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Just A Thought
I woke up the next again morning to find the sun coming through the semi closed blinds, little by little as it escaped into the room and the beams it was producing ran up the bed, leaving the bed sheets basking in sunlight.
I tried to remember everything that had happened yesterday but the only thing I could really think about was the fact that Edward had left. I felt a pang in my stomach as I thought of this. Rejection easing its way through my body. I didn't know why I felt such rejection by his actions. I had never met him before until yesterday.
It wasn't as if I owned him, or if he belonged to me but I just couldn't help the jealousy that ran through me every time I thought about this Alice girl. I already had her pictured in my head, and I couldn't stop thinking about how 'perfect' they would be together because I knew this girl would be worthy of having him.
She was probably tall. As tall as those runway models on the catwalk, around 5"9, 5"10. Long luscious blonde locks, all natural of course. Sparkling blue eyes like the sky on a breezy summer's day. Voluptuous curves, not fat, but not border on skinny. Just perfect! But not only would she have the great looks she would also have Edward.
She was probably a model, maybe not for the runway but for designers wanting to show off their fashion on a beautiful girl. Probably some big shot earning hundreds of thousands a year. Maybe more! God only knows how much those models get paid these days. Millions if they get the big contracts.
They probably had the perfect little life too. Although nothing would be little about it! A luxury apartment off the side of Central Park, maybe even going as far as some apartment blocks near the Waldorf-Astoria hotel, all worth millions in there own rights. They would be one of those couples who owned those apartments, the ones only few could afford.
All the cars they could need. The trendiest most expensive cars money has to offer. Not any of those rubbish cars. No normal ones. Everything would be bigger and better in their life.
And as I thought about how beautiful and perfect there life would be like, I just couldn't help comparing myself to this Alice character. Picturing her in my mind, I knew I would have nothing on her.
No blonde locks or blue eyes. No curves and no height. No perfect home or car. Not even a job. Absolutely nothing! Not even Edward.
I just lay in my bed for hours, escaping to a fantasyland where I was the pretty blonde girl. The girl with the looks and the talent to go with it and most of all, I had Edward.
I couldn't quite believe the thoughts I was having. It must have been something to do with the whole 'having a crush' situation. Well at least I hoped it had something to do with that. If dreaming about crushes is not normal, well then I have some seriously weird obsession issues.
I kept trying to wake myself out of this whole crush escapade but it just wasn't for moving. It actually horrified me slightly and made me cringe inside when I thought about how rude I had been yesterday. Why couldn't I have just been nice and sweet? Maybe that way he wouldn't have run off so fast.
I wasn't just cringing about the thoughts of how ignorant I had been yesterday. I was more concerned about my dreams last night. Let me tell you this, Edward appeared in them quite a bit.
I knew my face was beetroot by this point, I mean it's not everyday a girl has her first erotic dream. Although I did kind of wish it wasn't in a hospital bed, with a heart beat monitor attached to me. I just hoped none of the nurses were here when it started.
Oh God! What if they were here and my beeper started going off? Would they know what I was dreaming off?
I mean, of course they wouldn't know who it was about but would they know it was that kind of dream?
I don't think I'm going to be able to look them in the eyes.
At least Edward wasn't here anytime last night. Not that he'll be here ever.
Although he did say he was coming back but I wasn't surprised if my rudeness had made him stay clear.
I could have always asked Dr. Cullen if Edward was coming here today, but that would be a bit embarrassing. Especially if Edward didn't want to come back and see me!
Plus I didn't think I could face more rejection than yesterday!
I could just picture Dr. Cullen's face as he looked me in the eye and devastated my dreams and hopes of seeing Edward again. The look in his eyes would be that of pain, knowing he had just killed a young girl's poor little heart.
Okay, well maybe I was exaggerating just a little too much. I don't think it's entirely my fault I'm being way too sensitive and exaggerating too much. I seriously think it's the medication. It really does give you a little kick. Like an energy boost. A little pick me up.
Maybe that's what was making my dreams so erotic and weird. I mean of course I didn't dream about Edward all night, even though he had taken up most of them. I also had some weird dreams as well. Ones that were making me trip and I seriously thought the medication had something to do with it. Maybe I should ask the doctor about this. Or I could ask Edward. Not!
I really needed to think of something else other than Edward, this sort of obsession was just going ten steps to far. I just couldn't help myself, every second there was a blank space in my mind her was there to fill it up.
I was so lost in my reverie that when there was a knock on the door, well I guess you could say I nearly pat my shants!
I sat up a little and fixed my hair. Not that I could do much with it. It was way to long and messy to sort but I liked the idea of pretending to fix my appearance.
However, when I saw who walked in, I had definitely wished that I could change my appearance right then and there!
Review please :) Pat my shants - shat my pants :o Just in case you didn't get it :) Tell me if there are any mistakes again :) It is really appreciated!
Just another thing, it's been brought to my attention that it takes ages to become a surgeon/doctor person so do use think it would be okay if he was sort of learning and those operations he done before, he was just helping with them? Lemme know what you think of that :)
~ Jinx