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Chapter 13

JAZZ POV

As I held in my arms willing her pain away. I didn't completely understand their meaning. At first she was sitting on the little bed and the only things coming from her realization and sight amazement. Both of which I understood. Then her emotions quickly changed to boredom, then to worry. I was so confused. Then just as quickly her emotions changed to sadness and then was quickly replaced by fear. The fear coming from her only grew. Soon enough it was mixed with unbearable sadness. When I turned to look at her she was shaking so hard and crying her eyes out. Without really understanding why I took her in my arms.

Once she stopped crying we laid there together. The situation was so odd and yet so normal that it scared me. After a while I could take it anymore and I pushed her away until I could see her face. When our eyes met I could see the pain in her big brown eyes and that broke my heart. I looked away and said the only thing I could think of.

" I am sorry" I said.

"For what" She asked.

" For the pain" I replied.

" But its not you fault" She said.

" It just kills me to see you hurt like that because of him" I said honestly.

" Oh " She said the embarrassment radiating off of her.

She looked away to hide her face. That I knew was bright red.

" That… That wasn't because of him" She said.

There was a long silence.

" I don't understand " I finally said

She hesitated like she didn't how to continue.

"Tell me maybe I can help" I said.

" Well… I just started thinking that maybe being around me was hard for you. I just thought that it might become to much for you and you might leave me too" she said quietly.
" You were crying because of me" I said shocked.
As the whole world started spinning. It felt like I was loosing everything all over again. I would never leave her. I truly don't think I could.

BPOV

The look in Jaspers eyes when I told him why I was crying was heartbreaking. Then before I could stop it my mouth opened and my heart came out.

" I just need you so much. I just don't think I can do it without you. You saved me when there was nothing left to save. I thought that there was no way I could live through what and I had given up. The I opened my eyes and you were there and somehow that gave me hope. The thought of you leaving me scares me to death" I said and was I instantly ashamed that I had told him the truth. There was along silence and then pulled me into his arms and ran his fingers through my hair.

" don't be ashamed of how you because I understand" He said.

" And first of all don't worry about me leaving you because I wont. Not unless you ask me too. I have been lost for along time. When everything started going wrong. I felt so lost and alone. Never in my existence had I ever felt so alone. Not even in the time that I was with Maria. Even then I had a purpose. But without Alice I had no purpose. I had nothing but when I found you that night. I knew I would do anything to fix you. So I could see you smile again. So you can see that even though I hate to admitted it I need as much as you need me. As for my thirst it is no longer a problem. I have grown stronger in my time with you. My desire to help you is stronger that anything else. Even right now with you like this I have no desire to taste you blood" He said with so much sincerity and compassion. That it brought tears to my eyes.
Whether it was his words or his arms I don't know but in that moment I was at peace. I could have stayed like that forever. But once again it ended too soon.

" I should probably head to town and get some supplies. I've got to fee the human" He said laughingly.

" If I go now I will be back before dark and I can hunt on the way" He added.

" How long will it take you" I asked a little unsure.

"Just a few hours I will be back long before the sun goes down. I will be as quick as possible" He said.

" Ok was all I could say.
Jasper walked to the other end of the cavern and moved a large flat rock. He pulled out what appeared to be a very old duffle bag. Out of the bag he pulled out a couple of old books and handed them to me. I turned them over in my hands. There were both about the civil war.

"I know that they are probably not your type of books but they will help you pass the time" He said sadly.

"You don't be scared no one will find you here. I can even move a rock in front of the entrance if you want" He said

"Ok" was all I could say. Even though I knew it was necessary it didn't make me feel any better.

" Please hurry" I said.

" I will be back before you can even miss me" He said as he walked out of the cavern.

I heard him slide the rock across the opening and I knew he was gone. The comfort of hi presence was gone. It was a eerie feeling.

Authors notes Sorry its been so long but hope you enjoy it.

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