Sorry again guys. I should be updating more, but.. I just don't seem to have the time, what with my computer broken.

I have college now *Cheers* but it means less time for the fanfics *boos* Yet I'm on half term, which means more time. *cheers again.*

Imma start writing chapters on my phone though, then when I can upload them through ma phone and sort them out when I get the computer.

Gomen

x Riaka x

Chapter 9: Her? 彼女の？

This chapter is how Momoi thinks that Riaka could be what Aomine needs.
How she feels bad for not letting Riaka's feelings reach Aomine sooner.
It is also how Riaka feels about Momoi and others girls around her.

She was good. Kind. Short-tempered. But she was Kind and Nice to us all. ~ Momoi talking about Riaka.
Annoying, bubbly, to energetic. But we love her. ~ Aomine and Riaka talking about Momoi.
I should have let those feelings reach him. It would've changed how he is now. Why didn't I? I'm sorry Ri-chan. ~ Momoi (feeling guilty)

~ Momoi's P.o.V ~

She stood there. Staring at us. In a white dress, her black hair, hanging down, and a frown on her face. Her multicoloured eyes, full of sadness. I stood there with the tanned boy, at the front door of her apartment. The girl left the door open, as she walked back into the lounge of her apartment, just to sit down, and pick up the cup of green tea she made herself, frowning, her knees bent in front of her, the cup behind them as it gradually grew closer to her chest, she stared at the telly in front of her, watching the basketball. I looked at her and frowned a bit, whilst Aomine just looked round, as the small kitten climbed out of his jacket, and landed on the ground, just to scratch the couch. I helped it on the couch, and sat down next to the injured girl.

"Ri-chan... Are you... Okay?"

"Do I look... 'Okay' to you? God. Why do people ask that... It's so stupid."

Her gaze turned to mine, the grey and blue orbs, shimmered with sadness and anger, it caused me to move away a little and gulp.

"What... Why are you here?"

"W-well..."

"If it just to see if I was fine. You can go now."

She set the cup on the side and stood up walking around the couch, pushing past the tanned teen and down the hall to the room in her apartment. I knew she didn't like me, she never did, not after the way Kise and myself interrupted her when she was arguing with Aomine about something in middle school. I turned to Aomine as he scratched the back of her neck.

"What happened when you went to visit her...?"

"She was caught... By Kasamatsu."

I sighed as the kitten purred and curled up on the couch, where Riaka once sat, the cream coloured and spotty feline fell asleep quickly. I turned to the blue-haired teen as he sighed, and slipped from the doorway and headed towards the girls room. I felt really guilty, I stopped the female from telling Aomine, just because Kise was upset from figuring that Aomine was the one that the American loved. I stayed in the lounge, and decided to let them talk. I had to stop getting involved, just had to stop interrupting the two. If I didn't, sooner or later Riaka would despise me completely. That means, I would lose a good friend, and she would probably start hating the rest of the group, and leave for America. Kise had informed us about what had happened, and that was the main reason we were here. Even if Kagami had convinced her, she needed to know that we were still here even if we were in different schools.

~Riaka P.o.V~

I looked over at the door and sighed, the boy took that as a come in sigh, and walked into the room. He stood there, closing it behind him, he took the chair from the desk, and sat down opposite the end of my bed, resting his arms on the back rest. My legs hanged over the backboard and sighed, swinging them slightly. I stared at ceiling quietly.

"We were told."

"Kise?" He smirked with a small chuckle as I sighed. "Thought so. That kid can't keep his mouth shut."

"He told the others..."

"Y-you mean...?"

"Yes. He told Atsushi, Akashi, Tetsu, Midorima and us."

"Kagami told Himuro." She sat up and looked at him. "So.. That's why you're both here?"

He stayed quiet as I looked away and climbed over the backboard and stood there, he looked up and leaned back, holding the chair's back rest, stretching his legs out slightly, staring at the ceiling. I stepped closer towards him, as he looked at me.

"Why did you suddenly kiss my forehead yesterday?"

He frowned and looked away, and stopped leaning backed and leaned on the back rest of the chair again. I smirked as his eye twitched slightly, figuring it out myself, I guess he thought I forgot about that action he had done. 'What.. An idiot.' I thought to myself and sighed. He looked at me and blinked.

"Forget it. Whatever reason you did it for, it doesn't matter. It's just going to be a random memory... That soon will be forgotten, like other memories."

"Ria..."

Taking a deep breath, I turned and smiled. He frowned knowing the difference between a real smile and a fake smile, and he knew that I was putting on a fake smile. I always did in these cases when it came to Momoi, specially after what had happened between the years of hanging around her during middle school, the forced breaks between lessons, after school, even during practice.

"Sats-chan is probably bored... You should leave. It's Saturday... I'm sure she doesn't want to spend it here, and knowing the girl, she's forcing you to join her... So you could carry her bags, and decided to stop in here on the way."

"Heh. What about you...?"

"Me...? Oh ya know... The usual... Sitting on the couch watching basketball. Few visits from Kise, he'd come over unannounced. Maybe Kaga and Tets as well.. I'll be fine."

He stood up and walked to the door, as I turned around and looked out of the window, once the door opened, a small 'bye Ria' was muttered by the older kid, and the click of the door being closed. My expression changed, and I frowned again. I really couldn't stand it, ever since the girl interrupted us during that argument in middle school, it's always been a few words exchanged and then one of us just left. No matter how much, we are either arguing or messing around, sometimes like today we stayed quiet, till one talked, had a short conversation, went quiet again, one of us said another thing, and then left. It's stupid, but I cannot be dealing with him or Kise at the moment. Not after how I'm feeling. I need my alone time... Though that's probably why I am like this... Why I have always pushed most of my friends away... It's because I've always been alone, ever since my child hood... Ever since I've been in Japan... Always, and it just scares me.

The front door closed as I sighed, and the other two made their way to the mall within Tokyo, whichever one it was, I stepped out of my room, and walked into the lounge, and sat with the kitten that was fast asleep, deciding to continue watching the basketball I was watching, out of sheer boredom. Sitting on the couch, I wrapped my arms around my knees, pulling them close, burying my head into my knees, as the silence fell, and only commentary from the game could be heard, but even then it grew more silent, as the controller hit the laminate flooring after I had switched the telly off, and choked back on whatever I was feeling and whatever this feeling was, it was hurting way too much, so much that it was angering me, because it was hurting me.

~Riaka's Flashback.~

We were sitting in the resturant. The others were talking about what they were doing after junior high, and I sat there glaring at the kid opposite me. We were arguing over something or nothing, I couldn't remember off the top of my head. I knew this argument had been going on since the end of school, and the others were just ignoring us, but, I didn't want to be arguing. Not with him. 'Why do we constantly argue?!' That's all I was thinking. Momoi had interrupted us, to ask us where we were going for highschool, he was going Touou, it didn't surprise me though. 'Even if he hardly see's his parents, he could get into that place. Oh look, another thing we have in common.' I thought to myself, eveything was silent to me. I was blocking out Kise, after I gave Aomine my sarcastic sentence, I just sighed and stood up.

"I'm going home..." Momoi just looked at me. 'If you could even call it that.' smiling at my own thought I looked up. "Seeya tomorrow."

"Mhm."

They nodded, except one, but they nodded and said bye before I left. About ten minutes after, he stopped me, not far from the old abandoned park and the courts. Dragging me into the park, I dropped my bag and yanked my arm away just to glare at him, he could tell I was angry it was written all over my face, and it scared me, I was scaring myself, because I don't like being angry at my friends.

"WHAT!"

"Why are you so fucking angry! What did I do, to ever make you so annoyed at me!?"

"What did you do... You are so stupid! 'What did I do?' Everything, that's what! You did everything wrong!" I couldn't stop. I needed to calm down... But I just... Couldn't. "The way you just constantly hog the ball during games, or how, you don't talk when we're all walking back! Oh, and when I ask for small one-on-one's or if you just want to hang out, you say no and hang up!"

"Riaka..."

"Just shut up! Thats another thing! You don't let people finish, and you just speak your mind, even if we don't want to hear what you have to say!" I was probably blushing like hell, from embarressment, or anger I don't know, but one thing is for sure, that was the fact that I was crying. "You have no idea, how much it hurts when you do all the things I said. When you ignore my requests. D-daiki! You... You don't know anything!"

"Oi! R-riaka..."

"No. I won't matter now, because even this would probably get lost somewhere, and you'll just do the same thing tomorrow, and the day after that, ect." I buried my head in my hands, as Momoi and Kise soon found us. "I haven't cried this much since I found out I had to leave for Japan, but.. To think. I would cry because of you! Its pathetic."

He went to place a hand on my shoulder as I just slapped it away. Momoi and Kise stood there shocked as he just looked at me I swear he trembled slightly. I don't know, my vision was blurred from the tears, but I was shocked at myself for even slapping his hand away. I heard him scowl and stepped back.

"Don't touch me... All this time... I thought how I felt was the opposite to how it looked.. But... Now I'm not sure..."

I looked at him and clenched my fists. He frowned slightly, as Momoi stepped forward I saw it at the corner of my eye, and that just annoyed me more, why did she have to show up! And off all times. When I look so weak, and act like an actual girl. I let my gaurd down and look at what happened. I couldn't take it moving a few more steps back, I turned back to him, and growled when he went to touch me again, it just resulted to his hand getting slapped away.

"I SAID DON'T! I HATE YOU! DONT EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN!"

That was it, I was running, god knows where, but I was running. It hurt, my chest - no my heart. It hurt my heart, it hurt so much that my heart felt like it was ripping. It was hurting me so flipping much, but... I know... I had probably hurt him more... That's what made the pain in my chest, what made my heart tear so much, that fact that I had hurt him.

The kitten mew'd and pawed at my shaking body, as I sat there crying. 'Of all my memories. It was this one that showed up.' The kitten quickly moved, as I just dropped down and laid on my side crying. The kitten climbed over my arms and licked the tears away, it tickled, but I wouldn't have laughed, in fact I couldn't, I was crying so much that I couldn't even feel the kittens sand-paper like tongue against my wet cheeks, cleaning the tears away from them. Kise and Kasamatsu walked through the door, and stopped hearing the quiet sobs, and mewls, before rushing to the front room seeing me in my terrible state. Kasa soon ran over and knelt down as I opened my eyes I looked at him, trembling. The kitten made its way to the arm of the couch, and jumped into Kise's arms, while Kasamatsu helped me to my room. Once we were in my room, I grabbed the sleeve off his jacket as he turned back round to me.

"What was it...?"

"M-me... T-telling Aomine... I hate him..."

"The time I found you crying outside under the hoop at home..?"

I faintly nodded as he sighed, and knelt down hugging me, and I just hugged back whilst Kise frowned over hearing the problem, and walked back to the front room sitting down, petting the kitten. Kise knew he shouldn't have told everyone about her plan on moving over there again. Though, he didn't want her to leave, well it was obvious, and he knew she had already figured it out... He also knew that she was trying to act oblivious... Trying to stay oblivious of his feelings towards her.

~Momoi's P.o.V~

'Hmm. What's wrong with him. He is acting more differently...'

We walked, he was in front of me, walking like normal, but seemed, a little dazed, to dazed, like he was remembering something. He looked at me from the corner of his eye as I turned away, just for him to stop. His eyes stared at me as I titled my head slightly in confusion before frowning. 'That's what he was thinking about...' Sighing I just nudged his shoulder and continued walking. It was silent, the whole walk was so silent, but that was because we both were upset by Riaka's failed arragements of going to America. We didn't want her to leave, it was the fact that she was going to go, sercretly, and yet Kise knew, and Kise warned us.

'So. He still remembers that argument. Poor lad. She said so much harsh words to him, and that last sentence...'

I looked up at him, again before back at the floor, I just thought to myself, before departing from Aomine, I told him I would pick the bags up later, or just drop them off, thanked him and ran to meet one of my other friends. She stood there outside the cafe that Riaka worked in as I smiled, and waved to her as she waved back. We walked into the cafe, and known her she was going to talk about Aomine. She had a crush, but this time it was different. She was sitting there listening to me, as I just spilled all my troubles out, every single one, just like if it was a banquet of food spreaded out over the table. I just had to let it out, that was how I was feeling right now.

"She is so kind... But... Just by being near him, she either, gets hurt, angry, sad sometimes laughs, but its all just messing around. Yet that day, she wasn't messing around. Riaka meant everything she had said to him, and the way he was after, it changed him a little, but he never showed it. I could see it though." I frowned as she frowned a little as well. "I don't know what to do, I don't even think I can do anything, she hates me. I always interrupted her and Aomine when they were messing around. He is a lonely child, and I... I don't know, seeing him have fun with her it made me happy but, I know she could change him, she changed the others after all."

"Satsu... Have you ever thought of asking Riaka to forgive you...?"

"I have thought about it Miyu, but... Whether she would I don't know. I always seemed to but in at the wrong moments."

"Satsu... You won't know until you try..."

I shook my head, and sighed, my hands sat on the table, clasped together tightly. My knuckles slowly turning white, my eyes tightly shut, as I trembled a little and frowned. "I had ruined the relationship between the two, it was my fault, and she hates me, she would never forgive me... Riaka was a girl who wouldn't forgiv someone so easily." Miyu just set her hands atop of mine as I looked up at her. "She let her guard down. She let Dai-kun in. Everyone in... And... And now look... She hates everyone, she won't even come out of apartment."

"Satsuki... You can't keep blaming yourself for this."

I looked up at her and sighed, it was useless, she would always disagree with whatever I would say, she would always say the positive thing, while I say the negative part. The opposite. Standing up, I let a small smile lace itself onto the my facial expressions, as I waved bye to her and walked out of the cafe. I was going to go and talk to Riaka, I had to sort this out. The conversations between Aomine and her are getting pathetic. Completely silence. That's all it was, and it was so flipping annoying. I was going to sort this out once and for all, and I was going to get Kise to help, it was partially his fault as well. We were going to sort this out before anything happen. Anything dramatic or drastic happened.

Kasamatsu had soon left after calming me down, Kise followed after him, and the kitten was asleep on the couch peacefully, as I laid on my bed staring at the the sky outside of my window, I couldn't sleep. My eyes stung. All that crying. It was just like that time, just like after that argument. Sighing I buried my head into the pillow it was resting on and I just... I just fucking screamed into the comfy piece of funiture. Shaking my head, I lifted it up, and threw the pillow at the wall, as it hit the floor with a small 'thwmp' and just stilled, staying there. I glared at it, hoping it would catch fire, or just return to my hands so I could throw it once more at the wall. I just sat there, knees tucked uner me, sitting on my legs, hands gripping the satin quilt cover between my legs. Staring at the pillow.

'Such an idiot. I'm such an idiot. I'm so fucking sorry. I didn't meant to. Dai... I'm sorry.' Frowning at my own thoughts I sighed. 'I'm sorry Sats. So mean, I'm so mean to everyone, I push you girls away from me, when you're offering me help and advice, then I push the guys away because of something that happened between Daiki and myself.' A deep sigh came from my mouth, as my body just slouched. 'It's my fault, I started all this, that argument, it wasn't Daiki's fault, I just took it out on him, 'cause he was the closest person to me at the time.'

"I'm such a terrible friend."

The five words slipped from my mouth, as I closed my eyes, trembling. I thought the water had ran out. No it hadn't, a few drops landed on the back of my hands, a quiet sniffle, cheeks flustered in embarrassment. Soon the drawn out cry came from me, as I just sat there crying, the tears streaming down my face. It was all because of me. I was the reason the friendship broke away, the reason I'm alone. If I didn't push everyone away, I wouldn't be sitting here crying to myself. "D-daiki..." I sniffled a little, and choked out that one name. "Daiki... I'm s-sorry... It wasn't you..."

I didn't hear the front door open, as I sat there constantly sobbing, sniffling, just full blown out crying. 'It's me... I'm always wrong, I act the opposite of what I feel. I'm sorry, everyone's probably blaming themselves for my mistakes...' Attempting to think, the thought just sentenced itself out through my jumbled up mind, my heart was ripping again. "It's all my fault." I leaned over my arms wrapping themselves around me, as I just coughed, trembling, shaking, crying over and over again. "I made everyone this way, I ruined everything. Its all over now. I don't hate anyone, I don't hate anything. I just lied, I don't know why." The door slowly opened, as I turned my head to see the pink-haired girl standing there, her face was in shock slightly, but mostly sadness.

"S-s-satsuki..." A small chocked out name came from my mouth. "I-i'm sorry..."

"Ri-chan..."

"I never hated y-y-you... I-i'm just so m-m-mean..." Coughing again I looked down at the quilt. "You're all so kind and all I d-do is push y-y-you all away..."

She ran over to me and hugged me, as I trembled and started crying all over again. I am so bad with keeping my feelings in check when i'm alone. Especially when it comes to crying, soon as I start I can't stop, and if someone see's me, I still can't stop crying, no matter how much they try to make me, hugs don't work, stroking my hair and back doesn't, and yet after a while I would go quiet, and I would be sleeping, but that would only last a few hours, probably not even that, maybe half an hour, before I would wake up again.

"Ri-chan... I'm sorry, I should've let you to speak to each other."

"Mmh. I-it's okay... I-i just don't wanna hurt anyones feelings once agian." I mumbled, my arms slowly unraved and wrapped themselves around the girl in front of her. "I hurt him, I hurt him so much... So much that it's hurting me." I chuckled a little, before closing my eyes, as Momoi laid me gently on the bed, before picking up the abused pillow, and placed it under the sleeping teens head. Quietly a few words escaped my mouth, as Sastuki looked and stood there. Speechless.

"D-daiki... Aishiteru..."

Momoi stepped out of the room, closing the door behind her, walking towards the kitchen which soon had the little kittens attention. The small kitten ran towards the kitchen, as Momoi quietly giggles, setting down two plates, one full of cat food and the other with some milk on it. After that she had message her parents that she was staying over at a friends house, and received a message back, giving her permission and also notifying her about the bags Aomine had taken back for her.

Sighing, Momoi went and grabbed a blanket and pillow from the spare room, and walked to the couch. She had fed the cat, made sure to tell her parents where she was so they wouldn't worry about her, and decided to keep an eye on Riaka. They all knew the girl wouldn't be playing in any up coming matches, anytime soon, not after what she has done to her ankle. The kitten on jumped onto the couch and settled itself down on the patch near Satsuki's stomach, falling asleep with the teenager.

Quiet vibrations could be heard from the side of the bed, as I rolled over slightly, opening my eyes somewhat. seeing the screen flash, sighing I just deicided to sit up, but not without letting a small groan of annoyance. Grabbing the annoying device, I flipped the screen up and clicked the answer button just to put it to my ear whilst yawning, waiting for the caller to talk after I had asked my grouchy, annoyed for being woken up question.

"What?"

"Riaka... Kuroishian... Right?"

"Nhn. You got guys ringing me, and then asking if it was me." Pinching the bridge of my nose I sighed. "Who are you and what do you want?"

"Ah well. Its the company your father works with."

"..." Silence. I was not pleased.

"Riaka-san?"

More silence from the one and only me.
Why were they ringing me? My father hates me? What...?
I don't understand... WHY they were ringing me.
They have mother right? RIGHT? WHAT THE FUCK?

"Miss Ria-"

"How did you get this number?" My voice was stern, serious and had ice wrapped around its frozen sounds.

"Y-your fathers files ma'am."

"What do you want?" Harsh.. Maybe, I don't know. I'm annoyed.

"Well you see it's your mother. Miss." There was a gulp that came from the other end. These people knew how much I hated my parents, and when I let that quiet growl loose, the caller on the other end, became worried. "Y-your mother, has been diagnosed with an u-uncurable i-illness."

"..." I was silent a little, to see if the caller was going to say anything else. Though when a second passed and nothing came, I decided to speak. "Like I give a shit."

"Miss Ria-"

Again I cut the caller off. "SHUT UP! Delete this number! Don't bother me again!" I hissed as a small squeal came from the other end. The next lot of words, were double wrapped in ice, harsh as fuck, and dripping with lots and lots of vemon. "Especially about those two worthless, uncaring, ungreatful, scummy american business people, that you call my parents!"

I soon hung up on the caller, as Momoi peeked her head through the door, and looked at me, whilst I sat there clenching the device in my hand, if I clenched any hard, it would probably be crushed. I was beyond pissed off now. 'That stupid fucker... Got his motherfucking workplace to rin me! HIS FUCKING WORK!' I was raging, there was no end to my rage, and I proved there was no end, when I threw my phone at the wall, watching it smash against the wall, and lay on the floor in little pieces.'The TWO who didn't give a fuck about ME! THEY suddenly want MY FUCKING sympathy?!' I could just strangle someone to death, there and then, and not give any care in the world, about getting put in Juvi or whatever they call the place, they send kids under eighteen to, for doing a serious crime. 'Che.' I clicked my tounge before growling venomusly. 'Here's my bloody sympathy so-called mother. YOU so called mother!' I sat there trembling, Momoi watching me secretly.

"I hope you bloody DIE!"

I really was not in the mood for any shit of anyone. Anyone gives me shit, there will be a funeral sometime this week, or next. It was bullshit. I didn't need any arguments, or anything stressful. NOT NOW. "They abandoned me! They didn't really care for me! So why the fuck should I care for them now!" I was seething. I was so bloody pissed off. "They were the ones who sent me away because 'I was too much' or 'I was in the way of work.' ARG!" I screamed and shouted in my room, as my anger would boil over its boundries. "It was always work this, work fucking that. ALWAYS with them. Never once did I hear the two say, 'Here Riaka.' or 'Riaka come give Mama a hug.' NOT EVEN ONCE!" I lifted my knees, sitting there trembling in annoyance, and anger. My arms wrapp around my thighs, with my legs over the top. EVERY SINGLE F-ING TIME! "Even when I was being bullied because of my eyes. It was always. Ever single time! They'd always have an excuse like; 'I don't have time. I need to do this before tomorrow.' It was never, "Don't worry Riaka, your eyees are beautiful.' NOT ONCE!" I just sat there quietly, repeating the same three words over and over and over again, till it was buried deep into mine, and hopefully it will disappear. The words I hate some much, explain, are the words I wanna scream.

"I HATE THEM!"

Looking at the smashed phone, I frowned before hearing the door creak, then... Satsuki's voice? She must have fell asleep. "Ri-Ri-chan?" My gaze rose to the girl, as I smiled, obviously a fake on to cover up my anger. How long had she been there for? Momoi made her way over to my bed, and sat down on the other side to where I was sitting. Her hand reached to cup one of mine. "I-i know this is a s-stupid question... B-but... Are you okay?" Her voice was wavering, she had heard it all. I felt so bad, I didn't want to scare Momoi, but I was so angry at the time, I couldn't hold back my rage.

"Hm. I'm fine. Sorry if I woke you."

I knew she could feel me tremble, she always knew when my mood would change. I picked up the pillow behind me and threw it at the wall. It landed next to the phone, as Momoi turned her gaze to the broken device. I knew what she was going to say. I knew what was next, and I was waiting for this shopaholic to say it. Sadly I wasn't in the mood to go anywhere, other than dream land. "Get dressed!" Here it comes, Momoi's famous words. "We are going shopping... Now!"

I sighed and laid back down. "I'm not up to it today. Sorry Satsu." She frowned, and I just stared at the quilt, I did feel guilty for turning her down, but I just didn't feel like leaving the apartment. "Maybe next time."

"Sure... I mean, I have school... And I have to get Daiki to practice. Well try to at least." She giggled her nervous laugh, before falling quiet. She hated remembering the fact, that the two of them weren't talking, and it irriatated her. "Gomen'ne Ria-chan." I just waved a hand, not bothered by what she had said, until it reached the discriptions of Kuroko and Kagami, then it starts to hurt me inside, though the wave of that hand, was the cue Satsuki knew, meant please leave now, and that is what Satsuki didn't, after telling her bye, and heading out the door.

"Maybe soon Satsu. Then I'll go shopping with you, your friends, and we'll invite Riko as well. I'm sure she wouldn't mind joining us."

I laid back down, pulling the covers right to my chin, and soon fell back alseep, visiting day-dream land once more, as the pink-haired female, made her way to meet up with Aomine, so they could walk to Touou together, since it was the same school that they went to. And even that made Riaka feel a slight tinge of paim. She was jealousy. But they were like family. Riaka wasn't going to get jealous of Momoi and Aomine being together, they were childhood friends after all, and hopefully they still are.