The Thirteenth: Nothing to Say
That day. No, that summer. It was very amazing. I got to hear Haruhi say it… in her own way that she loved me! Or…was it just a dream? I didn't know back then and I still don't know. She seemed to be so… not like the Haruhi I knew, nor like the Haruhi I know now.
The day in France right after the day that seemed like a dream was really unbearable for me. The twins, Hunny, and Mori all suspected that either I was sniffing something I shouldn't have(cocaine? What werre they talking about?) and caused me to go crazy, or I made my dear, sweet Haruhi sniff it. Like I would have done such a thing! I told them they were all crazy! But in there was Kyouya, who said nothing, but I think he believed it really happened. Without me or Haruhi doing anything wrong. I thanked Kyouya afterward for that. Haruhi sat there and watched it all, it looked like she wasn't enjoying it one bit. I wasn't, either. So I went to Haruhi after and tried to make her feel better.
"Haruhi! We can go out to the French restaurant which was really good-" I said before Haruhi said
"No." I was crushed. But then I got back up, knowing I could cheer her up.
"How about we go shopping…"
"No." This depressed me even more. I saw the twins laugh, and I saw Kyouya sigh. But then after that, Haruhi and I grabbed our things and we were leaving. I bid my mother goodbye, and we headed off. We were heading to Japan, and then I heard Kyouya tell us on the plane
"We have to stop this trip." I was astonished. I kept asking him why, and what he told me was
"The jet is going to be constantly used by my father, and I contacted the Hitachiin family, the Haninozoka family, and the Morinoduka family, along with the Suoh family and no one had any jets we can use at the moment. So we must do this whenever a jet opens up, which will hopefully be soon. All of you stay in contact with me if there is a jet available for our use." Was what Kyouya said. I cried. Our trip was going to be over! This was bad! This was the way that ALL of us could be able to get together! Mori and Hunny were going to be busy, the twins were going to have a lot of time with Haruhi, and they'll be busy, and Kyouya and I are also going to be busy being third years! I cried and cried and cried. Hunny senpi put his hand on my shoulder and his words, I will never forget.
"Tamaki, don't worry. We are all going to be together in heart." He smiled, and I looked at him "And besides, we can do this next summer if you all can. Mori and I will be available during the summer!" I looked to Mori, who during that talk, walked over to us, and he nodded. I felt so happy! Maybe the club wasn't going to be separated forever after all! I hugged Hunny senpai, and then I smiled at Mori.
"Thank you both." I said. Both of them nodded.
The trip back to Japan seemed long, very long. I wished I could have went back to France again and stayed with mom… but then I would have no Haruhi, which I felt I needed her. I seemed to need her a lot, and every time I leave the school while Haruhi is still there, it makes my heart ache to leave. I'd been needing Haruhi for quite some time then, and I was wondering when, or if, this would ever stop. I thought about Haruhi constantly while on the plane, since Haruhi was sitting next to Hunny then. Hours later I looked out my window and we were heading down on to a runway. I let out a heavy sigh as I put on my seatbelt. We were finally here, and I thought this was a bad thing, indeed. As we left the airport, Hikaru and I had a heated argument on whose limo she's going in to go home. Haruhi recommended that she go and take a taxi instead, but I made sure she didn't. Sure enough, she ended up in my limo and we were driving off.
As the limo driver went to Haruhi's house, I looked at her and tried to ask her a question.
"Haruhi…" Was all I was able to say before my lips decided not to move. She looked at me, turiing her head from the former position of looking out the window.
"Tamaki, if you need to say something, say it." Haruhi told me. My lips wouldn't move. I tried to say something, my lips wouldn't form to say the words. Haruhi then turned the other way. I couldn't say anything, even when she left the limo when we were right in front of her house, all I could do was wave. And this was a horrible thing I could have done, I knew. I started feeling bad, and I started crying, realizing she'd never like an idiot like me, nor would she even want me as a friend. And I felt so sad. And I felt as if I made the worst mistake in my life. And actually, I did. I found that out years later, though. But it was a really sad night for me.
And for all that time, I thought about Haruhi…