'We made it! We're one of the top 50 show choirs in the nation. Tomorrow only ten will move on to showcase what they'll do for the National Championship!' We all bounced around, excited as hell.
'We've so got to win this!' we were all in our costumes, crowded in the main hall.
'Okay, usually I'm pretty causious about getting your hopes up but honestly guys, I think we got a really good shot at winning this thing' Mr Schuester beamed, he then put his hand in the middle of us, making us do the same.
We sat down, ready to watch the other choirs perform, when my stomach started turning again.
'Not again, please' I begged, catching the attention of Sam and Puck.
'Are you okay?' Puck rubbed my back, Sam clenching my hand in his.
'I have to go' I left them abprutly, racing past everyone who was still trying to sit in their seats. The music started just as I left. The vibrations bounced through the empty lobby, and continued into the bathroom.
'Let it all out girl' Mercedes aided me, wrapping my locks into a loose bun.
'I'm sorry' I cried, slumping against the walls.
'It's fine, everyones bound to get nervous or a bit stage sick at least once in their life' I wiped away my tears.
'I'm not it is just nervousness, girls in New York are a lot skinner'
'Ellie, you shouldn't be thinking about that. You are perfect the way you are, please don't try to change it. What would Sam think?' I felt ashamed now, Sam had helped me fix everything.
'He would be disappointed in me. I just want to make myself happy and then I will be able to make everybody else happy' I picked myself up and splashed some water on my face.
'Ellie, come on. Let's get back and you need to talk to Sam about this' My head nodded, and we exited, taking our chairs back in the New Direction's area.
'You okay?' Sam smiled, making me feel even more guilty. I shook my head in random directions. 'What's up?' I took him outside and explained everything to him. He just held me, wrapping his arms securely around my torso.
'I am so sorry Sam, I'm such a disappointment' I cried, ruffling his jet black shirt slightly.
'Hey, hey. Look at me' he lifted my head up by my chin. 'Please stop this, it's just nerves. I'm feeling like I want to throw up at the moment. That's all it is, I want you to stay like this. I love you' he kissed my lips, making me feel warm inside.
'I love you too, thank you for everything'
We were standing backstage, waiting for our cue. Finn and Rachel were first, singing Pretending. A song written by Finn. Obviously a lot had happened between them and they were so overwhelmed that when they finished, they kissed. The audience just responded with silence and Mr Schuester had to encourage them to clap. We quickly joined them, in our right positions
Hey hey hey
You and me keep on dancing in the dark
It's been tearing me apart
Never knowing what we are
Hey hey hey
You and me keep on trying to play it cool
Now it's time to make a move
And that's what I'm gonna do
Lay it all down
Got something to say
Lay it all down
Throw your doubt away
Do or die now
Step on to the plate
Blow the door wide open like up up and away
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
Hey hey hey
You and me turn it up 10, 000 watts
Tell me why we gotta stop
I just wanna let it rock
Hey hey hey
You and me keep on staring at the road
Like we don't know where to go
Step back, let me take control
Lay it all down
Got something to say
Lay it all down
Throw your doubt away
Do or die now
Step on to the plate
Blow the door wide open like up up and away
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
Hey hey hey you
Hey hey hey you
Hey hey hey you
Hey hey hey you you you you you
Lay it all down
Got something to say
Lay it all down
Throw your doubt away
Do or die now
Step on to the plate
Blow the door wide open like up up and away
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
Let's light up the world tonigh-igh-ight
You gotta give up the bark and bi-I-ite
I know that we got the love, alrigh-igh-ight
Come on and ligh-ligh-light it up
Light it up tonight
The crowd were on their feet. I had managed it without throwing up all over the stage, especially with all the dance moves we had. As soon as we did get off, I was in the bathroom. I emerged finding people spread around the gift shop.
'It's over now, you don't have be sick anymore' Mike unexpectedly hugged me tight.
'Thanks Mike. I think I just needed to clear my system. I'm all good now' I gave him a fake grin. He seemed satisfied and left, running up to the board where the top 10 had been revealed.
'We didn't' I heard Mr Shue mutter. We didn't place anything, we hadn't won anything. Silence fell over us, the realisation settling in.