he would love to see his dad happy, again even if it's one date with Melissa.
Stiles stone cold, form broke down back to his old self, sitting on the couch he looks to Scott and says.
" man I been dick to everyone including my dad its been a little over 2 weeks since Derek left me and it's really hitting me hard I just don't get it Scott I love him so much and he acts like he don't even care!"
Scott strolls, towards Stiles and says.
"did you ever think he's taking it just as hard but he can't show his feelings where he is?"
Stiles turned, his head towards Scott, looking his best bud, in the eyes and says.
" I just don't get it man how can he give up so easy and not fight for what he wants!"
Scott shook, his head trying to avoid, this question but had to ask.
"I really hate to ask this and rip open any old wounds but why did he break up with you anyway?"
Stiles, then shook his head, looking to the floor his hands start shaking, his legs trembling, he says.
" I don't really know he said it was because he's no good to me right now with him being locked up and that he's been an asshole to me the whole time he's been there but I think maybe with him being there that he found someone else and maybe he didn't really love me the way he said he does or did!"
Scott didn't utter, another word about Derek, or Stiles or their break up, he just sat there looking at his friend hurt, and scared and looking like sad puppy dog, who lost his owners. Laying, his hand on Stiles, shoulder he says.
" It will all be on in time bud just give it time!"
Stiles nodded his head and then stands and says.
" I think I'm going to make tacos for dinner do you want to stay your mom can stay too?"
Scott nodded and then says. "Yeah ok!"
Both walking boys walking back into the kitchen, Stiles walks over to his dad putting his hand on his shoulder and says.
"dad I know you're talking and everything but I just wanted to tell you I'm sorry about the way I have been acting I don't mean to snap at you it's just with things being bad with Derek I've been in a bad way and hurt!"
John nodded his head and says.
"It's ok I understand I have already forgiven you!"
John then pulls, his son into a hug, loving him as always never turning, his back on him, just then the kitchen door opened, and Julia walked, in looking like hell she says to john.
" hey baby I'm home!"
John raised his eye brows and looked to his son who now stood there with more pissed off look upon his face john then smirked at him then back to Julia and says.
" look I don't know where you been not that I care but after that stunt you pulled on me the other day about Stiles I'm about done with you matter of fact go upstairs and get your stuff and leave please!"
Julia then ,looked at john and huffed, and said.
" baby I didn't mean to offend you or anything I was just making a statement please don't do this!"
John cocked, his head to the side, and looking to Melissa, who was sitting in the chair in front of him, with a glare as to say, I thought you already did this, john then looked back to Julia and said.
"I said I'm done now get your shit and get out I have my family standing in this room and you're not part of it now get out!"
John then turned, to Melissa who was still, seated in front of him, opening his mouth to say something being, cut off by Melissa.
" john what do you mean you have your family in this room?" john then opened his mouth and said.
" I know this is way too soon because we haven't even been on our first date yet but I've been told that you have very strong feeling for me and I know how I feel about you!"
Melissa nodded and then said.
" I have had feeling for you for a while now but I never said anything because you were seeing her!"
John then reached, into his pocket looking, over to Scott then pulling him over to Melissa, then reaching for Stiles, and pulling close to him, he gets down on one knee, and says.
" I never thought I fell this way again for anyone else but this comes to me as a shock Melissa René McCall I love you and have for a long time now would you give me the pleasure to have you as my wife and have Scott as my son will you marry me and take Stiles as your son ?"
Melissa and Scott, both now tears, she turns to look at her son, and said
"Well son what do you think do you want to be part of John's and Stiles family?"
Scott nodded and then said " yes!" Melissa looked back to John and said.
"Yes I will marry you!" john now stands up pulling Melissa and his 2 boys into a hug and says. John then slid, the ring onto Melissa's ring finger.
" I love you all so much!"
Scott and Stiles, both look to their new, mom and dad and asked.
" Well what are we going to do about sleeping arrangements?"
John and Melissa, both laughed john looked to both boys and said.
"Well we fully decked out basement Scott that can be your room and Stiles you keep your room and mom and I will take my room how's that sound"
Scott then piped up and said.
"So dad when do we move in?"
John's lips, curved a smirk getting ,that same old feeling, back that he had the first time, he was ever called a dad and said.
" You can move in now if you like son!"
Stiles looked to Scott and said.
" well brother want to help me make mom and dad dinner?"
Scott throw his arm across Stiles and said. "Sure brother"
Stiles, knew that Melissa could never take the place of his mom, but knew she would want him and his dad to be happy, and if calling Melissa mom made him happy, then she wouldn't mind.
The boys, made john and Melissa, dinner they all sat down and ate, dinner together as a family for the first time- a little while, later after dinner and clean up, they all pitched in going to Melissa's and Scott's house, grabbing all their stuff loading into all the cars, moving them into their house.
After getting everything moved in, and Scott and Melissa, getting settled in they all headed, to bed giving each other, hugs and kisses, and saying their good nights.